i hate my life but it'll be okay
they say they love you throw dirt on your name
i swear my brain could blow up any day
sometimes i wasted my life i hate it
what's the point of love when you'll never find it

It'll Be Okay

lyrics:

Wandering aimlessly 
What do you hope for in life 

and when you die 
to look back on this day 
and realize 
you were everything 
you were everything in their eyes 

oh, here lies the father, son, and the holy ghost 
were buried then 
just like the rest of us 

we buried them 

it's not long before we bury each other, 
My Lover.

fragile hands(cessation)

Attachment

if you don't i'll probably die alone.

felt so real

sink into dreamless sleep
open wounds and bleed
my sweetheart, i see
my satan, take me
it’s been so long
i need ur love
hurt me, if u want 
hurt me, it’s all i want 

a dog in my bed
be my only friend 
a world in my head
it’ll happen again 

take me into my hell 
don’t blame urself 
this fake love won’t help 
i’ll call samael
it’s been so long
i don’t need anyone
hurt me if u want
i love u, my black sun 

my reflection is only blood
paint my teeth black and break my ribs 
my black sun

Blue Nightmare / Black Sun

in summer of 2019 i dreamed of everything i have now and couldnt be more dissapointed - my bluntz frm gardenz demo w bbynautilus

Demo for a side project from last October

Misery by Stephen king Oct 2nd demo .m4a

ESSBRII // UMOP APISDN 

Drums/Synth/Sampling/Arrangement/Guitar: UMOP APISDN & ESSBRII

Mushrooms and Wine

ispentsixhourswatchingshockvideosyesterday – oh brother

Tonight - Morning Dew

all feel, all real, made with human processes
it makes itself 