Name: worst alive w/ thornskin by dylan lotus
Duration: 2 min 30 s
Description: thank u @thornskin for making this possible ilysm

prod by stezzyxl 
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lyrics:
cover all my face with hair all over my eyes
i’m not confident, i bet u cannot recognize 
i’m invisible to everybody’s naked eyes
i don’t know what i’m doing here and i don’t know why
and tears fall like the rain in the night sky
her voice lingers in head like a lullaby
i’ll try to get over u when the time is right
but i’m not ready, so i’ll hold onto that goodbye 

i don’t know what i should say
i don’t know what i should do
i gotta reroute 
i gotta avoid that avenue
(x4)

ur a liar from ur heart
should’ve known from the start
(x2)

avenue

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worst alive w/ thornskin

taking pictures of the sunset (prod. cløud)

its not like u to go that distance
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@silversxo
@sagebrsh
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lyrics:
been a little crossed up
it isnt bad at all
i’m fine as long as nobody’s hurt
i think my pride is lost
but i’ll fall an eternity’s worth

don’t have to worry about it
you can’t come back around
i’m making sure i know that now
your precious serotonin
is not my problem now
i’ve got my own to worry bout

find time to bother
i’ll still be here i promise
its not like u to go that distance

if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me

sagebrsh:
I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here
Guess that I was wrong

I'd be lying If I told u
That I won't wait
What's time
If we might be soulmates

my fault if I read too deep
I'm feeling manic

hold me,
would u plz console me
I can't bare to wake without you
So I'm getting no sleep my bed way too lonely
I need you to show me
How to relax, since you been gone I ain't been cozy oh please~

decks:
if i told u that i miss u
i was lying
i’m moving on just fine
its a problem when u come back
i don’t buy it
u gotta try to earn me, love
u gotta try to earn me
(x2)

disaster averted (ft. sagebrsh) [silver]

Out on Spotify
@sinxi <3 
Self Prod 

Lyrics 

If you want to lie, tell me that you lie for me
If you want to cry, tell me something nice to me
Numb these feelings that you never learn to miss
I know feelings turn to shit, in this way that we stay up

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

I need someone in my mind that's going to love me back
I need someone on decline that's going to wait for that
Everything you ever say
You don't need no wedding ring
You change seasons in a day
You look at me you say
Wake up, took the day drugs
Love you till you speak to Satan
Then you break up
Tell me lies longer than acres
will break curse
On this leave your feeling vacant
So vacant, guess I got to leave

(Sinxi)
What you saying to me
Think you better calm it down
I just said I was on my way
Irritated by the words you say
And it ain't going to get any better
I been losing all sense of self
So it doesn't mean you don't recognise me
I been going for way too long
And I know that its so disheartening

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

CURSE (feat. Sinxi)

sad chill - https://youtu.be/H34VCsKB-LU?si=SPS1DPDgo66C6ok3

lyrics ⬇️ (raw vocals)

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
maybe its just my condition keepin me from all my dreams
momma jus trust me if i was addicted i would be flooded with beans
life gettin harder out here but ima keep balancin on the beam
stupid crishendo makin me feel like i dont got nowhere to be
i dont got doors anymore cuz my parents do not trust me
and now i can hear the whole house
& it’s getting harder to sleep

yea but i get it i broke all my vows
never told you what this was about
it comes from the heart i dont gotta shout
just listen to words that come out my mouth

i know your not proud
but what should i do
it tears me apart you look in my eyes and dont got a clue
happy on the outside 
but sufferin in
i always wondered what it feels like on the other side of this

look at me like I failed 
maybe its cuz i did
and mom im sorry that i bailed
i really wish i didn’t
i know you think we feel different
but really often its the same
Ik i need a lot of shiftin
I know i need to feel shame
honestly i got a sickness

never grew up in the trenches
but i was out hoppin the fences 
knew what is bad and 
knew where the best is
its hard to tefrain
Im sorry im tempted
ill never go back i dont feel the same
My life is dependin
i get tbrough pain 
by lookin above
i dont need drugs i just need god
hes riddled with love

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
did i say 16
matterfact meant to say 13
when i was 13 my brother had hand me my first spliff

i Thought it was great i filled up my plate
then it went wrong i sat at the pond 
and hit out the bong 
made a mistake
might be late 
way to late to go on
i wanted to stop i wnated to drop all the feelings i caught
but they all caught ahold of me
“i couldnt do it”- bologna  
you cant just stick to it partially gotta get rid of all of it
gotta make sure its gone
gotta make sure its out
dont need no bong
touchin my mouth

letter to my loved ones (yunnygoldz)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

guitar by me

monsters
inside my walls
they like break me
down
until i crawl
save me
i think i lost
the war between
myself and i
leave me here to rot
i’ll take u back any day
with no second thought 
do u ever feel the same
would u kill for just a day
for us
to meet
once again

walls

prod @prod-oc

// lyrics 
leave me with what to prove
you speak all but the truth
and betray
such a rude display
aha

they crowd around like sheep
but i don’t really sleep
it’s for the weak
and i don’t really care
it’s not that deep no
leave her with a scare
in the wrong season

look me in the face
what’s left to say love
i’ll give them some credit
they should’ve stand down
seems like everybody’s
acting like a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

uh
i don’t fuck with your friends
i’d put that bitch in the grave love
um
keep sticking pins in your hand
you can’t go a day without drugs yuh
say your man’s in a band
i get more streams than he could understand
he doesn’t know what you do with your hands
wrap around me like a rubberband

bring the flame
set the fire
let it burn
i love pain
i love to hurt
baby kick me in the dirt now
say my name
with a passion
i’m the worst
make it heard
by the whole world
let them know
i’m out for blood now

i can feel the tension
cutting tendons up until he dies
i can fill the room up with the bodies
frame a suicide
i can be the geist that haunts your bloodline
every day and night
i can see through your disguise
all the fear inside your eyes

get your money up
get my name out of your mouth
bitch
it’s sorta funny now
all your groupies fuck with my shit
act all buddy love
bet you’re wishing that i had quit
it’s really funny now
you’re on your knees sucking my dick

blood on my hands
wiped on my pants
reload the gun and we’re ready
it’s all in the plan
stay in demand
going up we’re steady
seems like everybody’s
acting a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

scarecrows scattered across the fields
i move swift, i never yield
cover up where my arms bleed
you wont smell the blood on me

so you’ve got perfect aim
but cannot hit me i’m a phantom
promise i’m not worried
bro you’re just a fucking random
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

step out of my way
i swear i’ll turn you to an atom
and no i am not worried
guess you haven’t seen my fandom
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

phantom

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phantom [oc]

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lyrics:
everybody wanna claim that they know but they don't
so i just pay no mind
everybody wanna say they're in love
but they don't have a clue what that's like
i'm just tryna find a way i can cope
take the blade
take the rope
take the dive
everybody wanna say they're alone 
til they are and they know what my life's like

i look in the mirror only feeling i get is disgust
i don't think i'll ever be somebody anyone can trust
i don't think i'll ever find somebody i can love
take another piece of me
i know you're eating me alive
have some decency
god dammit
this isn't how i planned it
tell me something new
tell me i'm being dramatic
i dare you

maybe i
was in the wrong the other time
but i can't decide
if i should go on with my life
or if i should mourn love lost
but i cannot bear that cost
guess that i am scared to fall in love another time
but with you maybe i will have to try
i'm aware that i am a victim of my pride
but with you i feel like i'll never die

i look in the mirror only feeling i get is disgust
i don't think i'll ever be somebody anyone can trust
i don't think i'll ever find somebody i can love
take another piece of me
i know you're eating me alive
have some decency
god dammit
this isn't how i planned it
tell me something new
tell me i'm being dramatic
i dare you

somebody, anybody

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

worst alive w/ thornskin

dylan lotus

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