Alek Olsen - someday ill get it

Written by: Reapers Shadow
Produced by: Jang0
Mixed & Mastered by: @angelsofsorrows 
Artwork by: Reapers Shadow & angelsofsorrows 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I just want somebody here for me 
But nobody is ever around 
This past summer was hell
& I don't know why I feel like this 

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming 
& I feel a breeze

[Verse 1]
My persona has changed 
& so has the rate of my descent 
From this mountain top
This rage inside won't ever stop
At this rate I'm boutta drop
Like six stories
I don't know 
If I'll get up in time

[Bridge]
If only you would've found me 
I could've lived
Now I've hid all my feelings away
Cause I'm worthless anyway 
At least that's what I think 

[Verse 2]
The memories are still haunting 
But I can't be losing anymore time
Hope one day 
I'll find someone to love me
The song I wrote you in June 
Means a lot to me 
It's time to become the real me
& accept my femininity

[Chorus]
Just let me exist please
Without wanting to die 
Winters coming & I 
Breathe slowly

The Summer From Hell (Prod. Jang0)

we back i guess 
prod by: www.youtube.com/@QUITAllBeats

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
the more i stare it all looks bizarre
but yet i don't ever wanna say au revoir
cus going back to this city just makes shit hard

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
surrounding ourselves around stars in stars
i'm staring at the fountain at the garden park
and all my torment turn to crystal shards

maybe my bliss uplifts when i'm staying by the mountains
got more clarity and time in peace, getting used to my surroundings
but the better health, means better funds, so i might need an accountant
but for me to want to stay forever, i seem to always doubt it

cus do you want to know?
the place that i stay is barely livable
but i'm just lucky that i have a home
but to express my feelings i'm on the go

quote on quote friends only want me when they need me most
i used to think the same with outside of town
but maybe that's not what they're all about
some people bat an eye when they hear my sound
site so unreal my head in the clouds

cus who are we for real?
we don't know til the end of time
but i don't wanna set myself behind
gotta know that that's just just life

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
the more i stare it all looks bizarre
but yet i don't ever wanna say au revoir
cus going back to this city just makes shit hard

i'm standing there wondering who we are?
surrounding ourselves around stars in stars
i'm staring at the fountain at garden park
and all my torment turn to crystal shards

turn to crystal shards
don't know where the fuck to park
and so i found a random spot
cus who are we for real?
we don't know til the end of time
but i don't wanna set myself behind
gotta know that that's just just life

we, who? (quitall)

feat and prod https://soundcloud.com/1mosh
Baby if you want me back
Then never say that shit to me because you make me mad
Oh girl you way too bad
I just want someone no, someone that i never had at all
Stop, i don't wanna go
Baby you want me to move it slow?
You've been coming at me way too bold
Got me fucked up but i don't even want it all


I've been looking for the one way too fucking long
All this love in a deposit but slowly watch it withdraw

I'm just stuck on this never ending carousel
Never close in contact cus we always staying parallel
You're a princess, us two had a pair of cells,
Parasol, broken tower and the line service is terrible
And because of you, light struck the power like a pikachu
Waiting next in line feel like applying for these interviews
Better choose anything it's impossible to never lose
And i'm jumping place to place, i'm a modern major kangaroo

Look in the eyes you jaundiced, i'm more joyful than i ever was
You probably thought that i would never have known what the pressure was
It was slowly building up, you put my mind inside a measuring cup
But it would never fill up

Baby if you want me back
Then never say that shit to me because you make me mad
Oh girl you way too bad
I just want someone no, someone that i never had at all


And so, onward
I don’t really give a fuck if my life hurts
Or if we’re meeting at the function and it’s awkward
I just want to feel the magic like it’s hogwarts
But she doesn’t take it farther

Forever Friendzoned

Forever Friendzoned (prod. MO$H)

feat https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

you used to be off the exit now you're far away
and i try to search for others but they never want to stay
and you take away my time from work feel like you reduce my pain
cus you only hit me up when i'm busy sleeping on my breaks

and i fucked up every chance that i got 
with you
and i wish that i could go back to the start
and they always find another
am i better on my own?
it's not easy to forget but i need to work my self control
and when they see me on active they ask why i'm on my phone
if it's no longer your business you should never come and show

i thought i was better off alone
but the more time i spend at home
it feels like every day drowns on forever (forever)
i'll be so grateful once i find you
just want to fall in love with you (fall in love with you)
cus my heart shall belong to you

distance replaces w/ reapers shadow (lickowens)

my last song ever. enjoy 
(prod. TonioDx) https://www.youtube.com/@TonioDx

yeah i don't wanna be famous
but i also kinda do
maybe get it with patience
dye my hair with tattoos
but man that's too played out
i wanna make a different move
but they always take the image
over talent thats true

and i'm so sick of these musicians every day is halloween
they putting on an act so they can impress the minorities
dancing on the stage and they don't even hit a lyric
i can never perform that fucking way i would just quit it
don't wanna see another motherfucker for the image
and i don't ever want to put myself in their position
but if i do what they don't i'm in the category timid
even if i'm at a festival it wouldn't make a difference

the industry wants nothing but to play these mind games
so i question every day whether or not i want fame
cus i'm thinking the change might be worth the change
but i'd rather find an independent way to get paid

yeah i don't wanna be famous
but i also kinda do
maybe get it with patience
dye my hair with tattoos
but man that's too played out
i wanna make a different move
but they always take the image
over talent thats true

also im jk im making more music

i don't wanna be famous (but i also kinda do)

feat: https://soundcloud.com/lilbooj https://soundcloud.com/yokaidreams
prod:https://soundcloud.com/fantasycamp https://soundcloud.com/prodbybrody

walk around midtown leaves within the distance 
she say she want me then she'll leave within a minute
it's hard to ever feel like this life's full of commitment
but i'll stay on my lone, i don't wanna fuck with bitches

and i hate answering questions
cus once they get the answer, they will never mention
that it ever happened, it's just a distraction 
to fulfill their moment wish they would enjoy it

yeah I wish they just could enjoy it 
i try to find what they’re missing then I’m outta luck 
this trouble sleepin gotta keep it on my bedside, I’m on her badside
got me asking why why why 
cause we don’t even fight fight fight 
but maybe now we should should should 
don’t you let me down would you let me hold down like we wanted

walk around midtown leaves within the distance 
she say she want me then she'll leave within a minute
it's hard to ever feel like this life's full of commitment
but i'll stay on my lone, i don't wanna fuck with bitches

and i hate answering questions
cus once they get the answer, they will never mention
that it ever happened, it's just a distraction 
to fulfill their moment wish they would enjoy it

reading thru the messages
it's getting hard to breath and
and i don't know if i can ever be
the person that i need to be
take you like a medicine
you sleep on me like sedative
so take me back to bed again
if only for an evening (woah)
guess that love is just a weakness
now i'm picking up the pieces (woah)
but there's some i can't retrieve yet

treachery w/ lil booj & yokai dreams (fantasy camp + brody)

grateful prod. boyfifty

non-profit project

all songs prod. dash

enjoy <3

everything prod. dash

don't wanna prod. dash

living for nothing prod. dash

The meaning behind my name is "The idea of the Reaper is cool yet scary to me & I live within the shadows of everyone and everything"


I make music about my struggles, frustrations, & Passions
I play video games, watch anime, & Chill with my friends when I'm not making music

@angelsofsorrows l is my close friend and mixes my songs along with my other close friend @joshiguess huge shoutout to them wouldn't be able to pursue music without their help

The Summer From Hell (Prod. Jang0)

Reapers Shadow

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