bro take in one of my homies made a beat for me with the same sample. amazing

𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓲'𝓶 𝓷𝓾𝓶𝓫

@caspywaspy this turned out fckin incredible ilysm bro

- lyrics -
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

i got so much to say
but there's no point to mention it
i love to just decay
a void marks where my presence is
am i even around?
am i making a sound?
i smoke
and then i choke
and then i fold
im going deep into the ground

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

tape my fucking mouth and blow it shut
mixing different drinks with teeth and blood
nothing can erase the shit ive done

isolating myself in a wooden hut
listening to birds singing when im up
forget about the things that got me fucked

i can't keep people close
cuz of the wounds i hold
some new and some old
but none of them close
why do i keep drowning feelings
and not search healing in all of the people i know

tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb
tape my fuckin mouth and blow it shut
anxious feelings every time i roll the blunt
"they don't really love you, fucking cunt"
"no one really likes it when i talk"
biting so aggressive on my tongue
life is so much better when im numb

all plats

somber w/ casperrr [prod. santana]

produced by speedlmt

lyrics:
before i found u
i was going through hell
oh do you miss me
im still going through hell
i still cant even tell
what its like to be me
she doesent miss me
she doesent miss me


i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

she my bandage
walking through the forest empty handed
blood on my screen
with dirt on my shoes
where have you been
i sorta miss you
well no defiently do 
im shaking in my room
i really hate this house
im shaking in my room
i need a way out
im shaking in my room
im shaking in my room
shaking in my room

i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations
i vanish i go into hibernation
crucify me its isolation
no one will find me 
lost in the pine trees
walk right by me hallucinations

isolation

ｔｈｅ　ｐｒｅｓｅｎｔ　ｍｅ　ｉｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｌｏｏｓｅ　ｅｎｄ

i love all of you guys seriously so much.
this is the only thing  i ever want to do, and your support helps push me to continue with all of this; i would regardless, but i'm grateful to no ends for whatever kind of reception is given back. things have been seriously difficult as of late, and so all i can say is thank you for being here. thank you for listening.
shit's kinda cliche when i say that, but that cliche shit is true sometimes, and i mean it; whatever. thank you 
hopefully just the beginning 

prod @cartermetro & @vito2300 

you left (you left)
i crashed (i crashed)
now all we ever had is in the past
(it's all in the past)
i'll stay (away)
detached (from that)
until the very moment i collapse

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
but i couldn't give a shit
hammered down any spite, bring out the knife
lying outside again

and my notes are filled with solutions,
that you might consider delusion
the old me is buried in ruins
the present me is just a loose end
turned off the phone for monochrome daydreams
'cause i don't give a shit if i'm wavy
i mean look at what happened to davy

making a point to you's crazy
crissin' it 'cross like an apple, how tasty
stuck in a drench, while i'm soaking in sweat
more or less i'm expecting nobody to save me
pokemon quest on the blue 2DS
nowadays i'm a wreck, and i stench what i'm craving
heart full of rust,
when the musk fermentates in my chest you can leave what you're hating

i got a pain in my neck, can't stretch it
the hurt in my voice can't be heard over message
so let's make a break where we got no connections
only direction, never perfection
when i talk to the sky, it'll always rain hail
bulimia fucking me up 'till i'm well
"the truth doesn't sell"
leave me for dead with the dread in my head and no breath to inhale

004, blunt force on the baby
there ain't a lure with the potent to save me
getting by as a passerby,
keeping lowered eyes, i'm already hazy
not that i'm lazy,
just marinating in lost time they never gave me
i'm short on breath, should i recollect
or detach, while i'm still straining
i hate that when i fall back into relapse
it's me i'm saving
what a nuisance, when i do this
you're clueless about what i'm saying
so, deuces, 'cause few stick when the roof lifts
i'm sick of waiting
got mucus on my blue lips
from fucked shit i feel on the daily

something ain't feeling too right
losing my sight; bloodshot irises
the people i love ain't alike
give it some time, maybe my view will shift
it's always whenever you're right, they put up a fight
why should i give a shit
hammered down any spite, brought in the knife
i wanna die again

my heart's open
why is my heart open
quick, gotta close it
quick, gotta close it

collapse [prod. cxrter x vito]

lyrics written by girlfriend
sorry if they're wrong


You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

i hope you're proud of yourself 

prod/master: @skinnyatlas

i don't think there's something wrong 
i love it when you bite my tongue
pull my skin apart, dismember 
put the pieces back together

gone, i can't bring you along
sing the words to a song 
that i wrote you in fall 
(baby now you're)
gone, you don't even call 
baby is that so hard 
do you care at all 
(baby, grab my)
grab my neck any harder you'd break me 
i love that sex where you say that you hate me
if i won't scream then you don't hear it 
if i don't bleed then i won't feel it

hide myself in isolation
don't come close love
i can't take it 
bind myself, there's no escaping
hold me down i just,
hope you're

proud of yourself 
told you once, but i'll see you in hell
all his sins 
think you've ruined yourself
all the things that you do to yourself 
cards that you've dealt
cut me down into submission 
carve me up 'till god can't fix it
not even saline could wash out the stitches 
i'm not worth saving, there's no need for wishes

hide

hide (w/ skinny atlas)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

- ｇｕｅｓｓ ｉ'ｌｌ ｅｎｄｕｒｅ -
prod. kais
i love you guys<3 

lyrics:
where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, no
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

i love you, i love you, i do
i'd hug you but my touch just goes right through
i told you, i told you i'm
gone, gone, gone.

where do i go from here
hm..
i miss my friends
im sick and insecure
hm..
guess i'll endure
guess things will never be how they were, nah
and i'm not sure about anything anymore

endure

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

Free DL, instrumental available on my Bandcamp, 
Hope you enjoy! x

Sam Deeley - What U Know
**This is an unofficial remix of Two Door Cinema Club - 'What You Know'**
**I do not own any of the rights to the original by Two Door Cinema Club**

endure

kais

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