posted to her tumblr 1/12/23

open mouthed, she bit you 

“you can’t hurt me if i never loved you”

i was wrong when i met you

about who i thought would save who

chose to be alone

and walk the whole way home

soaked to the bone

hid your face

said i don’t wanna play

but you were born game



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bambi - Ethel Cain

White Light - White Silas

lyrics:

Baby love’s not love if it’s one sided
But you say love isn’t deep, just a wave, and we’re gonna ride it

I’m his little white bar queen, causing scenes, watching him get mean over green while i’m dancing on the kitchen table
I like your smile best while there’s blood dripping from it
I’m his little baby, dirty little lady, sweatin into grey sheets
Cause i told him maybe, he’s working on it
We don’t talk about it

He’s got me fucked up
Boy you got me fucked up in a bad way
But i still stay
Cause i like the game Do i have to come and find you
Do you want me to
Do i really have to come and find you
Do you even want me to

Jump cut, and he’s fucked up, and he’s six feet deep in my guts, 6 months, bad blood, and i’m still here for the good stuff, but he never likes to talk about it
Why don’t we ever wanna talk about it

I tell him all the time he’s gonna get himself killed one day
But he never listens to me, baby, you should listen to me

I see now how angels can fall this far
It’s not because of how they are
It’s just who they are
It’s just who we are
It’s just who we are

hitch party - ethel cain

(i think this was made under ethel cain but idk)

six weeks we’ve been taught
six weeks the phone’s been ringing 
and now the sheriff’s at the door
at two weeks my insides screamed
i was coughing up blood by three
by four my father couldn’t take it 
and hung himself in the yard from the oak tree
my mother said be patient
it’s what god said to her
get down on your knees and pray with me 
you won’t get blessings you don’t deserve
see how long 
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
the bedsheets stained with my sister’s waste
my brother’s eyes crusted shut
the dogs stopped crying weeks ago
with my hands digging deep inside their guts
i ache all over
i can’t get clean
my bones start to bend inside of me 
but god forbid i question what he asks me to do
i just hope he gets here soon
see how long 
see how far
a little will go
jesus christ, he loves me
this i know
i hold my mother she won’t hold me back
they cut down my father and his broken neck
they found the baby in a dirty cloth upstairs
while my brother and my sister just rot 
one takes me in his arms and then he runs outside
but they are too late now, i’m already in the light
i’m the only one jesus comes to take
as he takes my hand and i waste away

Starvation | Ethel Cain

Made sometime in 2021 during the inbred sessions, leaked in 2024

Ethel Cain - Brood X (Demo 2)

Sex Change

Make Room In Hell

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

A journey of intimate sounds, where the violin speaks between silence and subtle electronic echoes.
Sparse melodies, minimalist textures, and delicate harmonies create a space both fragile and profound.
Light remixes bridge classical music with modern soundscapes.

Make Room In Hell

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