eigth circle by bon iver cover

I could never date you because I'd slowly grow to hate you
But I'll progress around the circle just to keep you in my arms
Advertise myself as grateful and considerate, but that's toxic
And it won't exonerate me of my shortcomings at all

She was lying
Miles hasn't climbed a tree in years
Rather party in the airplane than write odes or other art

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

"Eli, why'd you do it? Why'd you take down all your music?"
I'll admit, it was a misstep trying not to be perceived
And yet, I don't deserve the twenty strings and thirteen wires
Living with me in my bedroom, at least that's what I belive

She was lying
Miles sleeps since January
Beating off, redownload Tinder, this was fucked up from the start

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

Everything that I touch turns to dust
Can't find a better way to say it's corpses to the ground
Keep building your life inside a shell of skulls
But tell me how to keep on living when myself I haven't found

She was lying
And Miles was the victim
"Oh, I'm so sad," shut up, fucker, yeah, you really played the part

And I'm dying
Tranquilize me with complacency
Replacing all the holy nectar leaking from my heart

I want to make something
I want meaning
I want to fuck up
I want meaning
I want to learn alive
I want meaning
I want me
I want meaning

And it's a shame (you know, from which I derive sexual pleasure)
I couldn't talk you down from conceited entitlement
And I'm crying, as the curtains close again
I'll renounce all that I've said to make amends

Everything You Didn't Want To Hear

evangeline.info

Performed by Evangeline and Little Faith

9/10 #HFNP

Cleft (with Little Faith)

ifeelohifell

shinyohshiny

for kt

(cuz i dont know, i guess, yeah, we really didn't get the chance to talk at all)

how you feelin, i know we haven't spoke since then
you have your reasons to why you wanna stay away
feels like steel spikes keep driving me right down
gotta mind my business, it's killing me now

ooo
now i can only speak to you like this
in a song 
and i'm sorry because i'm in the wrong

i'm wrong in all the things that i did
pain in time with what you had spent
now i know that i don't deserve you

50 feet away from our lives,
trying not to see eye to eye
it's hard to stay away but i'll learn to

why still miss you? 
why still miss everything?

ooo
now i can only speak to you like this, in a song 
and i'm sorry because i'm in the wrong

still wanna fix your hair
when it's all in your face
still wanna tie your shoes
when your hands are full, babe 
wanna sit side by side, 
watching just what we find

still wanna fix your hair
when it's all over your face
still wanna tie your shoes
when your hands are full, oh babe
still wanna sit just side to side, 
watching just whatever we find
laying down with shooting stars
making our wishes all the night

steel spikes

I want reasons to stay
when life's in seasonal way
carry this to the grave
all for light when fire's at play
Time wont fly in my head
god it's a nightmare to keep
I'll be right here anyway
fly in spirals I wont sway

I mean everything

when i thought that we were close
but it seems that it didn’t really matter
cus all of the time that we spent on us
throwing this away was no use

all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up and leave
is anybody listening

notice all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
is anybody listening

you said i ran for my life
you didn’t answer slowly 
when i was running to you

you get out of my face
cus bro you’re so fake
make it one more day
you changed up on me last minute
you’re lost to me and that’s it
going tonight get your goodbyes ready
too weak and i sit aside
go out my mind 
won’t you go out my mind 

all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up and leave
is anybody listening

notice all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
it’s like nobody really here for me
all the fake friends wanna get up n leave
is anybody listening

i thought that we were close
but it seems that it didn’t really matter
cus all of the time that we spent on us
throwing this away was no use

no use

happy halloween
--------------
it's in the morning
I crumble to
a hundred thousand million pieces
when I think about it

I wanna die
to be with you
I wanna offer up my sad existence
put you in my place

I wanted to
forget or something
but it's hard when all I think about
is you and how the space you occupy

becomes more vacant
your meaning stays the same but now you
cross my mind a little less 

and that shit kills me
and that shit killed you
cancer growing on my leg and crawling
up into my throat 

and that shit killed me
and that shit killed you
i knew i'd lose
i knew i'd lose you

i knew I'd lose you

i knew id lose you (live from my bedroom)

*** ****

i know you so well
i know you so well 

it would be beautiful
it would be warm
if i could sketch script 
you would be what i wrote 

you are a painting
you are the news
the colors my eyes cannot see 
dark green hues

i asked for some city 
you were the response
modigliani compared 
well what’s wrong

well you know me so well 
well you know me so well

Modigliani

Of salient bruises to my ego, divining desire’s a cornerstone

Everything You Didn't Want To Hear

Eli Orion