6. okay cool

@sickboi

i don't think you told me if you were even sorry
why'd you let me OD off those drugs at that party?
it's killing me slowly
don't know how it started
i wish i had knowledge
of how you could be heartless
i needed your shoulder
but you only got colder
i'll try to get over it
but only once i'm sober
been looking for closure
all the secrets i told her
i'm living a nightmare, it's not even october

needa know what i'm doing?
losing track of me and where i'm moving
hold each other watching horror movies
yeah i miss but won't get into it
why you needa know what i'm doing?
can't keep track of where I've been moving
feels like your trust i been losing
but i know my faith is gonna get me through it

horror movies

Mixed by me
Written by me
Produced quiet.grindset

what did I do wrong
to deserve this
baby (I'm holding on)
to your love, falling apart
can't do this right now
I been holding out
can't even think for myself
and I'm not doing well as you can tell
it's all falling apart

I've been struggling baby
I don't know what to do
it all revolves around you
I can't escape, all the pain
that you cause
can't even stand, on my two feet
I've been in and out of my life
I don't really know how to fight
for what's right, for what's right
for what's right, right, right
heh I can't really talk anymore
I be falling down to the floor
cause I'm broken (down)
can't, pick up my pieces (pick up my pieces)
I don't really know, what I did wrong
can you tell me, baby
I am so lost omg, please tell me

what did I do wrong
to deserve this
baby (I'm holding on)
to your love, falling apart
can't do this right now
I been holding out
can't even think for myself
and I'm not doing well as you can tell
it's all falling apart

wrong

track 3 from the villain demos

its too much i wont talk about
its too much for me to apologize to you
yes i lied to you
i know that you cant live without me
you want me to be with u forever
but of course i lied to you

you dont know the answer that i told her
and she dont know the answer that i told you
all i do is lay back and smoke doja 
i know that its something im not told to

took your heart and split in two
i done took your heart and split it in two
you dont play your part to tell u the truth
you dont play your part to tell u the truth

liar

unofficially prod twikipedia

our connection will never be severed
cross my heart, hope to die if i never get better for you

you'll forever be worth it my love
i'm afraid of the worst so i cant open up
so tell me, would you leave me?
could you teach me?
how you love me so well
how you're keeping me sane

our connection will never be severed
cross my heart, hope to die if i never get better- fuck!

since you're all that i want
try my best, never stop
jump that hurdle, cross that block
till i'm up in your arms
i love you its obvious, no wonder
tell me if i'm obnoxious, since i'm younger
so many words i couldn't say
devoted I'm the pen to your page
and there's nothing i wouldn't do
if it wasn't for you, if it wasn't for you

I'll be your winner, your winner 

our connection will never be severed
cross my heart, hope to die if i never get better for you

you'll forever be worth it my love
i'm afraid of the worst so i cant open up
so tell me, would you leave me?
could you teach me?
how you love me so well
oh so well

our connection will never be severed
cross my heart, hope to die if i never get better for you
be your lapdog just tell me what i need to do
if i lied i'd be sorry would you see me through
scared about losing you
swear that it's true
afraid at the fact you could le-

fuck this shit, i'll just go tell her in person

heartfelt

prod ~ hostile

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1gKtf2FsnJyOMiAtwsd9k2?si=77d470dff4a74158

apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/song/your-night/1823793278

I tried to change my ways
for you to still be the same
out here partying, clubbing, it still wont add up to nothing
I tried to stay in my lane
but you wont give me a break
why don't you tell me the truth? woah

don't you wanna see me at the end of your night?
but you're drunk texting, say you miss me, but it just don't feel right
say I'm the one for you but just leave me out of your sight
so who do you really love?
when the timing's right

you don't call, you just ghost then pop up in my mind
yeah, say you care but it's always at the worst time
fake friends gassin you up, this shit is not fine
I give you love but you give me a maybe
switch moods every week like the 80's
in not stuck anymore but I'll keep it a maybe
since I'm brand new, you keep on claiming you made me

you only hit me when you're hurting
you say it's love but it's a burden
sending mixed signals, you're uncertain
sociopathic, you're disturbing

don't you wanna see me at the end of your night?
but you're drunk texting, say you miss me, but it just don't feel right
say I'm the one for you but just leave me out of your sight
so who do you really love?
when the timing's right

I still wait for your name on my screen
hoping one day you'll mean what you mean
but every time it's a rerun scene
same words, same hurt, same in-between

don't you wanna see me at the end of your night?
but you're drunk texting, say you miss me, but it just don't feel right
say I'm the one for you but just leave me out of your sight
so who do you really love?
when the timing's right

cocktail hour

your night

Every thought inside my brain
Thinks of you—and you the same.
I stay quiet, but it's hard to hide,
 I get excited when they're not invited.

Maybe I'm selfish, want you to myself,
Because I’ve never felt this. Don't need anybody else
I'm obsessive—it f*cks with my head
When you say, "It's not me, sorry."

Every thought inside my brain
Thinks of you—and you the same.
I try to hide it, but I can't stay quiet no more.
I get excited when they're not invited,
When they're not invited.

I'm craving your touch
More than ever—maybe I should go tell her.

i want u all to myself demo

@ripouturmolarsforme
oh, i wish i found
about how you had felt about me early
your voice has turned into a piercing sound
i wish that it was like before you hurt me
and every lie that comes out of your mouth
if only it was worth all of the pain and flashbacks i have now
and yes, your lack of empathy caused us to go south
but maybe you could learn patience, patience baby
i suffer while i'm waiting
and you watch
take your eyes off of the clock
your words had my heart drop
i been begging you to stop
but you just don't get the hint now, do ya?
every single time
you call me while you're crying
i listen to you whine
until you're satisfi-

@ateurheartout
until you're satisfied
i'll still be here
fulfilling all your wishes
until the end of time
do you hear the sound?
do you hear me crying out?
huhh, uhhh, ahhh, uh, ahh, uh, ahh (4x)
you know it's alright
you don't gotta worry
you know it's alright
you don't gotta worry

@ripouturmolarsforme @ateurheartout
oh, i wish i found
about how you had felt about me early
your voice has turned into a piercing sound
i wish that it was like before you hurt me
and every lie that comes out of your mouth
if only it was worth all of the pain and flashbacks i have now

until you're satisfied

unfinished songs
1.mistify 
2.memo/amalgam fs
3.summer
4.better (sinking joji)
5.match (reprised)
6.crush
7. black sun (jazz session)

demos 2

stay

My daughter killed herself because of you

I want u to feel the music like you as if you were there with me through the experiences

i want u all to myself demo

9VN