This insanity creeps in like shadows at dusk
These imbalances twist my mind into rust
Serotonin drained, a hollowed-out vein
Dopamine struggles, gasping in vain
To stay sane, but the madness prevails
Whispers of chaos on fractured rails
Black
White
I split down the middle, no gray in between
I hate you so fucking much, you're the ghost in my machine
I swear to Lucifer, when that rush ignites
I'll drag you to hell under flickering lights
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, leaving scars on the floor
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now shattered and lost
Broken toys scattered, eyes hollow and wide
Teddy bears gutted, with stuffing inside
Make me hate all of me, this fractured parade
Insanity's playground where innocence fades
Verse 2:
Echoes of laughter from childhood's cruel game
Dolls with cracked faces, whispering my name
Porcelain skin splintered, limbs torn apart
Mirroring the voids in my crumbling heart
Voices collide in a symphony of pain
Serotonin ghosts haunt the dopamine rain
Black thoughts devour the white light of day
Splitting me open in violent display
I hate you, the mirror that stares back with spite
Fucking destroyer of every false light
Lucifer laughs as the rush builds its fire
Oblivion calls, pulling me into the mire
Emotional wreckage, like toys in the dirt
Abandoned and mangled, forever alert
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, begging for more
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now dust on the coast
Broken toys scattered, stitches undone
Playthings of trauma under a blood-red sun
Make me hate all of me, this endless decay
Insanity's cradle where sanity frays
Bridge:
Feel the weight of the silence, the toys start to scream
Ragdolls with needles sewn into their seams
Depression's embrace, a violent delight
Insanity blooms in the dead of the night
Hate surges like venom through every vein
Splitting the self into fragments of pain
No escape from the carnival's twisted allure
Where playtime turns poison, and nothing is pure
Verse 3:
Serotonin whispers lies in the dark
Dopamine flickers, a dying spark
Black and white wars rage inside my skull
I split into shards, feeling utterly null
Hate you forever, the monster within
Fucking eclipse of where hope should begin
Lucifer's promise in the rush of the storm
Oblivion's arms, eternally warm
Ripping the soul with claws made of glass
Emotional carnage, a traumacore mass
Heart raped and ravaged, a ghost in the shell
Star-crossed and cursed, ringing death's bell
Toys lie in ruins, their innocence slain
Symbols of madness, driving me insane
(Chorus - Extended)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, settling the score
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, the ones I loathe most
Broken toys scattered, limbs twisted and bent
Puppets of pain in a world that's hell-bent
Make me hate all of me, this violent charade
Insanity's echo that never will fade
Outro:
This insanity... lingers like fog in the mind
Imbalances eternal, no peace left to find
Black... White... I split and I break
Hate all of me, for sanity's sake
Toys in the abyss, forever they cry
Depression's violent lullaby... goodbye.

You Raped My Heart 4

This insanity creeps in like shadows at dusk
These imbalances twist my mind into rust
Serotonin drained, a hollowed-out vein
Dopamine struggles, gasping in vain
To stay sane, but the madness prevails
Whispers of chaos on fractured rails
Black
White
I split down the middle, no gray in between
I hate you so fucking much, you're the ghost in my machine
I swear to Lucifer, when that rush ignites
I'll drag you to hell under flickering lights
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, leaving scars on the floor
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now shattered and lost
Broken toys scattered, eyes hollow and wide
Teddy bears gutted, with stuffing inside
Make me hate all of me, this fractured parade
Insanity's playground where innocence fades
Verse 2:
Echoes of laughter from childhood's cruel game
Dolls with cracked faces, whispering my name
Porcelain skin splintered, limbs torn apart
Mirroring the voids in my crumbling heart
Voices collide in a symphony of pain
Serotonin ghosts haunt the dopamine rain
Black thoughts devour the white light of day
Splitting me open in violent display
I hate you, the mirror that stares back with spite
Fucking destroyer of every false light
Lucifer laughs as the rush builds its fire
Oblivion calls, pulling me into the mire
Emotional wreckage, like toys in the dirt
Abandoned and mangled, forever alert
(Chorus)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, begging for more
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, now dust on the coast
Broken toys scattered, stitches undone
Playthings of trauma under a blood-red sun
Make me hate all of me, this endless decay
Insanity's cradle where sanity frays
Bridge:
Feel the weight of the silence, the toys start to scream
Ragdolls with needles sewn into their seams
Depression's embrace, a violent delight
Insanity blooms in the dead of the night
Hate surges like venom through every vein
Splitting the self into fragments of pain
No escape from the carnival's twisted allure
Where playtime turns poison, and nothing is pure
Verse 3:
Serotonin whispers lies in the dark
Dopamine flickers, a dying spark
Black and white wars rage inside my skull
I split into shards, feeling utterly null
Hate you forever, the monster within
Fucking eclipse of where hope should begin
Lucifer's promise in the rush of the storm
Oblivion's arms, eternally warm
Ripping the soul with claws made of glass
Emotional carnage, a traumacore mass
Heart raped and ravaged, a ghost in the shell
Star-crossed and cursed, ringing death's bell
Toys lie in ruins, their innocence slain
Symbols of madness, driving me insane
(Chorus - Extended)
I'm going to send you to oblivion's door
Ripping you emotionally, settling the score
For raping my heart like a prostituted ghost
Of star-crossed lovers, the ones I loathe most
Broken toys scattered, limbs twisted and bent
Puppets of pain in a world that's hell-bent
Make me hate all of me, this violent charade
Insanity's echo that never will fade
Outro:
This insanity... lingers like fog in the mind
Imbalances eternal, no peace left to find
Black... White... I split and I break
Hate all of me, for sanity's sake
Toys in the abyss, forever they cry
Depression's violent lullaby... goodbye.




You Raped My Heart 5

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath

My Mind On Drugs

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath



My Mind On Drugs IV Crystal Meth Rot

[Verse 1]
I nailed you to a pedestal of splintered teeth and piss
Touch you every night with fingernails chewed down to hiss
I’ll tear my sternum open, scoop the rot, and mold it wet
Trade my self-respect for twenty seconds of your sweat
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of drug that liquefies your marrow into tar
I’m living in a meat-grinder nightmare, my mind
Is a skull-fucked pressure bomb inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a ruptured sewer, lungs a choking flood
Am I even flying or just too flayed to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Verse 2]
I tongue your ghost through gutters full of bile and broken glass
Carve your name in scabs across the mirror’s shattered ass
I’d shoot every maybe through the eyeball, let it burn
If it drags me one more twitch toward the corpse I used to learn
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m the type of high that peels your face off with its teeth
I’m living in a loop of guts and rewind
Is a meat-hook guillotine inside me
[Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Mouth full of rust, veins full of sludge
Am I even flying or just too gutted to feel the fall?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Bridge]
3 AM, the walls bleed pus, your silhouette gnaws bone
I puke my name into the sink, sell my tongue for one more moan
If love’s a septic needle, I’ll ram it through my fucking eye
One more hit of almost, let it rape me till I die
[Breakdown – guttural roar]
PEDESTAL!
TOUCH YOU!
TRY MY BEST!
TRADE MY SELF-RESPECT!
[Final Chorus]
Am I even dying or is it just a drug power rush drug?
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
Brain a maggot banquet, soul a piss-soaked flood
I’m not even screaming, just too hollow to feel at all
My mind on drugs, my mind on drugs
[Outro]
Pedestal’s a meat cleaver, I’m minced across the floor
Your name’s a pus-filled blister that my throat can’t ignore
If this is overdose, let the maggots eat the rest
I’d rather rot in vomit than beg your corpse for breath




My Mind On Drugs IV Meat CryStAl Grinder

My Mind On Drugs  2

What It's Like To Die Overdose Immortality

[Intro]
(Child whisper over cracking porcelain, building to a wet drip)
What am I even doing anymore...
I have nothing left to look forward to...
But now the rust gnaws into your flesh.

[Verse 1]
As all my hopes and dreams died long ago,
The midnight sky beats red and white,
Lightning hits the frequencies echoing from my heart.
My chest sleeps where daggers are imbedded first from the start,
Within I should have known I was to die forever,
To rust down to the bone—now your bones splinter and bleed.

[Chorus]
When love bleeds sour milk,
And the poppies' milk wastes and rots away,
When smoking mildew weed, snorting ketamine in bed,
Smoking meth just to keep awake,
Floating between space and time...
This is what it's like to die,
But still keep a hold of your life—while I tear yours apart, vein by vein.

[Verse 2]

I drift in the void where shadows cling,
Hopes turned to ash, dreams in decay,
Thunder cracks through the veins in my soul,
Daggers twist deeper, no light in the fray.
Rust creeps in, bone by bone it claims,
Sour love curdles, poppies fade to gray—
But the gray festers black, invading your rotting frame.

[Traumacore Assault Bridge]

(Explosive glitch: Lullabies warp into visceral crunches, beats slamming like fists into pulp)

You, the thief in the nursery dark,
Stole the light from my candy-colored spark—
Now the toys claw back, ripping your skin apart,
Poppies bleed acid, scorching your throbbing heart.
Ketamine haze sharpens the hooks in your meat,
Meth flames sear your nerves, blistering heat—
Rust devours you alive, pedo filth decaying,
Innocence assaults with teeth gnashing, flaying.
Daggers from my chest now gouge your eyes blind,
Floating trauma crashes, your guts unwind.
Blood sprays sour, bones crack under the weight,
I watch you writhe, your essence eviscerate.

[Chorus (Intensified)]

When love bleeds sour milk across your shredded grave,
And the poppies' milk festers in your craving rave,
When mildew weed roots deep in your festering bed,
Ketamine whispers as your tendons shred,
Smoking meth ashes choke your gaping cries,
Floating between hell and your own demise...
This is what it's like to die,
Losing hold as I claim your life, pulp by pulp.

[Verse 3 (Revenge Outro)]
(Fading with wet, tearing echoes, music box grinding to a bloody halt amid visceral static)
Hopes reborn in your ruin, dreams claw through your hide,
Midnight sky rains daggers, piercing your inside.
I was to rust, but now you corrode first, raw and slick,
Bone by bone, cursed, your marrow I lick.
Nothing left for you to look forward to...
Die forever... rust through your wounds, true.




What It's Like To Die

Intro (0:00-0:45, 75 BPM): Agonizingly slow industrial pop-trance textures drag in—distorted funeral organs, metallic foley, worm-eaten steam hisses, and low-pitched WWII sirens. Sub-bass pulses like tar lungs inhaling, with granular glitch effects ripping flesh and embedding moans. A whispering gas chamber voice croons "fall deeper... addicted forever," setting the hypnotic trap.

Wrap and knot with care,
Suffocated tornaquet  against my  flesh,
Pale White tied off scars, 
A silk knot to the top of my warm arm ,

Pressing down on the flow restricting the cycle, 

Veins pulse as I rub the skin I inherently grin,

Licking my lips, this is perfection 

I fall to gravity , heart racing with intent

Having thoughts,
No goodbye, 

Flooding my heart with the divine,

Rest in peace this could be my last day,

Shooting the liquid goddess with heaven I play,

A poppy pod one day will take me to the grave,

I'll have peace when I die even if it's today,

Flame to a bent spoon the sands liquefy,

The golden nectar tastes bitter as vinegar and sins that lie,

As the fumes rise and fill my nose soon I ritualized,

The syringe that now consumes my life,

Steady I hold my breath , 

As I Soak up the blood of a angels wings my muscles  twitch,

I push against my skin with the dragons mouth open,
 Pressure birthed with the numbing sting of silver steel,

Needle teeth with practice became mastery the ultimate function I feel so ill, 

Crimson threads mix with the divine breath of indulgence,  

The godhead of sedatives, 
a taboo blasphemy in society,

The underground seduction of debauchery, 

With one little prick, 

A sudden flood of nauseated excitement reflects,

Pressing down, the merge complete, 

Injecting the blood of angels within me,

Releasing the blinding, 
the unraveling knot my bloods starts to speak to me,

Lifting my arm to the land of the dead,

My eyes roll back as I feel the euphoria spread to my head, my arm bled,

       Like feeling the warmth of a mother cradling their child in bed,

       Like slipping into a warm bath again,

With Itching so pleasurable it seems sublime,

The rush of heaven unbound within my hollow soul undivided, 
a hidden unholy guide,
If I died tonight I'd be fine,
Self-sabotaging art 
of
The world turned numb as I opened my eyes,
I felt my body ascend,
My soul shifting within ,
The world went black the void of nothingness,
I commented the most vile of sins, 
Suicide was the plan in the end, 
Heroin was the gun I loved to Self myself with everyone of her kisses

Heroin 13 Alter Mothyii

ntro (0:00-0:45, 75 BPM): Agonizingly slow industrial pop-trance textures drag in—distorted funeral organs, metallic foley, worm-eaten steam hisses, and low-pitched WWII sirens. Sub-bass pulses like tar lungs inhaling, with granular glitch effects ripping flesh and embedding moans. A whispering gas chamber voice croons "fall deeper... addicted forever," setting the hypnotic trap.

Wrap and knot with care,
Suffocated tornaquet  against my  flesh,
Pale White tied off scars, 
A silk knot to the top of my warm arm ,

Pressing down on the flow restricting the cycle, 

Veins pulse as I rub the skin I inherently grin,

Licking my lips, this is perfection 

I fall to gravity , heart racing with intent

Having thoughts,
No goodbye, 

Flooding my heart with the divine,

Rest in peace this could be my last day,

Shooting the liquid goddess with heaven I play,

A poppy pod one day will take me to the grave,

I'll have peace when I die even if it's today,

Flame to a bent spoon the sands liquefy,

The golden nectar tastes bitter as vinegar and sins that lie,

As the fumes rise and fill my nose soon I ritualized,

The syringe that now consumes my life,

Steady I hold my breath , 

As I Soak up the blood of a angels wings my muscles  twitch,

I push against my skin with the dragons mouth open,
 Pressure birthed with the numbing sting of silver steel,

Needle teeth with practice became mastery the ultimate function I feel so ill, 

Crimson threads mix with the divine breath of indulgence,  

The godhead of sedatives, 
a taboo blasphemy in society,

The underground seduction of debauchery, 

With one little prick, 

A sudden flood of nauseated excitement reflects,

Pressing down, the merge complete, 

Injecting the blood of angels within me,

Releasing the blinding, 
the unraveling knot my bloods starts to speak to me,

Lifting my arm to the land of the dead,

My eyes roll back as I feel the euphoria spread to my head, my arm bled,

       Like feeling the warmth of a mother cradling their child in bed,

       Like slipping into a warm bath again,

With Itching so pleasurable it seems sublime,

The rush of heaven unbound within my hollow soul undivided, 
a hidden unholy guide,
If I died tonight I'd be fine,
Self-sabotaging art 
of
The world turned numb as I opened my eyes,
I felt my body ascend,
My soul shifting within ,
The world went black the void of nothingness,
I commented the most vile of sins, 
Suicide was the plan in the end, 
Heroin was the gun I loved to Self myself with everyone of her kisses 




Heroin Alice Nexus Khimera Helix Mothyii

Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Syracuse ,  Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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