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dying in my room without you

all night long

Songs

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Good Side

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(Do I really want it anyways?)
(Do I really want it anyways?)
I tried my hardest to not care, coming back to you know its not fair
Dead roses been left out, bugs crawlin'
I guess you noticed I'm calling
Got a bad hand, still fuck it going all in
Know when I wake up yesterday will be forgotten

Need something more need something realer than this
I fucked up bad, there's some things you cant fix

Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)
Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)

We been falling off so slowly
Taking every hit you made my nose bleed
Running out of space the door is always slamming in my face
Yeah I thought it would be different but you can't escape your fate

Why do we try so hard when it wont last
Closing my eyes now hoping we don't crash
Sick of your voice, know I still cant forget that
Think its a choice, if I could I would go back

Only need one night, to show you I can be your man
Please give me your hand right now
Things never go according to plan
Think I saw you last night laughing, dancing with him

Still you know that ill be okay, yea ill be fine
Taking life at my own pace, think we met at the wrong time
Really thought you were mine
Guess its all my fault and I really don't mind

Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)
Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)

(We been falling off so slowly
Taking every hit you made my nose bleed
Running out of space the door is always slamming in my face
Yeah I thought it would be different but you can't escape your fate)

Do I really want it anyways?
Do I really want it anyways?

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nosebleed (dercept)

ur flowers are dying w/ sideview drive [wisssery/jolst]

so erase all the toxic delusions
raise your hand if you feel useless
and when you play with my head i was clueless
over-medicate till we're numb and stupid

every little thing gonna tear me down
every little thing if it could it went south
every little thing gonna tear me down
when i start to sink just let me drown

the ceiling's only so much higher
i could never rest when you're holding me down
the feeling isn't getting lighter
you're my best and there is no doubt

and my hearts still beating x2

drøwn (prod. dead yami)

I don't wanna get back into this
Tell me what you've been doing with him
Said it didn't mean anything, that he's just a friend

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
(And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead)

Maybe it'd be better if we let things die
But I won't be mourning you
I already have a back full of thorns
Its true, romance favors no man
And it feels like he's left with no chance
At redemption
Maybe that's because he's still resenting you
(He's still resenting you)

Hope to read between the lines
You sent me
I know where he lives so don't tempt me
Really need you here when I'm empty
If I come around could we talk it out
Or is it better off left unsaid
Your apology would still be accepted
Because you're exceptional
It's hard to see you go

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed

And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead
Yeah we should have just stayed as friends
Some things better off left unsaid
But I still want you in my bed
And now I'm feeling like I'm better off dead

unsaid w/poptropicaslutz (frevel x mampitsu x orora x northeast lights)

we all need time to bloom...
prod. @prodmichael
art by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by @jolst
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
if i take the time i find
some part of me is left behind
i’ve broken thru the ice
and now i need a place to dry

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

if i take the time i see
im needing closure desperately
i failed to close the chapter of my life
i was living previously
what to do?
where to go?
i can’t handle questions, no
i do better living never
shitty weather suits me so
well
so well
if u ask me how im doin i won’t say im doin
so well
so well
cuz the time it takes
will lead the way for me

we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

and i can feel it gettin better
i wanna be here forever
the trees are all turnin red
and i love her to fuckin death and i

saw this coming, no more running

i been livin like a dweller
im sinkin into my bed
and im hiding under the sheets
cuz my hair is a fuckin mess but i

saw this coming, no more running

we all need time to bloom
we pick and choose, we win and lose
we all need time to bloom
when life subdues, we feel renewed

bloom [xmichaelwarren]

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what do you expect me 2 say when i fall again?
i know that i took a risk
why do you give a shit about me?
or what im doing
i thought you said ur moving
i guess im not as fluent
as i thought i was.
aye, dark cabin sunken deep in this april fog
i write my wrongs and all these songs in this soggy cot
wendigo love aint real
kept me staring at my phone at night
fuckin, dead.
you like to fuck my head
feels like you broke my bed
wish it was me instead
none of it will happen if i feel alright
i love you, can we meet again?
meet again.
MARKED ON THEIR ARM FOR SLAUGHTER
I LOVE HOW THE WINTER BOTHERS ME
THATS MY DOWN TIMES
THATS MY DARK TIMES
YOURE MY LIFELINE
FUCK IT, HES MY NIGHT LIGHT
I GOT REDEYES
CAN YOU PLEASE STAY THE NIGHT?
"S" FOR SUICIDE
NOT NOW MAYBE ANOTHER TIME
i write all my victories in blood stain
all that petty guilt from the past remains
i never really know what to say.

red_eyes

blood_stains (emptychest)

prod by hira (:
lyrics:

we never know when's the last time and that's scary 
only if u knew how much it scares me 
to know that maybe tomorrow you won't be besides me
everyday i do the same 
i'm collapsing to my addictions 
the nictonine has become a part of my system
i cry at night~
i cry everynight~

you don't really get it and i'm fine with that 
give me all ur love i swear ill make it last
tell me that u love me but u want him back
maybe u were everything i ever had

and the walls cave in around me 
hide away when they talk about me 
let it go you shouldn't care where i'll be 
i'm really nothing what u tryna see

i'm so fucking shy
why should i try 
how can i not cry 
when i am this shy 
lose my chances of socializing
lose my chances of making friends
lose my chances of socializing
lose my chances of making friends

sitting by my phone while I wait for you to call me
i can barely talk but im sure you’ll show me
and im so scared could you tell me slowly
only 3 words but they fill the whole sea

shy w/hiraeth

produced by: @prodneverforever

lyrics, mixing and mastering done by me 

and my eyes 
they burn white
where u been
all this time, i
i’m lonely
on white wine 
u won’t win
this time, i 
i won’t leave
and that’s fine 
and codeine leaks 
from my eyes, i
won’t breathe 
not this time, 
so get up
and don’t cry, boy
x2

burnwhite.

@ 9inewaters on insta

lyrics:
designer on my clothes but i'm still broke tho
money over hoes tho, they hate me and it shows
they tried to get inside, i said "i'm sorry but we're closed"
they asked me when i'm opening, i'm sorry i don't know
i'm so lit like a torch tho
give me some time and i'll be posted in a porsche tho
i need some time cuz i'm still hurting in the torso
i'm gonna glow, get your tickets for the show

i'm going up
i'm done with wasting time, i'm going up
i'ma need some new rhymes and a little bit of luck
i still got time, i don't gotta pull the plug
yuh, shoutout lukas, yea you know we goin' krazy (l-l-lukas goin' crazy <3)
she said she love me but deep down i know she hates me
never again i'll find a girl who wanna date me
i don't really care but i'm still open for debating

broke

broke (prod. lukas)

hehe

i didnt expect this from us
from us
when we met it really wasnt much
much
now all we do is fuckin touch
touch
and i cannot deny
i love you
so 
much
moonshine runnin
blacked out summit
shallow breaths and shaky legs
you are my somethin
we dont gotta do nothin at all
as long as im with you it fills my heart
x2
it fills my heart
cause it feels like somethin else
i know
that this is not a coincide
we have something more
than ive ever had
its not just cause its possible
its cause i really want us
moonshine runnin
blacked out summit
shallow breaths and shaky legs
you are my somethin
we dont gotta do nothin at all
as long as im with you it fills my heart
even when im down ill be there for
ill be there for you
dont worry
cause this is not a coincidence,
oh my god..
we have something more
than ive ever had
its not just cause its possible
its cause i really want us

us.

moonshine runnin' (awkward)

to fucked up in my FUCKING HEAD WTF ASAALDAFLJK:NHSDLJ:HLJ:HSDLJK:HHSDLJK:HHLJK:HSDGLJK:HFHF

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Fucked Up In The Head w/ Aiden Hilton(prod. inbloom)

produced and mixed by cold clock productions 
prod. by moxe

music video at 15k

Wet Wet

"is she slidin'?"

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

when i get my money what do i do with it?
pay my dues back then i'm through with it
replace all my thoughts what you do with it?
replacing my thoughts no you ruined it
um
hi
you don't wanna fuck up my vibe
unchained the things that live in my mind
same thing you do to me all the time
my pain's the only thing on your mind

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

2 pints in the blue whip, right side 
l-left side that's my extra pipe
this bro got his hands on his gun
you ain't that guy (x2)
got it from the mud yeah i got it outside
wanna manage my shit is you worth my time 
bitch take a hint, hit a kid offline
i just flipped a bag and i bought red wine

you're life's shit bitch i bet it is 
walked outta my crib fit is vetements
know you gave your number but i forgetted it 
know you gave me your name but bitch i forgetted it
and it ain't never what you said it is
just wait while i take my sedatives 
ima break the bank like a president 
ima break the state as a denizen

so prove me wrong
sew your lips up and your tongue
tar in my lungs
hand held high don't give a fuck
so baby set it up 
we'll get high we'll run it up
come say wassup
i'm too high to give a fuck

she cut me off like a butcher knife
one day ima crash down like a satellite
got a pretty lil bitch yeah she look like kurenai
just hold my hand tell me baby is this do or die
um
havin' dreams bout you and i
i still pray cuz im thinking bout suicide
it's how i was raised ima get 2 high 
too high dreaming bout blue skies when i die

red wine (prod. jean parker)

OLD ME </3 (PROD. NICK MIRA)

Roses (with Juice WRLD feat. Brendon Urie)

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

d1v:
she only come around when i got drugs
(when i got drugs on me)
i dont rly mind it cuz i just want her closer
yea she always lookin for sum fun
(she never sleep)
baby that alright with me if it makes u stay with me
if i should be honest i dont want to be attached to u
had another girl i loved so i did the dash for u
hate when u make me sad
baby dont feel bad
laying in my bed got my eyes at the ceiling
drain my pain with meds yea i guess i like feeling

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

i've been feeling down
she be taking drugs
i be getting love in the back of the club
shawty say what's up 
pour another cup
 your love is like a drug and i cannot get enough
i can't explain all the pain in my heart
you took the blade and you cut through my scars
when i go to sleep i just crash in my car
but it was all good till you left me in the dark

drugged up shawty w/ d1v (prod. born hero)

Speed Racer(prod. @deadspyro)

way too drunk to think way too high to care,,

stream on spotify and watch the music video : http://hyperurl.co/qpm7w0

lyrics
Bury me in diamonds 
Top me off in gold
The world will know that I'm royalty when they steal my soul cuz

I killed art with my skinny jeans it's a good thing I gained LBS babe 
Or maybe I got better taste aye
I made girls start seeing race

I gotta problem a lotta people they don't wanna talk about 
If I was a fish in the river then maybe I could see a sound 
 
Decisions I would keep I know would swing you around 
Never my talks of spirits and sounds

Yeah

I've got drugs to plan and you've got things to do 
And I don't wanna stop getting high cuz I'm feeling you 

I got things to plan I got drugs to do with you 

Girl you know that I'm on the way 
I'll have you know that I'm so afraid
Was I born 20 years too soon or 40 years too late
Cuz I would have owned the world 
Before the stocks collapsed
And probably have less panic attacks 
I might have been friends with my dad

Cuz we all have dead friends
And some still walk the earth
But we do what we can do to make everything hurt less

Yeah 

Well I guess that I'm blessed because all of my friends know we’re equally dead well at least in the head 

It's unusual 
But usually

We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
Care
About you
About you

I don't care if you don't mind if you died right now but I would be dead inside 

Just close your eyes 
Pray to God that my baby's alright she was in the hospital last night my baby my baby girl 
Just close your eyes 
Pray to God that my baby's alright she was 
in the hospital last night my baby my baby 

Girl you know that I'm on the way 
I'll have you know that we’re so afraid
Were we born 20 years too soon or 40 years too late
Cuz I would have owned the world 
Before the stocks collapsed
And probably have less panic attacks 
I might have been friends with your dad

Cuz we all have dead friends
And some still walk the earth
But we do what we can do to make everything hurt less

Yeah

Well I guess that I'm blessed because all of my friends know we’re equally dead well at least in the head 

It's unusual but usually

We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
We’re way too drunk to think
And way too high to care
Care
About you
About you,

Usual

prod by the mans @scottysplash !!!
mixed by @scottysplash
(OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS)
*lyrics*

tears coming down my face going hard as a hailstorm 
i am not really happy bc i got this wardrobe
going crazy getting isolated from everything around me
not really much of a good thing 
but i ignore it like the sadness 
or all the bad shit
4 black walls a closed door make me go batshit 
take some pills and go to bed and just 
forget what i think
then u hmu with ur thoughts and ask what i think
tired of the bull shit
so i grab a wood n light it
gas smoke now my room smell like race cars 
couldn’t see that i did but i go that hard
i remember visiting this place before 
had to cry and nap now my eyes are sore
then i continue with the grind
i won’t let you get into my mind
i remember visiting this place before 
had to cry and nap now my eyes are sore
then i continue with the grind
i won’t let you get into my mind

always asking where i been, i’ve been in the lab
ain’t no dog but i bark when i get mad
it’s always over dumb shit
i talk shit
 i jinx it
knock on wood it happens 
it’s so fuckin toxic 
but i keep it in anyway 
it’s not like u would care about what i fuckin say
so i just shrug my shoulders and put the headphones in 
all this drama but i just ignore it
tired of the bull shit
so i grab a wood n light it
gas smoke now my room smell like race cars
couldn’t see that i did but i go that hard
i remember visiting this place before 
had to cry and nap now my eyes are sore
then i continue with the grind
i won’t let you get into my mind
i remember visiting this place before 
had to cry and nap now my eyes are sore
then i continue with the grind
i won’t let you get into my mind

up at late hours tryna do all this shit now
i’m savin other people but i can’t save myself now
i don’t even really care tho
been lost since day 1 it is not new tho
so i just lay back n roll myself a blunt
and i think back of all the shit i’ve done
gas smoke now my room smell like race cars 
couldn’t see that i did it but i go that hard

visiting this place before (prod. scottysplash)

Abstract - I'm Done

Pain is reality

JRM ft. Dramaboyy- Shooting Star

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sn--uKU3niE

producers twitter: https://twitter.com/saetomusic

artwork by @marialewisphoto on ig