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Sticks And Stones And Bones

Dysmorphia is a track from my 2018 album Dark Descent. Through Dysmorphia, I've tried to reflect the psychological mind games involved with body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) as an element of eating disorders.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Dysmorphia

The Darkest Star is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness.

I had quite a lot of requests to remake Decadence and Disorder for the album, so I decided to restructure the lyrics and give it a totally new sound. The title comes from my favourite lyric in D&D: 'you're the darkest star within the galaxy of life'.

The Darkest Star (The Voice Of Anorexia)

Loving Curse is a track from my 2020 album Beauty In The Darkness. I wanted to try and make something to bridge the gap between Dark Descent and BITD, going for something more atmospheric and menacing, portraying the anorexic voice in its rawest form.

Loving Curse

Dark Thoughts is my first song written solely about male anorexia, where I've tried to reflect the difficulties and judgement men with anorexia experience when reaching out for help.

Dark Thoughts

Sugar & Ice is a song about anorexia nervosa, designed to portray the anorexic voice and its methods of manipulation; the voice will be sweet and kind if the sufferer obeys, but if not, it will be cruel and punishing.

Sugar & Ice

Warrior is the first track of my Hollow EP.

I had a lot of requests to make more music not based on eating disorders, so I tried to create something that reflected the sense of pain and loss I've experienced over the last year or so, but also the strength gained and lessons learned. 

I've given the song a sort of a haunted vibe as it progresses, to try to show the deep, lingering sense of nostalgia, or 'saudade', which has both a happy and sad meaning.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Warrior

Invisible Killer is a track from my Hollow EP about atypical anorexia - a type of anorexia that means the sufferer may be a normal weight, or not fit the general criteria of typical anorexia nervosa.

It's an incredibly suffocating mental illness, which I've experienced first hand. Others tend to refuse to believe you have anorexia or offer you any help, based solely on the fact that you're not underweight.

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Invisible Killer

This is a revamped version of Sugar & Ice for my Hollow EP.

When I was making Warrior, I loved experimenting with Japanese taiko drums and the powerful sound they produced, so I really wanted to utilise them for Sugar & Ice too. I also stripped the song of female gender references and added a male voiceover to the instrumental part, to try to bring more of a male voice to songs about anorexia.

Huge thanks to David for providing the spoken poetry for this song!

Album artwork: Katie Metcalfe Photography

Sugar & Ice (Hollow Version)

Deteriorate is a song from my Hollow EP about an eating disorder relapse. The idea for this song stems directly from a memory of a time when I experienced relapses of my eating disorder as a teenager.

A vivid image that hangs in my mind is of a crimson sky at dawn, when I would wake up early and run to burn off calories before the day had begun. There were some beautiful skies in the countryside, and for me, the red sky and cold morning rain always signalled the beginning of a relapse, and the fall back into the anorexic mindset.

Deteriorate

Recovered anorexic from UK 🇬🇧
Psychological music based on eating disorders & mental illness 🎶