Ma fille quand elle avait 20 ans a passé 2 mois en hôpital psychiatrique . Les paroles de la chanson sont le reflet de ce dont elle se souvient et notre ressenti quand on allait la voir . Philippe a su retranscrire en musique toutes les étapes psychologiques par lesquelles elle et nous , ses parents sommes passés. Merci à Thibault pour les passages en anglais qui apportent une intensité incroyable au titre .  
My 20-year-old daughter spent 2 months in a psychiatric hospital. The song's lyrics reflect what she remembers and how we felt when we went to see her. Philippe was able to transcribe into music all the psychological stages she and we, her parents, went through. Thanks to Thibault for the English passages, which bring an incredible intensity to the track.  
Compositeur : Philippe SEGUINARD  Auteur mélodiste : Guillaume DULER   Chant et arrangements couplets anglais : Thibault DERACHE



Lyrics:
I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

Je me sens silence dans ce malaise hanté
Je vis sans présent je n'ai plus d'avant d'après
Ces voix qui me tourmentent
Et me cueillent les fleurs d'un mal
Me poussent dans de lentes
Rondes abyssales

Je suis un fantôme dans un corps naufragé
J'accroche ma raison aux crochets de mes vivants
Les yeux ouverts d'angoisses
Sur l'amour de mes parents
Leur peine qui m'enlace
Me transperce violemment

Mes nuits à errer en habit de papier
Dans des couloirs morts d'ennui à perpétuité
J'ai peur dans ce grand vide
Qui me brûle comme un démon
Comme un trop long suicide
Dépression sans horizon

Des silhouettes blanches ombres en apesanteur
Dansent autour de moi interrogent mes douleurs
Mes mots restent en prison
Dans l'enfer de mes pensées
Mon esprit tourne en rond
Sur une route damnée

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

I live without really existing
I swim in a sea of darkness
My heart is a mass of scars
I wrap my body in dark veils

I feel silence in this haunted malaise
I live without present I have no before or after
These voices that torment me
And pick the flowers of an evil
Push me into slow
Abyssal rounds

I'm a ghost in a shipwrecked body
I hang my reason on the hooks of my living
Eyes open with anguish
On the love of my parents
Their grief embracing me
pierces me violently

My nights wandering in paper clothes
In dead corridors of perpetual boredom
I'm afraid in this great emptiness
That burns me like a demon
Like too long a suicide
Horizonless depression

White silhouettes weightless shadows
Dance around me, question my pain
My words remain in prison
In the hell of my thoughts
My mind spins in circles
On a damned road

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

My mind is going on board on my drunkness ship
I only wanna take an easy and quiet trip
I wanna stay the course to avoid all the storms
On the ocean of my hours I want to stay in the norms

The anguish of my fears is a painful gear
That will crush me that will kill me
The hurricane of meds and my life is in shreds
That will crush me that will kill me

© Philippe SEGUINARD / Guillaume DULER Juillet 2023
Thibault DERACHE:
https://soundcloud.com/user-313022683?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

M.E..N...T....A.....L     (  Feat Thibault DERACHE ) TRANSLATED

Written , composed, recorded,  played and mixed by myself F.P. (alias E.N.T.P.)
All rights are reserved.
Thanks to Ben Bateman for his quick and efficient work on mastering my song.

All I have is this moment

thats all thats it

Rosewood & Main

What if time went back and everything was set to zero? Exciting or....

Was wäre, wenn die Zeit zurückgeht und alles wäre auf Null gesetzt? Spannend oder....

Back to Zero

Before giving you my light here's some more....
Check out Barricage on #SoundCloud
https://on.soundcloud.com/Ak1v8dnzvUUAm6ng8
This artist should be celebrated. It doesn't matter if you hate metal. They are doing work for humanity and it's fucking amazing. I feel very passionate about this and thats why I have real tear writing this because I feel them and I know they feel it too... Keep it up lads and thanks for helping confirm my truth  🙌🏽 I'll be cry baby for real art haha


I'm passed worrying about offending the fake...
I'm off to rock the shit out of this one with thought! I'm able to apply that thought whatever way I like because I've practiced music for 38 years (almost EVERYDAY)... And since the fake bullshit started poisoning my world. I do it EVERYDAY without fail because this is too important a practice to watch people burn it...

For further information see pic... I used a thing called a pen


Some people might dismiss the pen nowadays but hear my reality for a pen...

You can close the screen 🥳 You can start to dream 🥳 You can tap your soul 🥳 and put it on a page 🥳No distraction by a fake world 🥳 True love gets made...🔆


You know man.... right wing politics has become one of the most fake projections in human history given information is available for people to find the truth... or close to it... In my opinion making fake art is playing into that same ignorant psychology and mindset. Make real shit now... Sieze the moment and save your fucking souls

Allow me to help...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjAn0oGS5Bk
Polly by Nirvana... This is the first song I learned on guitar. It took me about a week. Then I moved onto Stairway to Heaven and it took me a few months. You cannot type real fucking art end of story. Get that soul into it.

AI is here yeah.. AI will likely evolve to become way more intelligent then us... But it will NEVER have the most important ingredient. SOUL!

It's the soul that we connect to. It's the soul that makes it different. So if you enjoy souless music... Then fuck you and have a wonderful souless day! My soul wishes you would change but I don't wish you well because you are creating the problem that art has to deal with. So, become the solution and make fucking real music and then you'll get all the well TBD wishes there are...


You know man... The only thing I ever did with Chat GPT was when it first came out years ago I tested it and got it write a poem.. After nearly puking at the result I saved it on my desktop and there it will sit unused forever.... It doesn't deserve the light of day the plagarised splat that it was/is... Since that google insists on giving me knowledge results via AI... what can I say thats handy... But for making music. Get real will ya

V1. Actual Intelligence (A Jam - EXPRESSION BY THE BODY translating your ACTUAL feelings- properly)

This is a musical journey through the Highs, and lows of life.
I hope you can join me on this journey as you allow this music to become a backdrop for you as you reflect through your memories. -Enjoy

A journey through Memories

A short piano composition, as it is, with minor edits.  The kind of work, I wish I could produce each day.  I hope you enjoy it!

Jennifer L. Jones, Music Dreams
Music Dreams Productions
May, 2025

Impromptu

I made this song awhile ago. I had had a conversation with a man who I believed to be going through some kind of a mental break. It was a very strange conversation and it has always stuck with me. I heard these vocals and they immediately made me think of this conversation and I decided to try and put those feelings into a song.

This is what I believe it may be like inside of a broken mind.

Paranoid

Promo: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/calisnor/silent-departures

“Silent Departures” is a tender reflection on letting go. Merging ambient stillness with classical grace and subtle rhythmic undercurrents, the piece moves like a slow farewell—lingering, heartfelt, and deeply human. A moment where time gently fades into memory.

Silent Departures

centers on the powerful, transcending bond of human love, particularly between father and daughter, to convey core themes of emotion, sacrifice, and humanity's place in the universe

INTERSTELLAR ATMOSPHERIC (REMIX) PART 2

This is my solo project. 
F.P.
All songs are home recorded by myself.
Check also on soundcloud : 
-De Parrot 
-BOAF


artwork by A.Pastori