Verse 1
Blackouts swallow the light, memory gaps like chasms wide,
You whispered you never noticed, but I'm adrift in the tide.
Where am I now, who was I then, staring back at a stranger's face,
Unrecognizable reflections in a shattered glass maze.
Emptiness claws at my core, who am I supposed to become?
Switching visuals like flickering storms, under gravity's crushing thumb.
Pre-Chorus
Lost in agoraphobia's iron grip, praying to flee the endless blur,
Yet entranced by the symptoms' siren call, they pull me deeper, stir.
Emptying my soul into a lake of fears, where panic waves crash and roar,
Get the hell away from me—trapped in walls that feel like war.
Chorus
I don't want to leave this haunted home, diagnosed with abandonment's chain,
Heartbeat thunders involuntary spikes, pain exploding like lightning rain.
The world leaks out through my trembling skin, seeping into the void so deep,
What am I supposed to do when the light in my eyes fades to sleep?
Pills you hand me dissolve into nothing, my mind's a fortress they can't breach,
Mixed in the sands of time's relentless flow, identity slipping out of reach.
Verse 2
Echoes of forgotten selves whisper through the haze of night,
Gravity weighs like invisible chains, pulling me from the fight.
Agoraphobic shadows wrap around, blurring edges of reality's shore,
Hoping for escape, but symptoms dance like flames I can't ignore.
Soul pours out in torrents of dread, into panic's drowning embrace,
Abandonment's diagnosis etched in veins, a scar I can't erase.
Pre-Chorus
Heartbeats spike like jagged thorns piercing through my chest's fragile cage,
World dissolving from my pores, leaking secrets page by page.
No more spark in these hollow eyes, staring into the abyss's call,
Pills scatter like dust in the wind, offering no salvation at all.
Chorus
I don't want to leave this haunted home, diagnosed with abandonment's chain,
Heartbeat thunders involuntary spikes, pain exploding like lightning rain.
The world leaks out through my trembling skin, seeping into the void so deep,
What am I supposed to do when the light in my eyes fades to sleep?
Pills you hand me dissolve into nothing, my mind's a fortress they can't breach,
Mixed in the sands of time's relentless flow, identity slipping out of reach.
Bridge
Sands of time erode the edges of me, blending into a whirlwind storm,
Blackouts and gaps like forgotten dreams, reshaping what was once my form.
Who am I in this reflection's lie? Emptiness fills the space between,
Gravity pulls, but I'll rise from the blur—escape the symptoms' cruel scene.
Outro
Blackouts fade into memory's grave, gaps closing like healing wounds...
Sands shift, but I'm finding my way, through the panic's echoing tunes.
(Repeat fading echoes: "Who am I... sands of time... who am I...")


Blackout Echoes 3

Intro)
Borderline insanity what the hell is happening the world is love or hate devotional or a deep burning hate 
What is happening to me 
I cant stop whats happening to me
I cant feel a thing I feel nothing but something crawl deep down inside me its crawling it screaming it trashing at the 
Frantic efforts to avoid abandonment 
Patterns of behavior unstable intense extremes of idealization devaluation 
Black White 
(Verse 1)
Panicking just woke upset I hate myself
Identity disturbance body Dysphoria 
Gender Dysphoria Female trapped in a male living life in a silent mental hell
Dead self image 
I'm so ugly no one could love me not even myself I just turned my flesh into art work just to move the pain out of my brain
My sense of self is emptiness I want feel loved to feel that I could trust people again tried to buried it all deep inside my head but its splitting open I'm lashing out I scream and cry fucking crash out just to clean it up before the next morning feeling so
impulsive addicted to self harm self damaging relationships 
Spending money like it nothing 
Sex with anyone who said they loved me
Just to be used up and abandoned before I wake in the morning
Substance abuse
Reckless driving 
Binge eating 
Starvation I must eat something 
But I just feel sick think of it swallowing all the bullshit
anorexia hot me so quick
Razor blades stuffed animals stained red wrapped me up in white bandages 
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD
It to extreme the emotional turmoil is rotting My self image my sense of self is empty its vacant who am I what am I who was I was i anything 
They say you have
Borderline Personality Disorder 
(Verse 2)
Suicidal day dreams fighting at school got bullied my whole childhood jist because I was different 
Behaviors gestures threats self mutilation
What a disturbing horrorshow when rip out your stitches 
Insomnia Dysphoria 
Irritability 
Anxiety 
Intense 
Chronic feelings of emptiness 
Inappropriate 
Intense 
Internal Anger
Must keep control 
Why do I always feel alone in a ropm full of loved ones
Stress related paranoia ideation 
Are people plotting against 
Does everybody hate me
I hate me I never wanted to be alive living like this
(Chorus)
What wrong with me 
It must be BPD 
It Must be BPD
BpD

BPD 5

Alter Death Moth Alice the Destroyer

Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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