This song has a bit more meaning than most. As most of my songs in my albums are like chapters in a novel, this one's a stand alone and the entire story is encapsulated in this one song. I don't usually include a behind the lyrics as I like to leave the interpretation up to the listener, but I felt like this time I should share the story I meant this song to portray.

Behind the lyrics

"Chasing the clouds, wish I could turn back time" - The protagonist is consumed by regret and wishes they could go back and change what happened. They are constantly looking for signs, for anything that could indicate that someone they love is considering suicide. The protagonist is extra vigilant now.

"These pictures they last and I regret the pleas that I passed by" - The protagonist is haunted by the memory of the girl and feels guilty for not recognizing her pleas for help.

"Like you're a mirror I see my fears, they're staring back at me" - The protagonist sees their own fears and insecurities reflected in the memory of the girl and the tragedy that occurred.

"I couldn't endear her, the edge of her trust is falling way too steep" - The protagonist failed to earn the girl's trust and feels responsible for her suicide.

"We live in red hotels, and there's no story to tell" - The "red hotels" represent places of despair and uncertainty, and the lack of a story suggests that the protagonist is unwilling to share the details of the tragedy.

"She's gonna take her life, she's gonna kill herself" - The protagonist is plagued by thoughts of the girl's suicide, and the repetition of these phrases emphasizes the impact that it has had on them.

"Rubies all over her shelf" - The "rubies" are a symbol of the girl's blood splatter, which is evidence of her tragic end.

"We live in red hotels, and there's a story to tell" - The protagonist can't bear the weight of his guilt any longer; the story of her end and his experience in dealing with the trauma must be told.

"These walls are crying for help" - The walls represent emotional barriers that people put up when they are emotionally distressed or have experienced an event that causes them to second-guess every relationship they are in or will be in. The protagonist feels that the walls of the hotel are the girl's emotional barriers, and the repetition of "red hotels" emphasizes the impact that the girl's suicide has had on them.

"They scream in my ears, it's getting deafening" - The memory of the girl's suicide is overwhelming and difficult to bear. The protagonist can't get her pleas out of their mind, and they are so loud that they can physically hear them, making everything else around them go mute as the PTSD of the situation completely overwhelms them.

"If I could turn back the time, these clouds that fill in your sky, the chains you left me in I would give you everything, I'd give her everything" - The protagonist wishes they could go back in time to prevent the girl's suicide, and is consumed by guilt and regret.

"She's in a red hotel, rubies all over the shelf" - The repetition of this line reinforces the impact that the girl's suicide has had on the protagonist.

"They sparkle shining with wealth, these chains that I'm in, the gems imprisoned me" - Her blood, or the 'rubies' sparkle in the sunlight as it rises. She took her life before sunrise, and the light shining on the blood through her window is making it glisten in a dark, sorrowful beauty. The gems are the rubies. The memory of the scene forever imprisons the protagonist, as their life will never again be the same. The guilt and regret are like a prison, trapping them in a cycle of pain and despair.

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SURVIVING ON MY OWN

Sleepyhead (Acoustic)

Sleepyhead

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Vertigo (Live Acoustic)

Red Velvet (with Ari Abdul)

The End

Crucifixxx

beat produced by: @yamissin ♡


⚝ lyrics:

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴
𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦
𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴

𝘪'𝘮 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘺
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦
𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘦

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴
𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦
𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴
𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴

𝘪'𝘮 𝘥𝘳𝘰𝘸𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘭𝘺
𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘺 
𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴
𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦
𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭- 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳
𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭- 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳
𝘹2

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘨𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘴
𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘥𝘦
𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘺
𝘪 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘧𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘥
𝘮𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘦

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵- 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳
𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵- 𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳


† 𝟓𝐡𝐲:
spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/2TcMB2b7duIzDoXnAr4iTr
instagram: www.instagram.com/im5hy

† Yami's Sin:
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/3lv0ojUX8JQFTdXG5mTUTp?si=Yf0UEaM1TLa-rAMXwCcojA
instagram: www.instagram.com/yamisgotsins


⚝ 𝙬𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙣 & 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮: 5𝙝𝙮
⚝ 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮: 𝙔𝙖𝙢𝙞'𝙨 𝙎𝙞𝙣

BONES [prod. yami's sin]

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Email: ethn.sound@gmail.com

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