can't fall asleep
i think i just need to eat
i shouldn't go to bed at 3
i should just brush my teeth
i'm sick of dreams
where i feel seventeen
i can't do anything
like just falling asleep

i know it's bad for me
tomorrow i promise i'll
take better care of myself
but its not easy
its not easy

can't fall asleep
i think i just need to eat
i shouldn't go to bed at 3
i should just brush my teeth
i'm sick of dreams
where i feel seventeen
i can't do anything
like fucking fall asleep

i know it's bad for me
tomorrow i promise i'll
take better care of myself
but its not easy

when nobody's watching i
just stay in my head all night

it's 3am
i gotta wake up again
i gotta fake it pretend
like i'm not still asleep
i'm not falling apart
no jumprope in my heart
my body's gonna give out
on me

i know it's bad for me
this make believe
what's truth for you
are lies for me
so i just want autonomy
and i have to be patient

she'd wake up at
a reasonable hour
maybe take a shower
if i could allow her
she'd make herself a meal
and it tastes fine
spent a minute online
make it to work at 9

but she's probably busy
staring at the ceiling
probably isn't feeling
busy doing nothing
she could be productive
maybe even happy
spending time with her friends
smiling and laughing

it's easier said than done
it's easier said than done

how do i block it out in a way
that's more selfish than this?
i don't think such a method exists

i turned to recluse
and self-diffusion
to solve for answers
with synthetic solutions
and swim down
to lows beneath
all the places
that the light couldn't reach

if you
break through
somehow you reach me
get rid of these leeches
eating love for food
leaving selfish isolationist attitude

i want you around me
so badly, so badly
you're chosen family
you kill the bad things
i don't know what to say

all good people are asleep (feat. saoirse dream)

the music he plays makes me want to drive off of a bridge, it's just not for me i guess

he's driving but i won't stop messing with the radio

https://ffm.to/n2bg7w3

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

it didn't have to be like this
_________________________________
(do you remember me?)

hold it close to you
broken bowed a new
i thought this was life
watch the thread unwind

we were in zion that summer
i was still trying to breathe
watch it corrode the isomers
everything i couldn't keep

all the nights that we spent being young
the copper rocks under our feet
the pastures never felt so wrong
up in flames your favorite evergreen

pull the needle through
laces lorn the center

i promise i wasn't crying
there was just smoke in my eyes
holding you until the morning
i'd fall in and out of the fire
wreathed in hollow ivory
christened collows bedaubing 

and i saw your body covered in roses 
and i started screaming, nobody noticed
the locket you gave me thread intertwined
tearing taut at the seams when it started unwinding 
i fell out the trunk of your dad's four wheel drive 
and we laughed it off when we called it a night
through the laurels and brushweeds we walked side by side
god you were so pretty even when we were crying 
cus' the rust started falling i ran out of time 
watch the world invert into infrared light 
lying lithe on the duff dying embers dissolving 
the smoke in my lungs couldn't stop me from calling your name
but i, (2x)

laurel

Written by Daniel Bernas, CMTEN, and flatroom !!
Additional production done by ssoh

Blood sugar (feat. CMTEN and ssoh)

you look just like her! (demo)

I hope all of my friends
Are happy and healthy in the end
And I won't do anything out of love
If I don't mean it enough

Times that I've had a friend
In a singular sense
It feels boxed in
And I would do anything to share my love
In the same way
With everyone

I'm not stupid
I'm just asunder
'Cause I trust you like a minnow
Swimming aimlessly with one another
And I feel like I can't ever remember
What it's like to let my heart bleed
Out of someone else's mouth for once

Keep that smug look off your face
I'm doctor Smirnoff
Keep my name out of your mouth
But don't ever forget
With the cadence of the contour
That your essence will bend to
I want someone deceitful to listen to

I hope all of my friends
Are happy and healthy in the end
And I won't say anything out of love
If I don't mean it enough

Times that I've had a friend
In a singular sense
It feels boxed in
And I would do anything to share my love
In the same way
With everyone

I'm not stupid
I'm just asunder
'Cause I trust you like a minnow
Swimming aimlessly with one another
And I feel like I can't ever remember
What it's like to let my heart bleed
Out of someone else's mouth for once

Keep that smug look off your face
Keep my name out of your mouth
Ohh, ohh
I want someone deceitful to listen to

Meadowlark

Doctor Smirnoff

Maybe I'll pretend
Maybe I won't
I'm already fixing
For a little dope
I want things to work out
Just as they always have
Work out
'Cause it's all I have

So give me a reason
I know you always do
But I need a better explanation
I know it's not right to wash over me

Don't go take my violin
I need to stay awake
To stop the violence in your brain

Maybe I'll tell you
Maybe I'll lie
Things I feel right now (Things I feel right now)
I'll feel 'til I die (I'll feel 'til I die)
I want you to notice (I want you to notice)
When I need you to
But how could you notice (How could you notice)
What I keep from you?

So give me a reason
I know you always do
But I need a better explanation
'Cause I know it's not fair
To you or to me

Don't go take my violin
I need to stay awake
To stop the violence in your brain

Let me live the memories in your head
Put me in a scene that I could not forget
If you wish to wake before your dream is dead
Let me go
With each of your breaths

And become like lightning on the hill
Or a TV lighting up a motel
Do as you will
And I will do so as well
Ahh

So give me a reason

So give me a reason
(Screaming)
(Reason)

Dope (Fixing)

I wanna be vegetarian
So I can show all my cool new friends
That I can stand for something big
And solid enough to stand on

I wanna be a silver thread
Attached to a thespian's giant head
Who masters the spoons like Willow Smith
So I can amount to something

I wanna say I'm new to this
But I've been played out like a compact disc
Now I think I've got it
Well, mostly the gist
Now it's losing its grip on me

I wanna be a sycophant
So I can wear out all the latest trends
'Til the bandwagon leaves me for dead
In the middle of fucking nowhere

I wanna say I've heard of this
But I've only heard a version of it
I think I've got most of the gist
Now it's tightening its grip on me
Now I'm steadily losing sleep

I wanna say I'm waking up
From a bad, bad dream about washing up
Bury every memory of speaking up
If you don't want to let your voice down

(Screaming)

I can break the pattern
I could make it better if I wanted
But I don't
Is that honest enough?

I think I'm starting to get it
At least starting to regret it
There's things and consequences manifesting now
And there's nothing I can do

How could I say I've had enough?
I'm a little worse for wear
One eye shut
My bloodshot, Rorschach corneas
Welling up with the blur I choked out

I think I'm starting to feel it
I'm guided by the wind
Of backlit deeds that I have done
Am I making it up?

I think I'm making it up
Am I making it all up?

(I was running fucking fast in the wrong direction)

Willow Smith

State of minds new record is out in May - here is a few of there singles.
Century One Records - a laurence mehlhorn group of companies.

All these road ways

Why You So Serious!?

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