this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

prod branwenteeayemadeit!

breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

whts the prblem if im dead asl
everybody tries to be me i js wish em well
everybody knows i fell so deep inside this wishing well
if you lived with what i lived with youd wish you was in hell
yeah im on my chronyc shit im smoking on my toxic shit
its hard as fuck to gts cus im paranoid
sleep on my baretta cus i mean business
dont sleep on my bayonetta i mean business  
huh i cant even love rn im on another planet
sry if im rough i really didnt plan it
its really fuckin hard to not get up and 
get up
stop settling
and, "oh yeah, i owe you"
yeah u fuckin do
last week u stole my kid like wht the fuck it do?
thought u were my bro
thought were my brother
thought u were my blood
thought u were my one 
to hold onto when everything is fucking shit
when it goes dark when the lights turn out and i cannot see the spark
when i cant lie no more
when i cant breathe no more
when i cant stand more
when i pass out and im damn near dead but i really couldnt care no more
ive given up my body's laying on your floor
do whatever you want to me cause i just cant fight no more
i feel like i should feel bad but i dont know why or how yeah
and i cant get turned on, cus..


hey, dork
posted with a toy
you be shootin bbs 
i be smoking real joints
ion even see u as a person rn
i see u as a monster and its freaking me out
ay
the voices in my 
the demons in my
like to talk, i hear tapping n scratching on the wall
i shouldnt say that
ill drive a maybach.

ＯＬＥＡＮＤＥＲ

follow chronyc

ＯＬＥＡＮＤＥＲ （ＰＲＯＤ．ＣＨＲＯＮＹＣ）

maybe im dumb
im out of luck
can you just 
can you just 
be there
x2
be there when i fall back down
down
im
fade
im fading away
my mind dont feel the same no
i dont need to do what i been doing just to feel alive
can you walk me thru all the bullshit
i dont wanna fight it
and i dont wanna fight it
i dont wanna fight it let the process just go thru ur veins
im not impressive im just depressive
im fading away
my mind dont feel the same no
i dont need to do what i been doing just to feel alive
can you walk me thru all the bullshit
can you just 
can you just 
be there

ＤＥＰＲＥＳＳ

ＤＥＰＲＥＳＳ （ＰＲＯＤ．ＣＨＲＯＮＹＣ）

take my soul away
and let me rot inside the burrow
im not a prodigy
so let me drown inside the bottle
baby i cant take 
the constant self inticing battle
theres nothing left to say
so let me take another shot oh

tell me how the fuck you gonna sit there and just watch me fall
addicted to the alcohol
reachin out for help but ion know who to call
maybe itd be easy if i ended it all

wit a shot to the brain
got me goin insane
no i dont want the money i just want the  fame

wanna be recognized 
not even idolized
maybe my life is a fuckin shame

what a fuckin shame you go and put me in the background
baby i just wish that we could go back to the past now
ima hit the brakes i think im goin way too fast now
but im fuckin scared that ima spin it and ill crash out

but that never mattered baby you werent at my funeral
every single time i died i got a little delusional
saw a figure makin deals he claimed were irrefutable
how could i not take it when he made it seem so beautiful

idolized

idolized (hero)

on all plats

prod. sorrowbringer

im inside my head learning self care . . ;(

vitality

@strivemusicau
@soulfadexo
@northshoremusic
@emptychest

(TNS)
When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(strivesad)
catch me out the back i think i'm feeling numb
never smoke away the pain but i'm still pretty drunk
caught me lacking once again cause i don't feel enough
played the game than got erased so i will soldier on
i ain't switching side this time but now i have to ask why
why am i not progressing in this life
caught me lacking once again cause i don't feel enough
played the game than got erased so i will soldier on

(TNS)
When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(soulfade)
Omnipresent
Catch me lying in the dirt
Everybody wanna talk
But they leave me in the hurt
Rather be alive
To tell you i was never sorry
Buried to the bone
I’m okay with the mindset
Don’t feel sad
It was written in the books
Don’t feel bad
You had it all coming
But that’s okay
Never loved you anyways
Fuck you bitch
Imma go my own way now

(TNS)
Can’t catch a fucking break I’m in my head again
Tripping over people that tried to hold me back again

Push the bad thoughts out my head I can’t control the past

Bitch I’ll break through
Fuck around the rules cuz I ain’t in school

Recharge living in the past I needa restart
“getting tired of living life just like a retard?” - grandma 💀

Hide away the pain inside my brain I needa recharge

When I’m gone you’d said you’ll the other way
Things don’t ever change just look the other way

(emptychest)
everything inside my head was built upon
some death
some death
some death!!!
been like 4 years but im still here
took a trip and i felt no fear
yeah i felt no fear
i felt no fear,
cause it was all i wanted

Numb w/ strivesad, soulfade, The North Shore & emptychest [+ loverboybeatz]

liar

trapped in a world where we
dont know what we're doing
we're REALLY fucking clueless
vices on my desk, contraband in my head :/
its fine to us,,
i got party in my dna ^-^
i cant even brace , or hurt
cause i cant feel my face, uh.
rum and everythings fine 
i do what i want

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh...'

i still hurt sometimes

nothing makes sense :(
another bro got jaded >:(
i think they laced him >;(
TELL ME WHAT THE PAY IS
i got real bones ache and they sure ache
i cant even stand to see my own face.

-

ghastly imagez..

lil nightshift

ghastly imagez.. p. lil nightshift

a mutual sickness report

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Mamoru &1kurane 
Mixed by: Reapers Shadow, angelsofsorrows, & JoshIGuess 
Mastered by: @joshiguess 
Artwork by: Azusa Banjo
Artwork from: I Think I Turned My Childhood Friend into a Girl (Manga)
Artwork edited by: Reapers Shadow 

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

[Post-Chorus]
Spending all my time 
Tryna make him mine
But my smile never shines
Because I'm too shy 
To tell him the truth

[Verse]
I'm making songs 
So I don't end it 
Starting a new wave 
But I know I'm gonna bend it
(Bend it)
If it's a new style 
I gotta blend it
Masking my feelings 
To hide the truth but

[Bridge]
I feel butterflies
When I see him
I wanna look 
Cute for him

[Chorus]
Ceiling filled with my thoughts 
Skipping across like a rock
Oh Oh Oh
(Rock)
They say they wanna hang 
But I don't hear a knock
You're such a loser 
But still have the nerve to mock
You're just another number 
In the Infrastructure

I Wanna Look, Cute For Him (Prod. Mamoru & 1kurane)

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Jang0
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I just want somebody here for me 
But nobody is ever around 
This past summer was hell
& I don't know why I feel like this 

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming 
& I feel a breeze

[Verse 1]
My persona has changed 
& so has the rate of my descent 
From this mountain top
This rage inside won't ever stop
At this rate I'm boutta drop
Like six stories
I don't know 
If I'll get up in time

[Bridge]
If only you would've found me 
I could've lived
Now I've hid all my feelings away
Cause I'm worthless anyway 
At least that's what I think 

[Verse 2]
The memories are still haunting 
But I can't be losing anymore time
Hope one day 
I'll find someone to love me
The song I wrote you in June 
Means a lot to me 
It's time to become the real me
& accept my femininity

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming & I 
Breathe slowly

The Summer From Hell (Prod. Jang0)

wrote this about half a year ago,
things were really fucked up,
almost ended up in the mental hospital,
anyways things have been slowly getting better,
hopefully ill come back to uploading more,
if anyone is in a similiar position i truly hope this song might bring you some closure,
stay strong,
it will get better,

whats's it like (dybbuk box prod. hero)
whats it like to die
to not be alive
to be free from this bullshit
that is life
i thought i lost the 
need for suicide
but it never leaves
it just creeps

in the back of my mind
waiting for me to fall down
down on my knees
then it overtakes me with ease
i dont want to give in
but its not that simple
theres just too much struggle
right there within

one
two
three 
then fifty
pills in my hands going to my tummy
add another 60 just to make sure
i dont wake up
i dont survive
so i dont have to do this
all over again

leave me right now trust me i dont wanna hurt you
dont make me lie to you
but you dont want the truth
youd just be worried just hitiing my phone
i dont want that let me die on my own
leave me alone
cause i want the answer


i think im broken
and i cant be fixed
i think im lost
and i can never be found

What's it like (prod. hero x emptychest)

physically on Earth
mind in space
my Instagram: @alifromearthmusic
i also make free beats on youtube

The meaning behind my name is "The idea of the Reaper is cool yet scary to me & I live within the shadows of everyone and everything"


I make music about my struggles, frustrations, & Passions
I play video games, watch anime, & Chill with my friends when I'm not making music

@angelsofsorrows l is my close friend and mixes my songs along with my other close friend @joshiguess huge shoutout to them wouldn't be able to pursue music without their help

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@killbreanna 🂡
@caspywaspy 🂡
@user-411557229 🂡
@navyxower 🂡
@shizukesaaa 🂡
@not-a-fucking-hero 🂡
@strivemusicau ♤ 
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@noxious-nights ♤
@soulfadexo ♤
@imperial223 ♤
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