you're sitting in a barn as you await the big surprise
you want to find the monster that burned out that woman's eyes
you've got your holy water and some salt rounds and a knife
but nothing seems to work on whatever brought you back to life

you ask "what are you" to learn his name and figure out his mission
he says, "i'm the one that gripped you tight and raised you from perdition"

his name is castiel
he pulled you out of hell
in time he will rebel
he's an angel of the lord

he's got a dirty trenchcoat and a tie that's never straight
you wonder why you kinda like this guy that you're supposed to hate
'cause he says he's not a hammer, he's got doubts and he's got fears
and you think he might be the best friend that you have had in years

the angels say to torture, and you say you can't go through this
he says "i would give anything not to have you do this"

his name is castiel
he pulled you out of hell
by now you know him well
he's an angel of the lord

you try to give him your best speech
but heaven's got him on a leash
you turn your back and say you're done
but then he goes and does you right
he'll help you save the world tonight
because he knows that you're the one

his name is castiel
he pulled you out of hell
and you are why he fell
he's an angel of the lord

The Castiel Song

We gotta talk, Dean; 
don't walk away.
You've only a few months left, 
and there are things I gotta say.

I know you're scared, Dean, 
and that's okay.
But pretending that you're fine 
won't keep the hell hounds at bay.

So you gotta drop the act, just drop this show.
You gotta teach me every little thing you know.
Cause I gotta fight this war alone once you go.
And I need for you to do this, cause deep down you know.

CHORUS:

It's cause we're brothers.
You're Dean, I'm Sam.
It's cause I rely on you these days 
to show me who I am.

It's cause I've got your back, 
and you've got mine.
It's cause I know you're lying 
when you tell me that you're fine.
'Cause you're there for me the way Dad never was.
So if you wanna know why,
It's cause, just cause.

VERSE 2

We're not just vessels for them to use.
Whatever we've got between us is what they want to abuse.
But we are stronger, yes we can choose.
And I need you here with me because it's you I can't lose.

So let's prove to them we're stronger than we've shown.
Cause I'd rather be together than alone.
I believe in you now that we're all grown.
Cause at the end of the day, I think I've always know.

CHORUS

It's cause we're brothers.
You're Sam, I'm Dean.
It's cause when I call you a bitch you know just what I mean.
It's cause we're family, deeper than bone.
It's cause wherever you are is where I'm most at home.
Cause you look up to me the way no one else does.
So if you ask me why,
It's cause, just cause.

VERSE 3 

So you just dropped in out of the sky.
I don't care if you were desperate, that's no reason to lie.
You're a frickin' child, Cas.
Do you know why?
I was always there to help you all you had to do was try.

So you gotta put an end to all this demon play.
'Cause we can fix it, man, we'll find a way.
And I know I should have told you every day.
And it might be too late, but still I have to say.

CHORUS

It's cause we're brothers.
I'm Dean, you're Cas.
It's my responsibility to kick you in the ass.
It's cause you always come when I call.
It's cause I'd catch you if you're ever to fall.
So whatever this deal with Crowley was,
I'm asking you to stop now,
Cause, just cause.

It's cause we're brothers, until the end.
No matter what's up ahead, know you were always my friend.
It's cause you always come back to me.
I may not believe much in God, but I believe in family.
And you might say it doesn't matter, but it does.
Cause when I wanna say I love you,
I say cause, just cause.

How To Speak Winchester

I may be older
but you know
that I look up to you

‘cause you got out
you got away
did what I couldn’t do

so now you’ve got
this brand new life
no end to what you’ll be

I’m just the freak
come round again
it’s no wonder you left me

so I’ll crack a joke
and fake a smile
and roll up my sleeves
this life’s just a little bit harder
when everybody leaves

i got a secret
i must keep
he’d hate me if he knew

our friends are dead
we’re on the run
don’t know what else to do

get in the car
and drive away
we ain’t got time to grieve

‘cause sam is feeling good
so there’s no telling when he’ll leave

and he feels sometimes like me and death are as thick as thieves
sometimes he takes the best himself
but everybody leaves

sometimes at night
when I can’t sleep
I see my mother’s face

my father died
to save my life
I should have gone in his place

Then it was Ellen, Ash and Jo
poor Adam’s still in Hell
Pam, Andy, Lisa, Ben, 
Rufus Turner, Castiel

‘cause everybody leaves
that’s just the way, that’s just the way the wind blows
everybody leaves
that’s just the way, that’s just the way my life goes
and you can say I’m wrong
it ain’t my fault
for all the good it achieves
I let down everyone I love
so everybody leaves

‘cause everybody leaves
that’s just the way, that’s just the way the wind blows
everybody leaves
that’s just the way, that’s just the way my life goes
so I’ll take a drink
and grab my gun
and roll down my sleeves
it’s autumn now, the air is cold,
and everybody leaves.

Everybody Leaves

well, hey, way to go dean, you guessed it
your worst nightmare is me
'cause I know how you look into the mirror
and hate everything you see

do you have original thoughts, dean?
or do you just want to be like your dad? 
'cause you can wear his clothes and you can listen to his music
but you'll never have his love like sammy had

so what are you gonna do, dean? you gonna cry about it?
I guess you'll go to hell for your mistakes
and now you know how demons are made there
and it won't take long for you to break

I know my brother's fighting somewhere out there
and it is so hard to admit that I'm scared
it's been so easy to pretend I don't care
but what do you do when you're your own worst nightmare?

can't raise your fingers and snap me away dean
you're stuck in here, you'll find
and you're too stupid to get a way out now,
'cause you're trapped in your own mind

you'll always be daddy's blunt little instrument
a shield and nothing more
it's a good thing you sold your soul to save your little brother
'cause without sam, what the hell are you good for?

so what are you gonna do, dean? you gonna cry about it?
you know that every word I say is true
you don't care if you live or if you die, now
your own father didn't care, so why should you?

I know my brother's fighting somewhere out there
and it is so hard to admit that I'm scared
it's been so easy to pretend I don't care
but what do you do when you're your own worst nightmare?

my father was an obsessed bastard
I didn't deserve what he put on me
all that crap about protecting sam
when he's the one who couldn't save his family

I don't deserve to die, I don't deserve hell
you say I don't matter but I do because
my dad's the one who was never there for sam
and I, I always was

and I know my brother's fighting somewhere out there
and it is so hard to admit that I'm scared
it's been so easy to pretend I don't care
but what do you do when you're your own worst nightmare?

Your Own Worst Nightmare

please keep your opinions to yourself
put your hero complex on the shelf
one look from you and I will surely break
there’s only so judgment I can take

and it’s too late to go back now
I’ve lost my faith and how
else can we win this war?
after all, isn’t free will what we’re fighting for?

you’re the one who raised me, helped me learn
but I crossed a bridge and now it starts to burn
I didn’t ask permission, I should have tried
I fell to better offers and to pride

and it’s too late to go back now
I’ve lost my family, how
else can I win this war?
after all, isn’t free will what we’re fighting for?

these words are empty vessels, that I know
but you hurt me more than I could ever show
you think that I’m a monster, and that’s true
I did it for the world, did it for you

and it’s too late to go back now
I’ve lost my love and how
else can we win this war?
after all, isn’t free will what we’re fighting for?

Mistakes

I’ve got a wall broken down in my head. 
I’ve got Lucifer spooning me in my bed. 
And for a living I kill things that are already dead. 
Yeah, that’s my life; that’s my life.

And I went down this road despite the warning signs. 
The road so far paved with fire and salt lines. 
And I tried my very best to stop the end of times.
That’s my life; that’s my life.

But I’m okay as long as I’ve got family.
I’m okay if I don’t remember what I had. 
I’m okay if I don’t think about what I’ve lost 
like Mom and Jess and Dad.

I’m okay; I’m fine, I swear I’m okay. 
I’m okay; I’m alright. I mean, I’m really okay. 
I know I’ve seen somethings that make a sinner pray, 
but it’s fine. It’s my life; it’s my life. I’m okay.

And I was raised on the trigger of a gun, 
taught to do my job, cut my ties, and run. 
But I know I could have been a more grateful son. 
But that’s my life; that’s my life.

And I lost so much during the bloody war. 
Even now, I can’t stand the fighting anymore. 
But other people’ve got it worse, so what am I crying for? 
It’s my life; it’s my life.

But I’m okay as long as Dean is smiling. 
I’m okay as long as Dean knows where to go. 
And I’m okay if I forget that it’s my fault 
that we lost Pam and Ellen and Jo.

But I’m okay; I’m fine, I swear I’m okay.
I’m okay; I’m alright. I mean I’m really okay. 
I know these aren’t the sort of things you can’t just wish away, 
but I’m fine. It’s my life; it’s my life. I’m okay.

I know my gourd is cracked, but I feel the same. 
The world is ending, I’m the one to blame. 
And I can’t tell what’s real and what’s the devil’s game. 
But it’s my life; that’s my life.

And I know there’s people who are worried for me, 
but the most important thing is having family.
And I still got Dean and Cas and Bobby.
Well, I’ve still got Dean and Bobby.
Well, I’ve still got Dean, and I’ll always have Dean.
And, I’m okay; I’m fine, I swear I’m okay. 
I’m okay; I’m alright. I swear I’m really okay. 
I know today might seem like a really bad day, 
but I’m fine. It’s my life; it’s my life. I’m okay.

I'm Okay (Sam's Song)

when I first met you oh a star was in your eye
darker than a highway road and lonesome like the sky
I couldn’t read your face but I swore that you had doubt
you burrowed deep in me I couldn’t keep you out

and now it rains all day and turns my thoughts to rust
without you here with me I don’t know who to trust
and I wasn’t going to beg you, but I must
don’t be dead, please, don’t be dead

you travel with me, you’re the bag I can’t unpack
it’s full of words I know I said and can’t take back
and I don’t believe it even standing by your grave
cause you were wrong, you’re not a fake, you can be saved

so I lie away at night and wonder where you are
floating in the ocean deep or sitting on a star
cause your coat is in the backseat of my car
don’t be dead, please, don’t be dead

I couldn’t stop your fall, couldn’t keep you from the lake,
I still regret every last chance I didn’t take
I know I said some things,I swore I was still mad
but you remain the greatest friend I’ve ever had

and I’m so lost without you it’s such a sight to see
they say I’m imbalanced, they say I’m wobbly
so please, just one more miracle for me
don’t be dead please don’t be dead
don’t be dead please don’t be dead

Don't Be Dead

Once Upon A Time (A Dean Cas Crack Song)

Hold Me Close (Castiel's Lament)

You Were The Best (Dean's Lament)

Family

The Love Song of Alan J. Corbett

I'd Rather Have You

Come To Bed

Mary's Lullaby

Bluebird

My Friend

Without You, from the Musical Rent

keyboard and male vocals by: Matthew (https://soundcloud.com/matthew-drahozal)

Without You (cover)

Forget Me

Nine years ago, I recorded The Castiel Song in a hotel room a few months before my junior year of college. If you've seen the video, you can tell that I'm not exactly a professional pianist or singer (the part where I messed up and posted it anyway... why did I do that...) and the fact that it resonated with so many people still brings me inexpressible joy. My time in the Supernatural fandom was and is one of the greatest joys of my life: I wrote more than fifteen more songs for the show and my favorite pairing, Dean/Cas, but more importantly, I met people who are still my best friends today. I have read all the comments and messages sent to me over the past nine years and truly cherished every one. Thank you so much for listening to The Castiel Song, for telling me you loved it, and for sharing your stories.

I wanted to post this song on Supernatural Finale Day because I wanted to say goodbye to a show that has brought me so much joy (and pain, let's be real) but this not a goodbye from me to you. I would like to keep writing and composing and singing, and I hope you all still want to hear from me after all these years. Here's hoping the finale doesn't crush us-- although we know it will-- and I'll see you on the other side, SPNFamily.

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The Castiel Reprise

Here you will find songs written about the TV show Supernatural. Enjoy :)

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