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thanks for fw me I rly appreciate u :) whoever listening to this is super cool I bet or rly sad idk loll

lyrics:
im so stuck in this quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in

why am I like this
internal conflict
ion feel shit when I fight it
stuck in the mindset
im goin under, I split my world into sunder
fuck all these lames dont give a fuck what they say
strapped wit a heart and karambit
fuck everyone fuckin round wit my bros shit
why the fuck did u do that no I cant stand it
thought u were a friend
turns out u like fuckin over ur friends so I had so I had to unfriend, hope u understand
I do what I can nothin comes easy, but ill stop shit when u need me

breathe in, feel the weight in my chest
its the best
bleedin, all I need is some rest
some rest x2

im so stuck in the quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in x2

quicksand

spotify

prod. me

(guitar by capsctrl)

<3
lyrics:
I’m such a loser I know you secretly want someone who’s cooler, I dont blame you
im so fuckin awkward
people speak of shit that I never heard of
lifes so pointless, yea

look at me, look at me am I ugly?
I need honesty, I can see it in your face love.
do you really enjoy my time or am I jus comfort?
(am I just comfort?)
we can’t hold conversations in different places
(how the fuck does that work)
honestly you wouldn’t understand what goes on in me
this shit so hard to beat

I'm sorry i never meant for it to be this way
getting mad all the time, and then we sleep all day

I’m such a loser I know you secretly want someone who’s cooler, I dont blame you
im so fuckin awkward
people speak of shit that I never heard of
lifes so pointless, yea

i'm sorry

i'm sorry.

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

prod by me & soundcloud.com/remghost

lyrics:
homesick
so sick of always feelin like we won’t stick
im fucked up, know we fucked but we won’t leave
I love you, but you know if we keep doin this we gon be heartless

jus break me off, jus take me out.
I can’t keep runnin circles if u won’t hear me out

homesick

prod. me

lyrics:
i got a weak heart and wasted time 
I cant run from it so ill hide behind 
I rly wish I could tell u
I know u well but its jus somethin cant do 

rly whats the meanin of this 
im awake but inside im kinda bleedin and shit 
I wanna hide my face, dont wanna talk to u
I wanna run away dont wanna bother u 

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

baby dont scared 
Ima be there anyway dont give a fuck who cares
I dont give fuck im over it
I know im awkward and 
im sorry I cant be who u think I am
are u over me 
it gets hard when u get distant I cant rly see
what the fuck is goin on right in front of me  
im like hows ur day? can u tell me bout it
I feel like im in the way can u get me out of it

will I ever jus feel normal
or am I stuck wit this tmmr 
I dont think I can hold up

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

weak heart

<3
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lyrics:

I try to pick the pieces up like I used to be able to.
I needa stop givin a fuck and honestly u do too
bc its pointless
this never ending fucking conflict its like poison to us
its killin us both and I cant fuckin wait to change
and face it on my own 
but u gon stay the same?
okay.. i guess I'm back alone

when my world turn grey 
I look for some answers 
and all that they say is 
come home

babe are u serious 
we cant hold a convo thats serious…
so distant 

what if I wake up and everyone hates well maybe they already do
cant help but tread past feelings I detached I feel a ghost sometimes 

“do u wanna talk about it?”
they treat me like bitch so I kinda highly doubt it.
I hope that all my brothers and girl dont flake cus im rly kinda fucked up and I cant find my place in this 

ghosttown 
I wish woulda knew what I know now
goin down
the spiral that im used to I know now

u told me u want me to stay away 
well maybe I will u 
cut my lips

cut my lips

cut my lips.

prod by me

lyrics: 

shes like, “kade why u always gotta lie?” 
im lying cause u make me do it.
last week I saw the story in ur eyes 
tell me could u see mine

flippin through ur pages 
cant say im ever bored 
I got a lot of patience, but I hate bein ignored
ill tell u what im feelin if im up to it 
first u gotta tell me why u aint trustin me

cus i dont got a lot of time for this 
im findin all the pieces ur denyin me 
was this all u wanted from the picture in ur head
u know that im not much, u gon work me till im

dead how I been feelin lately 
in our head how we been dealin baby
im sorry if im complicating 
im not an easy read im sorry baby

but dont take me for fool I need food too 
I get deprived from the feelings that I want from u
what do u want from me I told u that i told the truth 

I told u that. I told u u should know its true. 
u should know it in ur heart I didnt lie to u
and all the times that I did 
u made it the only way out 
u say excuses can be useless
well im on my way now 
yea im on my way out 

shes like “kade do u even cry anymore”
well..
u kinda got it all outta me so its usually jus hard to breathe now

books

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

prod. me x soundcloud.com/cay2o

lyrics:

I been thinking bout us
I kno i’ll never get that trust again 
lucky me, but look what the fucks the point 
at war with the thought of avoidin the truth that i’m just a fuckin loser to you.
I suck at everything I do so don’t get it confused I get the disappointment in me

look at the bigger picture it’s a part of it
trust it only stays if your hearts in it
look I kno we’re not okay but life’s a bitch
hope that we feel better but it never ends

I was still lost when you found me don’t doubt.
just because I fucked up dont mean that im drownin 
under my own judgement came to that im nothin
tryin my best but it falls flat like always

I been passin time sleepin thru the day like 
nothin 
tryna fight the nerves, but they pull me in like quicksand 
im too insecure no I can’t be on a polaroid 
I hope u understand how I been doin hope ur proud of me

loser

(prod. kais x sorrowbringer)
u all mean the world to me fr
enjoy :’)

lyrics:
don’t wanna let you down again
I know i’m nothing but a burden.
and when the tide goes down i’ll stand
up for myself again

I was never a part of it
nah I was never part of it, a part of anything or anyone

got me painting pictures of the future stressin bout my life
kais don’t stress bout stupid thought illusions cloudin’ up yo mind
just fkn stop this shit
get me out of it
just get me home, where I can grow, and heal my scars a bit

this is really up to me
I can’t rely on not any my friends, nah
I would love to be chillin at home makin beats every week
so I wont let this go to waste
wont let them see this smile fade away

“im lonely and hurting”
all these thoughts averted.
I kno y’all got my back
I can hear it from your wording
im sorry i called you
these things seem to fall through
pictures comin down I can tell the rain gon’ fall soon.

it's okay

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

pavement w/skele

s/o soundcloud.com/boyfifty and soundcloud.com/user-530621763
enjoy :)

lyrics:

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck

therapy's expensive and exercise is pendin
thoughts are goin wild and anxietys expandin
you need everyone to hear you, but cant seem to open up
yeah your confidence is lackin and you couldnt give a fuck

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

i miss them all
i need someone to catch me before i fall
i need love and composure
something i looked over
i cant even function, i fucked myself over

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself x2

look them in the eyes, bruh
you cant love yourself if you gonna hide and run
from your confidence its killin you inside of us
im tryna help but you fuckin up the life of us

okay maybe im depressed right now
cant leave the room (go out)
i need some rest right now
i don't got time to show out
i cant find a reason for anything
i cant find the motivation that im chasin so desperately.

oh you think you know it all.. well you dont
you been stressin bout' everything all alone
and your friends do miss you, you jus dont call em up
it seems to them like you just dont give a fuck x2

hear me out
im fallin back down
im callin out to myself, callin out to myself

callin' out to myself

callin' out to myself (prod. boyfifty x eeryskies)

prod. me

you're all the best fr <3

lyrics:
I gotta get fucking grip
i let everything slip thru my fingers
im walkin on glass I might trip 
let it cut me just cut me to pieces 

on dry ice frostbite from your lips sent a shiver down my spine thru the vine to my hips 
there ain a lotta love for me, not to give. 
I been tryna figure how the fuck im gonna live like
this.

im wasted, complacent.
u name it
im lame man, 

cut my lips, cant speak to you 
i blew the shield can't read into 
the cold ass stare i get, you use 
permission to light the fuse 

im just a figment 
walkin thru your vision
catch me upset, its just something you're dismissin 
solice is only possible when were in two 
love so still, its all because i skipped the route
unmissable 

i am 
cant relate to me relate to you
i try 
some days i wonder why i cant cry 
my eyes 
been frosted since i last quit my lies 
so why 
is my chest still caving in

i feel my worth in my skin
but i can't seem to let it grow
i feel the grief in my soul
leave slowly

frostbite

𝒾 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉𝓈 𝓁𝑜𝓈𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝒾 𝒸𝒶𝓃'𝓉 𝓈𝓉𝑜𝓅 𝓂𝓎 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒.

shoutout soundcloud.com/sorrow_bringer 

enjoy,,

lyrics:
(that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
you got what you need from me 
now you can breathe)

i realized it's nonsense
so inane to love her 
i can't save what's lost, but i can't stop my love 
so beautiful the way we leave 
our conversations incomplete
I'm sorry, but someday you'll see

that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
you got what you need from me 
now you can breathe 

cant calm myself down so i work wit the z's
look in my eyes you're so perfect to me 
what can i do to make you believe in yourself babe i swear that that's all that you need

if you're fractured inside come tell me
i wont push you away i'm sorry
that i've done that before it's on me
i would help you today in a heartbeat

i realized it's nonsense
so inane to love her 
i cant save what's lost, but i cant stop my love 
so beautiful the way we leave 
our conversations incomplete
I'm sorry, but someday you'll see

that i'm just not that worth it
i'm covered in pleads 
but you're the one that i need this time.

i can't stop my love

i can't stop my love (prod. sorrow bringer)

hi<3

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/branwenmusic v talented prod 

enjoy:)

lyrics:
my necks sore, holding up
weight, from my mental it still brings me down
i cant ignore it, but i cant make it stop
i just cant find a reason to give a fuck

alright, ok, ive had it
waste a new day, damn thats tragic
alright, ok
(alright, ooo)
alright, ok, im not me
i want to leave my body
and really im so sorry, i dont know what to do

my chest sinks, im used to it
i was on the brink, you picked me up, dont mean shit now.
oh you overthink? well so does everyone
now im on the ropes, feel it slip, falling down

i get this feeling makes my head spin
i cant really explain just how its been
im so sorry for the distance
i try my best for everyone who listens

honestly cant show up, nah
too busy in my head, numb
try my best to show love, so
you know im always here
um, i kno that i care, but to me it feels you dont
really understand me

alright, ok

alright, ok (branwen x splashgvng)

prod by. noski x essar
sub to noski https://www.youtube.com/@prodbynoski
and essar https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4ck80Z9prYfnSElUW5_ezQ

lyrics:
everydays a struggle, everything is fucked up
i don't know what to say to you
tryna lift the rubble, crush it when i come up
i can't even make it through, but shit i ain leavin
i got too many things to believe in
they wont text me like "bro are you down?"
i gotta figure my own shit out.

where did i go wrong? i've been static for way too damn long
will you trust me? don't say that it's gone, say that it's gone, say that it's

you can tell me i'm stupid i know, 
but there's not any blood on the floor
i won't end my own life that's forsure,
i know that there's more there's gotta be
more than this, there's gotta be

more than this.

I hope u love it, enjoy <3

prod. me
https://soundcloud.com/nihil2free on guitar
collab with https://soundcloud.com/bitekivibes
shoutout to both of them for real


lyrics:
i've been trying to fight off this gravity
can't have shit in this life its fucking comedy
seems to be i worked up on my honestly 
were still stressed, nothings left, somethings gotta be up
tell me that you don't give a fuck
i said, "okay see you in bit" 
crushed my hand with a mallet
ditch all my attachments and bring the fucking damage

keeping me up on a late night 
in deep, no sleep in my damn eyes 
you said you missed me i said, "damn right"
can't rest i'm stressed till the daylight

i could use a little bit of closure
fucking up my mental i've been distant and colder
they're so judgemental it sucks my composure
all i have left is what i should have told her

break me down to see myself
i've lost my mind
don't need your help.

now i get it
synthetic how they act around me tryna be my friends its pathetic.
i keep waking up to panic 
suppression locked in, i cant stop it.

gravity.deprived

prod. me
(capsctrl on acoustic guitar)
<3

lyrics:
what was it like to fall in love with me?
asleep in the morning, awake in the night
i'll take it all, i'll face it all, im in deep.
no saving me now.

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

take your time, take your time
save your breath
its all a lie, all a lie, its a test
waking up, waking up all over again
waste of lungs, wasted lungs i am.

if youd listened to me who knows what we could be
(stop it now its dark in here)
so tied up on things that we didnt even mean
(stop it now i've had enough)
said you know me the best but you dont know me at all
i was depressed and didnt bother to call out to you
so much changed so fast but im right here
please dont give up

what is it like to fall out of love with me?
i feel so annoyed and, i dont know why
i took it all, i faced it all, i was in deep
dont start from the beginning just end it

cry more
days spent stumbling onto who i am, what i want
lace up, run far
running into what i am, fuck who i was

who i was

hi :)
prod. me

lyrics:
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

empty, lately i been empty
drugs been lookin so tempting, but ill hang on
hang on tight just for you

she wanna talk, but she heating up.. why you wanna talk when you need help?
i think i know a fake when i see one, and i think im gonna break if you be one
u can find me at my place barely breathin
i was always less needed
than them and i can see it
u can try and call it wont reach me

i dont really talk, but you kno that im like that
you know when it comes to me i dont fight back
read into everything you say, your words never lost with me

i know it gets so hard,
but life is separating us
so i wanna hear you
say you wont forget me
i've been lost and empty
i don't need the sympathy i jus need a friend i can lean on

i remember that look on your face, its so distrusted
i know, you didn't want this
but we found our love
right on pavement i found
u stomped ur feet on the ground
im sorry

say you won't forget me

prod by me
enjoy<3

lyrics:
i wish i weren't so kind to people i dont know
they step all over me got dirt all on my throat
and as the time flies by i think that i might choke
this rope it follows me, it follows far from home
these bones have yet to see the depth of all these trees
this forest i will go, its right beside the creek
ill meet you here again when time passes you by
ill wait for you instead of passing on my life

as i walked thru the green of the spruce i heard your laughter
please tell me to stop im afraid of the after
every time i talk it just feels like it don't matter
every time i walk i feel my bones slowly fracture
why does everybody use me then just push me aside?
babe is there a reason you cant look in my eyes?
i cant talk to anybody, not even my closest
so i had to ask myself why do i even try?

if only you would focus 
(it gets hard)
then you could see what matters most
its not that hard to notice that you've been talking to a ghost

im losing my damn mind man everyone just acts the same
you cant tell me how to feel, please dont tell me its okay
you ain my friend you ain my bro so i don't care bout what you say
i do this shit all by myself while you sit back and waste the day
my throat is getting tight, it's so hard for me to speak
these woods are dark till dawn, so how could i even see
in the morning when you come looking for me don't be surprised if you find my body hanging by the creek

by the creek

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

bound w/skele & heylog

- ｇｕｅｓｓ ｉ'ｌｌ ｅｎｄｕｒｅ -
prod. kais
i love you guys<3 

lyrics:
where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, no
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

i love you, i love you, i do
i'd hug you but my touch just goes right through
i told you, i told you i'm
gone, gone, gone.

where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, nah
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

endure

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for helping with the ending
all the rest prod by me

lyrics:
dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

slave away the day until i make it
this chest in pain feels so amazing
if you got some more, then i can take it
she said im mental, guess im crazy
IM SO CRAZY IM SO CRAZY
feeling lost, when you walked in with bleach blonde hair
i never thought we would talk now its been 3 years
on the rocks and im coughing i gasp for air
and she said, "kade, do u hate me? do u hate me?
please dont hate me!"

dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

coven

check out the bros::
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn
lyrics 

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

snow on her dress watch us fade yea,
snow on her chest heart break yea,
she told me we should take break yea,
im lookin at my phone
dumb, stressed out, and i feel all alone,
don’t
try to use yo dome,
if i break out i jus hope i go home,
stressed out in the back so im sippin on crone.

lil skele:
I took a lil too much 
I be moving slow shawty I ain’t in a rush 
yeah black out in the backseat
I’m a lil too fucked if u ask me 
yeah
it’s like bury me in Louis v 
I been hella faded my eyes getting hazy 
Ion love that bitch she crazy 
ion ever leave the house chill by my lonely 
i fw anybody don’t pick my phone up when it’s ringing 
bumping dg and I got wrist on icy 
feel like guitarboi sipping on peace tea
I been steady stacking bands I got the money

yung axstn:
The nicotine helps me get over 
I’m not your friend you’re never sober 
my girl yeah she wants me over 
i feel the same just wish you were closer
now if you don’t mind I’ll be back in a bit
Cause the shit in my head it makes me wanna quit
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there 
and I know that you want me right there
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there
you miss me all the time I just wish I was right there

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

it's getting harder to sleep now (w/lil skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

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it's getting harder to sleep now. (w/skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

support: https://soundcloud.com/caspr

lyrics
i saw ur eyes in the shadow of my closet
i take it all, if i didn’t i woulda lost it
lots of x’s in my brain, i feel the cross hit
relaxed to the max in stacked fit

breaking hearts, like my shawty, do u feel me,
I’m fucked up, but its normal, u don’t feel me
don’t hate on the dream of a failure,
i just wish that i could just fly away forever.

waiting for the day i get to see her
she’s light itself, but im the reaper
darkness himself, lives inside me
i just wish that i could get these pills outside of me.

i saw ur eyes in the shadow of my closet
i take it all, if i didn’t i woulda lost it
lots of x’s in my brain, i feel the cross hit
relaxed to the max in stacked fit

shadow of my closet

shadow of my closet. (prod.caspr)

𝘪 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭 𝘮𝘦

lyrics:
I know I seem different, sit down u should listen 
I know I feel so distant, im not me I kno u wont miss this

i'm sorry, the chemicals are breakin me down slowly
I cant control me x2

I don't even know who I am
i'm aching 
its suffocating 

smoke some shit, hope i feel it
my chest to weak for these feelings
I start breathing heavier 
, i'm insecure, my life's a blur

fuck I wanna feel u on my lips, yea
I know hasn't been long but I still miss yuh 
u callin my phone u cant leave alone
I rlly like that, I cant lie 
yea I rlly cant fight that 

confused ab my life and where i'm goin now
I hope I make but sometimes I think don't kno how

“ look at the brightside” fuck that 
u don't even know me 
sayin shit like u rlly think we homies

i'm sorry, the chemicals are breakin me down slowly
I cant control me x3

chemicals

chemicals (prod.kamikaze)

Prod by. me :)
mastered by soundcloud.com/cay2o
lyrics:

they whisper to me, wither away
don’t want them to see so I cover my face
i’m insecure and my feelings dont matter
stuck in a loop am I like this forever
fuck it I might be
feelin low like highkey
how you act so fuckin bland like a white tee
I dont think you understand why you like me
why you like me you ain nothin like me

ima do it for my friends and the people who don’t mean shit
cause I’m the only one who gon give what they need
shit if I ain gonna make it
then I hope whoever does knows how to treat a fuckin bag and keep they friends close too
dont know you do I have to,
crack a smile to a stranger, bet they lied too
gonna get a tattoo, 18 real soon
ima hussle till I make up back to you

I don’t want no problems
cause I ain gonna solve it
I know everyone around really hates me and it’s okay
i’m sleepin till its too late
for any of my plans to work
fuck it ima wake up when all this shit easier

nothin like me

prod by me 

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for making fyeee wit me

lyrics:
wait for my chance but you take it
lifes not really what you make it
you give me these looks and I hate
this town so small I could break it

you’d give me yo love if you wanted to
you take my heart and you throw it jus tell me the truth
im stuck in this loop of regret
I talk and I talk but this feeling is still in my chest
I keep givin up I cant make it through
all of this shit that I do I do it for you 
im sorry im tryin my best
I cant give my all if im stuck up in this stupid mess

I'm so stressed 
feeling like shit cause I'm broke and depressed
I just want peace but you cant take a break
stuck in this loop we get mad everyday

skele: 
im tryin me best and you know it, and no im not mad I would show it
I make a bag to just to blow it
I dont wanna leave but im goin
I would give all of it up 
I hate the plays and I hate the come up
its stressin me out
they always want me to be perfect shit makes me nervous 

hate or dont, love me you wont
been here before babe I know how it goes
you know how I feel when you say that 
i’ll be here forever I mean that.

if u wanted to w/skele

prod by me again love u guys <33

lyrics:

maybe its the way that I been feelin lately
I keep trippin on your laces its so complicating 
suffocated by your breathe
while you’re sleeping
tell me is it me or is it everything this weekend

so its me and you 
in this polaroid burnin 
I cant seem to tell the truth
its so hard when im with you
burnin pictures in my wallet you can see it right 
its the only way im ever gonna sleep at night

fk it tho, it’s okay im gettin my money up
I know you dont believe me but I give a fk
if I fall, imma end it all
im tired of these fights endin in draws

I get so fkin stressed that I cant calm down
and all my friends are busy and they gone now
I cant help but feel alone cus I dont go out 
im so stuck in my head I cant get out 

I say I love you and I mean it, I know you dont believe it
all the shit that I been feelin I wish I wasnt breathin 
I seen it cant believe that im not dreamin 
I always close my eyes cause I cant look I’ll jus be terrified 

terrified, of my visions, im so terrified
look me in my eyes, cant u see this fkin parasite
parasite, eatin at me killin me inside
I cant fall asleep and I cant get up I put my life aside

polaroid

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

s/o to https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty for the fire beet and inspiration <33
s/o soundcloud.com/cay2o for mastering too
mixed by me

lyrics:
I know u hate this, I don't fkin like it either.
my brain cant stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I cant fkn kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself.

she gon' thank me when I kick the bucket.
obsessive thinking, my mind crazy, but I cant say fk it.
cause I got u and these people who gon' listen to me
this shit my therapy, don't take it as a lecture homie.

I fkn, lay in bed just thinking and sht.
i think id probably be happy if I didn't think about sht, but i cant help it my mind racing like a track meet
i try to sleep then get depressed like tf happened to me.

I’m wastin my time, I opened my eyes
can’t rely on these bitches I learned that the hard way
comin back to my senses, but ive been through hell
i’m a lion in a cell, but its kinda hard to tell
now I dont mean to yell, but sometimes I need to get this feelin out of my chest.
I love my homies, s/o my brothas 1 time 
I hope they not lonely, cause im barely alive.

kais

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