Ma fille quand elle avait 20 ans a passé 2 mois en hôpital psychiatrique . Les paroles de la chanson sont le reflet de ce dont elle se souvient et notre ressenti quand on allait la voir . Philippe a su retranscrire en musique toutes les étapes psychologiques par lesquelles elle et nous , ses parents sommes passés. Merci à Thibault pour les passages en anglais qui apportent une intensité incroyable au titre .  
My 20-year-old daughter spent 2 months in a psychiatric hospital. The song's lyrics reflect what she remembers and how we felt when we went to see her. Philippe was able to transcribe into music all the psychological stages she and we, her parents, went through. Thanks to Thibault for the English passages, which bring an incredible intensity to the track.  
Compositeur : Philippe SEGUINARD  Auteur mélodiste : Guillaume DULER   Chant et arrangements couplets anglais : Thibault DERACHE



Lyrics:
I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

Je me sens silence dans ce malaise hanté
Je vis sans présent je n'ai plus d'avant d'après
Ces voix qui me tourmentent
Et me cueillent les fleurs d'un mal
Me poussent dans de lentes
Rondes abyssales

Je suis un fantôme dans un corps naufragé
J'accroche ma raison aux crochets de mes vivants
Les yeux ouverts d'angoisses
Sur l'amour de mes parents
Leur peine qui m'enlace
Me transperce violemment

Mes nuits à errer en habit de papier
Dans des couloirs morts d'ennui à perpétuité
J'ai peur dans ce grand vide
Qui me brûle comme un démon
Comme un trop long suicide
Dépression sans horizon

Des silhouettes blanches ombres en apesanteur
Dansent autour de moi interrogent mes douleurs
Mes mots restent en prison
Dans l'enfer de mes pensées
Mon esprit tourne en rond
Sur une route damnée

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

I feel silence in this haunted malaise
I live without present I have no before or after
These voices that torment me
And pick the flowers of an evil
Push me into slow
Abyssal rounds

I'm a ghost in a shipwrecked body
I hang my reason on the hooks of my living
Eyes open with anguish
On the love of my parents
Their grief embracing me
pierces me violently

My nights wandering in paper clothes
In dead corridors of perpetual boredom
I'm afraid in this great emptiness
That burns me like a demon
Like too long a suicide
Horizonless depression

White silhouettes weightless shadows
Dance around me, question my pain
My words remain in prison
In the hell of my thoughts
My mind spins in circles
On a damned road

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

© Philippe SEGUINARD / Guillaume DULER Juillet 2023
Thibault DERACHE:
https://soundcloud.com/user-313022683?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

M.E..N...T....A.....L     (  Feat Thibault DERACHE ) TRANSLATED

it's gonna rain

First of all to make a call
Click bait yall was out of control
Bushwick bills bullshit detector 
My built AI, designed to be raw.

Old scams supplied it
New spams revived it
C'mon, Fake news couldn't hide. 
Bushwick Bill AI would find it.

Scams online retreat or get beat
You're a bad mutha fucker if you dare to compete 

The AI not anonymous, autonomous it went to town 
Said, I'm a take it, shake it, and break it down.

Cr10vizr destroys scams for you
And have you singing the blues

Ovoid in Vatican passages, immune from tamper damages
Deployed! Large things come in very small packages

Cr10vizr destroys scams for you
And have you singing the blues

Retaliatory Counter strikes, vision gear see in the night
Cr10vizer hid in a place to be in
Asylum state for the take-down, no sounds on rebound

Pelters come in skelters like developers 
They will tell ya

Wonderers do, wonder 'bout you
Will there be new, attempts to get through?
You cannot construe, I had to pursue
To beat the bait with my Kung Fu.

CR10VIZR (Beats by fatcat)

Eyes Crossed On Freedom (Danke Noetic On The Beat)

Cast of characters:

The Beautiful Dark -- @thebeautifuldark -- Carl — Ovation guitar, lead vocals, lyrics, and compostion

Mistermark-- @user-432503709 -- Mark –- VST Chinese gong and VST cello

J.J. Terrell– @j-j-terrell – light VST Latin percussion, synth, and piano

K2 and the Three [and the Four]--@k2andthe3, @k2-kara –Ken -- drums

Entheogenic Psychonaught (Josh Clary)– @josh-clary-1 –Josh – Warwick fretless four-string bass, chant vocals at the end 

TexMex Shaman– @texmex-shaman –Stephen — production, mix, and mastering

 This song is the fourth Carl has written and composed with a member of Eclectic Collective in mind. This time JJ is being honored, and we all agree that he deserves it, too. Carl is a wonderful singer, songwriter, composer, and musician, and we're all grateful that he's joined our collective. 

  Here's what Carl had to say about it. "The music for this was a personal song written to myself which I never really released as I was trying to say goodbye to my own ego in the song. From that point of view I have always seen the piece as a great bit of personal therapy for me. None of the original lyrics survived and JJ gets painted by the new words .. But I thought it would be nice to reuse the composition for this. There was no big reason for it only when I decided to start a 60bpm song for JJ on piano .. I started playing Goodbye Ego and the rest is history..."

  We tackled this song like we would any other, though. Mark was first up on this, adding his VST magic in the form of a Chinese gong, as well as the cello you hear throughout. The subject of our adulation came next, with JJ adding not only his hot, yet minimal Latin percussion and essential piano, but moody synth, as well. Ken added his spicy drums after that, and once they were down, Josh jumped in with his four string fretless bass to complete the rhythm section. Josh also added the vocal chant at the end.

  All that was left was for Stephen to mix it all down for us, which he did in his always pro manner. 

  As stated above, this is a continuation of our songs about us. Hope no one thinks it's arrogant. When Carl presents us with these little treasures, it's hard not to run with them, though. Always a ton of fun to make music together. We hope you enjoy listening to this as much as we enjoyed creating it.


Original lyrics by The Beautiful Dark:

Praying hands
Whatever cause
Once our greater good not lost
Bored children create their fun
We shelve French horn for this fine one
"Nice one lads" We read it all!
Vacation taken
To JJ calls
Neighbour to good Mickey Moore
Find Michigan piano pure

JJ calls
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us

Down the road city of cars
To Howell front deck
Dad and Guitars
We jam that love then tell the world
Love and service human highway knurled
Good bi-product of happiness sought
With Croatian fun to cloud we court

Terrell Terminator in Jungle
Predator for good
Keys like Mr Bungle
Faith in more like we could
He Thanks you
It's lifestyle
Built from a porch
Good collective friend
Keep lighting that torch

Some moments sealed, marked and moulded
Pure intention
Dark blindfolded
Howl from human to Howell good soul
Keyed keystone as collective role

JJ calls
Darkness falls
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
Love lit up
Just for us
JJ calls

JJ calls
Just for us

JJ Calls - Eclectic Collective

me a u

First off, Yes this mix is pretty long!!!  But, nobody says you have to listen to it all in one go, even if someone listens to just a little bit, is better than nothing!
Secondly, apologies for using tracks that I've used a few times already! The truth is, I'm addicted  😹 the tracks in particular are by DJ Mystery and are classed as House bootlegs, I think they are simply Excellent!
As for the title, I got up for work a few days ago, I sleep on my shitty sofa, even though I have a bedroom, and my sofa is only a two seater, both seats are recliners, anyway, as I put down the right side, I saw a big ass spider run from under the table and disappear under the sofa!  I haven't bothered to look for it, but every now and then, I talk out loud, telling it, everything will be okay, as long as it doesn't surprise me! Lol
When I was a small child, my parents thought it would be funny to scare me with a huge rubber spider called Gladdis, lets just say, I never found it funny, and all they really did, was to give me Arachnophobia!
The Bastards!!!!  Seems like I'm getting better though, baring in mind, I live in England, and our biggest native spiders, The House Spider isn't exactly that large compared to a Tarantula 😹🕷🤣
I've always had a keen eye for cloud faces, and this one is a beauty, I snapped it while at work last week!

Big Spider Under My Bed

The Set That Should Not Be - Yet Here We Are // The Complete Insanity

All Originals Instant Insanity Series 2.0
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The Works I Never Wished To Create—Yet My Legacy, I Had To // 
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set you free instant insanity series 2.0 – the hyper media reports

this set is a sonic journey through the chaos and clarity of our times—raw voices caught from the wild internet, woven with original soundscapes to reflect daily insanity, resistance, and hope. it’s a collaboration of dreamers sounding alarms, sharing truths, and carving a legacy that wasn’t wished for but had to be made. dive deep into the hyper media reports—where fiction meets harsh reality, made accessible and real. welcome to the instant insanity series 2.0.

/ 24 reality checks made audible, stranger than fiction. daily insanity, seen or not, wrapped in original music. making it accessible, digestible. plus one encore.

/ a fictionalive side project, august/september 2025

/ all main voices (except track 25) captured in the wild wild internet—the social ones—reflected, arranged, shown some love, mixed, produced and dropped by fictionalive, just for you. but most of all: to give the brave voices who speak out a proper stage—and to do what i can. do the right thing.

/ all music in these works provided by:

/ artists involved in this project, willingly or not: 
garben // that's bizzare // thee i's // almabrother // szalap // junglepunx // modulprinzip // tomas peiretti /+/ f
@garben // @that-bizzare // @thee_i_s_984629522 // @kacper-razdwarazdwa // @modulprinzip @tgpeiretti

(except track 1)
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tracklist:
01 – Flotilla Under Attack - Pray For The Brave Souls // Italy Stand-Still - People Alla Grande!
02 – You Owe Us – Yes, You’ve Heard That Right // Chor Der Kläger
03 – Don’t Wait for Validation – Come Together // Große Inventur
04 – One of the Best-Fed Errors
05 – What Do Freedom Fighters Fight? An Insta Story Madness Well Done
06 – One of 1,300 Israeli Academics Against War Crimes and Crimes Against Humanity
07 – Human Resources Protest – That’s Why I’m Here Today
08 – Single Ultra – VIVA BARCELONA ⭕️🫵🏽🔥*❤️‍🔥 , A 03:03 Free for All
09 – Now, Please Stop Asking Questions — It’s Totally Calorie‑Free
10 – Triple Touch Down // Love Seeds Mix
11 – Tanz Der Aliens – Where Is the FBI?
12 – We Need Veterans — From West Coast to East Coast (“You Don’t Have Our Values”)
13 – We Are All...—If You Do Not Act Accordingly (Fill the Gap, You Know the Words)
14 – Silencing Voices – Complicit (What Happens in 2025) // Allegro Con Acido
15 – “You’re Saying That Children Get Shot by Snipers” — “Definitely!” (How Many Mics?)
16 – Torn Apart, Their Remains Scattered on the Walls
17 – Make Some Noise! // This Is the Movement of Our Time // Maya Inventur Mix
18 – SHIO – Peace Is Not Freedom
19 – Why Do You Think? Who Cares... // Dyin’ Bed Instrumental Mix
20 – About Being Anti – Once You Speak, You’re Accused (Silence Not an Option)
21 – Break Out – Another Bombshell // Instant Insanity Series
22 – Heart Beat for My Friends
23 – People Are Fucking Crazy, Dude
24 – Warrant for ‘War Crimes of Starvation’ Was Issued (8 Months Ago)
25 - Come Closer, Look Deeper, Let Yourself Be Changed and Be Change

additional playlists, shortcut to many singles:
scratches on the screens – the horror we can’t swipe left right //
instant insanity series 001.001.01
https://soundcloud.com/fictionalive/sets/scratches-on-the-screens
In This Darkness We Dream Best - of FREEDOM and JUSTICE
https://soundcloud.com/fictionalive/sets/in-this-darkness-we-dream-best

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artwork photography, image editing by fictionalive

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fusion of it all –
fictionalive with the popoems series and the hyper media reports

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time - 1:49 am central european
hot summer time zone, or is 
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The Set That Should Not Be - Yet Here We Are // All Originals Instant Insanity Series 2.0

Party Get Litty 2

LOCKS (#PROD. Glockiee)

"Merge Conflict" is a concept album documenting the legendary flame wars, beefs, and drama of the Linux Kernel Mailing List (LKML). Each track represents a real incident with actual quotes, commit references, and email thread IDs woven into the lyrics.

The Linux kernel is one of the most important pieces of software ever written. It's also home to one of the most notoriously hostile development environments in open source history - where Linus Torvalds and other maintainers have publicly eviscerated developers, banned contributors, and dropped profanity-laden rants that became internet legend.

NVIDIA

Dynamo-P on YouTube: https://goo.gl/piZymu

Spotify streaming: https://goo.gl/L7RfgF


JKE Music Is the Label.