Painfully Sober (with Teenage Disaster)

Christ Dillinger lyrics:

Girl you broke my heart I hope you never forget me
Trieda give you the whole world but you didn’t let me
The aura of your love was there to guard and protect me
Now the aura of your love just continues to neglect me

Hard to keep my head on straight bitch you got me stressing

The thought 
of your face 
is vexing

No fuckin cap
You took me for granted 
and I can’t stand 
the thought of that

I hope when I blow up you’ll start to feel yourself falling back

Focused on myself
The thought of you never crosses me
I was down bad
A part of you was just lost in me
I Put my heart on the line and it came at a cost to me 
You were never real
I realized it’s not a loss to me

Our room
I start fucking up the place right now
Dark room
See the Tears down your face right now
We just Pacing back and forth
It’s like a race right now
You were racing in my head you’ve been erased right now
No going back Bitch 
I’m done with you
After all the pain you caused
I can’t forgive you
Don’t come back asking
Cuz I don’t have a fuck to give you
Broke off all the chains
I’m done, I’m not fucking with you
No more

You are nothing but a closed door


And I don’t think you wanna stay 
I feel sick everyday 
The way my heart breaks 
I don’t think you wanna stay

Over You feat. Teenage Disaster (prod. Wendigo)

i know sometimes im the problem
maybe im the only one that doesnt
nigga i dont really care about my problems
or how to solve them
bag it up n throw it all in my closet
i understand that you tired of my bullshit
you wanna go but you under my hypnosis 
i been trying im jus hopin that youll notice
that im trynna show my love when yo copin

do you remember the day where we fell in love, we talked on the phone n 
then got along, like daisys in a field of stones
bitch i like the way you jus love me for who i am, because i jus get insecure cuz i dont even love myself
bitch i love ya face n i hope this shit dont change a thing n if it dont then my love 
gon be for faith
my love wont ever change, n if it did, ill feel that pain, u break my heart
then ill never love again

nigga all i need is faith
i know she said she want space (space)
take off them clothes
wear a smile
lets take our minds off everything
i wont attract bitch i'll chase
fuck that case, 
because ill be the only one that she'll date

faith |prod. grayskies

PROD. @mkultraproductions

lineup:
MKULTRA @mkultraproductions
BRUHMANEGOD @bruhmanegoddd

NUMB (PROD. MKULTRA)

"By the Sea" flows with a bright UK indie vibe and driving heavy guitars, celebrating the stunning coastlines of the UK. This track is an ode to salty air, rolling waves, and endless horizons—capturing the freedom, beauty, and sense of wonder found at the water’s edge. Perfect for escape and reflection, it brings the spirit of the British seaside to life.


By the sea

its so hard to ask you to stay
waitin for the right time just to see you
but that time never comes i dont feel

man its hard to say that im ungrateful
but with you man i feel so unstable
say goodbye to all my friends, cause im leaving for good

so sorry for the life I chose
and im really feeling like im a ghost
i wanna leave but i wanna stay
i wanna keep you just another day

i wanna die but im alive
feelin sick and i just despise you

lighter burns (prod. CRCL) *lyrics in desc*

I WOKE UP ON THE GROUND 
I WOKE UP WITH A FROWN
I WOKE UP WITH A CROWN
I WOKE UP ON THE GROUND 
ON THE GROUND 
I WOKE UP ON THE GROUND 
I WOKE UP WITH A FROWN I 

INHALE EXHALE 
ALL THE BULLSHIT 
WHY YOU TALKIN TO ME LIKE THAT
YOU KNEW THIS
YEAH YOU KNEW THIS 
YEAH YOU KNEW 
I WAS GONNA GET UPSET WITH THAT 
AND YOU KNEW I WAS 
GONNA GET ALL TIGHT AND SNAP
AND YOU KNEW THIS 
INHALE EXHALE ALL THE BULLSHIT 
AND YOU KNEW I WAS GONNA GET UPTIGHT LIKE THAT 
INHALE EXHALE ALL THE BULLSHIT 

AND ALL THE BULLSHIT AND I CANT 
COMMIT 
AND I JUST WANNA TAKE MY NOOSE INSIDE AND COMMIT 
LIKE MY NAME KERMIT 
LIKE IMMA FROG
CAUSE NOBODY LISTEN TO ME 
NO NO NOBODY AT ALL

I WANT TO GO FIND A FRIEND IN YOU
I WANT TO PROTECT THE BEST IN YOU
I KNOW I BRING OUT THE BEST IN YOU
I WANT MY WALLS UP
AND I DONT WANNA EVER PUT THEM DOWN
SO COUGH IT UP AND I DONT EVER WANNA SEE YOU FROWN

OR MAYBE THATS THE WORST THING 
I CANT THINK ABOUT IS YOU GOING DOWN ON ME NOW 
MAY MAYBE ITS THE WORST THING
IS EVERYTHING THATS GOING ON WHEN IM OUT OF MY HOUSE 

THATS EVERYTHING THATS GOING ON WHEN IM OUTTA MY HOUSE 
I RIP MY EYES OUT OF MY SKULL
WHEN I WAKE ON THE GROUND 
CONSTANTLY IM GOING FUCKING CRAZY WITH YOU NOT AROUND 
WAKE ME MAYBE I NEED TO SAVE ME NOW 
CRAZY HATE ME EVERYTHING GOING DOWN
I KNOW YOU KNOW I NEED TO FIGURE OUT 

HOW FAR HAVE YOU SLIPPED OUT MY REACH
I KNOW THINGS HAPPEN EVENTUALLY 
WHERE HAVE YOU GONE
WHERE HAVE YOU GONE
YOU WASTED MY TIME 
YOU TOLD ME ALL THESE LIES 

AND I NEVER FORGET ANY OF IT 
I DO WHAT YOU SAY LIKE A PUPPET
FLY SPREAD ALL MY WINGS AND I LOVED IT 
WHY TREAT ME LIKE THAT LIKE IM RUBBISH
I NEVER DESERVED ANY OF IT 
I NEVER DESERVED ANY 

SO WHAT DO WE DO WHEN WE LOOK AT THE SKY 
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE MOON AND STARS 
WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE MOON AND STARS WHAT DO WE DO 
WHAT DO WE DO WHEN WE LOOK AT THE SKY 
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE MOON AND STARS 
AT THE MOON AND STARS WHAT DO WE DO

WOKE UP ON THE SKY (PROD. RED MOSK/TRIPLESIXDELETE)

SERIAL KILLA, RAISED IN THE VILLA
DEMONS IN MY HEAD SO I GOTTA PULL THE TRIGGA
DONT FUCK WITH MY CLIQUE CAUSE WE ALL THE SAME PERSON
NERVOUS 
CAUSE A FUCKIN PIG BEEN LURKIN
BREAKDOWNS
TAKIN PILLS DAILY
I CANT EVEN BREATHE CAUSE SHIT IS FEELIN HAZY
MAYBE
I GOT HELLA PLANS FOR THIS WORLD BUT IM STUCK
INSIDE A HOSPITAL AND ALL MY FANS ARE MAKE BELIEVE

HEY BITCH WATCH WHERE YOU STEPPIN
YOURE FLEXIN ON A FUCKIN LEATHAL WEAPON
HEY BITCH WATCH WHERE YOU STEPPIN
WE GONNA START A BLOODY ARMAGEDDON 

IN THE BACKSEAT AND YOURE RIDIN WITH A STRANGER
HE'S GOT A NICE SMILE AND HE AND TOLD YOU THAT YOURE PRETTY
WHAT A NICE NIGHT
WHAT A NICE GUY
TAKE ANOTHER SIP THEN ITS LIGHTS OUT
CLICK

IM SORRY, IT DIDNT MEAN TO GO LIKE THIS
BUT I GOT SOME FEELINGS THAT I CANT EXPRESS
THE BLOOD ON MY KNIFE TREATS ME BETTER THAN YOU DO

SLIPPIN
BETWEEN THE CRACKS
AND GOD DAMN WHY DOES IT HURT SO BAD
LOCK MY DOORS AND DRAW THE CURTAINS 
MY TIME HAS COME AND IM FUCKIN CERTAIN I,

RUNNIN, RUNNIN FROM MY PAST LIFE
(PARANOID)
NEVER SLEEPING IN THE NIGHT TIME
BITCH JUST CATCH THIS BLADE SO I CAN REST
BITCH THINK SHE CLEVER LETS PUT IT TO THE TEST

HEY BITCH 
DIDNT GET THE MESSGAE 
PRETTY BLONDE HAIR STREAK LOUD IN THE WRECKAGE
OH SHIT WE FUCK WIT NO PROTECTION 
COUPLE MONTHS LATER NOW SHE PUSHIN OUT THE SECOND COMING
I HEAR THE ANGLES CALLIN 
WHAT DO THEY WANT FROM ME

I CANNOT FUCK WITH THEM 
MY BIGGEST FEAR IS DROWNING 
ALL  A SUDDEN WANNA THROW ME IN THE FOUNTAIN 
AND WHO THE FUCK AM I I GUESS I NEVER FOUND HIM

IT FEEL LIKE EVERY DAY IS SOMETHIN ELSE I GOTTARUN AWAY 
LETS TAKE IT BACK IM BOUTTA GUESS YO FATE 
SO I SUGGEST YOU DO NOT COME MY WAY 
IT FEEL LIKE EVERY DAY IS SOMETHIN ELSE I GOTTARUN AWAY 
LETS TAKE IT BACK IM BOUTTA GUESS YO FATE 
SO I SUGGEST YOU DO NOT COME MY WAY 

HEY BITCH WATCH WHERE YOU STEPPIN
WE RUNNIN ROUND IN THE CITY NO PROTECTION
AND EVERYONE IS HELLA SHITTY CUZ WE LET EM 
WE JUMPIN IN EVERYBODY THAT WANNA GET IN

HEY KID YOU AINT ALLOWED TO SAY SHIT 
AND YOU AINT GONE LIVE LONG ENOUGH TO GIVE A STATEMENT
THEY BEAT ME UP AND EVERYBODY FUCKIN HATES IT 
JUST WAIT ENOUGH UNTIL I FIND A FUCKIN WAY IN

HANDCUFF NO LUNCH FOR THE CRIMINAL 
A COUPLE MONTHS AGO I SWEAR THAT WE WAS WINNIN THOSE 
JUST PUT A KNIFE INSIDE HIS THROAT WELL BE SWIMMING IN DOUGH
THE LIFE IM LIVIN WITHOUT DOPE IS FUCKING DIFFICULT

YOU UH YOU AND FUCKING ME
YEAH WE THINK SO DIFFERENTLY 
EVERY TIME IM IN DEFEAT 
YEAH YOU KICK ME DOWN RUN AROUND AGAIN

IT FEEL LIKE EVERY DAY IS SOMETHIN ELSE I GOTTARUN AWAY 
LETS TAKE IT BACK IM BOUTTA GUESS YO FATE 
SO I SUGGEST YOU DO NOT COME MY WAY

SUBURBAN SOCIOPATH (FT. TEENAGE DISASTER) (PROD. KYRIGO)

lyrics:

If all we are is what I’ve seen 
then far I’ll go it’s not for me 
Were falling burning crumbling turning down 
We can’t get up 
I️m Sorry all these people want you to forget of love 
Find a way to love this world and now I️m truly hated 
tell me all the worst and not a thing you do  could change I️t 
I see everybody running round with empty faces
this could all change 
Instead they tend to keep I️t the same

What a dam lie
That the world would give for you 
If you had hands open 
Wonder why you were to lose 
cause there heart left broken 
Blank face drops needs help 
Im still waiting there for you 
Safe space rots to hell 
heart filled waiting there for you

This depression 
Kinda deep I️ hide quietly 
I️ don’t let no nigga see the side of me 
where I️m truly hurting all the fight is really tiring an honestly I️m thinking imma turn out to be dead


1st  prod fony wallace

2nd prod fony wallace and scumbagshaggy

3rd prod fony wallace and killjames

slob hammer jack

skeletons in my closet |prod. yang

ALL PLATS NOW

YAUX LYRICS:

I CAN FEEL MY BRAIN ROT
THINK LAST NIGHT WAS ROUGH
KEEP HAVING THE SAME THOUGHT
CANT SHUT THE FUCK UP

I JUST NEED TO THINK FOR A MINUTE
STANDING UP AND THEN IM TRIPPING
TRYNNA FOCUS ON THE CEILING NOW

I CAN FEEL THE BURN IN MY EYES
WHEN I STARE
WORLD STOPPED TO TURN, BUT I DONT
FUCKING CARE

I DONT LIKE THIS MOTHERFUCKING SLIPPING
WISH MY PERSPECTIVE WAS DIFFERENT
I JUST WANNA CHANGE MY MISSION NOW

PUT THE POTION IN MY CHEST
IT IS POTENT, IM IN MOTION
CAUSE COMMOTION
I AINT SLOWING
I KEEP GOING
I KEEP ROLLING
IN THE DUMPS
NOW IM SLUMPED
WHAT THE FUCK

WHAT THE FUCK

ROUGH NIGHT W/ FL.VCO (PROD. FONY WALLACE X INTERNETBOY) *OUT ON ALL PLATS NOW*

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