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it's not so bad w/ not home (prod. caustyk)

woah shes coming fast
calm down you expect us to last
keep getting knocked back oh
everything will be okay now
woah shes coming fast
don't go your all that i had
don't go too fast (woah)
be prepared to crash
shes coming shes coming too fast
nothing in this world
there is nothing in this world

fast

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

produced by nevermadeithome
 ly bro <3

completely non profit

interpolates 'the weekend' by modern baseball

lyrics

i have nothing to offer u
in truth
because i am too perfectly self aware
to care
about much of anything
i'll take too much of anything
oh dear god, im withering
when she said love
i always win

and she was right i see it now
every night i think about
crooked spines n making out
she's alright, she always was

i don't care too much about anything
ill take too much of anything 
oh dear god, im withering 
when she said love
i always win

put my shit in boxes
im moving to the cottage
in the city, don't work office
in the bar im slicing orange
im here for the sad and the hype shit
like im getting back on the grindset 
if passion was lost imma find it
there's lead in my head still a titan 
tight pack bowl and i pull right thru
gonna work this job gonna write these tunes
gonna take my shit, gonna hide from view
gonna make this work just in spite of u

cus i don't
no i don't
no i don't
no i don't 

care too much about anything
i drink too much, if anything
can't do much but promise me
if u need help my phone will ring 


u've got a smile that could light this town
and we might need it
most of my old friends i can only stand for the weekend




city cottage (nevermadeithome)

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

spotify & apple music!

[AMV]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNv4eGItpyg 
produced by @nate2timezz & i
thank you endlessly for listening.
more to come in time
🖤

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
they scream, "don't.. go"
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you just missed it

i'm losing my grip on reality
i need some help or just someone around me
not a physical family
the moment feelings all erupt
they can't handle your trust
guess i was too much of a burden from the cut
but don't let yourself go and doubt on me
the ocean is howling
that's my kind of outing
you don't know the hurt that it brings
can't focus, can't breathe
i love you, but you know what i think?

i'm way too detached
you don't got my back
been tryna distract
"that boy's such a drag"
i lay in my bed; think things never meant
her hand; never leant
where have you been, love

that girl made me feel like i didn't wanna suffer
validated all my reasons
and then continued to smother
cards all on the table
the table's brittle as fuck
cause you leave with no intentions of hurting me
that's enough-

if what you say is what you mean
then fall back onto me
i'll swallow up your misery
i don't care what it brings
i'll be your puppet with no strings
just show me that i have meaning
like a matter, or a purpose
just a reason that i'm breathing
i've been wishing on the stars since a kid
they're where my arms don't reach
but my eyes look past them
the scars make a pretty constellation
they connect all i see
but at the end of the day, they still look past it

you gotta hope it lasts
you're holding yourself back
if you're falling, your wings' cracked
you gotta snap em back
and when the sky becomes the ceiling,
i'll throw rocks to make it crash
oh, don't look back (2x)

through and through
every time i break down my own recluse
just because i thought they understood me too
from my point of view
they never do (2x)

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
you've never known
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you dismissed it.

everlast [prod. nate2timez x autumndropsdead]

switch it up 
you always say same the shit
and it’s boring 

and i 
think it’s love 
or is it simply just this feelin i’m ignoring

pick me up
i’ve been down
on this floor
i’m probably better off here

and it’s enough 
a simple text from somebody 
i feel better off 

i see red, i see red 
i see cops here 
kicked out the party
i’m the only one that’s lost here
calling u again and again 
ur just toxic 
leave me on read
once again, sleep on concrete

and i’ve been down before
but this is just a whole another level and

i feel rough 
i’ll miss your dog
i guess i’ll see u on the stairway to heaven 

and i guess that’s how it goes (it goes)
when you’re 25 years old (years old) 
and i don’t mind sharing 
i feel dead it’s the weed n these drugs that i’m dependent on 
x2

switch it up 
you always say same the shit
and it’s boring 

and i 
think it’s love 
or is it simply just this feelin i’m ignoring

pick me up
i’ve been down
on this floor
i’m probably better off here

and it’s enough 
a simple text from somebody 
i feel better off

watching sam sulek wbu (branwen + nevrfall)

i reach, for air
i'd scream, but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

nothing's really here for me
it hurts to laugh
it hurts to speak
there's nowhere else i'd rather be,
than put at rest with nobody
if time should wind a single hand,
then who am i to reprimand
the data flow that leads my stand
of former thoughts and severance

met with bloody stares
spirit broke the mirror
tumbled-down eyes glare
"it always could be better"

the toad in my throat drowning notes 'till they're gone
if they crash, should they float to return to this pond?

if i'm stood a stance of lax
consider that form of attack
procrastination ticks away until delay becomes a gift
given all i am is shit
sat distraught over some bricks
counting melodies won't counter how i feel when nothing sticks

i reach, for air
i'd scream but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

trenches

prod wisssery feat sendflowrs mastered by jolst <3

Intro:
First time
Alone in my mind
I was quite happy
But I knew you weren’t right

Hex on me baby
Hex on me
Hex on me
Baby put it on me

You were stood there
You were fuming
You were pissed off
You're accusing

That my mind didn’t have you inside
Baby so greedy that she put at hex on me

Hook:

Yuh
This is your downfall
Greed is your downfall
Ill burn in flames
Just to feel something
Your witchcraft is powerful
Put a hex on me x2

sendflowrs verse:

hex on me
“rest on me :)”
when you talk like that you put the stress on me
you protect your peace
so selfishly
and when you talk like that you crash my self esteem

like omg !!!
shut the fuck up are you serious
what makes you even think that i care
i mean i know i was crying
and halfway delirious
high at the top of the stairs
and yeah you’re right i was kicking
and screaming and begging you please let me play with your hair
and now guess what yea i’m drunk and i’m steaming i got a few issues i need to repair, i know

Hook:

Yuh
This is your downfall
Greed is your downfall
Ill burn in flames
Just to feel something
Your witchcraft is powerful
Put a hex on me x2

Outro:

You were stood there
You were fuming
You were pissed off
You're accusing

That my mind didn’t have you inside
Baby so greedy that she put at hex on me

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

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