Negative Spaces

the cost of giving up

Prescription Void

Devilist Squad - Nightmare core

Devilist Squad - Legion

Devilist Squad - Bloodchain

[Verse 1]   



I’m wide awake inside the storm

   The light you gave still keeps me warm

   I feel the waves crash through my veins

   I’m breaking down,

 but I’ll rise again    



[Pre-Chorus]   



I’m holding on through all the pain

   Your voice is calling out my name



    [Chorus]  



 Don’t let me fade away, oh baby, please 

  I beg, can you hear my cries, tearing  

 Through the edge?   

I know you’ll never let my heart fade

   Into the gray, hold me, 

  Save me, 

be my light  

 Don’t turn away



    [Verse 2]



  I’m going under,

 this time I fear

  The storm within,

 the memories near

   I need somebody to heal this pain 

  Long as you don’t let me fade away 



   [Chorus]  



 Don’t let me fade away, oh baby, please 

  I beg, can you hear my cries, tearing 

  Through the edge?  

I know you’ll never let my heart fade  

 Into the gray, hold me, 

Save me, be my light 

  Don’t turn away  



[Bridge] 



Show me that our love will stay 

  Never fade, come what may

   Even though the memories remain 

  This pain we have will heal again  



  [Chorus]   

Don’t let me fade away, oh baby, please

   I beg, can you hear my cries, tearing 

  Through the edge? 

I know you’ll never let my heart fade

   Into the gray, hold me,

  Save me, be my light 

  Don’t turn away  



  [Outro]   



The storm is building inside my soul  

 Your voice calls out to make me whole  

 Remind me, love, we’ll never fade away  

 Please stop this fade of pain  


Don't Let Me Fade

Fear is the Hell Comes From"
(Part 1)

"Fear is the Hell comes from"
Do you know that feeling
When the world turns grey
When every color slowly
Fades away, I've tried it all
I've prayed, I've run
But I can't see the end

(Chorus)

The heart is pounding, why
Does this fear feel like where
Hell comes from
Please just help me breathe
Pull me out from underneath


(Part 2)


I’ve tried it all, I’ve prayed
I’ve run, but I can’t see
The end, I keep waiting for a sign to appear
But all I hear is the sound of fear
Someone, please just help me breathe
Pull me out from underneath

(Part 3)

Do you know that feeling
When the world turns grey
When every color slowly fades away
I’ve tried it all, the pills, I’ve taken
To keep this fear of the hell sound of fear
But it doesn’t stay away
When it wears off, the more
I take the numbness it away
But how long does this
This shit last till it’s all gone


(Chorus)

The heart is pounding, why
Does this fear feel like where
Hell comes from
Please just help me breathe
Pull me out from underneath


(Bridge)

I can’t see the sun, lost in the night
Feeling when everything around us
Has been burned, that feeling around us feels
Like hell comes from and…
That fear lives where it stays like
A disorder that you can never fix

(Final Chorus)

The heart is pounding, why
Does this fear feel like where
Hell comes from
Please just help me breathe
Pull me out from underneath

(Outro)
 
Take me somewhere I can feel again
A shadow that gr

(Intro)

 nymphomaniac who said they loved me

A sexual freak a tantric lover beast 

Polyamorous but only to Two  under my sheets 

Past experience hurts  but I was left in a happiness that bleed down the sink

But in the end it became heavier than soaked graveyard dirt 

Even still I want it today 

But only if she says so I don't know how to cheat 

But everyone else did who I layed in bed with because I was so much more different then the sea of society 



(Chorus)



Doll Cracked face in neon colors

Drifting into a horror Wonderland  a trauma Story 

Bloodily scissors

Midnight poisons

Drunk just not to feel the nightmares they fucked inside of me 

Acid paper heart holes in my soul's 
Life just doesn't mean a thing 

But I must stay in the light

 

(Verus 2)



As Heroin was my lover for so long and now just a bad dream locked frozen in a cryogenic suspended anti gravity fuckery 

I wish I would have just walked away

But I couldn't 

So use to being used 

I just learned a Stockholm victim mentality   

Hypersexually 

So wrong or so right when you need seductive energy just to feel love 

For every cut

For every burn 

For every Cigarette burn on my skin for every year I got worst 

No one saved me and I couldn't save myself 

So I stained and took every blow every fuck every argument every assault I just let it bleed off me seconds after attack stuck with these dissociative identities



(Chorus)



Doll Cracked face in neon colors

Drifting into a horror Wonderland  a trauma Story 

Bloodily scissors

Midnight poisons

Drunk just not to feel the nightmares they fucked inside of me 

Acid paper heart holes in my souls 
Life just doesn't mean a thing 

But I must stay in the light

 



(Verus 3)



Stop Romanticizing Trauma 

Sick fuck go off your wrists you stupid fuck 

Adderall Prozac and being a guinea pig Sucks 

DID sucks 

ASPD is social suicide 

When your a sociopath BPD 

struggle to live with CPTSD 

PTSD amnesia blends and blurs 

as I lose time I keep staring at the clock just to make sure 

I didn't switch 

When a alter is summoned to Protect I lose what little pieces left I have of self until I return



(Bridge)



Odium

Alice

5

Helix

Nexus 

Echos

Mothyii

Phil

Etheric

Khimera
 

Why can't I make you disappears 

only Co consuness  with 2   

But you mess up my life fucking way to much 



(Chorus)



Doll Cracked face in neon colors

Drifting into a horror Wonderland  a trauma Story 

Bloodily scissors

Midnight poisons

Just fuck me and get it over with I won't cum until you say please 

When I'm the dead child with voided eyes dreaming in MelanKholyia 

My system 





(Outro)



Co-consciousness is a state 

where two or more distinct personalities, 

alters, in someone with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) are aware of each other and the external world simultaneously. This can involve sharing thoughts, feelings, and experiences, allowing for internal communication and a continuous sense of time, though it can also be experienced as being a passive observer. It is different from co-fronting, where more than one alter is actively in control of the body at the same time. 

A Trauma Story

Caged Illusions #2

[Verus 1]

When people walk up to and start talking to you about something you have know Idea about but we had talked earlier that day
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
People calling you by the wrong name
Getting dizzy Getting a insect crawling feeling up your back up to your head Getting the panic trigger anxiety threat instinct goes off flash back then poof
Sometimes.

[Chorus]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Verus 2]

In the waves of transparent heat my emotions
Rising off the asphalt where I lay beaten,
Bruised.
These drugs numb me out. I got nothing to lose, but no one notices when I start to lose
The grip I have on everything moving around me.
My emotions fill my hollow heart,
I thought I owned.
Taking the path less traveled,
Looking back at not one good memory I stored.
Why can't I feel like you feel today?
Emotions fly by me, missing the plans I had.
Feeling nothing, everything is so boring.

[Choruaj]

I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening


[Verus 3]

Trying to be normal is something I don't understand
Like the people I see walking around me
Disconnected
I'm so disconnected
Don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Trapped in my mind
I can't escape my fate
Trapped in a body I can't control
In a weak state, going insane they take control
Panic sets in as I feel the sickness traveling up my throat
I'm hosting inside the machine
In world I left behind
I'm pulled apart inside
Inner dimensional chaos

[Bridge]

Sometimes. I Sit in the passenger seat of the mind while Alice controls my mouth and body but im swear in a fog a haze a robotic like feeling is happening

[Outro]

Fractured for 30 minutes maybe hours
But at times it's days or weeks I lose count of the moments I
Made and saved
Lost to the sense of time my soul breaks
I can't make sense of me today
I'm lost in a hole
I don't want to know
How I got to this place
Am I ever safe
When I blinked my eyes
I travel time
Realizing there's is something wrong
In the place where I shouldn't have enemies
Reality shifts what a fascination
I can't see clear
The world has a haze a filter of fog shielding the fear


PASseNgeR SeAt #3

[Verse]
Here
There was never a god to hold close to me in this life
In the afterlife
When I die
In the underworld
God's dead here
And the devils were made from the pain in my brain
Bleeding out through the ink that I spill
In this book that I wrote with the blood from my heart
When it broke
Oh

[Prechorus]
Ooh
And they tell me

[Chorus]
I won't be missed when I go
Nobody knows me
And I told 'em I know
But my ego
Gives me a reason to hope
I'm good for somethin'
But I'm nothin' but bones

[Verse 2]
This horror show
Melts and bleeds through your mind and out of the ink
You mix with blood inside your pen
But
God's dead here
He was never alive in this realm that you find
Yourself living in
And the pain that you feel's just your body's defense
Against dying young
But we're dying anyway

[Prechorus]
Ooh
And they tell me

[Chorus]
I won't be missed when I go
Nobody knows me
And I told 'em I know
But my ego
Gives me a reason to hope
I'm good for somethin'
But I'm nothin' but bones




GoDs DeAd HeRe GoNe INsANe

EcHoS N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Goshen, Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric  , Odium  or Void—this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
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Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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