https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey
https://soundcloud.com/erlaxcase

Lyrics

Salt in mouth from the tears down my face
I did what I did out of love now I hate
Myself

But I ain't got regrets
I live for my dreams and I'll die for my friends
Tight in my chest and my panic in the making
Fighting for breaths cuz my mind got me breaking

My body be shaking
Blood is escaping
Shit got me wondering if Ima make it

And I be scared
To message my friends
To tell em I'm manic and I'm on bend

Like what can they say
And what can they do
I know the answer, and they know it too

Nothing can save me
Shit I am broken
I'm just a baby
Crying from motion

Shit I been fighting some thoughts
So I'm writing these bars
So I ain't end it all

I be crying
As I write this song
I be fighting
But I ain't that strong

What is right now
I know only wrong
Where did I go
I was happy once

I was happy once
I hate what I have become
I knew happiness
Now I know that pain is shit

I knew not to quit
Now I'm looking down a bridge
I knew happiness
I knew happiness

Meeting new people
In new places
I don't need it
They'll let you down

Meeting new people
In new places
I don't need it
They'll let you down

Oh stop overthinking it son
Nothing matters its
The moments you live
All the times your heart won
Don't let the cunts make u come undone
Don't let the cunts make u come undone

Oh stop overthinking it son
Nothing matters its
The moments you live
All the times your heart won
Don't let the cunts make you come undone
Don't let the cunts make you come undone

Salt in mouth from the tears down my face
I did what I did out of love now I hate
Myself

But I ain't got regrets
I live for my dreams and I'll die for my friends
Tight in my chest and my panic in the making
Fighting for breaths cuz my mind got me breaking

My body be shaking
Blood is escaping
Shit got me wondering if Ima make it

Happy

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Happy w/ SEPHA (ERLAX)

LSD with Dante X

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

survive [prod. noria]

swagman freestyle

Youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ke84PZSt6_c




Shout out to everyone involved my lazy ass took forever
https://soundcloud.com/kamaara
https://soundcloud.com/rottingroots
https://soundcloud.com/jonlemonsucks
https://soundcloud.com/trashgawd
https://soundcloud.com/renob
https://soundcloud.com/endoindigo
https://soundcloud.com/freshtwofresh

DEAD LIKE THE REST FEAT. KAMAARA AND JON LEMON PROD. INDIGOENDO

Official Music Video: https://youtu.be/4Tp5bL88tUE

in my darkest of days. 
Written, Produced, Mixed/Mastered by Elijah Heaps
Cover Photo by @prodneomada

Lyrics:
i been feeling like a joke
so low
you cant see me im a ghost
i know
ive been down here at my lows
my lows
i got nowhere else to go
to go

now im leaving from my home
my home
i got nowhere else to go
to go
now im running from my home
i have nowhere else to go
so cold

ive been dreaming of the coast
white snow
life and death are what you make it
i know
took a couple from the sheet
i thought
this could not happen to me
my god

ive been trugding the seas
but now im on my knees for you
i love your company
girl can you take my mind off of everything

i been feeling like a joke
so low
you cant see me im a ghost
i know
ive been down here at my lows
my lows
i got nowhere else to go
to go

now im leaving from my home
my home
i got nowhere else to go
to go
now im running from my home
i have nowhere else to go
so cold

NowhereElseToGo (prod. Elijah Heaps)

Lyrics:

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 1:
Tell me is it all worth it or not,
I put everything I got into this I rehearse what I jot,
Going broke just to make it fuckin work to be honest,
I been getting impatient with the whole fucking process,
Music is my outlet to express myself,
So fuck it I ain't holding back I'm who's next to hell with who you bumping cuz a motha fucka rhymes are weak,
I stay humble but I gotta speak what I believe,
It's like I wanna blow up but I don't,
Cuz I'm tired of being alone broke stuck in my home,
I just wanna do shows tour the whole fucking globe,
But these fucking labels call me and they ghosting my phone,
Fuck it I don't need em,
Or your idols feature,
I came up in this shit alone and still nobody speak the real shit that I been speaking,
Make a fuckin image and a fake persona,
So the checks stay coming in until their banks are fuller,
Fuck

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

Verse 2:
Back when I was younger I knew I just wanna rap,
Nowadays talent doesn't even matter only stats do,
That's why the best artists always in the back and the other motha fuckas songs simpler to rap to,
I been through too much,
And if I give it up I invested too much,
So it wouldn't be worth it not at all,
Made a promise that it all would come together to my mom and she believed in me when I was writing lyrics in the halls,
Now that falls approaching,
My anxiety been creeping while I'm tryna focus,
People constantly DM me saying I'ma blow up anyday,
So I'm grateful where I came from and that I'm saving lives everyday,
If you cry to this just know I felt the same,
The last few days been so fucking stressful on my brain,
But my message is as plain as thank you all who show support,
And I'm glad I could do the same through the songs that I record

Chorus:
If I ain't love this I'd say fuck it I would just walk away,
Avoid the public often cuz I just don't fuck with the fake,
It kinda sucks when what you hate is what is up in the game,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing,
But I got love for anyone of you we one and the same,
I find the jealousy you harbor is whats causing you pain,
All of these people they look up to me and others they hate,
Anyways I'ma stay doing my thing

rabbit hole (prod. KAMAARA)

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LYRICS

RIVILIN:

Shaking in your hand, not it won’t stop
Panic attacks seem to reside in your blood
What’s it like when you lose touch
Waking in your bed, im the failure that you couldn’t just love

Flicking your ash on my cheek, 
I don’t want this I don’t want
Cutting me down so deep
I feel like im just not enough

lip tremble eyes struggle just to focus now
weighing on my conscious I just feel like im about to drown
covering my ears, the water rises
your voice still blocks the horizon

I see your ghost in my dreams
explaining why you just leave
depression got too much
and you just had to block out the noise


$LOTHBOI:

Drown in pain
Drown in hate

I feel the pain
All in me

Shallow breaths
Steal my life lately
Tight my chest the
Panic hates me

Panicked thoughts all in my head yeah
Memories replaying dread man
How can I be expected
To live this life, shit this aint it

2nd verse

Manic depression
My body be trembling

Tight in my chest
I ain’t think I’mma make it

Gasping for breath
Cuz these demons gun take it

Fighting for life
But I’m breaking to pieces

Cry through my days
Why do I hate me

I’m not okay
My mind is crazy

What can I say
I’m feeling hazy

Why do I hate me
I’m tryna save me

Burning my skin just to forget the pain
Seeded in memories inside my brain
Tryna forget my collection of bad days
Inside my head the trauma did some damage

Sloth ain’t the same he’s been changed from the pain
and bet Rivilin’s trauma still haunting his days
We fight past our memories living in pain
but we’re Void of the happiness we lost that day

Not Enough (Ft. $LOTHBOI)

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/sethbest-sb
Lyrics & Vocals: https://soundcloud.com/yamissin & https://soundcloud.com/sshvdow
Mixing & Mastering: hyu
Sample by: https://soundcloud.com/yamissin


the thoughts in your mind
the feeling of death
it's coming and closing

the knife in your back
i'll severe your head
cause you are not chosen

don't think that i'm forced
I do what I want
you'll end in that moment

I feel like i'm dead
I just want my bed
I think I am broken


All night
fuck life
feel like i'm dead in the night time

shot in the head
but i'm alright

saw as he bled in the sunlight
god wants him dead from the spotlight
he'll write his song in the midnight
he did it all for the limelight
uh
he did it all for the limelight


I sold my soul to feel alright
i'm so alone

I sold my soul for the limelight
I can't let go


TELL ME
WHY I FUCKING HATE IT IN THE NIGHT TIME
I JUST WANNA FEEL GOOD SO I'M ALRIGHT


your falling
i'm falling
and i'm toxic
no loving
i'm loving
yet no crying
i'm crying

[SSHVDOW]

Stream🖤

i hate myself more than anyone else ft. SSHVDOW (Prod By. Kurokami)

EP: EXISTENTIAL

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