Sleeping by the riverbed feels like I'm falling out of time
Dove in nothing more
I'll reach the bottom that's for sure

Throwing it back into my face is still the quickest way I learn
It's getting heavy underneath
Pushed off the rocks I've made my turn

Straight through the stratosphere
I've gone and lost my signal its disappeared
Coming closer to breaking through
I'm reaching for air that's what I'll do
Godspeed I can hang myself to dry with little wings by my side
Maybe then I'll be off my feet tonight instead of lying in the ferns

Watching in waves at all the ripples of starlight
Stuck in a daze my only mission is to pass by
And I am my oldest friend
We're not always holding hands
credits
releases October 31, 2023
Vocals: Patrick Salone
Guitars: Patrick Salone & Nathan Sorese
Drums: Oscar Smith
Bass: Lee Gaines
Tambourine: Patrick Salone

Mixed & Mastered by Mark Miller

Cover art by Oscar Smith

The Ferns

I'm sorry but I can't
Keep this up anymore no I won't
Try to feel the way that you want me to 'cause
I can't feel anything anymore no I don't want to
Move an inch or breath or think at all

All the unread texts that I've been sending
All the apologies without the mending
All the guilt and shame that I've been hiding
All the painful songs that I've been writing
credits
released November 18, 2023
Vocals: Nathan Sorese
Rhythm Guitar: Nathan Sorese
Lead Guitar: Patrick Salone
Drums: Oscar Smith
Bass: Lee Gaines

Mixed & Mastered by Mark Miller

Cover art Nathan Sorese & Joshua Martin

Generic Midwest Emo Song

I know it's getting hard but someday I might never see you
No please finish your story
Why'd you flake out on prescription glasses
Tell me what's on your mind
Tell me why you're happy to see him so I can tell you why I haven't been sleeping

The days always feel like weeks but sometimes years only feel like seasons
Whenever I start to think of you I wish I was at work blowing my brains out
C'mon let's finish Eraserhead
No I get it that movies kind of weird

And I can see that you're scared of social interaction
So I can see why you're beginning to alter your appearance
Some days I just want to hold you close and other days I'm just happy to be here

Throne Witches

She couldn't wait to go out and see you 
Now you've got no way of reading into it you just know the rock has never skipped this far 
I shouldn't wait to get up and leave you 

Our pride was the price of admission
It isn't fair to speculate 
Though we both had done a number to each other 
Those blue eyes tell me you miss them 

I couldn't wait to go out and see you 
Now I've got no time to read into it I just know the rock has never skipped this far 
You shouldn't wait to get up and leave too

Price of Admission

I'm sorry but I can't
Keep this up anymore no I won't
Try to feel the way that you want me to 'cause
I can't feel anything anymore no I don't want to
Move an inch or breath or think at all

All the unread texts that I've been sending
All the apologies without the mending
All the guilt and shame that I've been hiding
All the painful songs that I've been writing

I'll crawl to you like I'm supposed to now 
Everything else on the side 
If I was the man of half-past yesterdays I'd be outside buying time 

I walk through the sands and yet my eyes face the ether 
Somewhere out there it could've been mine 
He says you'll never know because I know you'll never reach them 
Besides you're doing just fine

So I'll crawl to you like I'm supposed to now 
Everything else on the side 
If I was the man of half-past yesterdays I'd be outside buying time

Crawl

I wish that I could find the words to describe just how I feel
But I'm too inarticulate and stupid so I guess I'll just lie and steal
Intrusive thoughts come and go but right now I want to punch you in the throat 
Relapse on the horizon I think I might kill myself with my fun 

But I've had so much support so please don't feel bad for me
I gouged out my own damn eyes and complain that I can't see

But I've had so much support so please don't feel bad for me 
I gouged out my own damn eyes and complain that I can't see

So tell me what's on your mind I promise its fine I've got so much time
So tell me how you feel don't gaslight yourself I promise its real
So tell me why you're upset I promise I won't say its all in your head
So tell me what you fear we'll face it together and make the fog clear

Bipolar 2

Deathscape

Flayed, Burned, And Buried

Analog Decay

Memories Of The Future

"Life is a vision, and you are but a thought."

Calming ambient soundscapes and deep, melodic electronica music for both the introspective and extro-spective mind. 

I've been producing and dabbling in ambient and electronica music for my own personal pleasure since about 2009 and use this SoundCloud account as a primary outlet for many of my creative ideas and creations, spanning between genres such as techno, ambient/space music, downtempo, industrial/dark ambient, dub, and whatever other styles I may find myself to be inspired by.

Memories Of The Future

Edmahnd