Alive 2nd go writing

you're right
this is why
i think of you 
as a beacon of light

there is nothing
out there
that makes me feel 
alive

the way you do 
the way
you make 
me lose my mind 

i can’t comprehend 
cuz magic
under the madness 
is right where we reside

we are all 
searching for 
anything special  
but nobody’s got 
the time 
heart and soul 
or peace of mind 

you’re right 
on time 
had a feeling you
were a beacon light 

the fear that nothing 
Will ever compare 
is way too real 
just like 

the way you are 
the way
you make the world  
so bright 

we transcend 
the static 
irregular erratic 
like no one has nothing to hide 

we are all 
searching for 
anything special  
but nobody’s got 
the time 
heart and soul 
or peace of mind 

while the world keeps spinning 
everybody’s givin’ up 
cuz no one cares 

i wish we coulda sooner realized 
it takes fuck all to empathize 
you’re braving all of this alone 
while navigating foreign roads 

i’ll find you wherever
your heart leads us

will you take me there 
come on it’s time to go

lead us anywhere 
outside the province 

with you anywhere 
feels like  home

Beacon of Light (Writing demo)

It’s just so wild   
How clear 
Some kind of magical imagery
Can’t seem
To escape my mind 
they almost feel
like old memories
of you and me
from outside 
reality 
maybe start first
inside a dream
another entire universe
it’s just so wild
my dear 
with every melody 
you show me 
something
impossible to describe 
no fate no figment no fear 
like old memories 
of you and me 
from outside 
reality 
maybe it start first
inside a dream
way out there 
in the dark 
Universe 
time space
and everything 
overthinkin 
you are 
the worst 
no nothing 
never meant 
anything 
till you felt your
heart burst

Reality (working title) (writing)

Rolling 2nd Night Rough6

doubt7 camp

ECSTATIC MOTION

our days are numbered 
ecstatic motion 
hold on
now don’t you cry 
you are the light 

you’re ruining the fun  
imagine what we could have done 
there’s a hole in the sun
she’s setting fire to every one 

I AM THE UNIVERSE 
I AM ALL THAT SURROUNDS
I AM THE PROPHECY
a burning castle collapsing  


ECSTATIC MOTION
you are 
ruining the fun
look at what you have become 
there’s an error in the sun
she leaves a mark on everyone 

I AM THE UNIVERSE 
I AM LOST
I AM FOUND 
I AM INFINITY
forever devouring 


IF IT’S THE END
THEN IT’S THE END
IF IT’S THE END 
LET IT BE

IF IT’S THE END
THEN IT’S THE END
IF IT’S THE END 
THEN LET IT BE THE END
THE END

LET IT BE THE END
THE END 
IT’S THE END 

IF IT’S THE END
LET IT BEGIN


I AM THE UNIVERSE 
I AM LOST
I AM FOUND
I AM TRUE DIVINITY
forever expanding 


I AM THE UNIVERSE 
I AM ALL THAT SURROUNDS
I AM THE PROPHECY
a burning castle collapsing

Ecstatic Motion (4)

Deafboy roughcampmix2

Beginners Luck - KGLW vocal cover

Pure Joy vocal mix night 2-5

Alive 3 camp5

Alive 3 camp6

No. 12 Love (demo)

don't be jealous writing 4

don't be jealous writing 14

What You love (potential favouriteversion)

It seems like yesterday
But it was long ago
Janey was lovely, she was the queen of my nights
There in the darkness with the radio playlng low
And the secrets that we shared
The mountains that we moved
Caught like a wildfire out of control
Till there was nothing left to burn and nothing left to prove

And I remember what she said to me
How she swore that it never would end
I remember how she held me oh so tight
Wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then

Against the wind
We were runnin' against the wind
We were young and strong, we were runnin'
Against the wind

And the years rolled slowly past
And I found myself alone
Surrounded by strangers I thought were my friends
I found myself further and further from my home
And I guess I lost my way
There were oh so many roads
I was living to run and running to live
Never worried about paying or even how much I owed
Moving eight miles a minute for months at a time
Breaking all of the rules that would bend
I began to find myself searchin'
Searchin' for shelter again and again
Against the wind
A little something against the wind
I found myself seeking shelter against the wind

Well those drifters days are past me now
I've got so much more to think about
Deadlines and commitments
What to leave in, what to leave out

Against the wind
I'm still runnin' against the wind
I'm older now but still running
Against the wind
Well I'm older now and still running
Against the wind

Against The Wind (Bob Seger cover)

I don’t wanna really want to know
If reality exists in a black hole 
While the distance between 
space and void 
Does nothing but grow

I swear it’s not that I don’t care
supermassive or small 
everything is everywhere 
nobody’s getting out alive 
So breathe in the air 

yeah 
Oh boy 
The worlds gone crazy
yeah it keeps on
Spinning round and round 
And it’s never gonna slow down
but my feet 
are still on the ground 

it was all for us
not for us or them 
You fuck around 
you find out  

Heavens gone
Nothing’s left 
of the pantheon  

so far beyond 
the Infinite light
Where the stars shone

At the break of dawn 
every hand will become
The deadliest weapon drawn

And when heavens gone 
Who will be last to bleed 
on the final blade fallen upon 


pantheon vox 1 rough

ONE LIFE


[VERSE]
out there is no sign
of life after all 
but i’m feeling like 
there is something here
somebody take the wheel
there’s no time 
like the present after all 
it’s alright 
now 
get to the point 

[PRE 1]
wanna know 
why I feel
how I feel
so surreal 

[CHORUS 1]
like 
the tide 
and the moon
codependent
like 
the mountains 
need the forest rain

[VERSE]
there could be a light 
at the end of the tunnel
what do we fight for
why disagree 
when freedom means

[CHORUS 2]
peace on Earth
is codependent on  
doing unto others
inflicting zero pain
it’s just another day
where everything 
is everything 
and we all have a right to be 
anything we like to be
that’s LIFE
it’s alright 

[PRE 2]
why do we feel
what is real
how does it feel 
to know we are one with 

[CHORUS 3]
the sky and the stars
never ending
over the horizon
where would you rather be
so raise your hands 
for the world you see
praise the land 
embrace in 
all of her glory     
cuz it is up to us to keep
from destroying 
everything in sight
but we just might
pull it together 
in time
don’t have to say goodbye 
we only get

ONE LIFE

one life writing demo 2

Relentless (catchy folk guitar part)  3

Don’t Fuck With My Cat



I’m Stamina Stukes 
ya better put up yer dukes

I’m a rap battlin’ 
master mind  rattlin’ 
rhyme blastin’ 
prominent hand pet n’ her

rubbing her back  
she really chill like dat 

pussy purrin’
in the palm of my hand   

instead 
I’m playin’ dead 
login in online 
unlisted as advertised 

fuck the scammers
practicin’ trash handlin’
teeth gnashin’ bastards
cash in hand 
post wallstreet 
market crash 
disasters 

now i’m tasked 
with askin’ 
for some ass backward 
backwards past record 

fat chance 
keeping track 
answer n’
master alive
convoluted hint
code access denied

a view of the the past 
to gain password access 
name the bastard animal 
that came back gaspin’
 
post traumatic
panic 
savage 
level 99 
maxin’ out  
in spectacular fashion 

today is just another day
fuck with my cat 
and you won’t see another year 

  
And there is nothing 
more to say 
piss off my cat 
and just like that you disappear 
just like that 

in spectacular fashion 
maxed out  
level 99 
savage 
panic 
post traumatic

that came back gaspin’
name the bastard animal 
to gain password access 
a view of the the past 

within a future denied
to crack the code 
just one more hint 
master alive
answer n’
fat chance keeping track 
backwards past record 
for some ass backward 
with askin’ 
now i’m tasked 

disasters 
market crash 
post wallstreet 
cash in hand 
teeth gnashin’ bastards
practicin’ trash handlin’
fuck the scammers

listed as advertised 
i’m login in online 
you’re playin’ dead 
instead 

in the palm of my hand
dat pussy purrin’
she really chill like 
rubbing her back  

prominent hand pet n’ her
rhyme blastin’ 
master mind  rattlin’ 
rap battlin’ 

today is just another day
fuck with my cat 
and you won’t see 
another year 
And there is nothing 
more to say 
piss off my cat 
and just like that 
you disappear 
just like that 



,

don't fuck with my cat v2.4

[Verse 1]
oh 
there’s still time 
for making plans 
but not when 
you’re in and out 
of your head 

feeling like
you’re always falling down 
and nothing else
will be there to 
catch you 
when you’re dead

when the 
morning comes
Like a big ol’ lightning bolt 
struck in straight 
into your brain 
alone in your bed 

oh lord 
oh hell yeah 
god damn 
One day 
you’ll get it right 
all in time 
still something’s gotta give

[Chorus]
Sun filled
buzz thrill disaster
nothing’s like 
some fun 
and laughter
to wash away 
down the drain 
misery
hey
love kills
you dumb fuckin’ bastard
living life 
faster and faster 
every day
drowning pain out

[Verse 2]
hope there’s still time 
for making plans 
cuz everyone’s in and out 
of their heads 

oh lord 
god damn 
one day 
you’ll get it right 
still something’s
gotta give 

[Pre chorus]
hey you
you’ll be great kid 
you gotta take (fake) it
till you make it 
right on time
I know you 
don’t wanna 
waste it
are ya gonna break what’s 
left of that 
heart of mine 

[Chorus 2]
sun filled
buzz thrill disaster
nothin’ like 
some fun and laughter
to wash away 
down the drain 
all your misery
hey
love kills
you dumb 
little bastard
living life 
faster and faster 
every day
to drown the pain out 
out

[Bridge]
and when the stars at night 
are making you feel so small inside 
peace of mind
connects the body with soul 
oh yeah 
uh oh
but where do we all go 
when we die 
nobody knows 
it’s alright 
all you got to know 

[Outro]
is love kills 
love kills 
you dumb fuckin’ bastard 
love kills 
hmmm
love kills

lightning bolt 3.0

(Matt)
what would you say 
if i was on the bridge 
staring down at the river 
you always said 
i’d ruin my life 
destroying my liver 
 
you’re always passing the blame 
it’s not a game 
it’s not my fault
it’s all your fault 
it’s all your fucking fault babe 

(calen)
staring up at the moon in the sky 
was the only thing we ever had in fucking common
And the stars at night shooting 
wish it was me in the head 

everything you said was a lie 
you said you wish i would die
after hitting rock bottom 

(Matt)
now i’m alone 
skipping stones 
i miss home 
but i am
better off dead  
that’s what you said
That’s what you said 

(Calen)
what would you say 
if i was under the bridge 
(Living in a van)
Down by  the river 
you always said 
i’d ruin my life 
the way i’m destroying my liver 
you’re always passing the blame 
it’s not a game 
it’s not my fault
it’s all your fault 
it’s all your fucking fault babe 

(Matt)
staring up at the moon in the sky 
was the only thing we ever had in fucking common
And the stars at night shooting 
wish it was me in the head 

(Calen)
everything that you said was a lie you said 
you said you wish i would die

(Calen)
And die alone 
skipping stones 
i miss home 
but i am
   
better off dead  
that’s what you said


(Matt)
i’m alone 
skipping stones 
i miss home 
but i am
better off dead  
that’s what you said
That’s what you said

skipping rocks v2.3

well it seems 
like something 
is off these days
I’m tryna listen 
but its so hard to hear 
the louder it gets
more and more 
have their say 
hard to know 
which fear 
is the right fear 
to fear 

I guess  
i’m a bit afraid  
of getting in trouble  
for saying anything 
that don’t quite align 

  
with what 
some people might find 
a little too offensive 
don’t wanna trigger 
another angry mind 

it’s not that hard 
to be a good person 
no It doesn’t 
make you smart
getting pissed off 
all day

everyone is a part 
of this life 
that is certain 
so open your heart
or nothing 
is ever gonna change  

well I realize 
it’s easier 
said than done
especially 
while it gets worse
every year 
some call it a weapon 
some call it a gun 
all I know is 
it’s always 
lead here

I guess right now 
might be afraid  
of losing my job 
for thinking 
‘bout something 
outta line   
I know 
most people are kind
so that’s why I’m asking 
why this trigger 
pulled a bigger divide 

oh but it’s not that hard 
to be a good person 
no It doesn’t 
make you smart
getting pissed off 
all day

everybody plays a part 
in this life 
that’s for certain 
so if you’r not 
gonna open your heart 
I hate to say it
but nothing
is ever gonna change

EMPATHY (demo)

Wave of the Future 2025 2.6

Mysterious revisit 2.0

Like a cry out into the wild 
I made up my mind as a child
But I tend to wait
And overcomplicate
Just who I am

But if I could choose one path
Would it look something like
The one behind by back
Or do maybe I
Spend too much time
Kidding around?

It’s so mysterious
Like a carving on a table 
Left behind by two of us
A year
A day
And a month 

Now I’m remembering those nights 
By the water 
And I can’t get out of my head
For the life of myself

When I got carried away
Is when I lost her
Just one more bad idea
Sounds like a good place to start
Before I head back home 

Might End up 
learning a hard lesson
Losing track of time 
on empty thought
So open up your mind eyes 
Make her smile 
the biggest prize 
You’d ever won

And when the dream
is what you’re living
Trade in your weaknesses
for the passion
It’s the most beautiful things
Like a bird that sings
Without asking 
for your attention 

It’s so mysterious 
Like the way her eyes 
Found their way to mine 
As she stepped off the bus 
Wish I could forget
How mad as I was 

Now I’m thinking bout those nights 
By the water 
Without any doubt in my mind
Those were the days of our lives 

We got carried away
But I still loved her
There is magic in my memories 
and I know that is real 
But every time I got it wrong 
Another bad idea
Another broken heart 
Before I head back home

Might I add 
Before I hit the road 
You were the best i ever had 
Those summer forever valley days 
Now Looking back 
It’s hard to stop holding on
 you will find yourself again
Meant to be 
you’ve always been 
Time it teaches everything 
Needed to know
And love will guide us home 


Mysterious v2.0

[Verse 1]
tell me why 
why it’s so hard 
hard to find 
a beacon of light 
a flow state of mind 
cuz I
I’ve been searching
for any kind of sign
all of my life 
must have just lost track 
of the time  

[Pre 1]
here’s to a brand new year
a brand new me 
this time 
is gonna be different 
don’t give into the fear 
follow your dreams
some day 
you’re gonna get it 
right

[Chorus 1]
I
i’m dying to know 
what is this feeling 
this feeling i’m being eaten alive 

[Verse 2]
now tell me where 
where is the love 
the love we all share
Do you feel like you’re missing out 
does anybody care?

because i
I am certain 
certain we are all alive
but i’ll never figure out why 
why we’re never 
gonna see 
eye to eye 


[Pre 2]
here’s to another year
of promise of change
this time 
I swear it’s gonna be different 
soon it will all be clear  
whatever that means 
but today
I lost track of the time  

[Chorus 2]
and I
i’m dying to know 
what is this feeling 
this feeling like i’m being eaten alive 
body mind and soul  
i can’t believe it
it’s too dark to see
in front of me 
In the light

what is this feeling (demo1)

All songs and instruments written, performed, and recorded by me.

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