genuinely losing it
song: collapse- amotti
second part of the song is better imo

HEARTLESS.

Bite The

Staring zoning out why am I here. Alive with you.
What have I done with my life but abuse it i guess i lost the big fight trying to find my place in this life .
Nothing but destroy it. This is not want. My life is all fucked up this is not what I was supposed to do with my life.
Just because I never wanted to be alive 
I've accomplished nothing but being a junkie and drop out in between sin and divine 
Heat off street gives life to the shimmer of the quantum states of perceptions i am nothing and i am everything. 
As the street bends, stretchs i panic i breath this is always how it starts when I feel that feeling coming running rushing my mouth goes dry I get nauseous my pupils violated the images in front of me dancing laughing all the pain you forced fed me whore I dont know what to do know I cant even get high enough to let you go
At least the monster of you I keep chained inside. But its doesn't matter anymore. Now that my world is unacceptable for me to even imagine myself living in it smiling.

I died a million times 

I dont feel real anymore
I will never come down 
From this escape but as they say nothing lasts forever when you decay and fade away where no body cries and you never notice a day go by.
Life is just so cruel 
I wish I was never born 

So hollow so much sorrow im so glad that I cant really feel it underneath more than numb im dangerous. 
From the immediate fright that somethings is more than wrong its disgusting or disturbing 
Am I dead in this world forever or am I alive delusional or insane.




Stories Untold I don't want to Be Alive Anymore

  Echo's N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Syracuse ,  Indiana, Echo's N MelaNKholyiA emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Void, Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric ,Odium, Raven, and Death Moth this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Phuric, and Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

Stories Untold I don't want to Be Alive Anymore

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