Prod @Sinxi
Guitar by @prodjpjp

LYRICS

I calm down

im sighing

all the pages we make and then break

its too late

for the way that we go

its a blast and its fun but its done so

breakin bones down never lived a lesson down

chewing on this essence

success around my skeleton

take a breath in

I Could just be obssessing

but I cant help this feeling in of which

I wanna dress you down

Got me in a place to talk

she aint fucking with the war

had like 2 to 3 to start

now we fucking on the floor

Acting bratty from the start

me and her we like a car

She the key she turns me on

and I fucking ride her

Boxing me and her we lost it

Fighting so damn often

shit is so exhausting

falling for her

Poison grab the phone and toss it

Leave her in the closet

back behind the fucked shit

fuckin leave her

Reach down take the brains out of my skull

Cuz I know when It goes its my soul that will stay

and I know

that you say its okay and the pain will just fade

but we know that its fake

two steps in my own grave

with my chains all named and my casket laid

who gets to decide my fate

in the same damned place its a hell I made

Got me in a place to talk

she aint fucking with the war

had like 2 to 3 to start

now we fucking on the floor

Acting bratty from the start

me and her we like a car

She the key she turns me on

and I fucking ride her

Boxing me and her we lost it

Fighting so damn often

shit is so exhausting

falling for her

Poison grab the phone and toss it

Leave her in the closet

back behind the fucked shit

fuckin leave her

Spotify

THE WAR

Prod @Sinxi
Feat @hiraethsry

LYRICS
Got me so alone
Even from the start
Way you pick me up
Speeding in ya car
To afraid to speak
Leave it in the dark
Trying aimlessly
See into the stars
Got me so in love
An evil demon in disguise
Way you fucked me up
A trance to put in with your eyes
This girls a succubus can tell the way she fucking lies
But I Just can't say no to girls who make me wanna try

I don't love you I gotta make it stop
No lust moves half the time we on
And fuck you you take my fucking arms
Got me spinning hate the feeling
I trust you what makes you wanna start
I don't love you i gotta make it stop
I don't fuck you we gotta make it stop
No ones healing hate the feeling

When your with him i know your thinking of me
I'm only 2 drinks deep
I put his head in the sink
I'm tryna
Fight him
So im gritting my teeth
And man he should have stopped talking
He could never be me
I wanna
Leave him to the pavement
There's dirt where his face is
Fuck him while ur thinking of me
Do i deserve this?
Why you gotta lie when you leave
I'm feeling worthless
Stab me with a knife
Till i bleed along the surface

I don't love you I gotta make it stop
No lust moves half the time we on
And fuck you you take my fucking arms
Got me spinning hate the feeling
I trust you what makes you wanna start
I don't love you i gotta make it stop
I don't fuck you we gotta make it stop
No ones healing hate the feeling

SUCCUBUS (feat. hiraeth)

Prod @Sinxi

LYRICS

So alone in my mind
When I feel all the time
That I spend rot my mind
And my life now
Got me trapped
I'm confined
In this type of a life
Where I spend it online and I cry now
But I aint gonna switch it back no
Bipolar with how I act so

Calling on others
I see her flipping through a page
Searching and digging I guess im
Starting from a grave
Evil and sinning it got me feeling like a slave
Turn on the passion the way im healing how I rave
Popped off in my mind I feel the weight up on a stage
You just wanna hate me
Fucker take me you a fake
Busting up my knuckles amount of times
I fucked a face Blowing up my bass
No bill on my

Opening lines just to find
The things that make you hopeless
Nobody signs to a life
That makes you feel like choking
Open your eyes whats in sight
Can you grab it Hold it
Make it fucking loaded
Thats the way im going out
Now do you wanna try
Nobodies around lets just live until we die
Wait my phone is ringing

Calling on others
I see her flipping through a page
Searching and digging I guess im
Starting from a grave
Evil and sinning it got me feeling like a slave
Turn on the passion the way im healing how I rave
Popped off in my mind I feel the weight up on a stage
You just wanna hate me
Fucker take me you a fake
Busting up my knuckles amount of times
I fucked a face Blowing up my bass
No bill on my

GRAVE

Prod @izwithonez / @Sinxi synths <33 

LYRICS

Kill me in the background

I don't know the truth, How?

She been in my mind all day

and its been

So hard when I see your face

I don't really like the way I'm in

I don't feel the sizes on her cysts

and i seen your scars that's on ya wrists

and its been

So hard when I see your face

Locked up I don't see the gate

So I guess I'm just falling til I hear

But you don't like the way I am

You hate my face you make a stare

You know just what your doing when you say

I don't love you

I never did

I played you with this medicine

When I

called you love inside my arms

I don't love you

Drop

Leave

Don't care for all the love we had

The life beneath our feet

Cuz I been staring at the stars

The life we built it wasn't ours

to truly drift across the parts

That I been living in my dreams

And I don't like the way we talk

You lift me up then kill me off

Im not gon sit here on the block

Above my head ready to drop

So come down

Breaking off the leaves as you talk down

Shaking on my knees what more now

Every part of me cant believe what you stopped

I DON'T LOVE YOU

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics 


Just give me time to relax
I feel the pain from your past
It makes me sick I wish that
I could have changed all of that
But we met now and it’s typical
That one wrong move could dig a hole
How could we know 
That we would fall in love
And it feels like something loving 
Can ease all of the suffering 
To points where I feel nothing 
Can finally feel like something
Sometimes I try to be the better person
Sometimes I find il make it out I’m certain
You cry I cry we feel like
We are both burdens
Living life with the hurting 
It feels so

Suffocating to my brain 
I feel the blood loses flow 
Feeling faint when the anxiety 
It knocks on my soul 
Can’t feel my face it turns to paste 
I’m no different from a ghost 
Losing faith I don’t relate 
To living life at the most 

And stay close 
I’ll just take a minute wait
Where’s my halo
Don’t know if I find it 
But I don’t mind tho
You said that your perfect just how you are 
So Just ruin my life
We find it difficult to waste our time 
Makes sense when everything
We have is on the line 
Hey it’s okay I think we’ll be alright

She’s gotta leave 
But that’s kinda how it always goes
I lose my cool 
And shut down until my body’s frozen
But she won’t notice 
I never told her

RUIN MY LIFE (feat.Sinxi)

Prod @Sinxi

LYRICS 

Stop my heart
Dont fear this
Stuck all day
Cant see its
Too unclear
My feelings
Wont fade here
Im breathing
And im sleeping til my eden
Keeping distant
But you stay here
I been waiting
You wont change things
Just to fake things
Just to breath near
When im creeping dont be thinking
That im drinking and Im safe here
Cuz im dreaming about dying all the time
You dont like on what im thinking all the time
All the time you wont ever say
Cold fresh air
Vomit pitch black
Im back
Two seconds
Might just relapse
My last
Im checking all of my thoughts on facts
No guessing
Got me on form like that
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

Got my fucking signs
I dont wanna lie
Darling girl your fine
But i dont wanna do this again
She wont like the way that i am
Cuz i be sending it to voicemail

So frail
Snap my life in two
I guess im too stale
Pick up all my ounce in my lungs
Keep me in the back til im done
Cuz I been breathing for a long while
Too bad
Shawty moving like a trackstar
Way she throw it back
Living life Im not gon act hard
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at
Feeling where im at make a fucking move

VOICEMAIL

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics

What do you need from me love?
Afraid of the things ya feeling
Can't describe all ya helpless reaching
What do you need from me love?

What do you need from me love?
Afraid of the things ya feeling
Can't describe all ya helpless reaching
What do you need from me love?

Got you on ya side but ya stomach still hurting
Tried to stay long but you're to uncertain
Everything you say to me you hate
I can feel the evil from ya face
They say you said things from the start
You never loved me at a cost
Everyday you played it fucking safe
Can't trust nobody thats a fake

What do you need from me love?
Afraid of the things ya feeling
Can't describe all ya helpless reaching
What do you need from me love?

Wrapped around her web
She eat me alive if she can
She don't control the way she hates me
Swear she bleeds the way she angry
I cant ever seem to forget

What do you need from me love?
What do you need from me love?

WHAT DO YOU NEED

Prod @Sinxi 
Thx for the guitar sample @izwithonez

LYRICS 

Fuck it up take the problem and the pills again
Im honest but, I can lie when I need a friend
So dont face me with all the regret you have
Cuz I know damn well you believed in what we did

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW
DONT TRUST AGAIN I HOPE

Breathing lines
Head to toe im feeling shivers
From her demon eyes
Sell my soul just for a feeling
That u caught at mine
I swear she choking on my shit
She say she wanna die
Who dont wanna die
God my times been plastered
Holy water from a pastor
Mixed up all up with the vodka
Guess im only half a bastard
I know
She gon tell me Im broke
Its the same as before
Taking shots at the door

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

Dont pull the strings away together from me
Blocked out facetious things
she wants to say toward me
Collect the only things
You wanna say you own
YOU DONT
And thats just how I fight back
Five bottles counted up right on ya nightstand
Fucked up, never trust me and I write that
Every god damn time I go

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

SAIKO

Prod @Sinxi

LYRICS 

feelings never go
got me stuck on the edge
just a couple of steps
girl the moonlight gonna
swing from back to front
leaving stars in your hair
galaxies in your head
half the cosmos you been hearing all along
im her man she going psycho
its nothing but a cycle
to make me feel the way she did its wrong
to my left im losing vital
she tryna hit my eyeball
im fuckin up again x3

Losing out
yea she toxic but she dressing with the booty out
evanescent with the dress and what she doing now
count my blessings and perfections 
I been booted out
I been booted out
But she gon slide where I sit
yea I dont like where she bit
she gon be clinging on me, climbing off me
time never fits, No i dont
calling for the problems and her dad like dont go
calling for my fallings its the same shit on my own

She got me clawing up my face again
to temperamental with her mouth
chatting shit like what she sprout
swear she hates me from the ground
and i been looking up the sounds
finding ways to take it out
grab the bottle neck it down
stuck in limbo never lost
see the exit wheres it gone
guess im lying to a god
and im lying to myself
she trips me up like what im on
thats my boy he put me on
so im crying to myself
she only loves me on the weekend
every other weekend
shit im fucking up

EVANESCENT

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics

Falling for myself again
I'm beautiful at what I do
Take a problem or a pill
If it was made by you
I don't like the way I feel
And if you take my soul
Il never fuckin heal
And that's the way I do
Go on living new love
I don't wanna try and take a mission
true enough
Its time to make a feeling
For better thoughts
They don't like me
They gon tell me Im forgettable
On my life I break down

On my life I break down
Live a life that gon take my life now
I cant stop or escape from my sound
Live a life that gon put me in the ground
Break down break down break down

Go back
Never let me go I wanna know that
I don't wanna feel alone again
Feeling I know Just what u want on my own
And I can tell all of the things that we had
Breaking down the bottle again
She dont love me she gon take another fuck with her friend
She dont take me and im faded I dont start from the stands
I dont ever try to tell u why I dont understand, why i dont understand
On my life I break down

On my life I break down
Live a life that gon take my life now
I cant stop or escape from my sound
Live a life that gon put me in the ground
Break down break down break down

On my life I break down
Live a life that gon take my life now
I cant stop or escape from my sound
Live a life that gon put me in the ground
Break down break down break down

BREAKDOWN

Prod by Me :D 

LYRICS 

Open my eyes once again 
I feel confined to this bed 
Everything you ever said 
I cant just get this out my head 
Take my life Take my time Take me right back 
In the strife hit rewind make it right 
Thats all I wanted from the start 
All I wanted was your car 
Gas pedal and keep it on 
Leave the mourning let it pour 

Leave me alone 
I dont need nobody else 
She blowing up my phone 
Let me calm your feelings though 
Look like this 
She dont wanna call her friends 
Up all night cuz we fucked again 
She dont wanna tell me that she hates my friends 
Fuck you die with them 

Let you go 
I Dont really wanna let you go 
But the feelings gotta let me know 
That you aint it 
I dont wanna see your face again 
I dont wanna go right back to friends 
Always said this was the end 
Hope you know 
So tell me you dont change me when you change me 
Or you break me when you break me 
I cant take the thing you tell me to my core 
Leave me all alone again 
To lost how I want no friends 
Faded all this time again 
I cant fucking lie 

Leave me alone 
I dont need nobody else 
She blowing up my phone 
Let me calm your feelings though 
Look like this 
She dont wanna call her friends 
Up all night cuz we fucked again 
She dont wanna tell me that she hates my friends 
Fuck you die with them

ALONE

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics 

Say what you want
Im depressed
Always gotta mess with my head
Go and take what you want
Cuz you left like you never went
But i cant stop I never lost my head
These things you say they might just leave a mess

Cuz im blowing like a martyr
Leave me lonely all up in the slaughter
And these things you say
I will never see tomorrow
When im downing all these bottles
Running from something
Call it fuckin karma
And its rotting through my brain
Im sorry girl
I aint never see tomorrow
But you know that im the same
I know just how to fix this

Time to turn back
The things that we lack
If I could id touch your hands
Id make the same mistakes
The same i play
But you know I know everything

Cuz im blowing like a martyr
Leave me lonely all up in the slaughter
And these things you say
I will never see tomorrow
When im downing all these bottles
Running from something
Call it fuckin karma
And its rotting through my brain
Im sorry girl
I aint never see tomorrow
But you know that im the same
I know just how to fix this

Leave me lonely im alone again
Take your time and bash us with ya pins
I know things will never be the same
So go back show the old me
Sitting on ya nighstand
Looking lonely
Even though your right there seconds from me
I cant take the pain Im giving back your heartbeats

Cuz im blowing like a martyr
Leave me lonely all up in the slaughter
And these things you say
I will never see tomorrow
When im downing all these bottles
Running from something
Call it fuckin karma
And its rotting through my brain
Im sorry girl
I aint never see tomorrow
But you know that im the same
I know just how to fix this

SPOTIFY

MARTYR

Self Prod :) 
Featuring @Sinxi

LYRICS

Break my trust
Taking all I had from us
Leave me just to die
That's so fucked up
Leave me all alone
With my pockets turned to stone
Hell is frozen over

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

Why'd you say you care when you really don't?
Thinking you're so innocent and then you choke
On all your insecurities you never know
Just how to hold composure when it means the most
You froze at the sight of him
Why'd it make you feel so different when you care so much for me
This kerosene could ignite the bond we built for this
Are you sure you wanna leave? i'll ignite it here

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

You know it hurts a hundred times you screamed my name
The times it hurt I let it fade away in vain
So take the words right out my mouth and make it say what you hate
Cuz you know my heart starts pumping never had to jump back in your arms
To save my life I guess I feel like I might just start hoping
Everything might fall right if I die
The only way that I can make it if I...

Bad Habits
Never seen you frozen so you
Must have it
Loads of heat to close it over
Heart saddened
Never trust a person to their core

BAD HABITS (feat.Sinxi)

Self prod :) 

LYRICS 

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Break me take me leave a little more for me desire
Cannot tempt the fate of one that meddles with his heart
Iron melts like gold and I cant stand it when you're hot
Leave me on the phone for like hours til you're gone
I don't want this love I wanna break into your heart
Clearly nothings there all your empathy is gone
Maybe you're just scared and all this time im wrong
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Throwing nothing but stones
Oh why she tell me that she love me
When she hate me the most
I get im ugly I can't handle 10 degrees in the cold
thats why im always at home
Leave you with the best time that I ever had
Wish I had the best life that I ever had
Tripping in the next life what we never had
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

THIS TOWN SHOULD BURN IN FIRE

Prod @hiraethsry
Released with @ytstatic

LYRICS 

Hoping that she loves me again
Stuck up in the rain hoping something will end
I can feel its pouring but its nothing I cant
Stand on my own
Dark silhouettes
They chase me around my room
They make me lose my breath
The smell of her perfume
I swear it causes death
Don't take me for a fool
I know you want me dead

So Who am I
To make amends I feel like
I might have to die
To take my only life
I know its you and I
I know just how your feeling when I
Shake your hand
Before we go don't take your clothes
You feeling cold Just hold on close
Tightly squeeze I wont let go
You're all I know

My heart beats faster than you will ever know
In the gutter fall apart and by the grass il grow
To be the fastest seed the best of me
The biggest tree you will ever see
And il act like I never really care
All you did you never show I'm scared
But thats just lies I told
I know its old but I wont close the things I had
Blurred lines like it never really mattered
In my mind I feel shattered
Its affecting me and I know
Its depressing me cuz theres a hole in my
Sinking chest I can feel it when I go to sleep
Its in my breath I can feel it when it goes away
And comes right back it stays the same

So Who am I
To make amends I feel like
I might have to die
To take my only life
I know its you and I
I know just how your feeling when I
Shake your hand
Before we go don't take your clothes
You feeling cold Just hold on close
Tightly squeeze I wont let go
You're all I know

Who Am I

self prod :)

LYRICS

Tell me just a little bit
What's been on ur mind?
I been getting sick of it
Mechanically I cry
I don't wanna stick with this
Shit don't wanna lie
So don't tell me all these you wanna tell me all the time

How you gon live with me
You got that ecstacy
Like never sleep 21 I never sleep
It can be the moment that you talking to my soul
And you try to make me fall in fucking love again

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

Taking off a little bit
I know all the problems that you have
I don't even wanna see it crash
I just wanna love u till ur last
Breaking down a lot and then I dash
But the problem of this root is all ur lies
I don't even know if I can try
Everything you say it makes me
Curl in a ball and it makes me wanna die
How you gon live if you gon die
I don't even know if I can cry
Every single time you make me
Wish I was never even right

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

Always had a problem with us
And I don't really get the feelings looking back with my lust
Im crawling up towards the ceiling in the night when im up
Im looking back at all my demons in this timeline I fucked
I know its not fair for me
Demented bitch she stole all of my memories
Found a brand new heart to stand right as her centerpiece
How the fuck can this shit not be make believe
Can't be make believe

Watch what you gon take from me cuz I know how it ends
My noose not gon break for me cuz I know how it ends
Take my love respectfully or Il blow off your head
Manic I don't make believe I make believe instead
(hahahaha)

CALL OUT MY LIFE
YOU WANNA BREAK IT RIGHT NOW
ALL THE LIES I WANNA FEEL IT RIGHT NOW
OPEN UR EYES U WANNA SEE ME REACT

OPEN UR EYES

Prod @Sinxi 

LYRICS 

Help my life I don't know how
I cant decide myself
So stuck cant trust
Pour myself again in my cup
Two more shots might help me feel something new to me
I love to much I go to fucked
Gon lose it all for me

Never gonna fucking love me its a deathwish
Never gonna fucking trust me and you left it
Always popping in my mind full effect
Is it something that you mentioned?
Fuck it how we destined
Hit me on my old phone with the samsung
Take my love and run away il make a sad song
You're a fucking fake I see you in the background
Never coming out now always falling back down

So obssessed over you
So fucked what the fuck should I do?
To cope like this
Sleepless nights and cheap hotels
Just for being somewhere else
When im with you
I love to much I go to fucked
Gon lose it all for me

Never gonna fucking love me its a deathwish
Never gonna fucking trust me and you left it
Always popping in my mind full effect
Is it something that you mentioned?
Fuck it how we destined
Hit me on my old phone with the samsung
Take my love and run away il make a sad song
You're a fucking fake I see you in the background
Never coming out now always falling back down

DEATHWISH

PRODUCED BY @Sinxi 

LYRICS

I crash in the night just a little bit
Black eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Love life ain`t the same when you live with this
Cold eyes empty space yea I sit with it
Take the pain I never had a way out
Wish I stayed I really want to lay down
All the same I'm bored until the next town
All the same I'm bored oh what a let down
Don't need no one else for introductions
Got my blade I'm hanging out inside the dungeons
Might just cut out my liver so I can function
Take out my feelings I don't need no one

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

I ran in my mind I never had plans
But your wanted after my hands
Broke the problems at the door
But the problems multiply and they make more
I don't want to love you
I don't want to trust you
I just wanted fate
I don't want to break down everything you say now
I'm not a detective keep me up awake
Leave me on the facetime
Staring at you topless smiling at my face
I don't want to face mine
Can't be fucked dishonest lying next to me

Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)
Take out my feelings I don't need no (one)

FEELINGS

Produced by @hiraethsry <3

Lyrics

Never had to tell you anything 
I don't wanna love you 
But my eyes don't want to blink 
I got problems how they try to wish me out 
Like anything
Now Im taking out my hands
Like where we talking where we swing

Break down I don't jump 
I don't like it when you love me 
How you love me when we talk 
I don't really like the way 
I want to blink when you gon walk 
she don't want to tell me anything 
If it aint talk 

I'm Kakashi copy things 
But I ain't got no Sharingan
Grim reaper ain't seen 
With all this death that I be on
Might aswell be lean and built as fuck just like a god

I never said another word to weird you out 
Lost all of my friends from all the fire out my mouth 
I roll in my bed and I wake up from all the sounds
Drenched in all my sweat I'll give it up to make you proud
Drenched in all my guilt I'll fucking take all of it out

Got all my feelings on a plane its out of town 
Way too scared of constant change 
Il never stay to take you out
I'm persistently deranged I'll play a game to drown it out 
Stay inside this lonely space I'll never kill my fucking self
I don't need no help
Say take a step swear I took 12, Kept my feelings held
In my feelings how they rot 
I dont need my feelings when they feel like this tomorrow
I just wanna feel I wanna leave until its on

Break down I don't jump 
I don't like it when you love me 
How you love me when we talk 
I don't really like the way 
I want to blink when you gon walk 
she don't want to tell me anything 
If it aint talk 

I'm Kakashi copy things 
But I ain't got no Sharingan
Grim reaper ain't seen 
With all this death that I be on
Might aswell be lean and built as fuck just like a god

Sharingan

Produced by @hiraethsry 
Check out @hiraethsry and @sinxi
Lyrics

You don't need a lot to get me fucked up in my head 
I barely keep a lock on anything I hold 
You wont know the things I really feel 
When I been up inside my bed 
I swear theres shadows in my room they keep me warm 

So I fuck up my room 
Throw your clothes all away 
I'm as toxic as the day 
you were cheating on me 
Put a ladder to your problems 
Cuz your tryna relate 
Kick the ladder while your climbing 
Falling down to your fate 

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

I can’t relate 
To mistakes you seemed to make 
My hands are tied
My heart unwinds 
               
Sorry i’m late but these days 
I find it hard to make up for mental stains 
It ain’t you oh i promise love 
It’s just life drive for pinnacles
               (run)
Run I needed more I needed more I needed more time 
I know my patience is running on a thin line 
Leave I gotta leave I gotta leave I Gotta decline 
My body’s aching 
You can bring yours closer to mine 
Oh I 
Wont lie 
I’m getting sick of being just another guy 
Oh I
Wont lie

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

RUN w/ sinxi & hiraeth

Self prod :) 
Hira guitar op

Lyrics 

Im low Im lost
our feelings always crash the same
My eyes get low
I never feel your pain
guess my thoughts feels bad
I dont even need no stash
cuz my hearts too late
I know these feelings suffocate

Been stressed out
stressed out for a minute
my friend died
last year hasnt been it
sat inside
head tied I been spinning
fantasize bout a life i aint living

and if things dont go my way
break bones dont love with the things I say
My heart wont ever ache
I know things that il never say

are my years gone yet
I cannot find death
when it feels the same
Do my eyes know love
cant decide I fucked
everyone thats mean

Guess my choice in stuff it never makes me sane
cuz my hearts to loved and my thoughts too fucked
it will never stay

I know these talks that we have Il never give
You break my arm You touch my heart
Your such a bitch
You fake these thoughts you tell me things
Like what will fix

Iv never had anyone
you lay these tabs on my tongue
I take a trip
Iv seen this world Iv seen your face
it makes me sick
So tell me things
I Never BREAK

Suffocate

self prod 
Check out @b_murph
Thanks to @sinxi for helping with the production of Murph's verse! 

LYRICS

If I could rip my own heart out my chest
I`d make the best life for myself
I`d take what I can
I never want to mix our mistakes
Feel like a cunt
But I dont want to lose all our love
I know that its gone
And I know all the healing is done
She don't even like my feelings for us
Rip my heart out when your feasting for blood
Cuz I know you need a hunt

Happens to myself Nobody exists
I share these planets to myself
So nobody is near
I hate these feelings man I swear
My hearts to closed to cope
My hearts been close to you
And if I wake up
Would it really ever change
Or would we break up
Would these feelings change our ways
Or would I stay tough
I dont like to fucking stay around
For you

I could restart my whole life
But would you let it go
Would you let it go
ima send him home
break down my life, check whats inside
would you break all of the promises you set to cause
I never go back
all these feelings when they go home
Never had it when you love back

Let me go
But now I’m all alone, it’s not that hard to phone
She looks me in the eyes
And takes a sip of wine
She says that I’ll be fine
It feels like it’s a lie
She takes another sip
And my stress multiplies
I cannot trust this bitch
It could mean my demise
So I
Leave while I can, I cannot watch this
Go by
Feet in the sand, my minds a mosh pit

I could restart my whole life
But would you let it go
Would you let it go
ima send him home
break down my life, check whats inside
would you break all of the promises you set to cause
I never go back
all these feelings when they go home
Never had it when you love back

RESTART (feat. B Murph)

Produced by @leftquiet and me :) 
Out on Spotify :P

who are we 
to some degree
everything I touch Will break 

These things I think 
I shouldn't blink 
Death might be the only way 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain 

Why do we start? 
everything's gone 
I cant help but feel like I might be insane 
And half these things 
I cry to sleep 
I'm always seeing the rain

CRAWL

Out on Spotify
@sinxi <3 
Self Prod 

Lyrics 

If you want to lie, tell me that you lie for me
If you want to cry, tell me something nice to me
Numb these feelings that you never learn to miss
I know feelings turn to shit, in this way that we stay up

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

I need someone in my mind that's going to love me back
I need someone on decline that's going to wait for that
Everything you ever say
You don't need no wedding ring
You change seasons in a day
You look at me you say
Wake up, took the day drugs
Love you till you speak to Satan
Then you break up
Tell me lies longer than acres
will break curse
On this leave your feeling vacant
So vacant, guess I got to leave

(Sinxi)
What you saying to me
Think you better calm it down
I just said I was on my way
Irritated by the words you say
And it ain't going to get any better
I been losing all sense of self
So it doesn't mean you don't recognise me
I been going for way too long
And I know that its so disheartening

Break up Break up
On our way out
Take us, take love don't erase us
I don't need nobody else
Left up in my head
Everything you said
I don't need nobody vacant
Tell me something when you say nothing
And these feelings that we left
I don't want regrets
I just want to feel things that we never left

CURSE (feat. Sinxi)

Self Prod :)

Its always so fake
you stay up so late
dont try to escape
dont say im too late
I make mistakes

Im way too fucked up in my head
Its my love that i resent

I dont know why, I might break my ties
Might lose my friends is this the end?

If you really wanna know
then you know
and you`ll know
and you`ll know
and you`ll go
and you will never wanna stay

I dont like, my life
break sights

I will never make a friend
I will never stay in love
I will never make amends
I Will never be enough

tell me that l run away
tell me that im loved
tell me that il never stay
tell me im enough

HYPO

Self prod :) 

Lyrics

If you leave me on my own I guess im bound to die
you wont see me in the winter i will stay inside

HIDE
HIDE

Don't wait there paralyzed
Hit that fucker in the face cuz he deserves to die

Don't leave me out for nothing

You really think im fine

I know its all assumptions

But I never knew I could try

How?

I love the way that
you blew the roof
straight off my house

I take the pain and I
rip the tooth
straight out my mouth

Its all for you my love
runs through
like a mile out
It cant be true il die for you
inside my house

MOUTH

Self prod :)

Lyrics 

Stop
My body rots
Inside This corpse
Don't keep it locked
I cant replay what you say
My brains all made out of clay
If I cant hear what you say
its cuz my ears are decayed

You should really try and worry about yourself
Hearing stories Building stories about myself
tell me how tell me why tell me well
everything you say I would rather kill myself

BREAK
I don't know why my body shakes
I don't know why my body aches
maybe im reacting to the bass
Feelings gone numb right to my face

So see through
How these feelings come apart when I need you
whys it always seem so dark
when the skys blue

Whys it always seem so hard just to like you

I feel destain
My body screams
If you cant hear what I say
we are just corpse in a grave

CORPSE

Prod ERXN & heylog

every photo, im not recognised
its always black and white, with some grain inside
you would think that i was tryna hide
im really not i just hate what i see

you wouldnt like it no doubt
ill force my hand over your mouth
youre half the size of me now
bruise on your knees start to sprout

look to my left, im in a forest where im tryna find 
a piece of you that just keeps falling down beside my side
i ran right through the forest path we did a thousand times
im scared that I wont make it back I might of lost my mind 
might of broke down for a minute but its cool 
image distorted in my vision when you call 
i know its just anxiety but if its more 

ima need a Prozac for this 
if you never loved me that's shit 
keep me out of line like im wearing high viz 
keep me outside like im never not in 
if you need me il die il tell you im in 
see me outside come around real quick 
baby I know the way to try and get your hate out 
click it back and put it to my face now

man i wish that she was close
hanging out, youre on the phone
think that i just found a home
hopefully we'll always grow
11 days until i board my flight
i just gotta know if youre worth my time
moving on to better things
she found me, shes in love w me
she always wants to say my name
yeah all she does is say my name
and i love her honesty
you really put my mind at ease
she wants to call me everyday
just so she can say my name

BRUISE w/ hiraeth & heylog

Produced by ERXN

taken what you want from me 
these feelings stay the same
if you are apart of me I pray u go away 
my head feels so full 
its so foggy these dreams awake 
I cannot do anything im burdened by this place

beneath your thighs I don't try to look back 
I look dead I stare straight I remap 
Im so on edge with you here I collapse 
I cant see I cant hear I relapse

and if we ever tried to change 
could we change?
cuz these thoughts that I have and these feelings of wrath 
they don't break 

If I could travel through my past 
just one more time to hug my dad would I hate?
If I could see my friend again id hold him close and tell him man what a day 

I know we`ll meet again 
but its just so far away 
and I need strength
I know this evening You will be listening 
but your so far away

WRATH

Produced by ERXN 
@itsbuffe 

Lyrics 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And now my head can never feel right 
I got all this anxiety staying with my head 

I hope one day that I will feel right 
Otherwise im scared that I might jump right out my bed 
And if these walls around me close 
Il be memories and a ghost
Il be rid of all this pain 
Write down what you say and what you know 
Hopefully one day its close 
And you will never stay awake 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

what did you say?
you lied to my face
i can't stay
i feel betrayed

i don't wanna fight
i just keep my thoughts inside
stay out of my sight
i don't want you by my side
hate it when you were beside of me
weighted with anxiety
feels like someone's watching me
i don't know this part of me

paranoid

it's so sad it's so bad i'd rather be alone
i'd rather be at home
scratch on my neck
write your name in my flesh
carve out all of your stress
i'd rather be dead 

I feel dead at moments 
I take meds im falling 
I hate sex its boring 
And fake friends at 4am
I know these feelings they don't seem right 
Everything we do is always played down with regrets 
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest
And If im off im sorry I might Be a little closer to this place where I can rest

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