Berklee Spring ‘21 Songs for Social Change (S4SC)- Invited Showcase Performer

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v1:
I braced for the flood
before the rain came in
I was a kid, in the eye of a storm
I made it begin
cried out to the sirens
saw the lights through my eyelids
I still feel the silence
and he swore I was lying

ch:
hmm (x2)

v2:
I braced for the weathering
before the glass shattered over my bed
his hands were red
they knew parts of me I didn’t know yet
I have her eyes
had her smile
she wished to grow up kind
they screamed that I lied, I lied, I lied

ch:
hmm (x4)

v3/outro:
so I put up the barricades
but I still feel the waves
I was a kid
In the eye of a storm
I made it begin

The Flood

LYRICS:

you got that ivy league, ivory status in your pocket
it’s so pretentious, it’s kinda romantic

and I ride my bike around labels and sticks
then I only think about you, how ironic

CHORUS:
young-in-love misery, I’m a fool for you, for you
can’t do anything until you call 
sympathy symphony, shades of blue for you, for you
sinking into this apartment floor

rehearse my voicemails and panic before I dial your number
but you’re so reckless, it’s kinda confession

late in the library, [shhh] concentrate, all I know
is our knees touching under the table

CHORUS:

BRIDGE:
for once it doesn’t matter
so break my heart, whatever
love me like a letter I’ll read forever
and ever and ever and ever

CHORUS:

Ivy League (worktape)

your new favorite enemies to lovers anthem, from yours truly. available on all streaming platforms! here is a masterlist of my links to find me everywhere — https://www.campsite.bio/faithzap

lyrics:
[verse 1]
if everybody was dead
i still wouldn't want you
i guess humanity's dying off
but i heard what you said
i can't get rid of you
you're in all of my late night thoughts

[pre-chorus]
i don't know what i would say
if you asked me on a date
would i scream and run away?
or would i say yes?
do you even feel the same?
wish i could see inside your brain
i wonder what it would contain
but if i had to guess

[chorus]
i think maybe you hate my guts
but you also wanna fall in love
think about holding hands in a theater 
or running me over with your four-wheeler
but maybe it's not that at all
and it was always only me who'd fall for you
even though i don't like you
isn't that what we're supposed to do?

[verse 2]
if everybody found out
i'd have to kill you
cause i don't want things to change
i don't know when it started, but i know there's something
and i wish i could stop it
but i guess i'm just too late

[pre-chorus]
i don't know what you would say
if i asked you on a date
would you scream and run away?
or would you say yes?
do you even feel the same?
wish i could see inside your brain
i wonder what it would contain, but if i had to guess

[chorus]
i think maybe you hate my guts
but you also wanna fall in love
think about holding hands in a theater 
or running me over with your four-wheeler
but maybe it's not that at all
and it was always only me who'd fall for you
even though i don't like you
isn't that what we're supposed to do?

[bridge]
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to
you hate me, i hate you
but i like you, i don't want to

[chorus]
i think maybe you hate my guts
but you also wanna fall in love
think about holding hands in a theater 
or running me over with your four-wheeler
but maybe it's not that at all
and it was always only me who'd fall for you
even though i don't like you
isn't that what we're supposed to do?

If Everybody Was Dead

an unreleased demo for u today since it's my birthday!!! this one is about hating growing up LOL very fitting with me turning 21 today. i hope you enjoy :") <3 thanks for all the support so far i love all of u very much!!!

lyrics:

i don’t know what day it is
i don’t know what i had for breakfast
i’ve got a strange kind of squeeze in my chest
subconscious tells me the world’s gonna end
the power went out but just in my room, turned out my lightbulb died
was waiting for my brother to exclaim in surprise
was waiting for a chance to stay inside

i felt like a hot shot at seventeen
feel like i achieved close to nothing at twenty
what happened to my naivety
now i’m just bored and revisiting

my favorite movies are still the same
but i gotta keep an eye on my budget
i still fight with my mom sometimes
giving lady bird a run for her money
it never lasts more than a day these days
at least something got better with time
did i make the career switch way too late 
or am i out of my mind

i felt like a hot shot at seventeen
feel like i achieved close to nothing at twenty
what happened to my naivety
now i’m just bored and revisiting

i hate this age-based purgatory
in between my youth and the rest of my life
what happened to my naivety
now i’m just bored and revisiting

now i’m just bored and revisiting
now i’m just bored and revisiting

revisiting (demo)

Traditional Irish folksong Celtic Harp / unaccompanied

She Moved Through The Fair

butterflies

far away

Toad Town

Cover of one of my favorite songs at the moment. Excuse the bad quality and occasional mistake... lol

The Flood

Ella Atkinson