Guitar by @tmywtsisband
circa — March 2021

Lyrics:
Don't feel like I'm enough
I got so much problems 'cause of what you did
I'm running out of luck
At this point I might as well give it up

Can't, you be a little more helpful
Because I know that you're special
Give me some time and I'll make things less stressful

Don't you leave me, to be
Falling out of my own tree

Please don't leave me
All to be

Tree

circa — April 2023
Additional Production by @whyawe

Welcome to my luck it's not new
I wouldn't be here anywhere without you
If I was young right now I wouldn't know what to do
I'm just glad I fought my battles and grew
I still can't believe that you're gone
I wish that you could hear this song
But you know when times get too tough
And you know that you've had enough
When things start going in place for you
And I don't let anyone catch my bluff
Times like these, just to bring myself together
Would be all it cost

I'm glad I wasn't born anywhere else
'Cause I don't think that I'd be me
I wish we could play our favorite songs
I wish that you weren't gone
My sister said it's okay to cry
I'm looking at our pictures, wish that we could live another day
Forever grateful for you, yeah it's sad it had to end this way
It's breaking me up, it's breaking me down
I hope we can find ourselves in the afterlife, I love you mom

Close my eyes, and then I fall asleep
I can't breathe without your company
'Cause nothing else really matters (but you)
All I ever was was your baby

It's Okay to Cry (Outro)

circa — June 2023
updated — May 2025

When I said I love you did I say it in a bad way, in a wrong way, in a bad way
(I've always thought about us together anyway, I know you love me can you tell me so that I know)
When I say I love you I mean it I'm not kidding, you do the cooking while I put away the dishes, uh huh
I hope those words mean anything to you, when I'm not with you the world seems so blue, uh huh
(Dreaming about how you were in my arms yesterday, and like always you threw my life away)
Eighteen years I've been living I've never met someone like you, someone like you
(I'd never thought I'd just be dreaming my life away, dreaming about how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how, bout how)
And like always you threw my life away

Stream

Blush (Bonus Track)

-lyrics-
I don't wanna die
I just want it all
I lost track of time
Trying to give u my all
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

I don't wanna die
Come and break it off
You know that I'm so gone
I'm going thru it, no
I just want a try
But you do not want it more
I don't want to lie
Please don't change your mind

That boy wanna play, he'll get it
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
When is it my turn
All my friends are going up
When is it my turn
I told myself, i'll get it soon enough
And i'm still someone that i'm not
That's not me yet

I Wish That Were Me

[made for the Niztopia song wars 3/9 :>]

prod.me

can you smoke the pain away? 
please tell me
can you tell that im insane?
please tell me
if you never shoot then you always lose
(think quick tell me sum that i cant do)
if you never shoot then you always lose
please, tell me something that i cant do

cant do
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant you?
give me something that i cant do
cant do, cant do
give me something that i cant do
cand do, cant you?

SAY IT REAL LOUD
say it real loud
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud 
give me something that i cant do
say it real loud

(i) step outside the (box)
thats the way i move
i know it aint perfect
but its more than you
if you never shoot
then you always lose
give me something that i cant do
(cant do)
cant you turn the sound off?
you dont fucking own that
YOU SHOULD GET YOUR OWN SWAG
i can feel the doubt from the next room
SO IF YOU FIND SOMETHING THAT I CANT DO

SAY IT REAL LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

say-it

[MUSIC VIDEO - https://youtu.be/BxLYEp4Ya1A]

prod.@xaev + @72crash + me

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you-

bruises on my body
dont ask me how i got it
brand new face i bought it
shout out to my doctor
bruises on my body 
please dont get me started
bruises on my body
i just wanna party

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?

plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING
plastic surgery
im a perfect being
im the perfect me
ITS A BEAUTY THING

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty thing

dont you notice me? 
dont you know thats me?
dont you notice me? 
its a beauty th-

you just wanna be like me 
but you cant afford it
stop obsessing over me
but you know i love it
if you say i gotta leave
im like ok fuck it
PROMISE you wont follow me
if you blink you miss it

bitch im rolling in my bed
turn the music up
i just wanna smash my head
i just wanna jump

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
I DONT LOVE NO ONE
RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA 
JUMP, JUMP

turn the bass up, why????
IM TOO SHY TO PARTY BUT ILL STAY UNTIL IM HIGH
i dont wanna talk i can talk between my eyes
right behind my forehead is where i form all my lies

MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK
MUSIC IS MY DRUG
MUSIC GETS ME DRUNK

it's a beauty thing [DON'T YOU NOTICE ME]

music video : https://youtu.be/FzlSl7FOFXU
co-prod https://soundcloud.com/cus3d 2:24-3:13
also check this song out : https://on.soundcloud.com/pzkq73EwCvWmiyYz6

you'll see exactly what i mean

im all for it
im all for it

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

im saying you don't know at all
you hate the way i talk
why do you hate it all?
i'm out of it, lost
you say there's something off with me, i can't even respond
so baby do you hate me
do you think im pretty oh god
bitch i hate it
i want you to save me
i know you want to take it
you won't get a taste
saying that i'm dangerous
but you won't see me break

yeah see me break
i know how you feel, and it makes me ache
they all wanted me but i can't be taken
can't be taken
give or take, i'll still end up dead

i was on my way up
bitch i got it all now (lets go)
i don't care bout the price
i see whatever it's gone now
oh you got status?
are you ready to fall off with that shit?
ya r u ready for it
i just need some time to think of it
we have none in common
dont go acting like it
oh yeah 
said you had me, you aint got the option
i swear we have nothing
don't leave me forgotten
if i could have it
i won't be a problem

We Have Nothing

DIE OR LIVE (LUNT) #R34L3M😢

Living in my car
Staring at youre photo
My life is dark and i dont know where ill go
(i dont know)
I travel through cities Only God is with me
Leaving Leaving Leaving Leaving

Leaving Deceiving each other
Caressing our bodies im cloaked in dishonor
A facet of whoredom
My letters ignore them
A tent in sodom
saw the Lightning Falling
(Satan)
 Saw you As a beautiful Girl (Satan) (Satan)
For You... 
go under The Soil (Satan)
Leprosy i am a Gargoyle Withered and toiled  Catalyst for destruction
Im Sorry God...
I guess i broke you're rules....
I loved her so much like the Pills in his Room
I loved You too, Yeah yeah youre Gone
Pistol in my palm, wrote a letter for Mom
 As I walk through the valley
of The shadow of death
Nothings left
As I tattoo the sigil on my Chest, Gamaliel
Possess my dreams abandonment you're Set
I am hated by the night I cannot forget

Im a Gargoyle Imprisoned  By Stone
And the Ghost of youre love such a broken road
all the Seeds of my soul Eaten by the crow
Standing By the church
Im a Gargoyle 

Felt so high cards had to fall
I cannot smile, I am nothing at all
Vision Leviticus 
Im a Gargoyle 
Lamentations, Vav Hey Vav

i dont really care cut the blood from veins
(you dont care Either)
Delusions in my mind I am Not Ok
(i'm sniffing ether)
Give up the ghost by the Bridge
By The Lake
(Pour a liter)
High, kill my pressure
Watch me  Jump to my Death

Im not a Leader
Fuck You People
I never wanted to be alive Hoe
In My dungeon Shiny Needles
Love SpeedBalling Off alotta dope (Off alotta dope)

Im a Gargoyle Imprisoned  By Stone
And the Ghost of youre love such a broken road
all the Seeds of my soul Eaten by the crow
Standing By the church
Im a Gargoyle

HOLYVEXY - Gargoyle [PROD. HOLYVEXY]

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