I thought I was beat down

Screaming with no sound

Buried dead underground

Ripping off my skin

I shed

I fed the god head 



Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Skills burn deep within the in between

Life's just a joke 

Until you focus

dig your heels endlessly down 

Where you can be seen

Or bothered 

Outside of the pressures of society



Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



I know I'm not normal

Who The fuck is

How many times do I have to remove all these daggers 

Infecting my ability to sleep 

I foam thrash and beg god get these intrusive thoughts under control 

I don't want to lose everything while the world sleep

When I am Awake barley breathing 



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



from all this  synchronicity stabbing me in the halo

That bleeds through out my being under the broken ceiling

Screaming feeling something haunting me  

In the apartment I hide going through recovery





black ink oozes behind closed doors

Sliding the needles across the skin



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Pain for Pay

Trading Special  Pain for emotional physical  pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

It's takes all my minds dark fantasies run away 

Pain for Pay across Crimson cuts

Pain for pain I will never fray away this is my insanity 

From my sanity getting stronger today

I'll never go under



Pain for Pay

Pain for pain I will never fray away

From my sanity getting stronger 

Beat Down pay for pain

I remember feeling your filthy eyes scanning over my body 

when we met at the bus station  but now 

 crawling under my cloths in my memory

The plague of your ghost clawing and scratching 

 I tried to block them out

 the memories frozen in the mortuary of my souls  cracked open

Suffocating my ability to live any kind of life worth living 

 escaping the trauma bleeding out hemorrhaging    

out your violence that's been hidden shifting under my skin unknown

like a unwanted phantom limb that's murderous 

grabbing at my skin how long will this last how much more will I have to endure how much more pain do I have to pay

I cry when I remember things I know I'm not suppose to remember thanks to the disorder I didn't  even know I had that protected me from your abuse your violence fuck the thoughts of you they won't stop stabbing me in my mind over and over again

In panic and confusion I can feel the

black bile gush being forced up into my mouth 

bleeding around my teeth as I scream found in the night shaking pleading 

stop beating me you drunk fucking whore When I'm asleep in the dead of night

Covered in cold wet regret and ashamed soaking myself 

being afraid to walk away because I'm fucking scared to death of abandonment 

When the black outs into darkness became

 The signal of survival scorched burning through my veins my alters intervened 

between me, Alice and Odium they where watching waiting until  you broke me past the point of no return 

The  pattern of when you beat me in the middle of the night

 vomiting out all your memories out of my souls

 Into the rusted sink 

where I left my blood to rot and stink

When cutting out the infected left over pieces of your love out of my blood 

When I think of you I want to kill you the way you destroyed me inside and out

Keeping me alive why wouldn't let me leave you narcissistic

control freak you fucking monster domestic abusive cunt 

 I wished you would have die that last day the last time I screamed at you I hope you die over the phone

When you asked me to come save you I left you for dead like you left me for dead in a pool of my own blood dying in a rotting covered in cockroaches feasting in my wounds left in that infested broken down apartment while you got high smoking meth getting fucked by the mother fucker that attempted to kill me 

you used me up where anorexia took the place razorblades  from compulsions of self annihilation  

self harm cutting myself with your scissors in a bathroom just after the first three days of meeting you walking off the bus bitch you catfished me you fat pig slut bitch you tricked me right from the start Now today in the dark asleep shell shocked begging when screamed please stop hitting me as I lay in a pool of blood inside the bathroom where we just bathed naked fucked and kissed together  

 you made me wish I would die while I struggled to stay alive like the walking dead yellow black and blue bruised  I was your sex doll nothing more I hated every time you forced me inside 

But I know your life will always just be as you where when you were with me and drunk fucking piece of shit that should be buried alive  

I don't have to do that because 

I'm sure you will destroy your own life I don't need to hope 

 soon enough over time you'll find no rest until death

Every time I dream

night terrors attack I become homicidal 

To life my soul is set ablaze my mind infected with the Trauma beat into my head 

Screaming fighting you off me in my sleep 

Crying out not knowing where I am 

When I'm in a safe place 

Far away from you 

I now have to seek help to red myself from your disease blocked out from 

any memories I can find behind these healed black and blue eyes 





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Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

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