i've physically been able to relatively get back into releasing music like this;
recovery has been ridiculously difficult, but i feel lightyears more capable
compared to what once was, and the soul-crushing aspect of not being able to output like this is slowly but truly dissipating.

production; courtesy of @wraithontheporch 

thank you for being here, so much.
be safe out there


ignorance laced from the brain to the lips
"if it ain't worth shit, why wait to be there when it is?"
though belated of light, though faint and estranged,
though strained, no night's that blind
festered and caught in a wind,
silently ridden renewal beginnings
forgiving the spite dealt upon all i am,
i take and refrain for the cycle's expansion

i'll mention the faulty of fate,
when the frame's out of range,
have the soul act in place of a comet
to strike down upon this, enduring the promise,
mistakenly pompous, forsaken and rotten

splurging the truth yet perceived as a cheat;
guttural speech yet sewage conceived;
scour the hour once all has devoured the spirit of tone 
that i currently breathe

i'm ripping the bag,
you could swear i'm a coon with trash, being glad with the leftover meat,
but y'all are facetious to see the extent of believing, 
the moment you feel it impede
few to foresee what'll lie in the wake of a bribe,
for a mind doesn't mold what it reaps from you guys whom die and revive,
to come back as a cry, in the form of a grime with a greed

how you gonna lie when we built for the truth?
"how you gonna try what you ain't wanna prove?"
how you gonna cry outside of the booth?
lost too many times that i've slept life through
i've watched myself slipping back into blue,
i've seen defeat in the form of anew
told out myself that i'm seeing it through
told out myself that it's worth every bruise

feeling it out won't dispel,
alice was simply compelled
the bottom is treating you well,
no wonder we're now so frail;
i could use a light for the trail

scrapwork (wraithontheporch)

everything by me
be as well as you can be;
thank you for being here.

i've seen what they're after,
those piles of fiction,
drawings of answers
warping perceptions

o mother, or father, 
doth cast a reflection?
they weasel and balter 
to distance from lesson

out of grace,
i fall from the arms of armistice
lack every card but the ace,
played when he longs for not a thing

studies of readings inscribed by the feeble
distorted, then imported to feed and fuel an ego
though karma is nothing but patience and sermon
for evil and ugly of heart are persistent
the paling and devoid of taste cheer
tagged and collared, held in place
does it ever pose you great fear?
were we ever meant for aim?
to strain
to ache
to strive
to break
to bend on command,
do you not feel disdain?
i'm awake for age of negation
and stripped away of certain relation,
but i believe in better days,
though how does one both go and stay?

out of grace
i fall from the arms of armistice

cyanide skin

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

give me something to feel yah
i just want this trust to inch it's way enough to heal numb
the battlefield he yield's enough to get him gone from being on
the acid turf is leaving burns, and passerbys see nothing wrong
injustified his tortured mind, and found recline in weaker ones
through divide and clouded sky, a destiny decayed
it's yesterday that local cat is no longer a stray
fallacy is brought upon erasure of the frame
you only wanna fuck him cause he calls you by your name
you only wanna fuck him
you only wanna fuck him 'cause he calls you by your's
called you by your name

love sores and scorn within yourself you'd deprecate
fed the source of everything you couldn't hear me say

her cutlery is pit against the chest
the cavalry is strung about in red
oceans sing, the air it resurrects
confusingly, the liquid knows him best

forging the ache in a cauldron of storm
there would lurk the accompany whispering war
the ecologies flood the industrial core
for the body is steel, but is still only armor

sacrificial departure (sorrow bringer)

petrified at the sight of what is nigh,
though, it might be nice to rectify the white of lies
so, find him tied, unrecognizably contrived
be it like of day or night, they'll always deem to be insightful

the dog is bled of it's effort spent
yet the culprit fed it's influence
through a wooden fence it would lean against
tearing at it's skin, but it's only his

scrap these words i hold in place 
if thou uncertain, bestow thee grace
but how's he hurting, i don't see pain?
it's only made certain once one's decayed

flawless, though it seemed to you i wasn't honest
a heart shift, i could tell that you must've been starving
cautious, replicate the struggle and i'll fall in
august kept him held within it's empty margins

drained, split amid reality and that of what is made
the cowardice of hounding prove susceptible to flame
regardless of the sender, the recipient's enraged 
courtesy of riddance claims regression is to blame

though he's zoned, although unknown, he won't corrode, 
beknown of crows and open roads, the omen flows, but will it show or come to slow?
we'll never know (8x)

the dog is bled of it's effort spent
yet the culprit fed it's influence
through a wooden fence it would lean against
tearing at it's skin, but it's only his

terrestrial acrimony (sorrow bringer x luffysome)

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
(my body's been remote, but i'm all ears)

crush two and i'm in it, he's waking bruised and deflated,
i got this habit of spitting, but all this acid come with it
he's turnt to ash every minute, a song and dance resurrection
you rabbits ripping up carrots, i'm canis lupis incarnate
got sonic booms when i'm barking, converting rooves into starships
this ain't your average invention, it's more than natural selection

thought she was safe up in his head
so he'd removed the padding covering his weakened flesh
but abrupt departure cut the flora thriving on his skin
now cattle's grazing on the flowers bursting through his chest

the green evades from being subject to an open wind
in apprehension of it's fate awaiting overhead
so nature waits in subtle breaks between the pavement
for many moons are to elude at compensation, but still, he's anxious

uncertainty enveloped through subtly of enthrall
but i regulate that haze through a blizzard of getting gone
with remedies for those emmitting vacancy of want
disheartened, hurt, and starving, yet crucial to it all
cast within a marshland, enhardened, enswamped
in emergance of that influence, the arteries are clogged
but the potency that comes with it is rightful in it's wrongs
as doubt within neglect to beauty's sewn within the flaws

so what's the word? you know i'm down for it
as mother earth determines counterfeit
the now dispersed yearns inhabitance
of bird and fern, the worm is blurred

might be universe impairing peers with lightning
a white screen thrown about, a crown ensures the stifling
so often i'm haunted and falter from nonsense,
the world's still revolving, he's not what she wanted
if you were just honest, it'd lessen the starving
this trail led of crumb that you thumb's disembarking
he's all but undone, but is stunned from the heartless
injected was rust, muck, and lust in her harvest

always unheard, speaking my word, they just wanna flirt
better or worse, embracing the curse 'till covered in dirt
wrapping in silk, given the earth, i know it'll hurt
off of the pills, downing that cardi, merlot, for the heal, yea

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
my body's been remote, but i'm all ears

bird and fern (dash)

accolades to those who serve a throne
through a window pane, feathers grayed and made unfurled
word of lover laid, in the beak, in talon, curled
yet another day, delayed unearthing blurs

you said it's why you had him fly
but the storms that were endured left him blind with every flight
but over the pines flew it's body entrenched,
and in that moment it felt the endearment of friend
a familiar tree had his blood reassessed,
and past the point of return, it was onward he'd trek
coated his vision, a thick of the mist,
as if to open the eye wouldn't make any difference
he's harbored division, a grave indecision
return to the earth or become what it's missing

it was how you knew and felt the ground despite the altitude
were you too down to purge the doubt of everything he saw in you?
of the clouds to be honest: two decades of rain
but the drought in his stomach kills him off all the same

don't worry bout me, i've got wings for a reason
don't worry bout me, i've got wings for a reason.

as far as it flew (forzen)

Written by: Phantom Eclipse 
Produced by: everestdidthis
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: https://wall.alphacoders.com/big.php?i=943237
Art by: 降島ツカサ
Art discovered by: ShuOuma
Art Edited by: Phantom Eclipse 

Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Everybody wants to change 
But they can't even break the chains
That bind them that bind them to their past 
& I'm no different 
No matter what I try
I still feel the inner despair 

[Bridge]
I just want some peace
I just want somebody to be
Here with me 
(Despair)
It never goes away
(Away) 

[Verse 2]
I'm not perfect I know that much
Even if you're not the best
Just know I'll do my best for you 
Because I love you
Breathing in & out slowly
Trying to calm down from anxiety 
That's what reminded me of our past
Raining in my town
EVEN IN MY TOWN
Even in the winter 
Maybe it was all meant to be

[Outro]
Swift exit is all they say 
But I'm happy it ended this way
Disc's playing movies as Iay in bed 
Reflection of myself made of lead
Metal blaring through the headphones 
& death still haunting the victims
Left in his wake
(Left in his wake)

Despair (Prod. everestdidthis)

Tell me why she came running to me
Her life has been a whole on movie
I can't take even trying to sympathize
Cus even if I step in it won't feel right

She fell out of love with her other guy
That she left me in the dust for
So lustful
I don't know if i'll ever feel trustful
Around her knowing how fast she let go
But my heart still cries
My heart still cries

Our eyes locked and I just can't help but feel bad
Is this manipulation or actual status
I don't know if I should return to her
She didn't think about me in reverse
Only forward
Like how she should move right now
I'm worried that I might be the only way how
I don't ever want her to find her way out
I care too much she don't deserve constant frowns

I made this album with the mindset of being detached
Now she coming back fuck how about that
She probably listen whether or not I come back
That's the biggest problem music always in tact

Tell me why she came running to me
Her life has been a whole on movie
I can't take even trying to sympathize
Cus even if I step in it won't feel right

reconcile

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

New Music Video out 
https://youtu.be/UhkCGzSZ1TA?si=bx29Ta8rYyVz9DPA

My former names include @kurama_sd , @kurama-sad , @reapers-shadow, & @reapers-remnants

My alt account is @kurumi-violet It will be used for emo plugg & more cutesy music

This account is for Dark hyperpop, Shoe gaze, Alt rock, & DnB might have other styles if they fit or are needed to convey an albums theme.

Despair (Prod. everestdidthis)

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