shoutout to killedmyself, didn't know all those beats were up on sc

lyrics

telling me that i was just a fucking addict
guess u were right cause i could never fucking hack it
every morning, grab the palms n i just pack it
i wish sobriety was something i could manage
i wrap the blunt up nice and neat like its a package
i light it up, its in my lungs this shit is banging
i pulled up late into the scene but came in savage
burnt the blunt at both ends more than i can manage

i still remember crushing benzos on her ipad
out the back and smoking cigarettes with ur dad
i wanna know if i was ever part of ur plan
19, music dreams, yeah im all that

i hp it wsnt as bad 4 u (killedmyself)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

self_worth (idly blare)

As far as I can take
As long as I've been waiting
I know it goes away
When you're gone

Waking up on the east side
But I don't know what to feel
Thinking of when you'd hold me 
The safest I'd ever been
And you don't know that you fixed me
And I don't know if you care 
So I don't think that I'll tell you
To let you know that I'm here

Things hold and things decay
I've always felt the same 
My hand against your cheek
To see you face from under your hair
I hope you know that I listened 
I'm holding onto it still
And when I know that it's over
The only thing that I'll miss

So don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

Wait for a break in the morning
Ask me to stay it's important
I've had these feelings before it
Spoke out to me in the forest
I put a name to a context like
All of this time and we lost it
But I just retreat where the fog is
Just know that I loved you through all this

The last trace of my body's been gone now
The best days of your life I don't know how
The last chance I could tell you but I still can't
The lights dimming but its painless you should know that

Don't get close to me 
And don't say anything
Cause with your voice so clear
I know it's over here

If It Still Matters

lyrics

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

life has a way of spitting u out in the dirt
now im crying with the germs n the worms
n im tweaking cuz i dont kno my own worth
im making music just to let u kno im hurt
the wise man lies
scares me so i close my eyes
n i see my whole life fly by
walking by
i kno its not the same for u
ive given up my whole brain for u
so i cant even think unless u want me to
i think i need a drink to get me in the mood
cuz i dont have no moods
can i see u
i kno that its poison i put myself thru
girl i kno u want the best for me
ill feel the best eventually

walk me down
twist my heart around while im still holding on
cuz im still love-bound
nodding off been falling asleep with all my clothing on
lately ive been coping wrong
writing lonely songs
call me just to pass time
cuz i kno time gets long
just kno ill feel the same for u when all ur feelings lost
so if u can conserve me then put me in a box

box (jacob vallen)

linktr.ee/lottaheart

produced by metlast & jolst

@lottaheart:
i can never let go
if you wanna talk we can talk, let me know
you were everything i ever known
you're the one who made me feel whole

now im just half what i was that day
i get too attached to the things you say
but i wouldn't take it back,
no i won't, no way
want is so bad cause you know i cant wait
yeah you know i can't wait

@xobroken:
i can't wait to see your pretty face
i feel high when you step into space
i mean it when i say you cant be replaced
where you wanna go?
yeah, i'll take you any place
money don't mean shit to me
i'll bust open the safe
dinero, by me fuego
everywhere we go is safe
stack this shit like legos,
count it all another day
i can never let go
of this feeling oh wait

@lottaheart:
it feels like i dont wanna wait
how much fuckin longer is it gonna take?
if i could take it all away,
i would do anything to make it all okay

yeah you i can't wait
im impatient
waited all day
i can't take this
wanna get away
back to the basics

i can never let go
if you wanna talk we can talk, let me know
you were everything i ever known
you're the one who made me feel whole

now im just half what i was that day
i get too attached to the things you say
but i would take it back,
no i won't, no way
want is so bad cause you know i cant wait
yeah, you know i can't wait

can't wait w/xobroken

heyzbee & luvflorent - last time (mackk)

long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play yhe victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

winter cold tells me something thay i dont know
wind chill on my heart sub zero word to homie nick i tried but not a hero 
tried to make a list but i left it up in reno
i don’t know whats gotten into you but i cant help but wonder why you lost our love 
i know im not enough x2

yeah i know its hard x2


long nights of the figting and its been getting old 
so you packed up boxes and you said hit the road
jack all in my system you try to play the victim 
but
the writings on the ceiling,
the walls were just depleting 

i try to be my best and im doing all i can 
but im falling the thru the floor 
and im sinking where i stand 
its hard to cope with less and i hope you understand that im nothing more than flesh if i couodnt be your man

guess i couldn’t be your man
3 years gone now i dont know who i am
but i know its hard
but i know its hard

flesh [sorrow bringer]

prod. jascoebeats
@beeanieboyy

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it
 
baby u can break me
and tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that 

blunt smoke trees fade
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

look at my wrist
look at the time
i gotta run
look at my fit
all black ripped jeans thats whats up
fuck what you told me thats bull shit

baby fuckin break me
tell me how u hate me
tell me everything i need to hear
and drive me crazy
i know that ur wasted
i know that u hate me
i know that u
i know that u love me so embrace it

baby u can break me
tell me how u hate me
baby tell me where u wanna go cuz i can take u
i know i made mistakes
i can fix them i can make it better for us
would u like that

blunt smoke trees fade 
eyes red bleed grey
green out green up
cash flow dont stop
big head big whip
pink slip wrist slit
fast car new kicks
nascar new bitch

beanie - shadow (safeatlast cover)

lyrics

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

i put a jacket on
this room feel like an igloo in the winter
she make it even colder when she starting pointing fingers
baby i know, im so fucked up im a drinker
but i can make some pretty lyrics im a thinker

got me chilling up in the studio ripping blinkers
think back to the nights when we would blow out all our speakers
if none of that really ever met that much its unfortunate to say that im a tweaker
got me tripping out like you dont really mean that
miss when we would hit the mall
and we would pop tags
knew you wouldnt take the fall
so i took a step back
go ahead and try to call
but i wont hit back
you cant brush this off cuz you know that i live in doubt
you knew what the cost was when i didnt allow
ive been so exhausted
got me in a drought
make me blossom whenever youre around
passing options every night in town
that cautious laughter doesnt make me feel proud
wish that we could feel right
wish she saw a different light

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

aurora borealis in the sky i would still prefer to look in your eyes
you havent called my phone in a minute bet youll blow it up the day that i die
thinking that you hate me so i dont reply
and when they put me six feet, would you cry
i guess i wont find out there'll be dirt in my eyes
baby hurry up and tell me what you want
and dont you give me that little look you do when you wanna fuck
cliche but all i wanna do is smoke a blunt
you dont understand how this shit helps me
breathe it in and breathe it out
i know its not healthy
without it im geeking out
its been a while since we fell out
but im still fiending now
man i fucking hate my heart wish i could tear it out

now she starting to see me in a different light
and u act like u dont need me and it get me tight
ill make u a song if u give me time
and she gonna fall in love if the feelings right
pitch black skies blanket street lights
yesterday i grew wings and today ill fly
all the snakes in her hair will leave me petrified
baby its just me and u until we die

petrified! w/ brecken & kiddamo (p. nevrfall)

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 

Take those yellow pills till I’m morphing 
I drink too much till I throw up in the morning 
I just told that bitch that I’m too busy recording 
I will strike you down for my family just like thorfinn
Your bitch , my bitch 
Cause ur never really on shit 
I don’t even really want it if I’m being honest 
Loudest
Cries will always be the loudest 
Crowded 
Why my eyes always drowning?

Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me smash mouth 
Crashed out 
I should be on smackdown 
Kush loud 
Hit me like it’s pacquiao
Man down 
I will hit yo mans down 
No band but she gave me 
But she gave me..

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

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