lyrics vvv

(wow! you're turning into a skeleton!)

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
babe i love you, but i want outta my my my head....

yeah i feel so small
but my ego real tall
i - i - i
i been down on myself lately
and i dont know who to call
actually i do know
but i dont wanna pressure you
true, i dont wanna pressure you
but i just love you and you know its true
to my other one, im sorry..
tell the baby that im sorry, but im not coming home
woah, oh
cause i got bigger plans
than sitting around contemplating
if you really give a fuck about me, like-
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could
all you ever gave me was mixed signals
oh what did you expect
when i found someone who could
give me more than what you could

accepting my feelings, and moving on (skellington)

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

lyrics
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gon be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

bitch dont match my energy
she bumping all my melodies
im 17 with felonies
these drugs gon take my memory
they want something that I'll never be
wish she love me like ecstasy
used to look at me so breathlessly 
but her mind full of jealousy

all these fucking drugs that I abuse
cause I don't got nothing better to do
hope you know that I'm in love with you
I'm just scared these drugs will get you too

sendflowrs
I've been thinking about you with a cup poured
if this shit gon kill me why it feel so good for
these feelings must be what they make the mud for
ion know I promise I'm ok girl why'd you run for?
if you really being honest why you hide it?
n they say it gets better, I don't mind it
2019 I lost my heart cant find it
ion know if I'll love again I guess I'll find out soon

residential
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gonna be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

2019 w sendflowrs (nevrfall x branwen)

wasn't originally gonna post this but whatever

produced by emptychest

completely non profit

lyrics

love letters
she's a real "go get her"
that momento lost forever 
guessing that u burnt my sweater
all the Polaroids she took 
are on my shelf and bound in leather
it's been almost two years 
and I'm not getting any better

hold on baby 
thought u said that ud be back now
the mountains cold 
but u don't notice when ur black out
I thought that maybe
u would like me better Rollin' up loud
but oh god
I've been drinking every night now

I used to always show up early
if I'm late i wasn't gonna come
I like to say I'm always busy
truth is I was busy lighting up 
so tell me what's the plan tonight
I think that I might stay inside
I think I'll write another line
I might just do this till I die
I spend my weekends getting high
and every morning fuck my life
but I look sober in my eyes
so everybody thinks I'm doing fine
it always seems to ease my mind
so honestly it not a waste of time
cus I've got things I try to hide
things u don't want in ur life

love letters
she's a real "go get her"
that momento lost forever
guessing that u burnt my sweater
all the Polaroids she took 
are on my shelf and bound in leather
it's been almost 2 years 
and I'm not getting any better

hold on baby 
thought u said that ud be back now
the mountains cold 
but u don't notice when ur black out
I thought that maybe, 
u would like me better Rollin' up loud
but oh god, 
i've been drinking every night now


bound in leather (emptychest)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

promise you won't leave

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

i got a bottle in my hand right now
i still think i'll make it out somehow
it goes down
inside our house
but i don't really wanna fight right now
i know i'm always on the road right now
it's too loud
inside our house

making sure my heart beats
slow 
the minute i let go 
it'll turn my heart cold
so put your arms around me 
and please don't let go 
until my eyes close 
baby look look at the snow 
and promise you won't leave

i think i broke this time
a little too much for you to come n fix
i think i fucked it up this time
but it's all my fault i did 

i heard you were on the phone 
that one painful look in your eyes
you were telling your mom it's been hard
but he always get's better
he said it'd be fine
i've been relapsing in my dreams 
take a minute to guess what that means
curl up n shake under covers
making sure my heart beats

video out now

the minute i let go (prod. eric godlow)

look what you've done to me

prod. acey
master: @vito2300

sometimes i don't know who i am
look in the mirror
i don't see me there
that's a monster
and he looks somber
but he just killed a man

well lesson learned
i won't get my hopes up
i won't care if you show up
show up
won't be here when the sun comes
the sun comes out

sobered up
missing the way out
locked in
i need to calm down
i can't calm down
in a cold house
i hear every sound

if i was perfect why were you fucking him
tell me what he had i couldn't do better than
n i saw it
you're sobbing
i put the knife in him

i'm numb to the bloodshed
good at destroying
and i'm home when
i'm hearing voices
and in the morning
i'll be what you need
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me
look what you've done to me

i've had enough for now

home

home (prod. acey)

𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in