I could never date you because I'd slowly grow to hate you
But I'll progress around the circle just to keep you in my arms
Advertise myself as grateful and considerate, but that's toxic
And it won't exonerate me of my shortcomings at all

She was lying
Miles hasn't climbed a tree in years
Rather party in the airplane than write odes or other art

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

"Eli, why'd you do it? Why'd you take down all your music?"
I'll admit, it was a misstep trying not to be perceived
And yet, I don't deserve the twenty strings and thirteen wires
Living with me in my bedroom, at least that's what I belive

She was lying
Miles sleeps since January
Beating off, redownload Tinder, this was fucked up from the start

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

Everything that I touch turns to dust
Can't find a better way to say it's corpses to the ground
Keep building your life inside a shell of skulls
But tell me how to keep on living when myself I haven't found

She was lying
And Miles was the victim
"Oh, I'm so sad," shut up, fucker, yeah, you really played the part

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

I want to make something
I want meaning
I want to fuck up
I want meaning
I want to learn alive
I want meaning
I want me
I want meaning

And it's a shame (you know, from which I derive sexual pleasure)
I couldn't talk you down from conceited entitlement
And I'm crying, as the curtains close again
I'll renounce all that I've said to make amends

Everything You Didn't Want To Hear

evangeline.info

Performed by Evangeline and Little Faith

9/10 #HFNP

Cleft (with Little Faith)

sit this one out

Pushover (We love U!)

if somethings the matter please come
to my line
hit me up
what are u doin touchin dat drug
just let me know
(feelin lonely)
u know hes 65
neuropathy on his left leg
he cant drive
hes tryna support us with lyft
why do u come to my life
havent been here
for 22 years
(123)
(abc)


DoverStreetLoser

when i thought that we were close
but it seems that it didn’t really matter
cus all of the time that we spent on us
throwing this away was no use

all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up and leave
is anybody listening

notice all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
is anybody listening

you said i ran for my life
you didn’t answer slowly 
when i was running to you

you get out of my face
cus bro you’re so fake
make it one more day
you changed up on me last minute
you’re lost to me and that’s it
going tonight get your goodbyes ready
too weak and i sit aside
go out my mind 
won’t you go out my mind 

all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up and leave
is anybody listening

notice all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
is anybody listening

i thought that we were close
but it seems that it didn’t really matter
cus all of the time that we spent on us
throwing this away was no use

no use

kissin in yo bedroom

happy halloween
--------------
it's in the morning
I crumble to
a hundred thousand million pieces
when I think about it

I wanna die
to be with you
I wanna offer up my sad existence
put you in my place

I wanted to
forget or something
but it's hard when all I think about
is you and how the space you occupy

becomes more vacant
your meaning stays the same but now you
cross my mind a little less 

and that shit kills me
and that shit killed you
cancer growing on my leg and crawling
up into my throat 

and that shit killed me
and that shit killed you
i knew i'd lose
i knew i'd lose you

i knew I'd lose you

i knew id lose you (live from my bedroom)

hellebore and a happy holiday

*** ****

i know you so well
i know you so well 

it would be beautiful
it would be warm
if i could sketch script 
you would be what i wrote 

you are a painting
you are the news
the colors my eyes cannot see 
dark green hues

i asked for some city 
you were the response
modigliani compared 
well what’s wrong

well you know me so well 
well you know me so well

Modigliani

Of salient bruises to my ego, divining desire’s a cornerstone

Everything You Didn't Want To Hear

Eli Orion