honestly i wasnt listening w/ heylog, abbot, polar (prod. vedh)

https://soundcloud.com/youngburial

LYRICS
i’ve been feeling like a prick
got no money left to spend
been a lazy piece of shit
creeping closer to the end
this whole industry is wack
all these people make me sick

i’ve been drinking, talking shit
thinking i might call it quits

i’ve been running round in circles
i’ve been trying to get my fix
for a second i was humble
now i’m feeling like a prick
i’ve been paving my own path
and i know that ya'll tapped in

fats'e - I MIGHT CALL IT QUITS (ephixa remix)

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

~ fear

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

forever
i'll love you
forever
you'll be on my mind (my mind)
forever
you'll stay by my side (my side)
and i won't let you die

keeping your legacy alive, forever. i will never forget your voice & laugh. missing your advice. missing you. will cherrish every moment forever. you were truly special and will forever stick in my heart. i love you. rest easy my dear friend. i really need you here so please don't ever leave my head fully.

(instrumental by smokerose)

forever (for Jude)

lyrics -
stick around
i hear ur heart
it's calling out
and makes no sound

i let her down
but i'll make it fine
she don't want me now
i can give her time

feel the same as when u took away a part of me
why so many people onto me?
you didn't do anything
you just stared and watched me bleed
now there's a pool right under me
and these clothes don't cover me

struck into my core and u found no sign of me
it's a state of mine baby
'cos i focus on the dark and i let it take control of me 
now i find no light

and keep me here love
oh i need to stay awake
it's not about reality
it's keeping myself sane

awake

prod fats'e 

lyrics: 

hit me with the combo then
grieving while it's burning and
madness piles up again
bracing for a triple up
hiding for another month
running from the mourning dove
your paintings hanging on my wall
remembering when i was young
wish i could've said farewell
bracing for a triple up
hiding for another month
running from the mourning dove

i've been searching for the remedy
stuck inside my memories 
stuck inside for weeks 
i'm in my room just pacing endlessly
thought that i'd get wiser but i still feel like i'm 23
my eyes have gotten drier 
now i think i'm numb to everything
colors bleed right off the tapestry
embrace another tragedy 
circling above there's hidden messages i'm yet to see
embrace the raven calling me and pull me close 'till i can't breathe
losing you is proof that maybe i'm not numb to everything

mourning dove

NIRVANA - Skepta Vocal Remix

Instagram @kingtheta
Twitter @realkingtheta

Lyrics:
Arrive warm
Leave cold
I carry a storm in my gut
Bright eyes
Windows
Tryin to pry them unshut
A sweet tooth
A sharp tongue
Tellin the truth, the truth hurts
Hunger
Well fed
Quench thirst it gets worse

Sun don't flicker
Stop breakin the day
I'm still invisible
Fading away

It's never enough
Keep my pride under pressure
Maybe I'm meant to disappear
It's never enough
I could always be better
I'll never be
Never be seen
I'm still invisible fading away

Freedom:
A cold cage
Lock me up with my shame
Push out
Shrink back
Function under two names
Sleep well
Spare change
I spent the night in cold chains
Dream smart
Play dumb
I'm the star of two games

Sun don't flicker
Stop breakin the day
I'm still invisible
Fading away

It's never enough
Keep my pride under pressure
Maybe I'm meant to disappear
It's never enough
I could always be better
I'll never be
Never be seen
I'm still invisible fading away

Don't forget my name
Don't forget my face
Keep in eye on me in case
I need you to take my place
Just don't forget my name

It's never enough
I could always be better
I'll never be
Never be
(Sun don't flicker)
It's never enough
I could always be better
I'll never be
Never be seen
(I'm still invisible)

Invisible

@itsrubbish

subconsciously slipping into alienation
and self destruction
and self hatred again
but it feels different this time
feels more real this time
but im much more indifferent
and half as persistent

i can never live my life with no regrets
cuz the chances that i take 
weigh down on my chest
there's no rest for the wicked
no taking it back
she could leave in an instant
and never come back

why are u tryin so hard to be liked by the masses?
im bein myself and these bitches all shakin their asses
ur thinkin in assets, i think ur a tool!
u smokin this wack shit
im quittin the juul (thas cap)
but surely ill always be actin a fool
my bitch look like del rey
but i cannot trust that
she'll only look my way

we just met but we're fallin out
all i want is sex and a kiss rn
she gon flex that she knows me now
but we just met and im headin out

i can never live my life with no regrets
cuz the chances that i take weigh down on my chest
there's no rest for the wicked
no taking it back
she could leave in an instant
and never come back

you were flawed, and so was i
but now its time we went and moved on
i can't wait in this life
for another mother fucker who aint got no motive
pull up with the numbers or ill put u back in drive
i got no friends
homies is family
im meetin my ends
but im barely standin
can u pick me up?
can u hold the weight right over ur shoulders?
yeah, just for a second while im brushin up
im fixin myself
and im fixin to die
will u still sleep when im not in this life?

know u been good since im not by ur side
ive been a waster, ill take all ur time
down in the dirt while i walk thru the mud
light up ur candles, ill light up this blunt :P
rockin a show
bitch im really a punk
fuck on this beat
then ill bang on the drums
come wit the heat any day of the month
yeah me and the boys, we stay fuckin it up

yeah we fuckin it up!!!
bitch we fuckin it up!!!
why u act like a dub
but think u deserve all my love?????????

we just met but we're fallin out
all i want is sex and a kiss right now
she gon flex that she knows me now
but we just met and im headin out

i can never live my life with no regrets
cuz the chances that i take
weigh down on my chest
there's no rest for the wicked
no taking it back
she could leave in an instant
and never come back :/

Follow me <3

NO TAKING IT BACK (prod. rubbish!)

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Lyrics -

you say it's hard when the stars are falling down
and I'm around when you need some love
(yeah when you need some love)
(yeah when you need some love)
oh i'm not okay, but you always keep me here on the ground
and i'll say, oh someday
(oh someday)
(oh yeah someday)

i'll be the man that i always thought I'd be
no lies or anomalies
yeah it's you
oh love, yeah it's you

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

wish you'd call me
oh how lovely
i feel right at home
you're somebody i never wanna let go of
yeah i wanna keep you here with me
so don't go when i'm needing you most
you're all that i want
i wish that you'd stay here forever with me, baby
cos you're all that i'm needing

i'll be the man that i always thought i'd be
no lies or anomalies
yeah it's you
oh love, yeah it's you

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

i do it for love
oh love
i do it for love
i do it for us
oh i do it for us yeah yeah

i want you right here baby oh
right here baby oh
there's no one like you baby
no one else like you no

stream xo

Someday

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