prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

spotify

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

drinking a lot so i don't think bout shit
i ran out of blunts lemme get back at it
my life is a problem and i failed mathematics
fuck the world outside my life is in the attic
17 depression's all around me
mom and dad both are pretty sick
never had any1 to take care of me
i already know everybody is gonna leave

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

(kanashi)
fucked up, spun out in my bedroom
time moves so slow in this cell without you
can i just rewind? i didnt realize
that we were running out of time
i dont know why im like this
i push everyone away
always give in to the darkness
there is no other way...

bad dreams keep me awake at night
you're so bad for me...
but i still try...

ohhhh...i still try
i still try...

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom w/kanashi (irby)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cut my arm like every night because of you
and that sounds really bad
but thats how sad it gets
and thats how tough
life can get sometimes 
when youre around the wrong people
dont do what i did
learn from me
change your cerebral
id love to say its true but its not 
you can call me baby bloodshot
you can push my hands around
you can make me dance for you
dont be shy stimulate it
it wont bite unless you cave in
see my head its real scary aint it?
youre a pussy, you wouldnt last one day in 
my vessel
my vessel
now you know why i nestle in my bed all day
im pissed off, scared as a bitch and i cant get out of it
and i cant get out of it 
hes real quick to lie to your face ive seen it once or twice at this pace
he belongs in the mud and you know that shit
you know you cant get over him
if you sit and around and wait 
for him to change on his own time 
cause his own time is 2 years down the line 
when hes gay.
im not mad at that but at the fucking least be honest with me
im at sea and im sinking so just throw me down some whiskey
to make it easier for the time being cause I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE being me
and i hate how the sun drives me insane
how..?
how the fuck can love kill you?
how do i see my mind?
hopefully you understand now
imma stay in my vessel till i die.

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

produced by triple gemini (soundcloud.com/trplgmni)

something else left to say here
i don't know what
everyday left to change pace in the dark
holding out for the first time that we go back straight through
the streetlights from the backseat of the car
and i'm deeper again
i pour it straight and its days gone
you couldn't notice and then (couldn't notice again)
i think i'm losing myself (think i'm losing myself)
and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

do you think its the same thing
or you think that its gone?
cause its only worth saving
if its you that i've got
and i know that the waiting
gets inside of your thoughts
and the time that its taking
makes it feel like its wrong

thought that we'd do it again on the same street
making nightmares out of daydreams
june as cold as my face feels
but its easier when you hate me
i just always thought it was safe here

and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

tell me again how it gets in your head
i'm just leaving its better this way
i'm just a second away
i'm just a second away
what would you call that?

read through the texts, do you wonder instead
why i'm making it easy again?
i'm just a second away
saw how it ends when you stay
and i wish we could fall back

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

Somewhere Else (prod. triple gemini)

This song was released and later removed from Bryson's SoundCloud

They told me Bryson
You always sit in silence
That shit gonna turn to violence, yuh
In a year
Yeah, so I'll lay by the violets
Right before the sky lit
'Cause finding peace in silence sheds a tear

What could I do better this time?
Four in the morning and I drive
Drinks with my friends in the night
Just hoping for a smile when I arrive
It's gonna happen
Whipping a classic
No automatic bitch
Blowing by traffic
Rolling up magic
Up in a cabin rich
'Cause I'm on my own time
I'm on my own time
Watching the sunrise
Did this shit myself
Left the drugs on the shelf
Louis V on my belt
Living life, no help
Living life without constants

They told me Bryson
You always sit in silence
That shit gonna turn to violence
In a year
I'll make sure the violets
Come before the sky lit
'Cause finding peace in silence sheds a tear

6ryson

residential. - 6ryson (killedmyself)

remember me

residential. - remember me (santana)

prod. clear purple x maybe
@clearpurple

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

know i come off codependent 
i just want love and let in
break this soul i’d let you dead it
said home is where ur headed
i feel like i’ve never met it
still slitting paths of velvet
picture frame with shattered lessons
got me second guessing everybody, patterns second
after life come death, well i dont think that i accept it
just a coward little bastard, fearing countless changes 
with how im climbing them you’d think my mind is fucking everest
and even if i kill myself im sorry honest
shizu never wanted problems, but my songs adore it
so this leaking heart can bleed throughout the art its forming
take a breath, to telling everyone ur living for it
have mercy on me

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

sludge (clear purple)

THIS IS AN OPEN SOURCE SONG WITH OPEN RIGHTS TO COVER!
So Sorry Abe by The Indivisibles
Amen... (amen... amen)... amen...
Let the ..(echoes rise), let the truth begin...

"Four score and seven years ago," they brought forth a nation,
Conceived in liberty, a bold declaration.
"Now we are engaged in a great civil war,"
Testing whether this nation, or any, can endure.
We stand on "a great battlefield of that war,"
Dedicated to the proposition that all men are more
Than the sum of their struggles, their pain, and their scars,
We are met to honor "the brave men, living and dead,"
Who fought here to advance what the founders once said.
Oh, what have we lost? What can we reclaim?
The echoes of history cry through the pain.
"We cannot dedicate, we cannot consecrate,"
This ground more than those who gave their fate.
"The world will little note, nor long remember,"
But we must carry the fire of their last ember.
For "the great task remaining before us,"
We rise together, in their name, for justice.
"It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated,"
To the unfinished work they so nobly advanced.
"From these honored dead, we take increased devotion,"
To the cause for which they gave their last motion.
"That this nation, under God, shall have a new birth,"
Of freedom, equality, and the dignity of worth.
"And that government of the people, by the people, for the people,"
Shall not perish, but rise from the steeple.
Oh, what have we lost? What can we reclaim?
The echoes of history cry through the pain.
"We cannot dedicate, we cannot consecrate,"
This ground more than those who gave their fate.
"The world will little note, nor long remember,"
But we must carry the fire of their last ember.
For "the great task remaining before us,"
We rise together, in their name, for justice.
"We are met on a great battlefield of that war,"
But the war we fight now is at our own door.
"Those who here gave their lives," their sacrifice clear,
Call us to finish the work they held dear.
"Let us here highly resolve that these dead,"
Shall not have died in vain, their vision widespread.
"That this nation, under God, shall have a new birth,"
Of freedom, equality, and the dignity of worth.
"Let us here highly resolve," let us be true,
To the vision they dreamed, for me and you.
Our America, all America, bound by design,
A promise unbroken, a light that will shine.
(Our America, all America, bound by design...)

Link to more by The Indivisibles soundcloud.com/edwin-balder/sets/buy-the-indivisibles/s-AsXmxzPelsN?si=7795d0cdd89746ae896af1fc1d725e6b&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
songwriter Edwin H. Balder

So Sorry Abe by The Indivisibles

Prod. Metlast 

Lyrics:
I spent November in a stairway 
Face down getting number every weekday 
I know you fuckin' hate me 
But I'm still sitting by our headstone 
Tommy jeans and broken headphones 
I know we're dyin' lately 
Fuck these stupid love songs 
They say baby hold on, don't you leave 
But she could never really stomach boys like me 
I slit my wrists cause she likes the way I bleed 

Haven't seen your face in a minute now 
I've been falling down and now I'm slipping away (Slipping away) 
What's there to say? (I just wish that I never met you) 
Somewhere I hide, thoughts deep inside 
What's left to do, who am I meant to be? 
You know you'll always be a part of me 
You'll always be a part of me...

I spent November in a stairway 
Face down getting number every weekday 
I know you fuckin' hate me 
But I'm still sitting by our headstone 
Tommy jeans and broken headphones 
I know we're dyin' lately 
Fuck these stupid love songs 
They say baby hold on, don't you leave 

You're slipping away from me
It's getting harder and harder to breath 
Harder and harder to breath...

my vessel (nilöwh x frrb)

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