Heavy Light

chorus
hit the lights

verse 1
Life is a stage 
Some of us fall off 
again and again and again
Act your age
Trying not to grow up
Again and again and again 

pre Ch
The Curtain goes up and I run a mile 
Far away far out of sight 
Forgetting my lines I freeze every time 
Until I hear them say
CH-Hit the lights 

V2
Life is a stage 
Some of us shine on 
again and again and again
At your age 
Take every moment 
Again and again and again 

The particles swoon inside the room
Caught in a brilliant white
Bathe in its bloom 
The shows not over 
Til you hear them say 
Hit the lights

the shows not over

hit the lights 27 SAW 20

I don't think we're gonna make it
Think the billionaires will take us 
off the precipice
We're sliding off the edge of it
And though I'd love to change it
How's an ant derail a train
I'm insignificant
Or is that what I'm meant to think?
So

No need for conflict now 
cause no-one’s gonna make it
No safer spaces now that 
no-one’s getting out this alive
Stare in your loved ones’ eyes cause  
every moment’s sacred
Squeeze every hand so tight and 
wait while the aPOCalypse arrives
Cause no-one’s getting out of this alive

I don't think we're gonna make it
I’ve been trying not to face it for the longest time
Always at the back of my mind
Bitter is taste
It’s all so pointless, such a waste
It’s so avoidable - 
if human life was just affordable
But

No need for conflict now 
cause no-one’s gonna make it
No safer spaces now that 
no-one’s getting out this alive
Tears in your loved ones’ eyes and 
every moment’s sacred
Squeeze all their hands so tight and 
wait until the after-life arrives
Cause no-one’s getting out of this alive

How could I lead you to this place
Only to leave without a trace 
of hope, without a call to arms?
Baby, I just need you to be strong 
and carry on
Or come despair with me and feel the eerie calm

I don’t think we’re gonna make it,
I think the billionaires will break it
Fuck the future up
For a little more of way too much
So WRONG it's almost funny
Cause the little extra money's insignificant,
to them, 
Still they SNUFF out every chance again

No need for conflict now 
cause no-one’s gonna make it
No safer spaces now that 
no-one’s getting out this alive
Stare in your loved ones’ eyes cause  
every moment’s sacred
Squeeze every hand so tight and 
wait while the apocalypse arrives
Cause no-one’s getting out of here alive

I Dont Think Were Gonna Make It

I wrote Departures [https://soundcloud.com/kent-aitken-386794022/departures-song-a-week-2020-week-4] when I was setting up to move; I'm book-ending it with this the day before I head home for the summer. Erin [https://soundcloud.com/erinwolf] was right; I think I have travel on my mind.

*****

When we are tired
And need to lay down
Count time to the tide
Come back to this place

When we are older
Bring me to the water
Set time all aside
Back where I was born

Bring me home, to tie it together
When memory is worn

At the end of the evening
At the end of the warm night
Bright with my brothers
And the families they made

Where our mother is buried
We water the flowers
Somehow they grow
When we're far away

I like to think they need our attention
Even when we only make it home rarely

Bring me home, to tie it together
When memory is worn

With a sigh
For the seasons and lives that pass by

When I am ready
Bring me to the water

The Water - Song a Week 2020, Week 29

Copyright 2020
All Rights Reserved

Lyrics & Music: Erin Wolf
Guitar & Vocals: Erin Wolf

run run running around
run run running around 
in circles

let me take a moment
to explain myself
i know this is hell
quite a bitter pill

promise if you just
really hear what i'm saying
don't take it out of context
hear me out

then we won't be
run run running around
run run running around
in circles

i know it's hard to hear
that he lied with every word
how do you think that i had felt
when he'd done what he'd done

but then you cast me out
made me the villian in my own nightmare
i guess you gave me my way out
had my way out

i guess there'll be no more
run run running around 
run run running around 
in circles

i knew to be free 
it would take all of me
and i knew to be free
it would cost but i didn't know
it would cost so greatly

no more
run run running around
run run running around
in circles

Running In Circles

This is one of those songs I should really give credits to rhymezone.com for the lyrics. But hey, the feeling is all mine lol.
Picture taken by Ayelen Molina (the place is called Puerto Madero. Buenos Aires, Argentina).

Lyrics:

Said your name,
it shook the ground and it froze the frame.
Caught me in a spiral of regret,
I stood like a mirror that won't reflect.
I tried to run away,
couldn't even make it halfway.
So I'm counting all the reasons I shouldn't stay
or return, but they put me in reverse.

(Ring the bell) and use your heart like a spell.

Now mine is blue,
I'm fading like the ink of an old tattoo.
Heartbreak is a game well played by two,
so if you feel it too, we should go for round,
round, round 2.
I'm longing for your touch like a stone statue,
race against your eyes in the avenue.
So if you feel it too, we should go for round, round, round 2.

I'm overflowed,
my knuckles are white from saying "no".
My white flag is the afterglow
of seeing everything that I love just go.

Fades in the distance, I know what I'm missing.
(It hurts like hell) when you use your heart like a spell.

(Chorus)

Now we're strangers biting the love that fed us,
even saying "hello" feels part of a show.
Now we're strangers fighting the love that gave us
nights in cheap motels, you use your heart like a spell...

(Chorus)

Well played by two...
I'm fading like the ink of an old tattoo...
Round 2...

Round 2

I got electricity that's shooting out my fingertips 
feel it when I walk into the room
I got sexuality that's bending all of space and time 
Find the world revolves around me too

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth with me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
it's coursing through my veins
I'm set to set the world alight

I been every hole you ever sold your soul to leave behind
I been broken down and left to die
I tried every way to shake the naked devil off your back
Can you see the twinkle in my eye

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth in me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I feel it's coursing through my veins
I'm setting everything alight

I got on top and
Ain’t gonna stop
Ain’t gonna stop now - no
I crashed out
I’m back now
Bringing something to the light

The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I got the the goddam font of youth in me tonight
The elixir of life - the elixir of life
I feel it's coursing through my veins
I'm set to set the world alight

Elixir Of Life

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All Rights Reserved

*inspired by some acapella tracks from Rhiannon Giddens, sea shanties, and the idea that opposites attract*

Lyrics & Vocals: Erin Wolf

i am midnight, you are dawn
i am rain, you are sun
i bring chaos, you bring calm
i am the flame, you are the balm
i am the flame, you are the balm

i am land, you are sea
you are where i want to be
hand in hand and side by side
together we'll face the changing tide
together we'll face the changing tide

once there was doubt, now is trust
measured patience, there is no rush
will we leave, or will we stay
i give my best to you today
i give my best to you today

The Flame And Balm

"Nobody Ever Knew" (#397, 200920)

I was once right where I was supposed to be
One by one my doubts got the best of me

Eyes like a sunset lips like a copperhead
Wrapped around my chest
So sharp my heart bleeds so heavy I can't breathe
About as naked as it gets

Nobody ever nobody ever nobody ever knew
I I could never I I could never could never let you

See these dreams pure saline
Through the steam like nicotine
Not a clue I wanted you
Fooled me too nobody ever knew

Can't go back to the way you looked at me
If I could I would fall at your feet

You're like a diamond bright as a full moon risin'
Out beyond the mist
Wish I could go there I'd hand my heart right over
Empty as it is

Nobody ever nobody ever nobody ever knew
I I could never I I could never could never let you

See these dreams pure saline
Through the steam like nicotine
Not a clue I wanted you
Fooled me too nobody ever knew

Week 39a - Nobody Ever Knew (200920)

"Don't Piss On My Leg And Tell Me It's Raining" (#398, 200924)

Damn near got matching tattoos
But you said they ran out of ink
My buddies all laugh at your name on my ass
And I ain't got a clue what to think

We almost became man and wife
But your oil change just couldn't wait
Told me you panicked and boinked the mechanic
It seems like you knew you'd be late

So don't hand me cowpies and tell me they're raisins
Don't roast my hot dog and tell me it's bacon
Somethin' ain't right accordin' to my calculations
Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's rainin'

Bought you that new diamond ring
You said it got lost in the street
So howcome I'm certain you went and returned it
For every cent on that receipt

Spent a weekend with my cousin
Family time was your story
Well it's all fun and games until someone gets laid
Now it's an episode of Maury

So don't hand me cowpies and tell me they're raisins
Don't roast my hot dog and tell me it's bacon
Somethin' ain't right accordin' to my calculations
Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's rainin'

So don't bring me Twinkies and tell me you made 'em
Don't make up games and expect me to play 'em
I may not know much but I'm pretty sure you're mistaken
Don't piss on my leg and tell me it's rainin'

Week 39b - Don't Piss On My Leg And Tell Me It's Raining (200924)

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020

Guitar & Vocals: Erin Wolf
Lyrics: James Tristan Redding & Erin Wolf
Music: Erin Wolf

*This song uses a wide range of old unused prompts from Song-A-Week founder, James Tristan Redding (@jimtristan). Former prompts featured can be found following the song lyrics with the year the prompt is from. While I had hoped to use them as prompts in their own right, it seemed fitting to put them all together while also using Week 40's theme, "Ifs and Thens". Thank you for the wonderful inspiration, old friend!*

last call, but i'll keep nursing my
whiskey for one
i used to say i like myself better when I'm drunk
but that old me is gone
that old me is gone

i guess my best was pretty bad, hey
what i said is not what i wanted to say
but in the end, i pay for my mistakes
pay for my mistakes

all i ever wanted was to make you proud
but for all i know,
i've failed and let you down
if i could just make you smile
even for a moment
that would be just fine

it's 11:59 and here i am hoping
that you are my tomorrow morning
forget ifs and thens
how or whens
what do ya say

forget ifs and thens
how or whens
what do ya say

(vocalizations)
(because i'm too lazy to type them all out)

**********
old JTR prompts featured in this song (year)
1. make you proud (2018)
2. 11:59 (2018)
3. my best was pretty bad (2018)
4. you are my tomorrow (2017)
5. whiskey for one (2017) 
6. for all i know (2017)
7. pay for my mistakes (2016)
8. not what i wanted to say (2016)
9. i like myself better when i'm drunk (2010)
10. if i could just make you smile (2009)

It's 11:59 Somewhere

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