@eunhae + @bedhead2001 prod @iofmusic art by digiyams

eunhae:
how many times were you there
because you felt like you had to
how many calls did you miss
then say that you didn't mean to

when you were really with her
just admit honestly
i'm used to it now
i've never been treated fairly

everyone said 
just give it time to get better
but they didn't know that
it was just getting harder

to get a grip on my life
and it was getting tighter
felt like i could die
and everything would be better

felt like i could just die
can't get a grip on my life
i think i'm losing touch
i can feel my insides

leave me here or bury me alive
cause i'm starting to love the ones that lie
and i can't let myself be free
cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy

bedhead: 

how many tears should i cry
when i talk on the phone with you
i'll only be fine 
when i'm the one that's alone with you

and it'll shatter my heart
if you let your guilt get in the way

so you'll put me first or i'll put you down
and i know it'll hurt she's not even around
and the scars even it out careful who you're surrounded by
i wouldn't trust the discretion of those other guys

eunhae:

leave me here or bury me alive
cause i'm starting to love the ones that lie
and i can't let myself be free
cause everything that hurts is what makes me happy

everything that hurts ft. bedhead

prod. ttenoji

i don't wanna die, drugs make it easy
i just wanna feel alive and like i'm breathing
you tell me that it's fine but then you leave me
and i'm afraid to try, want you to need me

you don't understand it, just leave me alone
need to find some place by myself i can go
no, nobody needs me, don't want them to know
i've been down bad, don't answer when they call

0000

prod @remghost x @recyclexbin

mix/master by @bedhead2001

i don't really care about what they say 
i'll be with you when the skies turn grey
and if it gets bad, it'll be okay
sometimes it hurts, but i'm here to stay

lonely at night, staying inside
everything's cold and i don't know why
lonely with you by my side
being with you makes it hard to cry

i never leave when i'm seeing signs
i see starlight looking in your eyes
think i'm insane yeah they don't know why
i wanna be with you like all the time

but i'm damaged and manic
a fuck up, i just don't understand it
when you're not here i panic
no i can't leave, i'd regret it

hard to cry

prod @faze-outplays

idk wtf is going on
not really sure if i want to
let's go

got diamonds my lips glossed (uh)
for a verse it's a lot (yah)
bet you're sad you forgot (uhhuh)
that girl ain't yours no she not (uh uh)

i just saw her in another dude's tesla (no way)
matching fits, extended clips, think she blessed up (what)

i know you don't think you're enough 
kinda find it rly sad it must be tough
i know you wish you were one of us
expensive jewelry, thrifted tops 

and that's how we do
i got sonic on my shoes
seeing purple when i use
somebody save me from the drugs that i abuse

i stayed up til 7am making this wtf lol

chao garden is still my favorite game

i miss my old friends
it's how it always ends
i lose what i love
so i stopped making them

cause everything i do is never worth it in the end

i've had about 5 hours of sleep this week
i don't know the name of my street
same dark thoughts on repeat
you say you do but you don't wanna see

i never go outside, i always cry
my friends all say i know they're right
you showed me that i wasn't worth it
it's kinda hard to just forget

now it cuts my mind like a razorblade
everything i loved about you i hate
and everything that i thought i knew
was just too good to be true

i miss my old friends

w/ @bhertuy
prod @recyclexbin

eunhae:

when i wake up no i don’t feel okay
i don’t wanna go another day 
where i’m alone and i can’t see your face
nothing else amounts to the pain

when i’m without you it gets scary
it gets dark and my vision gets blurry
i can’t believe i saw you at that party
all over her cause you were off the molly

i can’t believe i’m going through this again
i just want to think i made you up in my head
it’d be so easy to feel something if all along it wasn’t real it’s kinda comforting
people think i’m crazy no wonder no one fucks with me
honestly i’m all alone unless i’m in my dreams

bhertuy: 

and you can say anything you want
it's not my fault I lost my all
rejects receive that's what i got 
refresh my feed that's what i lost

and i'm just thinking alright 
let me cut cut you out of my simple life 
cuz i just realised 
im the one who write 
how i still fucked up my rights
is what had got me to deny

i can't believe i'm going through this again ft. bhertuy

prod by asecoamy

lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CwDAquhZu4

i wanna dance with you all night long
no i don't ever wanna go back home 
i wanna dance with you all night long 
that's how i feel when i hear this song

you make me feel like myself again
when i'm with you i don't have to pretend
everything's fine when i'm touching you 
i really really hope you feel it too

being here with you is like a movie yeah it feels right
i know we just met but i think you're really nice
its like the most comfortable i've been in my life 
never felt this happy and it makes me wanna cry 

do you wanna try it
come over tonight 
we could sing together
this could be forever

i wanna dance with you every night
i wanna kiss you in the moonlight
really want you to be my boyfriend
i know we'd never feel alone again

i wanna lay with you all night long
that's how i feel when i hear this song
i wanna dance with you all night long
no i don't ever wanna go back home 

i wanna dance with you all night long
i hope i never have to go back home
i still think about the night we met
drunk as fuck outside when you handed me your cigarette

dance with u [asecoamy]

prod neohn

it kills me, think about it everyday
need you, i think i'm gonna go insane
can i make you stay? don't know who to blame
love you but i don't wanna feel this way </3

a long night and i can't get to you
whenever i'm sad, where are you
the memories we've been holding onto
think it'll take a lifetime to undo

i just can't help it (i need you next to me)
i hope that's alright (think of you when i sleep)

if i said that it was over, would you care?
let's be real, you know that you're never there
the feelings that i feel are hard to compare
if i called you now, please be there :(

if i called u

every night you stay calling up my phone
like are you up cause i don't know where to go
i'm not your girl so just please leave me alone 
don't wanna talk don't wanna go out i'll just party on my own

yeah party in my hotel
got the dankest tree you know all our shit is top shelf
you wanna pull up but you know you're not invited 
i don't fuck with randoms just push them to the side 

bet you liked all my posts cause you down bad
if you wanna chat then just hit me on the cashapp
don't have time to talk right just hit me on my fansite
if you pay for time then you know that you can have it

onlyfans <3 [warheart]

produced by: @prod-cryko

god i really think you're perfect 
and i can tell you think it's working 
i'll wake you up and make you coffee in the morning
please don't leave me over something

when i'm sad i wanna hold you like that
wanna tell u everything that i went thru like in the past
i know you're not like them no no you wouldn't do me like that
but if you take a chance i promise i can show you where i'm at

oh oh 
you talk so nice 
yeah it feels right
now i want this forever
i want this for life

yeah this feels right
its always on my mind
i want i want this forever
i hope that's alright 

can we just hold hands and walk in the sand at night
i wanna be the one you call when you're not alright
i wanna lay with you get high with me like every night
i wanna cry cause i've never felt something so right

can't wait to get home and kiss you
tell you about how i missed you
don't know where i'd be without you baby

feels like a lifetime i've known you
don't want nobody else but you
now i don't ever wanna be without you

i don't ever wanna be without u

SOUNDCLOUD EXCLUSIVE
prod. mamoru + kurane 

pull up to the spot drippin out in murakami
this ain't no ROMWE i'm looking for somebody
cup on me when i start to get lonely
but i think you're so lovely would u wanna get to know me 

roll around with me and spark a blunt or two
i don't got no drugs but right now i could use a few 
i start to get nervous when i look at you 
yeah u make me so anxious when i'm touching you

think this is something i could do for a while
put you in dior yeah i love it when you smile 
promise if i cry you will always have my back
cause baby i got you i'm starting to get attached

if you left, know that i would miss you 
know everyday i'd look back at your picture 
remember when it was still sunny in good weather
know i'd always think of the time we spent together

murakami ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

prod @prodgreentop

dropped a rack on rp, now i'm gonna run it down
when i pull up to your city, yeah you know i'm in your town
heard you talking about me, i think you should shut it down
you should shut your mouth, or they'll find out that you're a clown

yeah and you know it's like that
pull up to your lane, you don't ever fight back
when i'm top frag, know you're gonna get clapped
check my shop, smite knife, might drop another

bag, yeah might spend a couple racks
might give your bitch a kiss, might buy her a bag
if you're talking big, you know where i'm at
big wraps, get smacked if you're talking on my 

if you're talking on my swag
 might see you with a clip in a body bag
if you're talking big, you know where i'm at
smite knife, top frag, any agent, any map

smite knife

featuring @hoeplessboy prod by @prodmelik 

[eunhae]

when i saw your face again
i couldn't keep my composure
you said can we just pretend
that i don't even know her

oh my god here we go again
you're in my head 
here we here we go again
you're in you're in my head

[hoepless]

you're in my head x2
her mind is like a 2 but her body like a 10
i met her at a club we were only friends
if you were a book then our chapter never ends

i've been getting high higher than you think
saw you at a club i don't think i even blinked 
you just wanna fuck every time we link
tryina hold my composure but you just push me to the brink

[eunhae]

spend all my hours doing nothing at all (here we go again)
it's getting late but i'd wait forever for your call
spending all my time wishing you would write back (write back)

when i saw your face again
i couldn't keep my composure
you said can we just pretend
that i don't even know her

oh my god here we go again
you're in my head 
here we here we go again
you're in my head

when i saw your face again
i couldn't keep my composure
can we just pretend that 
you don't even know her

oh my god here we go again
you're in my head 
here we go again (you're in my head again)

(it's getting late but i'd wait forever for your call 
spending all my time wishing you would write back)

composure ft. hoepless

prod @lilwannasleep

i took another trip back home
hoping that you're still alone
and not with her in your room

i thought that i'd be doing better 
by now
but it turns out i can't calm down

guess i'll spend another sleepless night 
alone by the phone 
incase you decide to call

i'll spend another day and another night
just starring at the wall

i don't feel okay i don't feel safe
when you're not here i'm not okay
that's why it hurt so bad i had to go

but are u okay do you feel safe
does she ask when ur not doing great
does she know you like i do

like i do

prod @vozdan 

it's getting late yeah now it's dark in my home
the more i cry, the more i feel less alone
it's what i know, so used to no one around
my hearts so cold don't want nobody to know me

i'm always sitting in the back seat 
i'm always hurting cause my wrists bleed
don't even try and get to know me
i swear i'll be so disappointing 

i think i really need some space
or just some time to get away
so sick of looking at my face
people just turn the other way

disappointing

prod @flesh

most days it's dark, but i want u until we fall apart 
when i wake up, i'm overthinking the beat of my heart 
when i'm alone, i create space that no one else can go
need u to leave but i don't want u to go 

think you can see it, the things about me no one wants to know 
but you don't need it, i do i get attached so pls just go
i know you want it, so won't u come and get it from me
u wanna see everything before you leave 

you wanna see everything before you leave
i know that u can't wait to see what's underneath pls
don't be scared what u see cause u don't know me
i know i've said it before most people scare me

could take a minute or more to know what's on my mind 
i know that you wanna know but trust me when i say it's fine
i'll be okay on my own it's what i learned how to survive 
want to feel safe but i don't cause i just know that most days it's dark

need you to leave but i don't want you to go

i've been at my lowest for a while now
making lists of everything to stress about
can never seem to get myself to go out
now i'm getting pretty tired of feeling this down

started feeling like i'm not the one for you
but you're the one for me
so what am i supposed to do?
i can see it when you start to look down more
never even tell me what that look's for

and i can't keep making the same mistakes
or i'll end up back in the same damn place
i just want things to get better
feeling hopeless
worried i'll go nowhere

couple pills down every night
praying that i'll make it til the daylight
felt this way as long as i remember
hate the rain but i can't blame the weather 

produced by @wardwills

twitter: @shannondelapaix
instagram: @shannondelapaix
LYRICS
(verse 1)
i've been at my lowest for a while now
making lists of everything to stress about
can never seem to get myself to go out
now i'm getting pretty tired of feeling this down

(pre-chorus)
started feeling like i'm not the one for you
but you're the one for me
so what am i supposed to do
i can see it when you start to look down more
never even tell me what that look's for

(chorus)
and i can't keep making the same mistakes 
or i'll end up back in the same damn place
i just want things to get better
feeling hopeless
worried i'll go nowhere

(verse 2)
couple pills down every night
praying that i'll make it to the daylight
felt this way as long as i remember
hate the rain
but i can't blame the weather

(pre chorus)
(chorus)

repetition prod. ward wills

i can't wait too long to see your face
i might lose myself again
cause you know lately i've been going crazy
i look in the mirror, it's you

you know that i can't do this without you
but i have to
you know that i can't move on
i can't face the truth

(you're not here)

where did you go?
is it warmer there?
it's brighter where you are

(you're not here) 8x

(voice memo):
i'm gonna talk to you as if i'm on the phone with you
and you're listening to me because i can't actually call you
i mean i could but i don't know if it even goes through anymore

piano: @wardwills
produced by: @eun_hae
lyrics: @eun_hae

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bandcamp: https://eunhae.bandcamp.com/releases

a place above the clouds ☁

coffee

so this is how it starts
i've been hiding in the dark
trying not to fall apart
but every time i hit restart

and this is where i've been
i've been hiding from my friends
how long can i play pretend
until i hit the ground again

everything is changing

prod by: @wardwills and @eunhae
guitar: @eunhae
lyrics: @eunhae

last night i woke up and
you weren't by my side
i snuck into the hallway
to turn on the light

but when i got there
the switch was gone
and i was drifting
and i felt alone

and i wish that you were still here
but you're not and i won't get you back
(won't get you back) x3

this morning i got out of bed i
took one look at my head in the mirror
(in the mirror)
and i thought how much better i looked
when you were here

before i went to sleep i
saw you laying next to me and
i was so confused on that day
(on that day)

the room is spinning and i can't see
i miss your face right next to me
and i can't do this alone (no no no no)

lyric video on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01N0-C987Rc

won't get you back

produced by @remghost
mixed and mastered by @polearm
and @eunhae

running out of time for myself
running out of time to get help
i'm starting to get sick and it's all my fault
wish i could make it up to you, i don't wanna be another downfall

it hurts so bad and i'm sick of it
i can't believe i thought i'd be used to this
every morning i wake up i feel sick
i die in my dreams then wake up to my reality

tell me that it's all my fault
tell me you don't have to call
i'll talk the blame, i know now
everything you do, ends up my fault

if i never met you
i'd never feel this pain
so why don't i kick you out?
for you i'd feel it again

and i wish i didn't want to
but everything i do is for you

tell me that it's all my fault
tell me you don't have to call
i'll take the blame, i know now
everything you do ends up my fault

it hurts so bad and i'm sick of it
i can't believe i thought i'd be used to this
every morning i wake up i feel sick
i die in my dreams then wake up to my reality

blame ! prod. remghost

mixed by @polearm ur the best ily

usually in my life i try to make sense of things
met so many people i didn’t know what they’d bring
this year’s been really rough and all i have to show for
is everything i broke and left behind, all these closed doors

i know that i don’t deserve you now
i know that all of our time’s run out
i know that i’m alone in a crowd
when i’m w you cause your head’s above the clouds

i know that i’ve been in my head for way too long
bottled feelings that i hide i don’t tell anyone
what i’m really feeling cause i can’t trust 
that by tomorrow’s light they won’t up and run

and i’m not used to spending so much time alone
but this is what i needed if i ever wanted growth
and you don’t fuck with me now but one day you’ll be sorry
that i spent so much time alone, sad and feeling lonely

oh no
going through the motions now
whoa whoa
and i can’t seem to slow down

why can’t
everything just take a step back
cause i
am anxious i need to relax

only one’s that i’ve ever really opened up to 
left and made fun of me who really am i to you
so i go through life wishing i didn’t have this guard
and i wish that when i fell for u i didn’t fall so hard

i know that i’ve been in my head for way too long
bottled feelings that i hide i don’t tell anyone
what i’m really feeling cause i can’t trust 
that by tomorrow’s light they won’t up and run

and i’m not used to spending so much time alone
but this is what i needed if i ever wanted growth
and you don’t fuck with me now but one day you’ll be sorry
that i spent so much time alone, sad and feeling lonely

really anxious ! prod. ocean

prod: @iofmusic
mixed and mastered by: @mynameisjordy

sit down with me, we can talk this out
i go back to sleep when i'm feeling down
but you always knew how to get me out
of my head when i drown and my thoughts are too loud

now here i am in this empty room
nothing left but the memories of you
and i'm taking your notes off my wall
always thought you'd be around to catch me when i fall

i'm starting over fresh now
memories start to fade out
these walls are talking so loud
wonder if i'll ever get out of here

i miss you, i need you
you're not here, where are you?
in my head, it's cold here
it's dark and you're not near

i don't know where to go
so confused, last saw you
cold and lying there breathless
wish i told u i loved u

eunhae

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