pls pls pls pls show love to casperrr. sweetest fuckin guy, and a hell of a artist <3 https://soundcloud.com/casperprpcw (casperrr)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

(emptychest)
that the wind blows
it makes it always cold
and i will never know
never know, where the fuck to go
been reaping what i sow, i think its time to float
(i think about it like everyday)
away.
i think about it like everyday
stay in my brain while you stay in your lane
they say that it gets better but i dont think i believe them
smoking hella potent, think this shits gonna free me soon
that the wind blows
i really wanna stay
but i think ill go

i really wanna stay.
(casperrr + emptychest)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

i really wanna stay w/casperrr (wisssery)

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

9TAILS - creme soda

produced by caves.

metallic taste in my mouth
bloodshot eyes and im out
i dont know my route
i dont know my route
i dont know my route..
live, endeavor
☆
old news that i already know
pissed off and i cant get old
what do i have to say?
(could i ever?)
(could i ever?)
(one missed call)
(two missed calls)
☆
and who am i right now..?
MY BODYS TELLING ME 
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
RIGHT NOW
"I NEED TO GET OUT, NEED TO GET AWAY"
to find contrast
in my life
or all this will be nothing
(nothing)
yeah, it'll be nothing.
☆
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
FOR ALL MY LIFE
I SCRAPE ANY HOPE
OFF MY BEDROOM FLOOR
and if i cannot find it,
I'LL LEAVE ANYWAY
☆
a hurricanes coming thru and
it kinda reminds me of you
kinda reminds me of you..
have you ever, have you ever,
been alone like that?
and all this time i finally need to matter

live, endeavor.

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

cover of jude's (sleepwater) "nervous"
guitar by caves
reprod by me


miss you bro :(

sleepwater - nervous (cover)

9TAILS- look at the moon (prod. scottysplash)

DOJO

Faith Works (Before It Gets Better)

Denzel Curry - Mental | Ain't No Way (KOTO Remix)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/heylog
produced: kanashi
mixed: kanashi and heylog
mastered: kanashi