Lyrics:
I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies
That do not pass the Bechdel test
And that makes me feel
Like I am a bad feminist
But I pirate them
So that makes it better, I guess

I’ve been trying to soul-search
And write more and destress
I’ve been clinging to hope
Like a guard rail, like a life vest
And I’ve been asking everyone,
“How long do you think the ache will last?”
They don’t know yet

Can something be prescribed to me?
I don’t like getting high but there’s
A game of operation in my skull
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

I’ve been losing my balance
My cellphone, and good sleep
I’ve been googling
“The best manifestation techniques”
And I’ve been taking quizzes
Based in pop psychology
And they’re always a letdown
But I’ve never been easy to please

I’m steeping in anxiety
I’m teetering on the tightrope
And I’m waiting for the moment when I’ll fall
The bittersweet, the apathy
The backup plans, and stolen dreams
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all
I’m trying to see the genius of it all

But I’ve been missing appointments
And birthdays and sun sets
I’ve been watching too many movies

Bechdel Test

All music and words by Ian. Recorded live and raw at home with no fancy equipment.

Just gotta jazz this up, add some strings, some bells, and christmas number 1 is mine ;-)

UPDATE: final result here at https://soundcloud.com/ianmcburnie/this-christmas

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Capo 7th Fret 

 

G shape, C shape, D shape 

 

INTRO 

 

C                                            G 

C                                            G 

G                                           G 

  

VERSE 1 

 

G.                                           C 

this christmas, santa told me 

G                                                            D 

this christmas, would be the best of all 

 G                                               C 

this christmas, I'll hear the sleighbells ringing 

G                                               D 

this christmas, I'll taste the snow as it falls 

 

CHORUS 1 

 

C                                                                  G 

well i don't intend to end this year so lonely 

C                                                                   D 

No i don't intend to spend this year so cold 

 

VERSE 2 

 

G                                               C 

this christmas, i'll say my graces 

G 

this christmas, for my girl 

 

CHORUS 3 

 

C                                                                  G 

Well I don't pretend those winter nights weren't lonely 

C                                                                   G 

and I don't pretend those winter nights weren't cold 

C                                                                  G 

But i don't intend to spend this year so lonely 

C                                                                   D 

No i don't intend to spend this year so cold 

 

BRIDGE  

  

CHORUS 4 

 

C                                                                  G 

well i don't intend to end this year so lonely 

C                                                                   G 

No i don't intend to end this year so cold 

C                                                                  G 

But I won't pretend those winter nights weren't lonely 

C                                                                   D 

and I won't pretend those winter nights weren't cold 

 

VERSE 3 / OUTRO 

 

G                                               C 

this christmas, i'll say my graces 

G 

this christmas

This Christmas (demo)

Diary Of A Young Man

a cool song i made with some of the coolest people i know, please go check them out!

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yI-PSs8Vuas

blindboy:
https://soundcloud.com/imblindboy
https://twitter.com/imblindboy/
https://www.youtube.com/c/blindboymusic

sofuu:
https://soundcloud.com/sofuuthetofu
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCOEWuhAs3qEJxhmoU9KC4SQ
https://www.instagram.com/sofuu_tofu/
https://twitter.com/1Sofuu1

lyrics:
Hard to say goodbye cause you’re 
Deep inside my heart 
Different time but I still feel you close   
Another sky another place 
Another world to cross 
I can't disconnect this string to you   

Irreplaceable l-l-love
Do you hear my calling 
Through the waves it echoes
I can feel the warmth 
When you’re close to me

Irreplaceable l-l-love
Do you hear my calling 
Through the waves it echoes
I can feel the warmth 
When you’re close to me

Clouds consume the sunlight 
And the rain keeps pouring down
I still can't believe that you're not around 
People say I'm crazy  
But they don't know how I was when I’m with you
Like the sun is always shining down on me 
 
Maybe it’s a dream cause I wish to go back 
Cause I cant seem to fight through bitter
Would I meet you there if I keep going toward the sky 
Irreplaceable l-l-love
Do you hear my calling

blindboy, mididuck & sofuu - Irreplaceable

I should probably drink more water
I should probably fix my posture
And my two pills a night
Feel like too much and not enough
I'm just trying to be a good daughter
In Vermont I feel like I'm an imposter
My drawbridge is coming down
And this heatwave is burning me up

The right side of my bed
Feels better than the left
And I feel like the worst
If I'm not the best
I keep burning my own bridge
Whether I lose or win
I'll always wish
I had more to give

If only I wasn't such a flight risk
If only I could settle down and mean it
Is this emptiness what people call their twenties?
No I'm not afraid of bruising
But I'm a coward in the face of losing
"Fuck a quitter"
Says a wanna be winner
Who can't stop running

The right side of my head
Feels better than the left
And I should let this go
But I haven't yet
I keep burning my own bridge
Whether I lose or win
I'll always wish
I had more to give

Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh

More to Give

Live at The Poet & Patriot in Santa Cruz, California 

(Photo credit: Tim Sincere @ The Upstairs Catalyst)

The Quiz (Hello Saferide cover)

walking backwards isn't too hard
but doing so won't get you too far
just keep your head up and square your heart
cause baby you know that it's a brand new start

and I miss you so
and I just wanted you to know

that I miss you so
and I just wanted you to know

you were there when I was alone
I go back to my house but you were my home
I reeled you in and I let you go
and baby I just wanted you to know

that I miss you
I miss you so

and I just wanted you to know
and I miss you
I miss you so

and I just wanted you to know

singing

i miss you so

I made this cover a while ago, I hope you guys like it. the original is by beabadoobee

Coffee (beabadoobee cover)

Arcadian Daydream

smoke alarms demo

I write songs with (and for) my dog. And sometimes I sing them in public.

The Quiz (Hello Saferide cover)

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