The last part is my fav “I feel the blood in the back of my tounge” so much emotion 10/10

Go ahead and just leave now u won’t be here when I brake down 😮‍💨

one of my ex's had eyes like that was wicked

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

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lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

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ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

produced by branwen

completely non profit

lyrics

turn it up turn it up for another night
getting drunk on a sunday till the morning light
waking up in a monday in a strangers bed
i think i finished all my drinks theyre in my fuckin head

holy shit here i go again
i been off my meds for a while
n im a god again
i dont really know who i am
n im alright with it
at least im being honest
if it hurts then u dont feel regret

ur head will hurt in the morning
u dont give a fuck
shes kinda cute might as well go n try ur luck
she thought that i was 25 holy wtf
so this wont go past tonight idgaf

19 i make connections when in drunk until i break them when im sober
in my heart im older
i bleed from underneath the scotch tape thats holding me together
its forever

why waste my time writing all these fucking metaphors
im still in love with the person that i met before
gave her my heart n she threw it on the fucking floor
i find it hard just to trust cus in the end
fucked my best friend
said she wishing i was dead
u live in my head
both u n him
and its such a mess 
that u have left
that u have left
that u have left

(hero)

i find it funny how we repeat such a cycle here again
shits so toxic its obnoxious she refuse to leave my head
and im okay with that, as okay with being sliced in half
"i got a thing for artists" oh i want ur take on that
chugging octane to experience a numbness when she on me
stop me, id like to see u try oh u could never
sulfate to really rub the cut into my skin
with scotch tape to wrap the fatal wound once again

scotchtape & sulfates ft. hero (branwen)

lyrics:

Hot tongues in the mix in the inn at night
In the lobby I will change for my cinderella
It all changed when I thought about the u and I
It all changed six months ago come this mid September
Front bangs hit my chest when we sleep at night
We roll ups wood and get some  lower eyes
How I feel against u how I wanna die
I swear ill be urs till im a poltergeist
 
Back home in this snow storm mid December
Troop left and I morned in this stormy weather
I made sure to be on for them all spring
U See the sewage but u dont know what the fox brings
Im surprised u made a solid effort
But I waste u and I play around inside the remnants 
Felt my words leave ur mouth while u coughing
Oh im sad when I need to kill an offspring
Loose in the moonlight
Dirt leaves and a black sky
I told you to kill me
Now I watch u lose your life
I pray that u hear me
From up inside paradise
I pray that u heal me
I wish instead I died
Drowned
Somewhere in the lake
I start growing bloated from this water in my veins
Still safe from the fire
Back at where we stayed
I left home but I cant forget the place
Oh Im tearing up
Proud
Not upon my name
U can take a picture but just leave me out the frame
I dont wanna be found
Rather be erased
Even now she remember my face
Oh im tearing up

Hot tongues in the mix in the inn at night
In the lobby I will change for my cinderella
It all changed when I thought about the u and I
It all changed six months ago come this mid September
Front bangs hit my chest when we sleep at night
We roll ups wood and get some  lower eyes
How I feel against u how I wanna die
I swear ill be urs till im a poltergeist

Cinderella (branwen)

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residential. - remember me (unreleased)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

It’s so cold will you bring me warm
And I would never do you harm
The taste of the dirt on my tongue humbles me again 
Even when I’m hurt I’ll protect you until the very end 
Looking back I’m at fault for never stepping in
And I can love you better babe you just gotta tell me when 

X2: Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me 

December is creeping along painfully slow
Ever since I fucked it all up by letting her go 
It’s funny how the loves never there when you need it most 
Throw stones at my porcelain heart and act like it’s while 
So lay me down in roses when I pass on to the other side 
And I pray you feel the same when I say there’s nothing else you could’ve tried 
I’m still in her arms I fall asleep and I dream at night 
Peace misses chaos that’s my broken mind
So stuck in silence  
Fire fills my eyelids 
All these toxins inside this alcohol leave me beaten up 
Nightmares from this poison inside this liquor cup 

Used to find peace
when I go to sleep
Now my nightmares haunt me like a knife and I fucking bleed 
never knew me never knew what the fucks best for me

Maybe I can just lay in this field forever 
Waiting for death to come and wash me over 
And turn all my bones into four leaf clovers 
And no I don’t wanna sleep (no more)
Turn your ashes to dirt that you leave on your front porch 
Leave my heart for the trees (go home)
Tell the people I love not to grieve when I let go 
You said to me it’s fine 
Don’t wait and change my mind 
So now I’m starting to sleep turning dust into dreams like the stars in the midnight sky 
(I don’t wanna go)

I don’t wanna bleed 
I don’t wanna sleep 
And I don’t wanna leave 
Yeah I don’t wanna leave 

(And I don’t wanna run)
But I’ve been feeling so done 
Only place I’m finding peace is inside a loaded gone 
Insomnia up for weeks just let me be let me rot 
Terrified to go to sleep I got no where I can run

I dont wanna sleep ft. Sewerperson and Days to Waste (Irby/Jolst)

trenches-baby.mp3

i ruin everything i fucking touch

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_16

yeah i better wake up quick
"get it going, gotta get an iced out wrist
aint nobody going fuckin hard like this
and i been down bad but now im on my shit"
and all my friends
wanna act like i switched
now everybody wanna take a pic 
god damn
see your face on the gram
got me really missing when i could hold your hand

it's a lot to see u when i wake up
it's been hard to tell u that i want us
i ruin everything i fucking touch
and you'll get sick of me wont take much

yeah you'll get tired of me 
you'll just stop missing my company
it gets so hard to breathe 
wrist cut straight to the artery
i wish didn't push u away 
but sometimes i really don't know what to say
i see your eyes when u ask me to stay 
i just don't know how much i can take
and it's a lot to tell u that i love u
i swear it's me, i wanna trust u

sick of me (prod. pekarot)

prod by me again love u guys <33

lyrics:

maybe its the way that I been feelin lately
I keep trippin on your laces its so complicating 
suffocated by your breathe
while you’re sleeping
tell me is it me or is it everything this weekend

so its me and you 
in this polaroid burnin 
I cant seem to tell the truth
its so hard when im with you
burnin pictures in my wallet you can see it right 
its the only way im ever gonna sleep at night

fk it tho, it’s okay im gettin my money up
I know you dont believe me but I give a fk
if I fall, imma end it all
im tired of these fights endin in draws

I get so fkin stressed that I cant calm down
and all my friends are busy and they gone now
I cant help but feel alone cus I dont go out 
im so stuck in my head I cant get out 

I say I love you and I mean it, I know you dont believe it
all the shit that I been feelin I wish I wasnt breathin 
I seen it cant believe that im not dreamin 
I always close my eyes cause I cant look I’ll jus be terrified 

terrified, of my visions, im so terrified
look me in my eyes, cant u see this fkin parasite
parasite, eatin at me killin me inside
I cant fall asleep and I cant get up I put my life aside

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

kais

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