Chaos Theory (instrumental)

Date of creation: ‎20 ‎March ‎2023

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I remember in October
my composure needed closure
and words you told me, how they controlled me
the way you lied, what that implied

How long had that been going on?
and the fact you had been relying on
false promises and fake premises
with fake love while looking above and

I trusted those words
and I trust that you heard

my heart breaking and hands shaking
(I stared at that screen the only thing between.)
my heart breaking and body quaking
(I fell right through your lies; it makes me want to cry)

Oh, it's so cruel! I feel a fool...

Every time I came home
After school, I felt a fool
to of trusted
I'm so disgusted because of you
and how I loved you

I wanted to feel; wanted it to be real
But now that's long gone, and I've withdrawn

my heart breaking and hands shaking
(I recall memories; those are my enemies)
cause my heart is breaking and it's gaping
(I felt everything, everything through your lies)

My head is spinning, and my ears keep ringing
(a week in my bed wishing that I was dead)
I feel so blue all because of you
(My heart began to sting because I didn't feel anything!)

I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I love you! I-

20/03/24

perfidious-october ft. Kevin & Mo Chen

asking questions, seeking answers
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lyrics:

Breaking through everything alone
Crashing through everything it showed
Why did you come back alone?
Why did you pick up the phone?

Can't turn back now, lost your home
Your paradise still unknown
Can't decipher monotone
Yet it's not real, this I know!

Do you hear them? Your past life
Remains begging for a light
Do you feel them cry through the bite?
Yet they stood still and faced the headlight

Deep within my heart, lungs and my bone
Everything that I never showed
It all ends up in the world we know of all that's lost and will never
"Come back to the present time!"
We cried
Yet it never gave a sign that we'd be alright
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youtube: https://youtu.be/xVVXoOSEOpw
bandcamp: https://ennn1.bandcamp.com/album/lock-and-load
instrumental+ustx: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=sharing

Lock and Load / Kasane Teto

french people

ty to @sushi-killz for rendering saros!!!!!
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lyrics:

They've rot away by now 
Make not a sound, my darling
In stone, your name devout
Espouse to dear departed 

Picture perfect diagrams 
Like I'd ever read them 
Born of lust and severance
's if I'd ever listen 
Cross your eyes and dot your tears
Eulogies rewritten
Erased letters, postscripts seared
Every bite forgiven

Lay down asleep, cherie
'Been long since I tarried your pulse
Couldn't guess instinct'd split eternity

I never ever, ever, ever, meant to look at you that way 
No stalling, for hearts always break out
Never ever, ever could expect for what i reaped to burn it all down 
Never ever, ever, ever meant to picture you that way 
It's better to lose than to love, now 
Never ever, ever could prevent a heart fated to break 
But I'll crawl out

In frame, keep watch of yesterday 
Where we used to lay
You'd say "break the silence" 
Play with subsidence

Oh my dear, now all too clear
We were picturesque, the model, love
Delirious from all that blood
An urge on cusp, all desirous
The stakes born of disgust

Just lay down asleep, cherie
'Been long since I buried your pulse
Please forgive me for what I had to be

I never ever, ever, ever, meant to look at you that way 
No stalling, it's you or us both. now
Never ever, ever, could expect for sequelae to taste oh so profound
Never ever, ever, ever, meant to leave you in that state
Devour those lips that you loved, now 
Never ever, ever tell in retrospect that heart was built to break
Yet I'll crawl out
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yt: https://youtu.be/G9Ic59oeAYA
bandcamp: https://ennn1.bandcamp.com/album/to-your-heart
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN

To Your Heart / SAROS

music: me
tuning/render: Dumas-P
art: me
vsqx/vpr: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1syHLIJerFalm6wJw-Ie9_yc2F2JzuaqY/view?usp=sharing
inst: posted seperately

Hopelessness, Clinging, Friendship, Loss of control, Sacrifice

lyrics:

Listen up, you’ve got mail!
Too scared to open?
Epic fail!
Dirt that’s underneath the nail
Let’s crack it open
A sad tale!
Red curtains that unveil
The noxious gas
I inhaled
Drama that has since gone stale
Give me all 
those juicy details

Cry a river, cry a sea
It’s painful, don’t you agree?
Fill the void with unheard screams
To an alarming degree
Your silence is killing me
There’s only so much we can see
And my untold misery
Is hiding in heart’s reveries!

Please forgive her, cry for me
It’s lovely, don’t you agree?
Fill the void with unheard screams
Till we have to disagree
Your silence is feeding me
There’s only so much i can see
And your untold misery
Is hiding in heart’s reveries!

I’ve got a knack-knack-knack
For leading stories
I’ve been attack-tack-tacked
This will get gory!
My mind just crack-crack-cracks
Some say it’s eerie
Let’s run it back-back-back
I love it, dearie!

I’ve got a knack-knack-knack
For getting lost at sea
I’ve been attack-tack-tacked
This is our glory!
My mind just crack-crack-cracks
Why do they fear me?
Let’s run it back-back-back
I love you, dearie!

Cry a river, cry a sea
It’s horrible, don’t you agree?
The audience can’t hear my screams
Following what i decree
Ending in a killing spree
There’s only so much they can be
And my unfolding story
Is hiding in heart’s reveries!

Please forgive her, cry for me
Cower in a silent plea
Fill the void with unheard screams
You’re all just too carefree
Their silence is killing me
There’s only so much i can be
Nothing that i can foresee
Is hiding in heart’s reveries!

[Kagamine Rin] HEART'S REVERIES [Vocaloid Original Song]

Organsdotorg–Back to the Stage(ft. Solaria)

like the tv said / kevin

todays my birthday !!!  :)
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lyrics:

Ah, my head's spinning 'round 
Another year laying down, awake at 2 AM 
Scrolling through, when will it end? 

I've been waiting for end times 
A passerby closed my eyes 
Counting walls, every doll abides 

But I'm holding on so tight 
Like I'm about to fall beneath the bridges I wander 
I've tried with all my might 
I'm waiting through the days 
Hands waving, screaming surrender 
Won't you take me, if it's no bother? 

Out of bed, settle down 
Drink another Rockstar just to to think now 
There's guests waiting at the door 
Make it count, don't ask for more 

Counting down the days, I'm waiting till they fly away 
Still counting down the days, there has to be a different way 

Yet, I'm holding on so tight 
'Cause I'm about to fall beneath the buildings I wander 
I've tried with all my might 
I'm wading through the daze 
Still counting, mark the disaster 
Can't you tell me when it burns out? 

On my knees, will I see that light I was promised? 
Gnawing on mirrors, it's all for naught 
I've hid behind my teens, counting strings for nobody 
Obituaries march to the clock 

Counting down the days, I'm waiting till they fly away 
Counting down the days, there has to be a different way 

Yet, I'm holding on so tight 
Like I'm about to fall beneath the bridges I wander 
I've tried with all my might 
My head is spinning through each fear 
Please, don't take much longer! 

I'm holding on so tight 
I'm running through the maze beneath the bridges I wander 
I've tried with all my might 
Breathing the scent of candles burning, melting with laughter 

Can't this moment last forever? 
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yt: https://youtu.be/jSBsPHPidM8
bandcamp: https://ennnetc.bandcamp.com/album/birthday-boy 
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN
send me a drawing! https://ennn.straw.page/

Birthday Boy / Yuma

thoughts and prayers 
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lyrics: TBA

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yt: https://youtu.be/CXm58OdAL-I
bandcamp: https://ennnetc.bandcamp.com/album/in-the-end
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN
send me a drawing! https://ennn.straw.page/

In the End / Ninezero

(ORIGINAL PUBLICATION: 11/06/24 on Youtube)
it's been a while, hasn't it?

hello everybody!!! i can't believe it's been almost a YEAR since my last song came out... don't worry all, i am totally alive!!! and i still have lots of music in the works that i just haven't had time to upload yet! that being said, to think i originally teased this song a year ago... and Actually started on its production back in july of 2022. time flies!

but yes, this song has been dormant for all too long... so BOY am i absolutely glad that i can finally release my sweet gamer girl Vivian (she/her) from the basement!!! please be nice to her! the internet hasn't been :(

anyways! i can't promise upload consistency... but i CAN promise uploads. i'm going to try and work harder to release the songs that have been on the back burner for months! self discipline is hard, working is hard, life's hard, but through all of that, i hope my art prevails.

thank you so much for sticking around and being such a supportive community. it really means a lot to me :)

the art in the album cover/video (save for the glitchy background & the eyes) were drawn by kwee / aryalinca, whose socials can be found below! the music, tuning, and editing all belong to me :3 no stealing, pls!!

goodbye for now ~ ♡

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LINKS:
↳ Art Credit: kwee / aryalinca
IG: https://www.instagram.com/arya.linca
TWT: https://x.com/arya_linca
↳ Lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1v_-61m0kricMqyB7_obB5EoCf4r6o6RS5mEr5kq2-s0/edit?usp=sharing
↳ Youtube: https://youtu.be/_l93eX7ymnw?si=lF6VvzOgYvnvdHWL
↳ Instrumental: (BPM - 170) https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1aFRdqzCIJvWw6KyU3qSgyEtRiSTz8mTy?usp=sharing

SUPPORT ME:
↳ https://ko-fi.com/venesection

【MAIKA】CLICKBAIT (with tears)【VOCALOID Original Song】

popy popy popy 
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lyrics:

Washing your hands in oil 
Repelling, windows ajar 
Markings adorned in iron 
It’s telling, aren’t you bizarre? 

I'd stare at you 
Not a moment too soon 
fade away, fade away, dear mommy 
fade away, fade away, fade away 

Hey, you, weren’t you here before? 
Prelude consumption 
Are you staring at the door 
Paved by machine guns? 

Awake in a day dream 
Forsaken beautiful things 
All in unison, singing 
“I’m sick of waiting 
For the walls to bury me away” 

Ես չէի շնչում
թաղիր, խնդրում 

Don’t you dare hold a candle above my engine 
Waste away, waste away, you wake up 
Homing down, don’t hold me down 
Could you taste my shame? 
Count the lapse away
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yt: https://youtu.be/XMf6KoQYiaM
bandcamp: https://ennnetc.bandcamp.com/album/beautiful-things
vsqx/ustx/midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1FkDWq_8uZQMH5O8ZhFPp4Dik8xr_gCvN?usp=drive_link
discord: https://discord.gg/XzKuRZyWKN
send me a drawing! https://ennn.straw.page/