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It's like I fuckin deserve it
Tryna rid my head of inertia
I don't know how to get rid of this hurt but
When I get out of bed, I'm the worst
I'll never be perfect

Is it worth it
Is my head on straight
Another stormy night
Tryna stay up later than them
I just wanted a friend
Why'd they betray my trust in the end
Cause you're sitting in the
Passenger with your headphones on
In the past tense cause you now hate my songs
When's the last time that you would take my calls
Won't you break my hide and rip my lungs right out

It's so hard to be honest
It's ripping at my conscience
And I still grip at straws it's
Betraying what I wanted

Broke my heart I'm a man on a mission
Till you lost that mark in a moment decision
I don't want a remission until you call back
So I'm drowning myself into the cognac

Is it worth it
Is my head on straight
Another stormy night
Tryna stay up later than them
I just wanted a friend
Why'd they betray my trust in the end
Thunderclouds and the rain
You play my heart like a game
And though I try to evade
I keep on running the race

STORM

bark up the right tree

@sxthsns

LYRICS:
i dont put nothing but my best in 
if you mean that shit best say it with yo chest then
im moving overtime forgot about my best friends
this shit been overdue but im so bad at scheduling
i put requests in to my plug i need my medicine
without it feel like ima die before the better days
i lost my mom aint get to see her shit embarassing
i still suppress all of my thoughts about it every day

23 years old should be in my prime by now i know 
sick of waiting on time time just go
feel like optimus prime when i switch clothes
-if you see me crying on my own
just know im trying to keep afloat
ima end up dying on my own 
the way i strive to be alone
the way i strive to be alone
flauge' packing heat he could send you home
you a opp? dont come in my zone
told ch6po man its been so damn long
i got bustdown fever everywhere i go 
no wonder why i stay indoors
im looking out of the window 
and all i see is time stolen

i took one shot at a ponyboy hope he stay golden
when i come around you feel the rumble but i aint flowdan
i just wanna get rapper rich one day get my wrist flooded
cash out an abundance i been hitting home runs
why these goofies bunting yea i treat the stu like boxing matches
you can see me punch in 
i done spent way too much of my life wondering where the drugs is
so down bad couldnt carve a smile out of my face i aint no pumpkin


im 23 years old should be in my prime by now i know 
sick of waiting on time time just go
feel like optimus prime when i switch clothes
-if you see me crying on my own
just know im trying to keep afloat
ima end up dying on my own 
the way i strive to be alone
the way i strive to be alone
flauge' packing heat he could send you home
you a opp? dont come in my zone
told ch6po man its been so damn long
i got bustdown fever everywhere i go 
no wonder why i stay indoors
im looking out of the window 
and all i see is time stolen

OH MY GOD!!
(2x)
i dont put nothing but my best in 
if you mean that shit best say it with yo chest then
im moving overtime forgot about my best friends
this shit been overdue but im so bad at scheduling
i put requests in to my plug i need my medicine
without it feel like ima die before the better days
i lost my mom aint get to see her shit embarassing
i still suppress all of my thoughts about it every day

bustdown fever pt 2 (sxth sns x swazy*)

lyrics https://genius.com/Wishlane-attempt-to-disagree-lyrics

inspired by
https://soundcloud.com/thatcherblackwood/achromatopsia
https://soundcloud.com/underscores/gunk
https://soundcloud.com/iamnovoamor/seneca

attempt to disagree

~ aulasy ~ 
n. the sadness that there is no way to convey a powerful memory to people who weren't there at the time; driving past your childhood home to show it to a friend, or pointing at a picture of a loved one you lost, only to realize that to them it's just another house, just another face.

prod. by @billy_exclamationpoint
mastered by @alisynn

dolorem obscura

aulasy

~ alexithymia ~
n. a neuropsychological phenomenon expressing important difficulties in identifying and describing the experienced emotions by oneself or others. It also involves emotional issues in terms of social attachment and interpersonal relations. There is no scientific agreement whether this neuropsychological phenomenon is a personality trait, a medical symptom or eventually a mental disorder.

prod. by me and @bdsm2
mastered by @alisynn

alexithymia (outro)

Cease And Assist

OPAL EYES

Track 01 from AOCMP.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Prod: mo$$xx, thms., outset, arys vance, eloen, sasa
Written by: ilias, thms., quip, arys, sasa
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ilias:
~~~~
started out with a prominent piece
of hope stored i wont go
and burn out
this week

i’m holding on cos disparity seems
to seek odds that look like they're favoring peace
i think twice but act first
im tearing the seams

feel what is starting
and hope it calls

thms.:
~~~~~
missin' the attention you gave, okay
move on to the next she got smiling at screens
powdered covered noses, can't stop talking; full steam
shoulda set sail when you were screaming my name

yeah and I'll fill up my page today
you know im in trouble when I just cant pay
and all the attention you want I gave
swear i cant run out of things I want to say

quip:
~~~~
baby got me thinking
how much do i ask of you?
cuz when we link you give me all this fuckin attitude 
much more than friendship
she's nothing if not passionate 
got my attention 
but that's only the half of it 

said she wanna feel it out 
i don't know my intentions 
you're thinking something 
spit it out 
i know she's quite inventive 
she took the words right out my mouth 
reached back 
interception 
im still tryna figure out
is this a curse or a blessing?

arys vance:
~~~~~~~~
yeah
I cant get out of my head
too many emotions going through
got me crawling in bed

you just get me off it
all the games i dont wanna play
covered in red
forgot the price that I paid

oh lord
creeping back in my old ways
so close
i'll fix it all another day

but you got me crying again
got me messing with my thoughts
and im tired of it
im just fed up with 

you

many places have been falling down
the offers gonna go through

guess its not what you need
to calm it down fore' it's falling down again 

until that you see that its true
i got nothing to prove
and I wont know when

thms.:
~~~~~
oh yeah and I'm

missin' the attention you gave, okay
move on to the next she got smiling at screens
powdered covered noses, can't stop talking; full steam
shoulda set sail when you were screaming my name

yeah and I'll fill up my page today
you know im in trouble when I just cant pay
and all the attention you want I gave
swear i cant run out of things I want to say



eloen:
~~~~~
!@#$$%^@$%#^%(*%)(@^)%@*(^*!($%*!_%_^#)^NKAU(#!@)$*!@%

sasa:
~~~~
i left the sleeve 
of my coat 
at your apartment 
last june

the last call 
i made to the winter
now the cold 
reminds me of you.

AOCMP - 01 [mo$$xx, ilias, thms., outset, quip, arys vance, eloen, sasa]

stream https://ffm.to/tttm

production + vocals + mix & master by Maxine Faith Noelle (@mythvalley)

[Intro]
(Hey guys, Chex maniac 9- here to uh... 999 9 thou- and 99)
(To test out a new microphone I just got for my vlogs)
(Hopefully you'll be able to uhh- alot of the- woops- hear in more detail)
(Sorry that's another feature on the microphone..)
(-be able to hear alot of the new features um... uh.. and uh)

[Verse 1]
Tell me why I never fucking get it
It never gets through  My thick fucking skull
(yea... my- my skull. my thick fucking skull dude)
It gets a little bit harder
It gets a little bit harder

I dropped the ball again
No need for ending it
Is it even fucking worth anymore

[Chorus]
Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

[Verse 2]
Take a breath and recollect
Cause I'm not who you wanna talk to
Did something get you on the wrong side of the bed
Check your worth and count your money
I'm not ever gonna call you
Cause it gets a little bit harder
Cause it gets a little bit stuck up

Cause it gets a little bit stuck up
Cause it gets a little bit harder
Cause it gets a little bit stuck up
Cause it gets a little bit harder

[Chorus]
Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

(are you really that dense?)

Ten times too much
You always use me as a crutch
How many times do I gotta tell you its not my fault
One time its enough
Your vices call you and you never know to give it up
Getting rid of all your luck

(It's not really just a bunch of- it's a hall of illusion- woah- okay.. woah- okay)

ten times too much

puke
mix & mastered by ty lorenzo
cover art by Clara Kulmurzina and I


Now I’m puking in the bathroom
I asked “where’d I leave my flask?”
You called me an asshole
I said when the fuck did I ask?

Put me in a K-hole
Anything to leave my skin
Tell you you’re an angel
And you never deserved my shit

We all live in cycles
But what do I know?
When you get off your high horse
Maybe I’ll find you

I’m sorry but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing-
I’m sorry, but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to do with it

I can’t deal with this
You can’t deal with me
Lost our innocence
With drugs at seventeen
I don’t understand
Why you’re still with me, here with me
I can’t take it back
You have nothing to do with it

You told me when I cried you got nervous
I lived my whole damn life behind curtains
I want to see the light and I’m certain
I’m right there
I won’t be nothing like my dad
I made a promise, can’t turn back
He taught me how to be a man
But I’ll do better

We all live in cycles
But what do I know?
When you get off your high horse
Maybe I’ll find you

In the bathroom trying to calm me
Wait, get it off me
I hate the feel of my body
Puking half of my weight
How many times I gotta say god damn it-

I’m sorry but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing-
I’m sorry, but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to do with it

I can’t deal with this
You can’t deal with me
Lost our innocence
With drugs at seventeen
I don’t understand
Why you’re still with me, here with me
I can’t take it back
You have nothing to do with it

alexithymia (outro)

Dylan Longworth

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