I thought I was beat down

Screaming with no sound

Buried dead underground

Ripping off my skin

I shed

I fed the god head 



Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Skills burn deep within the in between

Life's just a joke 

Until you focus

dig your heels endlessly down 

Where you can be seen

Or bothered 

Outside of the pressures of society



Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



I know I'm not normal

Who The fuck is

How many times do I have to remove all these daggers 

Infecting my ability to sleep 

I foam thrash and beg god get these intrusive thoughts under control 

I don't want to lose everything while the world sleep

When I am Awake barley breathing 



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



from all this  synchronicity stabbing me in the halo

That bleeds through out my being under the broken ceiling

Screaming feeling something haunting me  

In the apartment I hide going through recovery





black ink oozes behind closed doors

Sliding the needles across the skin



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Beat Down pay for pain

Zoned out rambling 

Like silk flowing I'm choking

I got a problem and it's suffocating 

I'm to boring but lets get going 

Walking the path in flames never stumbling  

Burning like a storm hailing anti fucking government 

fire raining acid 

Fucking killing 

Every mother fucking voice 

Inside that just won't shut the fuck up ranting 

About all the bursting

Collapsing  emotions

Blended in other forgotten realms  

The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Weak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster 

Sleeping next to you eyes open I'm suffering 

From months of psychotic insomnia I wish I could be something 

That would help heal all the hurt all the hurt that bleed out 

So I don't have to remember the hooks of your vile insecure piece of shit ego lets make sure it never gets another look  
The wrath

Sick fucking I won't stop stabbing 

Killing the monsters inside that keep replicating

Replacing my strategies

Or getting better or even trying to seek healing  

Shut the fuck up all these voice 

Won't stop fucking with me

Am I even me 

Because I can't feel a thing inside this monster 

Devouring me 

Aggressive sedition seductive kisses with razorblade 

I'm just your rag doll

Empty hearted lost love crashing out 

Fucking retarded world eat my love 

Eat my heart 

The zombies from long ago

Turned into a walking corpse

Just love me before I die 

I'll never lie to you or I will die I could never stay away

From your love please don't ever let me go

I loved to hard blooding running off my wrists on to my sleeves 

I was a wreak 

Fucked up 

But I survived 

I'm more than alive 

I'm dead but I love to hard 

Slitting my throat just to cut out all my choking silent tears 

Running out of my nose I just wish I could take away all your fears 

But I'm just the monster inside my head please don't ask me to show you how much the world hurts

The cruelty of society weighing down on me 

Please just get the fuck away from me

Your so nice Something is missing 

I feel that you might be the enemy 










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Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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