Everytime you go away I have to battle my brain

3 years later and this is still my favourite song of all time

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ASTRALS: "COMMUNITY PLAYLIST" VOL. 26

i feel my pulse in my fingertips
i can feel me slip
i can feel me slipping

pretty girls

written by: Monto & Bryce Bishop
produced by: Bryce Bishop & Monto
mixed by: Bryce Bishop
mastered by: Ty Lorenzo
artwork by: @ve9etable0831 on twitter

DREAMS (w/ Bryce Bishop)

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lyrics:

[intro]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 1]
Try not to think about it
Just breathe, they'll all see, no way around it
Yeah
There ain't a need to doubt it
Don't give her the chance to wonder where you found it
Oh (I fucking hate you now)
Don't wanna mess this up (nothing you say could help me escape this hell and)
You never gave enough (you play the game so well)
You kinda fucking suck (trying to figure how not to break and tell you)
So

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 2]
Babe leave
Or I will
Guess you don't want me enough to care how I feel
I know you got places to go don't fucking lie to me
I saw the hearts on your phone so fuck your honesty
Honestly
Yeah maybe I should have listened
Maybe it was my fault there's some shit I've been missing
I guess you moved on but my hearts been conditioned
I'm sorry but baby I think I've made my decision
So I

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment
She said I don't care I guess you fucking hate me now
I don't know how
But you lost me in your dreams
I wish I knew how it started
I'll go back to my apartment

pluck

now it's the end of the line :/
- the most massive thank you to @dezforman for helping me tell this story and to @bonddot for the mixing <3 love you guys fr

~ never been the type for confrontation 
i lost all my power, i can't even fake it
so complacent, no 
the way you worked your magic is so amazing 
i lost who i was, i got out of your gaze and now i'm saving me 
the odds had kept me from breathing 
i never tried to get even 
write about how i'm feeling 
to clear my mind, yeah im drawing the line 
stare at your likes and a view count 
all of our issues you drew out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta speak out 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

thought about the night i left the station 
got off that train and left you all alone
oh how much did you grow?
the way you slipped back in, and got me again
i can't even shake you off
lost what i wanted, can't move all this weight, i failed in saving me 
is what we had really worth it?i
no need in tryna preserve it 
i know we're both probably hurting 
but it's easy sometimes, if you just drew the line 
fuck all the likes and the view counts
it's you and me that should figure it out 
and i don't know what to do now
guess i gotta stand my ground 

i didn't mean to you love you 
i guess i kinda like the way that you would run to me 
i always hoped you come through
you kinda led me on and watched me drown in oceans deep
should have listened to all my friends 
cause you were using me for gain and i would play pretend, you were mine 
should have payed attention to the signs
now it's the end of the line 

i didn't mean to love you 
in fact i never tried to 
but here we are, here we are ~

terminus

prod. ilytwelve

you say i sound like him oh well 
i’m just doing what i love 
tryna make it my living 
i don’t wanna be no scrub 
and i don’t wanna be no one but me 
i don’t wanna be no one 
this when shit get ugly 
singing shit through my lungs 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-

don’t know what to feel 
been so caught up in your lies 
don’t even know what’s real 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
don’t wanna work a 9 to 5 
that ain’t how i wanna live 
stop 
show what you’re made of
don’t want the fake shit 
baby i want the real love but 
can’t ever get it 
i never know your intentions 
picked up my heart 
and you left me with these incisions 
i just 
wanna be me don’t wanna be no one else 
but how can i fucking do that 
i don’t even know myself 
trade a penny for a dime 
and my time for some help 
cause i don’t need to know nobody 
i just wanna know myself yeah 
( fuck ) 

ain’t nothing copacetic keep it real 
i never come in second first or fail 
now everybody hmu sayin i’m gon hit a mil 
but where were y’all at when i fell? 
( gone ) 
yeah, where were y’all at when i fell? 
yeah, where were y’all at when i-
fell.
( gone )

epiphany

50/50

make it out alive

i don't know what u want

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lyrics:

[intro]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 1]
wake up
feel nauseous
can’t worry bout the state of
my conscience
i’ll put it off
makeup
look flawless
it’s starting to get harder to breathe
they’re looking at me
and breaking me down
there’s no one around
i pushed them away ‘cause it was easier then
but it’s not easier now
got friends in the ground
so what the fucks one cog to machines?
they’re so hard to please
i’m shutting me down

[chorus 1]
yeah i don’t know what you want
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

[verse 2]
wait
i was giving you all i thought you’d need
then the money showed up to cloud my feed
knew exactly who i was meant to be
but when they thought i was dreaming
they left me to bleed my heart out
greed ain’t start out
the way it does on TV
they fucking left me to
bleed my heart out
feed my fall out
with everyone tied to me
i’m supposed to grow and adjust
(i wanna die)
but i’ve been dreaming up machines
(no not literally, fuck)
that i could use as a front
(just wanna cry)
and i can hardly fucking breathe with all this weed
('cause i hate the way i look)
in my lungs
(i'll realign my spine and hide inside the baseline)
what i thought you needed was perceived
as being something i'm not
(anything i can do to feel unalive)
so go on tell all your friends that i don’t know what you want

[chorus 2]
gotta meet your gaze, keep it locked
gonna eat your brains while you watch me
i won’t let you stop me
i’m just like a zombie for your love
yeah i don’t know what you want
i should leave your place before i rot
can’t help but compete for praise and it’s toxic
don’t think i can stop it
try writing a pop hit without luck

zombie

tropical toucan (prod. lithiumdealer)

@brakence @50landing
_

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely
than be by myself
dont wanna go home
or put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help
from anyone else

and ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad
trust me im working on it

i thought i'd die young
likes didnt do shit
i know well being well known's useless
ill go to hell too eager to care
im on a screen island where no one stares

i wanna find whats inside me
feel every fiber
done sucking up cause
im no longer a liar
dont know how to be myself sometimes
but whenever i need your help
i always tell you now

i know now
it was all costumes, funny dances
to play my mind
now i need to believe it
and i wont hold onto something familiar
we were kept back from the people we really were
its a start
i just hope i agknowledge the gifts from the past
when we run out of time

i just wanna be known well
not well known
id rather be lonely than be alone
id rather sleep in a hotel
than sleep in my home
but ive been pulling my weight in my thoughts
no matter where i go

ive been feeling so low
help me back into character, i was
"reckless kid born and raise in america"
now im a lost cause and truth be told
i lie too much, my bad

i got a star studded cast of friends
that never answer the phone
no matter when i call
gotta stop trying so hard to try so hard
otherwise ill have nobody at all

im still learning to be direct
cause for years ive been a mess
in '18 i changed address
not the right one but the best
cause my parents are my success
i still need to earn their respect

im just tryna figure it out

theres probably a lot
that i should've done differently
and i, oh i went to hear it out
but i was never listening
i knew that it's not alright
just trying to find the light
summon another spark
or maybe its gone and died
i try to stay out of sight
i gotta leave by the night
i cant seem to clear my mind

but i know now, that it was all
a bad dream, crash scene playing in my mind
and i shouldn't believe it, so i
cant hold onto something familiar
when ive lost sight of the people we really were at the start
and ive started to see it. cause

i dont wanna be well known
i dont wanna be well known

i dont wanna be well known
just wanna be known well
id rather be lonely than be by myself
dont wanna go home or
put my pride on the shelf
cause i dont need help from anyone else
_

thank you to will and graham for the bgv in the second chorus
thank you to the boys, and bekah, and my parents for knowing me well

well known (w brakence & 50landing)

bedwet: the star stuff chronicles 3/16/2021
https://soundcloud.com/lilwetwet2001

bedwet ~ neverland (+ lil4)

produced by elroy and carson thatcher

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BONES

fading black (prod. kt3lly)

Ft @sanriorose 
prod @kurai @maknae
we heartbroken 4 valentines day

Took my <3(Heart) Ft. dolly (kurai + maknae)

https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic
https://soundcloud.com/tothegood
<3 

lyrics:
(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

(guardin)
that's just how it goes
yeah that's how i roll
seven gram blunt & she's taking off my clothes
kissin on my tattoos leave me feelin froze
got my pistol in her grip cock it back & watch it blow 
i can't fall asleep so i've been staring at my phone
read a couple tweets until i leave that shit alone
noah sent the open all the way from buffalo
i'm just waiting for the green light hit the gas & go

(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

if you’re a bills a fan then lemme hear ya shout,
cuz i’ve got plenty other problems that i’d rather scream about,
like how ive been good for a minute now i’m not,
i talk about my feelings way too much instead of smoking pot,
so i’m screaming that i love you but
i hate that i’m so brutally honest
i know this world could be much better if i stop being on it,
i’m just never in the places i hoped,
who say do i need to be?
i’m doing everything that i can what else you want with me

(guardin)
lost in my head all the time
i'm not alright
i guess it's fine

Spotify <3

wicked w/ guardin (prod. tothegood)

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BONES

Elroy

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