Jun 16

thanks to everyone who's ever been there to support me.

i wouldn't be here without you guys.

this was gonna be for 2k, but fuck it, you guys deserve it.

a letter to my freshman self (prod. purpan)

this is a song i wrote about overcoming my mental illness. while i'm nowhere near the end of the journey that it has been, i have learned a lot along the way and improved myself tremendously in the process. the first half of the song represents my state of mind a year ago and before, and the second represents the loving, open-minded, and even somewhat positive (occasionally) person i've become since.

thank you all.

special thanks to chloe, halli, john, jesse, joey (both of you), my mom, my grandparents, my brothers, the rest of my family, my counselors, and everyone who enjoys my music

lyrics:
i'm gonna kill myself one day, i'm sure
i'll be gone and you'll be there still
i've been standing at the edge for far too long; it's time that i jump
or pull me down 'cause either way i'll be gone
and i'm so sorry for the things that i have said
i know it hurts to have to follow
but i've been standing at the bottom of a bottle
with bones made out of glass since i could walk
and i'm still sorry for what i've done

i'm gonna live to tell the tale, i think
i've stared into the mirror for an hour, i don't hate myself no more
and i am sorry for the words that have offended you
and caused an ounce of terror in your stomach
i swear, i swear i'm always getting better
never worse, if only that were true, if only that were true
i can see it in your eyes, it's like a diamond in disguise
it's like a pilot lost his eyes and now he's truly flying blind

flying blind

Made this in like 20 mins before church so might not be as good as I expected lmao.

Kolors (Saldy Remix)

Coastal (feat. atlas) (prod. Jeff Kaale)

@hellasketchy

:-)

original piece used for cover: http://iamnotsadatall.tumblr.com/post/124478460568

warped tour (prod. hella sketchy)

Fantasy Love (feat. Atlas)

ft (atlas): https://soundcloud.com/atlas
beat (ILL G-Beatz): https://soundcloud.com/ill-g-beatz
lyrics:
(dismissedfit)
sometimes my thoughts come out lost in translation
drugs accommodating the loss and isolation
degradation of this generation. so with zero hesitation 
I seize the nomination, and please conduct a thorough investigation
of the style and skills, no ill-wills but I treat beats like it's Kill Bill
thrills the rave heads get from popping pills
keep dropping head nodding, beat knocking, sweet talking 
walk in with the mind state of a g, quotes from alchemy 
if talk is cheap we must of painted it gold
here's how the legend goes 
two men carrying the globe on their back 
atlas on the track with misfit spitting crack for the masses
greener passes for the manic depressant dope dopamine peasant
always present in the presence tense, a reflex I repent and reflect
for hours, enhancing my powers. allow us to preview the proud prowess
the gods endowed us lyrically gifted, spiritually uplifted 
torn between the music I love and the life we living 
head spinning, drink binging a poet alcoholic 
a watchamacallit 
(atlas)
sometimes my thoughts carve words in the rosetta stone
etching ancient messages and questioning the metronome
until my awkward footing starts to slip and i regret the whole
establishment i've padded with translations of the lesser-known
so you can try to rip my hands off of your weak cd
i'll be yelling "fuck laissez-faire and fuck that peace treaty!"
i don't need to be greedy to defeat a meek, needy mc
and proceed to overwrite the disc with tighter shit (hahaha)
it's like titus and leonidas arrived upon a fighter ship
stumbled each upon a fucking mic to grip
irises expanding as the rhymes align with tidal winds
and forces from the galaxy consort with every line that's spit
so i'm holding on the pen like it's a safety rail
moving syllables with force to make a train derail
faking confidence and following a snaking trail
through passages of affluence with aforementioned rain and hail

just trying to find an ending to this passage
that isn't death or neglegence or existential madness
so, floating in my raft through this ocean of posits
i'll remain here as a whatchamacalit... a whatchamacalit

watchamacallit ft. atlas (prod. ILL G-Beatz)

i made a promise to myself that i would never fall
but you ran into me like a fucking brick wall 
how could i ignore the way your hair fell 
in your eyes - its like - how can you just expect me to
just go on with my life 

[ darling you talk like poetry
but you never talk to me ]

you never talk to me

Thankful for every single person that listens to my music. I hope you like this song. If not there is more coming and coming and coming....

Also, for the person that asks lyrics i'll make sure to do this for every song.

LYRICS

I’ve been falling down
I’ve been falling falling down
I’ve been I’ve been

I’ve been falling down a rabbit hole
chasing my goals
closer I get
the further that they seem to go
it doesn’t make sense
Win big then blow it all in Vegas
I’m the new language
one you wanna hang with
if you believe in god can you please start praying
better yet just start playing
my shit / I’ve been listening to the radio
heard you only need one hit
(One hit)
Well fuck that
I got a catalogue
of dialogue
to blast of like an astronaut
 
uh, that’s wasn’t shot                       
if it was you would of saw a body drop
anyways I’d do it by hand with uh molliwop
Plop, there goes another
Never fought for myself only for my brothers
hands all covered in blood
i’m a pacifist
well at least I thought that I was
puffing on some bud
so I don’t really wanna fight
just want to dive deeper in this rabbit hole tonight
so this is uh invitation
for a little bit of salvation
no obligation
just exploration
only thing better then  education
better hurry up though
cause the train is leaving the station
yah it’s leaving station

(Train Sound Effects)


I’ve been falling down a rabbit hole
chasing my goals
closer I get
the further that they seem to go
it doesn’t make sense
Win big then blow it all in Vegas
I’m the new language
one you wanna hang with
if you believe in god can you please start praying
better yet just start playing
my shit / I’ve been listening to the radio
heard you only need one hit
(one hit, one hit)




I’ve been falling down
I’ve been falling falling down
I’ve been I’ve been

I’ve been falling down a rabbit hole
chasing my goals
closer I get
the further that they seem to go
it doesn’t make sense
Win big then blow it all in Vegas
I’m the new language
one you wanna hang with
if you believe in god can you please start praying
better yet just start playing
my shit / I’ve been listening to the radio
heard you only need one hit
(One hit)
Well fuck that
I got a catalogue
of dialogue
to blast of like an astronaut
 
uh, that’s wasn’t shot                      
if it was you would of saw a body drop
anyways I’d do it by hand with uh molliwop
Plop, there goes another
Never fought for myself only for my brothers
hands all covered in blood
i’m a pacifist
well at least I thought that I was
puffing on some bud
so I don’t really wanna fight
just want to dive deeper in this rabbit hole tonight
so this is uh invitation
for a little bit of salvation
no obligation
just exploration
only thing better then formal education
better hurry up though
cause the train is leaving the station
yah it’s leaving station

(Train Sound Effects)


I’ve been falling down a rabbit hole
chasing my goals
closer I get
the further that they seem to go
it doesn’t make sense
Win big then blow it all in Vegas
I’m the new language
one you wanna hang with
if you believe in god can you please start praying
better yet just start playing
my shit / I’ve been listening to the radio
heard you only need one hit
(one hit, one hit)

Rabbit Hole

[kuh-thekt, ka-] 
verb (used with object), Psychoanalysis.
1.
to invest emotion or feeling in (an idea, object, or another person).

Thanks for everything <3

ｃａｔｈｅｃｔ

first part produced by @flayvors @smwun, second part produced by me

LYRICS:

coffee in the mornings
afternoons i lay awake
and hope that something's out there
something that can take away
my breaking state of mind
breaking state of hatefulness
it happens all the time
it happens

having coffee in the mornings
afternoons i waste away
and hope that he returns soon
smiling with patient grace
and makes sure that i'm fine
makes sure that my mind is calm
it happens all the time
it happens

it happens, it happens
it happens, it happens

like a plane crash shark bite, i know that the chance is low
but i'll be waiting here until the day that you can stand to go
where i am, 'cause i'm not a patient man
but i could wait forever for another chance to take your hand
and dance in place, break a manic state and start to feel again
drift through space, kiss my bliss away inside a helix spin
wistful hate, self-inclined and self-inflicated lately
i'm no help with livin', dear, i'm just a selfish fucking baby
and that's too real... far too real to ever say it
so i'll rewrite this verse again and strike all the cursive penned
and think of something better, a bit less detrimental
my life is still in beta... my hit-reg existential
for now, at least, i cower in my coward speech
happiness is out of reach whenever you are out of reach
i'd give it all away for just a single hour each
where both of us can come to terms with our off-balance feet
and learn to walk again

bottom of abyss or bottom feeding bottom-barrell staring
old apparel wearing, take the ferry in to bury him
sanitarium i spend my days and my nights quite
often, off it, talking toxic nonsense
common knowledge brought straight to the tables
stray from the fables, play through the cables
so the sound resonates in every nook and every cranny
read the book and popped a xanny every crook i got uncanny
at the last of it, taxing your passages, rapping a masochist
back to the past a bit, adamant savages, mad at him
hold the talisman above my fucking head like a trophy
and hold your head up in the air like a talisman
no battles or second chances around if you tattlin
all these snakes when they rattlin turn to vacancies after it's said and done
no rest for a setting sun, so impressed that you've never done
what you claiming... fuck the game and the statements, i've said enough

peace

IT HAPPENS // DIRT

It's been a weird day, just wanted to get some shit off my chest. Thank you all for the support it really keeps me going some days

prod. by https://soundcloud.com/slominu
cover art by @chriswrightotj
mixed by me

Lyrics:

Most of my friends?
Shit...
They wanna kill themselves 
We only got one life so I'm just tryna live it well
See most of mine so far was spent inside afraid of failure
I've got such few stories to tell I feel like a failure
And that's some real shit, but god damn it's about time
Needed that knock down to realize I ain't even tried to fly yet
Stuck on auto pilot
Flipped the switch and said fuck being comfortable, that's a waste of time
Bro I'll gladly fuck with you as long as you not wasting mine, like some people
I told them fucks see you later
I gotta go I aint waiting
Watch em dry up like raisins
I swear this life is a babe and I keep my bitch wet 
These days aint got time for no games, but I'm spitting game making plays while you on the benches
I wanna be unsure, wanna grab life by the horns and try to hold on
Rapping through the muthafuckin roof until the flow gone
I'm so gone
Been ridin through these city streets
Tryna stay a busy bee
We not thinking bout the cannots just possibilities

and most of my friends
and most of my friends said that's silly b

different love [prod. by rook1e]

oh hi... didnt see you there

LYRICS:

Girl I’m sorry that I needed you
I’m fucked up all the time
I been drinking more than usual
Cant tell my left from right
Thats true, right thats true

Girl I’m sorry I been using you 
Its fucked up, yeah you right
I been drinking more than usual 
And I don’t know the time
Come through, try and come through

I thought it was different
But how could I miss it
I thought it was over
I thought we were distant
Thought I could forget this
I thought when I called you would answer “who is it?”
Ain’t like I predicted
You say that you been with somebody who is it?
Thats none of my business
But I’m so persistent
I’m so insistent on paying the Uber for you to come through to me
Pick you up in person usually
But the liquor really getting to the kid and missing you is kinda new to me
Reminiscing fits you beautifully
Your sentiment would mean the moon to me
Come inside and we can find out why you always used to want to share the room with me
Why you so perfect in hindsight?
Just wasn’t perfectly timed right
Wish that we knew it in unison
Wish that it wasn’t so perfectly finite
Wish you was with me this fine night,
and I wasn’t leaving you messages
Texting you hoping you getting this
Dammit I hope that you getting this

Girl I’m sorry that I needed you
I’m fucked up all the time
I been drinking more than usual
Cant tell my left from right
Thats true, right thats true

Girl I’m sorry I been using you 
Its fucked up, yeah you right
I been drinking more than usual 
And I don’t know the time
Come through, try and come through

Look what I did for you
Look what I’m doing in spite of the fact that I know that I’ll never mean shit to you
All of these feelings are feeling the same I been feeling a way its so 
typical, This just the residual
I flew to your state but I never could get to you
Pathetic I’m missing you 
Its been a minute you’d think I’d be sick of you
I wish but then I’d be lying
My head wanders all the time
Wish I was still on your mind
So it’d be okay that you all on mine
I down the bottle and levitate
I know there’s nothing to celebrate
Should sleep but I want the reply
Keep checking my phone till it dies
And I do not know what I want at this point I just need to go sit and relax
Cause right now my thoughts have been centered on you I just lit it then ashed
And right now I need it cause I do not want to go thinking the simplest facts
Like how I’m not getting you back

Girl I’m sorry that I needed you
I’m fucked up all the time
I been drinking more than usual
Cant tell my left from right
Thats true, right thats true

Girl I’m sorry I been using you 
Its fucked up, yeah you right
I been drinking more than usual 
And I don’t know the time
Come through, try and come through

Fantasy Love (feat. Atlas)

EGODTHsound

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