VIDEO: https://youtu.be/XZvFXCQpAPA
prod @shikixo x @thislandismusic

LYRICS
I been so fucked up, I don't got too much to say about it
Eyes wide shut, I guess I'll just shut up and pray about it
Where'd you go? I talked to God, I think the rain is drowning
Out my thoughts, what I want? I won't

I been so fucked up, I don't got too much to say about it
Eyes wide shut, I guess I'll just shut up and pray about it
Where'd you go? I talked to God, I think the rain is drowning
Out my thoughts, what I want. I won't talk about it
I been so fucked up, I don't got too much to say about it
Eyes wide shut, I guess I'll just shut up and pray about it
Where'd you go? I talked to God, I think the rain is drowning
Out my thoughts, what I want. I won't talk about it

I been so fucked up
I don't need no love
Ain't been thinking 'bout you much
I been off these fucking drugs
Baby baby, drive me crazy
I don't know what else to say about it
I know I promised I'll be fine
But I doubt it
And I don't wanna waste no time, I been losing my mind
Crushing little blue pills into little blue lines
And I been tryna do right by you but it's hard
Cuz I been so fucked up

I been so fucked up, I don't got too much to say about it
Eyes wide shut, I guess I'll just shut up and pray about it
Where'd you go? I talked to God, I think the rain is drowning
Out my thoughts, what I want. I won't talk about it
I been so fucked up, I don't got too much to say about it
Eyes wide shut, I guess I'll just shut up and pray about it
Where'd you go? I talked to God, I think the rain is drowning
Out my thoughts, what I want. I won't talk about it

VIDEO

EYES WIDE SHUT (VID IN DESC.)

[emptychest]
cold green eyes
yeh
yeh
pop out
i said pop out
FTP when this shit goes to rot down
yeh
yeh
hot now 
im on now
aint nothin i aint seen but my god now
fell in love but im right back at home now
scared to call, wont survive if i dont now

cold green eyes
hypnotize her soul
whats outside..?
they let them know

[LOVENude]
ok like top me now
your in my fucking town
i do not want to talk to you baby i need u now 
youve been so lost inside my head i really get it now
i had to sought around i drive away to crash it out

and i take drugs baby
and i just like to numb the pain because im so crazy
and i do not just like to talk to you so crazy
you are just like a stranger 
get in danger
i just need to the pain im movin thru 

pain in my sanity it never goes away 
im lost lost ion like to talk im movin to another day
she been in my head she like a stranger not another day
illucidated ive been so damn crazy need a fucking place to stay

but im so upset
i cannot loose you
and i dont want to walk alone

so baby hold my hand
were almost there
i keep on talking to you your a stanger in advanced
we hop inside the ride and ride away so we can dance
i wanna find a place with u and
die slowy with you

but i dont know what to do
ive been gone i found the truth 
shes fucking with another guy oh man what a suprise

scared2call +LOVENude [p. lxst ghxul]

Prod @Sinxi
Guitar by @prodjpjp

LYRICS

I calm down

im sighing

all the pages we make and then break

its too late

for the way that we go

its a blast and its fun but its done so

breakin bones down never lived a lesson down

chewing on this essence

success around my skeleton

take a breath in

I Could just be obssessing

but I cant help this feeling in of which

I wanna dress you down

Got me in a place to talk

she aint fucking with the war

had like 2 to 3 to start

now we fucking on the floor

Acting bratty from the start

me and her we like a car

She the key she turns me on

and I fucking ride her

Boxing me and her we lost it

Fighting so damn often

shit is so exhausting

falling for her

Poison grab the phone and toss it

Leave her in the closet

back behind the fucked shit

fuckin leave her

Reach down take the brains out of my skull

Cuz I know when It goes its my soul that will stay

and I know

that you say its okay and the pain will just fade

but we know that its fake

two steps in my own grave

with my chains all named and my casket laid

who gets to decide my fate

in the same damned place its a hell I made

Got me in a place to talk

she aint fucking with the war

had like 2 to 3 to start

now we fucking on the floor

Acting bratty from the start

me and her we like a car

She the key she turns me on

and I fucking ride her

Boxing me and her we lost it

Fighting so damn often

shit is so exhausting

falling for her

Poison grab the phone and toss it

Leave her in the closet

back behind the fucked shit

fuckin leave her

Spotify

THE WAR

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

<3 

tilting over like the pictures on your wall
i didnt wanna meet your mom and dad they didnt like me at all
somehow they liked me oh
down the line its you and me now that dont get along and
somethings arent always better than nothing
your love is like the ocean and i just wanna jump in
relationships and me they hardly ever work
im tryna keep my balance i just keep slipping first

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

oh oh oh
so is it important to you cause god knows this shits important to me
and i lost every part of me trynna be what they want me to be
theres a war inside my head lately i just want peace
so is it annoying i keep falling cant stand on my two damn feet
i tried a thousand of times im at a thousand and one
i wanna blow my fucking brains but i dont own a gun
none of this is fun

so is it annoying i keep falling
no i dont wanna say goodbye
and it keeps slipping in my conscious
youre better off not being alive
oh im disgusted
i wanna end it all and watch the world turn to dust bitch
im tired of seeing everybody get what they want 
when i cant get what i need
im on the fucking edge of everything i just wanna leave

<3

disgusted with myself

spotify

DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF [p. king theta]

I miss you so much honestly.

well, im only here cause i love you
and i met you for a reason now i need you
i dont wanna get attached..
get attached..
but its a little hard, cause you make me feel
thats something i aint really done in a year
done in a year, a little more

well, im only here cause i love you :(
cause i love you, cause i love you x2
i think you're too hard on yourself..
too hard on yourself, too hard on yourself
and i dont even know you that well,
but i think youre cool..

you were like.. everything to me. you got me thru the most conflicting time of my life when i was recovering from the past, discovering myself, and accepting fate. i didn't really think youd ever go, and i guess that was dumb on my part. but i'd never blame you..
i hope youre safe hun.

i love you.. (caves x pekarot)

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

discord.gg/hsUwdAJknJ

lyrics:

Crucified
Out of time
It’s a goodbye
I’ll show you a sign

Out of breath
Cut my wrist
Let it bleed
Til I can’t see

No one’s calling on my phone
So I’m sitting all alone
Contemplating suicide
Cause god it’s always on my mind
 
You can’t say I didn’t try
Living’s just a state of mind
So I’ll stop wasting my time
Get it off my chest

I’m never coming home
Don’t expect me back
I’m taking all my things
All of my burdens with that

No I don’t wanna talk
Cause you’d brush me off
Or I’d scare you off
Cause my mind is like a wasteland

Fighting for my life but I can’t take it back
If you get too close I’ll rip your head off clean
God it’s just obscene
Can’t lay in peace

Now you wanted to fight
But look, I don’t have the time
You lost control of my mind
So its a goodbye

We can’t meet at my place
So pls don’t show me ur face
Just leave me alone

Honestly, I don’t really know what to say
I’ve got everything but still don’t feel complete
Always said that trust is earned, none left in me
Lock my room cause that’s where I’m safe

Don’t waste my life
Talking to myself
don’t need no drugs
Better luck next time

please give me a sign x4

sign

prod hira
@sinxi
better dead than alive
wasting all my time
when you said goodbye
really ruined my life

u dont gotta hold me love, ive had enough
i dont even wanna speak, im slowly giving up
putting up my walls
im putting up my defences
tight around the back, i wear a noose like a necklace
please give me a moment, would you let me hide
if you knew what i been through, you wouldnt lie
when i tell you i miss you its out of spite
im the root im the issue to ruin life

god u know how long i’ve searching
was my love ever enough 
i can’t bear the thought of when i lose you 
gotta sit down and restart 

just tell me straight what’s on ur mind love 
do you have some questions you kept out
save it for the end of the night now 
don’t wanna get too stuck on the past 

just be honest you can tell me what u wanted
and i won’t bite i get lost in the moment
come on baby yeah u know i can’t sleep until we solve this
yeah u know how i get sometimes

u dont gotta hold me love, ive had enough
i dont even wanna speak, im slowly giving up
putting up my walls
im putting up my defences
tight around the back, i wear a noose like a necklace
please give me a moment, would you let me hide
if you knew what i been through, you wouldnt lie
when i tell you i miss you its out of spite
im the root im the issue to ruin life

spite ft. sinxi

<3
i cut up our pictures
theyll never last
and even tho i miss you
im never coming back oh

she call me im insensitive
i never mean to hurt tho
she say ima hermit
whatevers coming
i deserve it bro
i smell something burning
the bridges down
and the tables turned
i feel so uncomfortable
no matter what its head to toe
i still got her pheromones
i keep putting her jacket on
ask me how im feeling
i jus fake a smile and knod it off

so im tossing and turning our bridge burnt down
can you gimme one good reason i should stick around yeah
no i wont give you one goodbye
dont know whats ahead of me
so i wont take no ones advice
dont project your shit up onto me
i dont know what i wanna be
and i dont care whos that fond of me
this shit right here is my everything
i need a pen and paper to tell you
all the things i sacrificed in my life for this
itd be a long list with a lot of bullshit right now that i really miss

so tell me what the fuck you mean
i wear my heart all on my sleeve
i open up to everyone i ever meet
and then they always fucking leave
except the last one yeah thats all my fault
i wont blame anyone but myself
i cant drag you down with me if i dont make it outta this fucking hell
that dont mean i dont miss your smile
or the way you looked in my eyes
how the fuck you calling me selfish i was worried bout you the whole time
dont put your faith in me
im a bad bet to gamble with
dancing with the devil at your door with the candle lit woo
issa cold world tell me what your living for
i see the signs everywhere its too hard to ignore
and i hate myself enough for the both of us
just let me go
i swear to god this is never what i wanted
hit my phone i let it ring
sabotaging everything
yeah i lost my best friend and a part of me
i wont see again
still holding on to the last bits
ill make sure the last pieces fit
fucked up in my head but i know one day it wont mean shit

the good the bad and the ugly

THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY [p. recyclebin+irby]

single off of my debut album "home away from home" (track 5)
shoutout to @xona for featuring on the track :)
produced by: azure & aidanhan
special shoutouts to @bitekivibes for being the goat too

LYRICS:
murph:

i walk out in the forest
but quickly i lose the light 
and my skin turns to mould
and the birds start to fly
i thought that i was safe, in my home away from home
but as i saw the creatures running i simply do not know

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

and now you're looking at me must've came back as a ghost
i love the way there's blood splattered all over the walls
can we find a way to give me pain, 'cause i need me some more
she put diamonds on her pinky ring, i love it when she flaunts

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

xona:

i'll decide what i do now - i'm reeling in "ours"
uh, leaving the pits that i found myself
(myself)
you desired my help
but i'm sick of words when its just pure guilt
so it's on me, awfully killing my health
i'm sorry i reached this point myself
the story goes on, to build a home
where we stay safe from the cold

murph:

s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold
(s.o.s)
s.o.s, please save our souls
i might not make it back, barricade the door
s.o.s, please save our souls
frostbite all over me im stuck out in the cold

- if u reached the bottom have a good day/night 333+ -

s.o.s w/ xona

everything by me
been working on a lot
seriously way more to come
hope you enjoy. 
thank you so much for listening.
your support means beyond any means to me.

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; 
remind me
quiet lifestyle, but defiled by this thoughts of mine
memories are heaven
'till you are what you forgot in time
don't care..
you don't care
you don't care, anymore.

i can see appeal
conflicted with the feeling
a burden on myself
it feels like i just killed me
get over that hill
down another cup of coffee
relive how it felt
to think, see, hear, and feel nothing

over-sensitized and ill
aye, when's it my turn to heal?
insinuate that better place you've always dreamt of only kills
until we fall and call it quits
by stone or gun that don't exist
i was here for all of this
(i was here for all of this)

i know i can't keep killing me off slowly
putting my dreams behind me
i find it so damn unlikely; remind me

how i got here, and who i am to stand by
'cause with fragile ears and hearts,
we've always been paralyzed, paralyzed
no wonder, why.

(killing me off slowly)
(putting my dreams behind me)
(i find it so damn unlikely)
(remind me)

THE WAR

ERXN

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