improvised demo

lyrics / 

I don't go a day without worrying
I don't go a day without thinking of my past
I don't go a day without worrying
about what I knew and if it’ll last 

I don't go a day without sleeping
sometimes I go a day where I drink nothing
but I don't go a day without worrying
oh I guess that’s the way it was all meant to be
yeah I guess that’s the way it was meant for me

yeah I guess that’s the way it was meant for me
I see my friends when I find the time
and in the meantime, I’ll do my job
you know I love to see the babies’ eyes light up

no I don't go a day without worrying
it’s been a while since I laid down and cried
I don’t go a day without thinking of you
my darling, by my side

I hope I don't let him down
though his expectations are confused
I hope I fix things before the reaper comes through
I go most days without really talking to you
you know I wish it was different, but what can I do?
I wish it was different, but what can I do?
I wish it was different, but what can I do?
I wish it was different, but what can I do?
I wish it was different, my mum knows it too

I wish it was different, but what can I do?

I Don't Go A Day

first track from my most recent album BAT
out on all platforms
https://estherquade.bandcamp.com/album/bat-album-2021
credits:
written, arranged, recorded and performed by Esther Quade
premixed by Esther Quade
Final Mixing and Mastering by Paul Kuchenbuch
© lucky army records 2021
cover pic: Adrian Sikora

cycle

boo balloon

I was born 
I grew up
I played

I kissed
I loved
I failed

I stood up 
walked 
and I sat

And I missed so much
And I missed so much
Without you

The warmth
The glow
The laughs

The growth
The lows 
and the highs

But you were there the whole time
Yes you were there the whole time

I missed so much
I missed so much
Without vou
I got so much got so much
Without you

Erik Stripparo - I was born - Demo version

Psychedelic Astronaut

This drop 2025

Crowning is about how I had a crush on a girl when I was younger, but because they treated it like a joke, I could never acknowledge it as a legitimate part of me until years later. But life is better, and clearer now.

Written by Gailla
Produced by Gailla and Dorny Mayes
Mixed by Simon Lam
Mastered by Ben Feggans