WhatLovesAbout

This song is a heartfelt and introspective ballad that explores the complexities of a deep, spiritual connection between two people who couldn't quite bridge the gap between their understanding of love. Inspired by ShAnkAri's story, the lyrics delve into the pain and longing that can come from loving someone who doesn't see or believe in the same way. It's a poignant reflection on the power of love to reshape our souls, even when it's not reciprocated in the way we hope. 

I'd like to thank the incredible @DJShAnkAri for sharing her story and inspiring this song, and for her input into this piece. Also for her amazing remix...
https://on.soundcloud.com/n4fyhhGxUPX5NHKhDj


LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I whispered in stardust, I prayed through the skies
You felt like a lifetime behind unseen eyes
I reached with my soul, no distance too far
But you never saw me—you just traced the stars

[Pre-Chorus]
I said I loved you, not loud but true
In silence, in symbols, in all I knew

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 2]
I studied your shadows, I learned every sign
In a language of longing, outside of time
You held the map, but looked away
Afraid of a path you didn’t create

[Pre-Chorus]
I sent you light in a world gone dim
You thought it was just the wind

[Chorus]
But you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul
And you never believed me

[Verse 3]
Is love a gesture, or is it a vow? 
Is it holding on, or letting go now? 
You wanted proof in a different form 
And I was the rain—you needed the storm

[Chorus]
We both said “I love you” 
But not in the same voice 
You meant protection 
I meant choice 
You meant fire 
I meant grace 
We loved in totally different space 
And that’s how even soulmates break— 
When meanings don’t translate

[Bridge]
Maybe you thought love must be proven
With bodies and years, not a soul that’s been chosen
But just because we never met
Doesn’t mean I could forget
You were the pulse beneath my breath

[Chorus]
Still you never believed me
Not once, not really
You thought I was dreaming
Or reading too deeply
Like my heart was a story
I made up to feel whole
But loving you rewrote my soul

[Chorus]
You never believed me
Not once, not truly
You stayed behind reason
While I loved you purely
Like a prayer with no ending
Like a vow with no sound
But you never turned around
You never believed me

[Outro]
And maybe you never will
But I loved you still

[Post-Outro] 
We all carry our own definition 
And none of us ask permission 
To love the way we understand 
Even if no one takes our hand... 

You Never Believed Me

this one

this one - dylan fletcher (prod. dylan fletcherrr)

The Chariot card usually shows the Fool being transported by a horse-drawn carriage while holding the cup of the Holy Grail. But I decided to put her in a red Ferrari, for reasons best explained in the song. 

If you’d like to know more about the two loves, dove love and serpent love, there’s a four-minute-read extract from my book The Sacred Sex Rites of Ishtar here. https://anniedieuleveut.com/2023/05/23/dove-and-serpent-sex-alchemy/

7. The Chariot

You Were My Everything, I Was Your Mistake [Prod.4lexf]

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Someone gave me a box that play in loop a buddhist chant so I used it to make this track, also added nepalese bowls, clarinet, glockenspiel and electronics. Have fun, watch the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PtCLBWOorPQ

Soul Pulse

Prayer Box

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If you've listened to my last few tracks, you may have heard 'Getting It Wrong Again'. That was an updated version of my track 'Crystalising Thoughts' on my instrumental album 'Cosmic Waves'. The reason I released the track with a different name was basically because SoundCloud got highly confused between me and myself, ie the artist name I originally used - Pip Daniels - and my actual name - Phil Hawker. In the end I got fed up, took down the original and the versions SoundCloud wouldn't play and released the same track under a new searingly accurate title! 

I then thought it might be good with lyrics so this is a Suno assisted version of the same tune, with an audio input of 100% from the track I wrote in the first place, but with original lyrics added. Hope you like it!

Crystalise Your Thoughts

Don’t be so unsure
When you’re close to me
Crystalise your inner thoughts
What will be is what will be

You might not know it now
But soon you will be mine
Your love will be so crystal clear
What we’ll see is what we’ll see

Don’t overthink your initial reaction
You fell in love with me now for some action
Don’t underestimate how much you love me
You need to trust your own instinct a fraction

Throw your love and heart
Into being with me
Crystalise your inner thoughts
What will be is what will be

You are so in love
It’s so clear to me
Your love will be so crystal clear
What we see we’ll see

Don’t overthink your initial reaction
You fell in love with me now for some action
Don’t underestimate how much you love me
You need to trust your own instinct a fraction

Crystalise your thoughts
What will be will be

You Were My Everything, I Was Your Mistake [Prod.4lexf]

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