fail to deny it (prod. hayku)

For a friend that I feel I am growing apart from

Mixed/Mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
I hate having to pick sides
I wish everyone was on my side
But I can't always have it my way
Forcing things will only bring me pain
[Verse 1]
I don't want to throw anyone under the bus
It hurt when I chose to cut one of my friends off
Leaving you would definitely leave a hole in my heart
You've known me since the very start
Right now it feels like I'm playing tug a war with my emotions
It's a good thing that I learned to be a little more open
Just thinking about what to say to you is already making me lose focus
I just hope that when I tell you the truth it isn't too potent
[Verse 2]
Our friendship means a lot to me
This might be the first time I tell you sorry
I know that it's risky after how far we've come
I hate it, I hate it
But it must be done

I couldn't concentrate during the match (prod. frevel x 5head)

https://soundcloud.com/secre_swallowtail?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

This is a cry for help

Lyrics

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

but “just stay positive”, is worthless when my feelings numb
“Just hang in there”, from my ceiling in a minute huh?
I make a point to never rely on somebody else
Cos When I’m suffering i try to keep it to myself

put my feelings to the side to try maintain my health
But its eating me from inside please somebody help
I think nobody heard my cries im on my own in hell
lying on my side i swear i can hear heavens bells

I spent the last few days just tryna figure out myself
i struggle doing basic shit without somebodies help
i struggle functioning without the pills on top my shelf
Maybe one day i will feel better about myself

Im a zombie on the drugs isn’t it obvious
These days i swear even just breathing feels laborious
Overdosing on my sorrow, 
sprinkling angel dust
Take a couple more 
Ill feel my body slowly rust
Wont be long till my depression is victorious
post my final goodbye on my Insta story huh
whats the point if all my happiness vicarious
thinking bout the future can be kinda scary huh

zombie (secre x just rt productions)

nevrfall sequel 😈

shoutout @ztope for mix and mastr

lyrics

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth, picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

ill wait, wait for u to call my name 
uh, but
we dont got long i wont be forming greys
hey,
this aint my fault i was saved 
had no choice, i was left in acid rain
 

no, now u jus stabbin me
dont, dont let me off easy
woah i cant tell if this a dream 
mirror always fogs when i think i know what i see

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 

pulled on strings oh im more than aware
oh im not lost i just reak of despair

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth while picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

paying fees to the dark and unstable
sparks flare as the tags on the toes are unabaled
hearts warm but its taking its toll on the brain
step forward, im in need of updating

everythings gonna be ok

everythings gonna be ok (nevrfall)

liar

second single off album w/ @flesh golem
mix & mastr @fleshgolem

lyrics

it feels safe here 
layered warmth
with my skin on ur skin 
something forms
there lays pain here 
and till im forty i wont ever take for granted what was alleviated 
im all urs

im all urs x4

what is left 
is all urs 
rotten flesh 
in my pours

opening up
ive been trying
speed not what she used to yeah and no she cryin 

i been mixing it up 
i been frying 
breathing in these particles 
my flesh been dying

throwing up 
on the phone 
outta touch
but right at home 

right at home x4

oh my word
every single day 
every single day that goes by x2

be safe, for me

be safe; for me (flesh x pekarot)

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

no samples used
visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LKv2MdMEQ5I

hey guys, i haven't been able to record much vocals lately, so here's this instrumental i've been working on & off on for the past few months.
hope you enjoy 🖤
i appreciate you all so much.
thank you for being here & listening

ａｍｏｎｇ　ｔｈｅ　ｅａｒｔｈ，
ｂｅｎｅａｔｈ　ｔｈｅ　ｄｉｒｔ

i don't expect this to last

Im going back now to cold floors and blood
Could we walk through the house again?
I remember the way that the words sounded better inside of my head
In December, think they saw the way I was, yet
I can’t even recall
When I start to stay away just wait for the dust til it settles

And you know you don’t have to say it
Just hold me like you want to be found
And don’t know whats happening lately
Just hold me like you want to be found

Getting folded, why it feel so good?
Ive been inside, I’ve been me too much
I can see the fog on the street from above
Wonder why it matters if its almost done
If its almost one of the days that im gonna pop
I just keep the promises deeper inside of the box
Always kinda thought just to keep it locked
Thought that it was safe when its really not

Tell me youre feeling it
I keep the pills in the ceiling
I pass them off they do shit for me
but block out the thoughts that were nearly clear
visions of you on the balcony
I couldn’t be what I had to be
I got so numb I just had to leave
Back to the clinic in Albany

And you know you don’t have to say it
Just hold me like you want to be found
And don’t know whats happening lately
Just hold me like you want to be found

Symptoms

featuring: @grayfcx
prod by: the switch

Lyrics:

got the body of a joker
but the heart of a king
hold my feet in the lake hope i sink
got the body of a joker
but the heart of a king
watch the world on the throne imma sit

(steadyhearts)
it's graduation time in the morning
everybody want me now
now i'm touring
touring around the world in my foreign
skrrt skrrt going round in my four rings

four rings 60 in the 30 going until i blackout
everybody want me now but they won't when i pass

i've been working hard day and night
everybody send me texts saying are you alright?
i've been doing just fine
i don't really know why
i find the trust in people i don't like 
i don't know, i don't know why

(grayfox)

(141)i dont know why, kiss me when the times right,
i got two knives, meet me in the moonlight,
suicide pact, see me at the white light, 
hit it right, blood on my glove like its fight night,
yeah and its fright night again, 
halloween season, baby go and call your friends 
four in the cup ima sip it til the end,
and i dont give a fuck baby she my harley quinn,
im a cut throat 

(steadyhearts)
got the body of a joker
but the heart of a king
hold my feet in the lake hope i sink
got the body of a joker
but the heart of a king
watch the world on the throne imma sit

(HA HA HA HA HA)
*tango down*

BODY OF A JOKER w/ SENDFLOWRS(theswitch)

first single off my ep "i never asked for this", dropping december 25th!

thank u so much to @fantasycamp for featuring on this
and @nevrfall and @sainttomorrow for the wonderful production
cover art by evan carr :)

lyrics:
[decks]
light fading
im waiting
give me a reason
something to believe in
i can’t go back and i know that
im desperate and i show that
am i right or am i too naive
why won’t you leave
why won’t you leave

[fantasy camp]
goin through the motions but we’re faded
yeah time and time again it’s still the same shit
and im sorry if i ever kept you waiting
i just think that we’re in two different places
and i know its gonna kill me just to let go
but its easier than trying to forget though
there’s a place for you inside my heart forever
in my spirit we will always be together
i won’t let you down again
and this time i swear i mean it
all good things come to an end
and i think we’re both defeated
so let’s just take time
to find ourselves again
and i’ll wait right here
to find you at the end

[decks]
light fading
im waiting
give me a reason
something to believe in
i can’t go back and i know that
im desperate and i show that
am i right or am i too naive
why won’t you leave
why won’t you leave

I couldn't concentrate during the match (prod. frevel x 5head)

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