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Fuck it I don’t wanna think about this anymore
All you care about is money and the wealth thinking bout yourself sleeping on the floor
Cause you got to drunk when you at the club feeling people up dancing like a whore
Not even surprised all the fucking lies that you told me night after night after night I’m done

your insane bitch ass mistake number one
You think I’ll play your game bitch I just won
Your type they just take and they take and you acting so fake I swear I hate the look on your face so much I could throw up

But I guess that’s how it never went
No no no everything’s went different 
Thinking up the best excuses in your head
Messages never sent
Better yet
Never even deleted them
Or when I walked in 
To another dude sleeping in my bed
Yeah Remember that

But I guess not
I guess your memory shredded from how hard you taking back shots
Or maybe all the alcohol mixed with greed that’s in your system
But it’s prolly cause you never gave a shit and don’t wanna listen
Too busy getting dick from a group of six damn you make me sick glad I ended it cause I’m
So done with you

Confused n Conflicted (prod. justdan)

Lyrics...

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

Ima keep moving forward cause I don’t have many options
One of ‘em is a 9 to 5 but me I ain’t really bout it
Cause this shit on my shoulder keeps me in the darkness surrounded 
And when I think that it’s over it comes back stronger, I’ve had it
Iceland or London cause fuck it I need to take a vacation
I’m still debating if I’m loved or I’m hated but regardless 
I wanna be stronger person someone with no replacement 
I know there’s importance in patients but the flame is burning

Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with
Jet lag 
I know I’m tired as shit but I’ll find my way back
All them nights that I’ve given I’ll get ‘em right back
And some more with that deal
But that a dream like in ville
Trying not to get overwhelmed with

Everything that I want or that I wanted to be
I overthink everything when I step on a beat just to remember there’s nothing for me I can actually lose 
I’m worried for nothing but y’all feeling something that’s close to redundance to fit in my shoes 
The shit I created you hate it or love it I promise that’s what i see life through huh
All of the struggles and moods
A pen and a pad that had sat in my hand with the blankets that padded the room
Flooring the pedal to move
You’d think that I wanted to die but I kept it inside me to use as a fuel
I made it this far with a goal on my mind so can you tell me how the fuck Ima lose 
The pressure been bubbling too
It feels like the weight on my shoes they increased or the gravity set to times two
Squaring up globes like in 96 when they won 72
I’m back on my bull
To shoot for the moon 
And I guess if I miss
my target then it’s
Snake way n a trip
like goku on his way back like

This the way back like let’s turn and see
And I realize I ain’t living life I’m underneath 
All my peers I barley go outside I hold my peace
I ain’t tripping yeah I feel alright I’m building me
I’m gambling everything that I turn to a beast
Cause all my time it stays focused on finding words to a beat
Part of my life has been sacrificed on the craft that I speak
I guess I’ll trust in the process like I’m embiid on his way back like

The Way Back (prod. falak)

backyard beetle & dysphoric - monster

Lyrics...
Never thought about it like this you the one to deceive me
But deep inside me I knew that I was hiding a feeling of doubt
I thought it was weird how whenever you leaving 
All pretty it’s crazy you said it was to another friends house
So I sat down for a minute but that was too many seconds that I 
Spent wasted on bitches who like being passed around
You said I was tripping and that I never fucking listen
so I hope when you’re buried they place your face to the ground

You told me everybody was fake 
And everybody just wanted to take a piece of the pie that I gave my life 

But the fact is that you couldn’t take
The thought of being replaced and kicked outta your place you’re one with mice

Honestly this has lifted a weight
Even when dead it’s still weight
And this ain’t easy to make
Fuck never mind

I just never been feeling this great
Just a disgusting mistake 
Ima dig my feelings in a mother fucking grave

Shut the fuck up Manipulative bitch
A body bag for the sick cause I
Can’t believe I thought of a future of us with them kids
And the light I once saw in your eyes is just pathetically dim
In a class of nine you wouldn’t even make top ten 
The futures grim for you
I’d give a limb for you
On Bruno’s shit I’d hop In front a fucking train for you
I tried to change for you
I was in too engaged in you
But it never mattered I guess I was just a game to you
I’m done 
Fuck that
I hope that you feel what I felt when you shattered my soul
I realized you cut me from everyone even people that been there and witnessed my growth 
To get me alone
Then said I was fucked for not wanting to trust you with nearly enough
Maybe your love was the knife that you thrust in my back but  I’m returning that cause you’ll use it again in a month
Did it for what
stupid as fuck
Ive given you everything while I embodied not being enough
You gave me a hand out of the rain then pushed me right back in the mud 
Confidence drained so I turn to 
A drink and an eighth on the couch
While I’m cursing your name to find out a way to escape the look on your face so stay the fuck away

I Was Wrong (prod. falak)

Intro
"𝘓𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘥.
𝘏𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘵𝘴, 𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘳𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘢𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵.
𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘧𝘧!
𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵, 𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘢 𝘢𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘥!
𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘕𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘙!"

lyrics...
Lately I’ve been having trouble waking up
Tryna work on my life man this shit is dangerous 
Gaslighting myself “yeah that’s just life to everyone”
Think I’m getting better maybe not surly can’t say for sure
And ironically I’m fucking tired of it
Patience is my biggest burden I can’t rely on it
This future shit is tough it’s got my weary eyes falling
I need a pick me up I can’t finish a single fucking thing I put my mind to
Right now I don’t even have someone to lie to
egos crumbling not even my façade is prideful
In the morning I can’t help but feel this fucking time loop
Is the work of an invisible being a hateful Kaiju
I need something to blame ill just be mad at the world
Wielding undesirableness undermining my worth
Just to hide from my emotions never learn how to grow
But shit I got all of this time I just turned eighteen years old 

Tryna kick my bad habits 
Cause honestly man I’ve had it
I fucked up trying to fix up my life
Just to cause it more damage
By overworking my practice
And stress induced by my standards
It was my selfish endeavors 
That were just to much to handle 
I’ve learned a lot from the background
The word of mouth when you’re silent
Peaks through the speakers the loudest
And pierces ears oh so violent
Too many things and components
I never understood about people
And by the time that its crucial 
They’re already gone from the moment

I’m always out of time
And it’s always shit I should have said I'd always write
And that’s always the area that I’ll fucking never like
And it’s always working always tryna chase a better life
And it’s always shitty but I promise that we’ll be alright
And if you don’t relate then I hope that you never might
Ever try and continue to live like you might never die
Its always “you wouldn’t understand” well you fucking got me there
But I'm only eighteen right why the fuck would I care

Hateful Kaiju (prod. falak)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

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