i’d rather die than live like this ft.cutdeep (afterlife)

EPITOME:

i-i-i-i-i try to forget the past 
but it just keep bringing me back
n-n-n-no we didn’t  know how this would last
is it funny to you to see my life shatter like glass
t-t-t-the world around me left me broken and scarred
don’t be surprised when i’m dead in the dark
these lonely feelings that i can’t shake

oh god
when will i break

(epitome & casperrr)

all of these feelings 
what is the meaning
i struggle every day to keep on living and breathing 
at this point i’ll be dead hanging from the ceiling 

i’ve been so alone
got no where to go
not even a home
walking down this lonely road
no hands to hold
i’m really on my own
it haunts me to know 
that i can’t let 

c-c-cant let
GO
of the past

it haunts me to know 
it haunts me to know

CASPERRR:

u keep haunting me in my sleep
n u keep haunting in my dream
i thought u were mine to keep 
but nothings really what it seems 
everything is black and white 
so much shit that i can fix
the only coloured thing is lean

dirty sprite makes me feel fine
all this buzz man am so high
did i lose weight i feel light
do you still remember thst night

it haunts me to know w/ casperrr (cl6udy x yunny goldz)

Ivory Tower Kid (feat sendflowrs) [prod taha]

hey, check it out

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/sakuradoves 
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Cover Art By https://soundcloud.com/vendilmz
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(akiradoves)
you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

so tell me why you stabbed me in my back 
you're acting like a little bitch don't know why
you ripped my heart i think i'm just a waste
i think it's about time that you let me go

(sakuradoves)
darling let me go im falling in the snow
i wonder if you know
how much i need you sleeping with me 
baby im so empty maybe they gon envy
when im going up with you now

yeah yeah yeah up with you now
come bring me out 
stuck in this crowd of the memories
from the past living 
fast have fun killing me

(akiradoves) 
i should of known that you'd leave me for him
oh i apologies for the things i did
i fumbled my words way too much 
i wanna be together forever

you should know you disgust me way too much
oh dear i just think you should know 
i just miss you way too much 
you mistake me for someone i don't know
just take me away i just wanna disappear

mistake w/ sakuradoves (nevrfall)

[Non-Profit]
Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/nciku
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(Lyrics)
perfect for me 
I'm always crying in the cold nights
this is something we gotta talk about 
but some days just get harder 
i don't wanna do this no more
i want you , you want me 
we're such a perfect match 
i know we won't collapse 
don't get bored of me 
i know that I'm too much 
i'm trying to be perfect

it's always silent in the cold night 
the weather is so cold without you 
and i love you 
don't want this to end 
I'll hold you till the end
just notice that i care 
i trust you with my heart
i just wanna be there 
i just love you way too much

i love you (nciku)

@navyxower
@strivemusicau
@northshoremusic
@torvamia
@shizukesaaa

h3art_3at3r w/ NAVYXOWER, strivesad, The North Shore, torva & shizukesa. [+ sogimura]

All of the time that i just wasted
Spending all of my days intoxicated
So isolated i need sedation 
Tryna get her out of my head is so brainless

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

I’m lyin when I say im ok 
Cuz You keep Poppin up inside of my brain
And All the shit you said don’t hold any weight
Yeah She tell me that she me love me till she just fuckin didn’t 

With the eyes like diamonds 
Mesemerizin
Youre the one I think of when I close my eyelids
Can I kill the silence I’ve been feelin lifeless
Messin with my head and my heart she a white bitch
All you do is type but the words not vibrant 
She keep pullin me in she hot like a siren
Belive me when I tell you that you help me ease my mind its 
Kinda fuckin crazy that i had you by my side bitch

But now it’s all over 
And I can’t stay sober 
I’m poppin the pain away
And thinkin of better days 

This that drive me to the grave
And our love was just a phase
You treat me like shit most days 
It’s just gonna break me

But now you’re gone 
Every thought feels wrong 
Idk what’s going on 
lately I been so jaded 

She look me in the eyes she could tell that I’m faded
Spreadin nothin but lies you petty and faceless 
I guess Her laugh was a disguise she was plotting my demise 
I can’t tell what’s wrong could you please get me right 
Good sex forgot all the shit that went wrong
I could never speak my thoughts so I put em in a song 

Next thing that I know everyone singin along
And I swear I try my best but I can’t keep holding on 
She knows she was the first that i brought up to my mom 
Try to tell you how I’m feeling but the words are all wrong 

And i miss you even more with the time spent apart 
Said that you need healing coz your thoughts been dark
But she really scared of feeling so she told me let’s part
I hope that you get better cuz youll always have my heart 

Gotta stop scrollin on the feed
Just so I can write on a beat 
But you know he gonna spit some heat
I made 4 racks just last week what you call for
Always on my phone in case it beeps
And your face so pretty in my head repeatin 
I wish i didn’t love her for all the wrong reasons 
She say she gotta go our love was just a season 

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

verse again)

this was a love story (prod. gage oakes)

mix & mastr by @ztope

apologies if th_out of time vocals bother u <3

lyrics

IF U CAN SEE MY MESSAGE
I BEEN CARVING OUT IDEAS FROM THE STONE 
SCRATCHING SURFACES THAT RESEMBLE CRUMBLED BONE
DESIPHER ALL THE PAST LIVES THAT IVE LIVED IN THIS ABODE
U COULD FIND BUT THAT DONT MEAN THAT U WOULD UNDERSTAND THE CODE

the water drips from the top and sets the tone
is anybody there i yell in hope
i feel a presence so why is it making me more cold
another sharp turn i can’t even see the fucking road

i know that this knowledge don’t mean much
ill be reset

i hit my head on the wall 
this aint the first my brain dont respond
tell me to live in the moment 
but im not even sure if i been here at all
i’ll be regenerated in a rush

bumps all over neck
i know i’m being watched
there’s not a soul that believes i’ll turn to dust

i hit my head on the wall 
this aint the first my brain dont respond
tell me to live in the moment 
but im not even sure if i been here at all

i hit my head on the wall 
this aint the first my brain dont respond
tell me to live in the moment 
but im not even sure if i been here at all

whispers heard from miles away
now all these lines are taking shape
take out ur heart or leave it broken
and slowly watch the world turn grey

a suffered regenerating for those that understand - pg 77 (message to bears)

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

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