My favorite songs. I listen to these everywhere I go. I'll often play videogames with these songs in the background.

Some sad shit <3

produced by @notmorgn

i can't feel my fucking face
i think i dug too deep
butterfly put red on my sheets
i can feel your fucking face 
i think its been 2 weeks
butterfly put red on my sheets
the knife sinks into my skin
black paint nails in the wind
in the black the dark lullaby 
is what i'll sing the light flew away 
last night with my dreams

dark lullaby

shiver like i used to

why?

i hate me too

produced by @notmorgn

this a story where depressed boys prosper
so imma flex till my heart stop knockin
imma ball imma buy my own coffin
shoutout to @rahkgee
cus we be fuckin flosssin
thats what we doin
while these fuckboys talkin
most these these bitches thots
and thats why you cant love them
man recently my life has been feeling like a trap
nineteen years up on this earth already wanna pass
everyday i wake up im a burden to myself
im a fucking walking ghost, a dusty picture on the shelf
but im still ballin
cus i hide my pain man but someday
this pain gon turn into some fame
thats why they fuckin with me 
cus my money stay expanding
lil shawty gimme top
but she dont speak my language
and please shut the fuck
with that talkin bitch
im tryna get numb
i aint at this party for fun
and please shut the fuck up 
about that bitch 
man im tryna get numb
i wish i didnt have to do this
she on all fours like a buddist
i wish i didnt go through this
i aint got feelings is it cool bitch
now please dont mind me
im tryna get numb, numb
you know i used to love the feeling
im tryna get numb, numb
now please dont mind me
im tryna get numb, numb
you know i used to love the feeling
im tryna get numb, numb
now please dont mind me
im tryna get numb, numb
you know i used to love the feeling
im tryna get numb, numb

numb

produced by @notmorgn

im just tryna smash baby
im not tryna love you
i just want the top 
dont tell me i aint warn you
cus i been countin cake like its nothing
designer on my waist im in love but im bluffing

please just gimme face
whippin in a benz
please just gimme face
whippin in a benz

im just tryna smash baby
im not tryna love you
i just want the top 
dont tell me i aint warn you
cus i been countin cake like its nothing
designer on my waist im in love but im bluffing

and baby im not made for love and its evident
im in love with neglect i got the evidence
but evidence is irrelevant when my hands up on your neck 
this shit feel soo good coulda sworn i cashed a check
coulda sworn i cashed a check
coulda sworn i cashed a check
and wassup with these problems lately
i got so many problems lately
but its gotta come to an end one day
and i hope that im happy when im in the grave
cus honestly man im tryna keep it up but im down
and im tired of my fake smile covering this fuckin frown
but bitch its still still (guccihighwaters)
but bitch im still still (back of the club and im sippin on water)

im just tryna smash baby
im not tryna love you
i just want the top 
dont tell me i aint warn you
cus i been countin cake like its nothing
designer on my waist im in love but im bluffing

please just gimme face
whippin in a benz
please just gimme face
whippin in a benz

i can never change

produced by @notmorgn

im a waste of space just like the air between our lips
i dont really have a purpose i just take other sip
man this bottle make me feel so numb
gimme a penny for my thoughts
so i can buy a fuckin gun
imma blow my brains out and leave them on the floor
please drown my memories so they wash up on the shore
and while ur out socializing im behind a locked door
and when the sun goes down i feel way better than before 
just like an owl 
my head is doing 360's
back of the party 
and im flippin on switch blades
these bitches looking at me like im crazy
yeah im so cold my wrist is like 150
and please take a step back
cus we were never that close
i lost a lot of fucking trust
that night by the coast
it was 3 AM 
i had drugs in my coat
i had vodka in that water bottle just so i can float
just so i could float

waste of space

help 
i lost 
myself 
again
but i 
remember 
you

i lost myself again

https://soundcloud.com/teamsesh/bones-whitetrashmidwesterntown

You used to say, when I was down
There's more to life outside this, white trash midwestern town
You birthed the spark in my brain
Said it'd be sunny, but that night it rained
Wet shoes as I stepped on the plane
Found my seat and closed the window shade
I fell asleep and then awoke to a shake
I overheard like they spoke my name
The captain said, "It'll be a task to make it
To LAX with a storm like this
We'll try our best," he said with a nervous grin
You could hear the breath, you could see the face
Of a man who'd cut the tension if his hands didn't shake
He's got a wife, two girls, and a home on the ground
And the most disturbing part is they don't know it's going down (X3)

I'll paint the sky you're flying
Tired of the Earth of lying
Lowering my eyes to see you
Telling all the lies to be with you

But not in the fire and not in the crash
The weather, the storm, you say will land intact
It's when he goes home that it becomes real
There's a small part of him that resents the wheels
He hates the wings and the bolts that hold them
Together like promises they never told him
He thinks they deserve the same life that he had
He wished the fucking engine would've blown to pieces

whitetrashmidwesterntown (cover)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

prod. @notmorgn

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

but sometimes life's like that
i don't wanna type back
if im forced to fight back
i'll just a flight back to home
back to the rain to the green and the cold
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip
maybe i've just been home sick
but my home ain't shit
and my brain is a waste
fill it with a full clip

she make me feel alive i thought i died inside 
why do i feel fine everything seems right
she a ghost girl sending shivers down my spine
i only get to see her in the night time

I dont plan to stay so imma go
you've been down this road you know it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

you dont plan to stay then you should go
i've been down this road no it never gets old 
and we should fuck the pain away till our hearts cold 
till we have no feelings cus we are growing old

i thought i died inside

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

prod. @notmorgn 

beat tag: @gucccifer

while im sleeping spiders crawl into my chest
now that im coming up people act like they're impressed 
and honestly no i don't wanna collab
i been goin so hard got my foot right on the gas
paypal on me convert it into cash
gosha pants staying cozy in the lab
im feeling happy ain't it sad
cus when im sad my shit be way passed 
any expectation that i ever fucking had
fuck expectancy got blades up in the bag
fuck friends i be with my fucking gang
black benz imma get one in the end

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

face down jaw biting on the pavement 
stomp that shit down now u get a free face lift
dont fuck it up i been feeling amazing 
water on my wrist and in my stomach im hydrated

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but i don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

these dreams feel real

prod. @notmorgn

cracks in my heart 
u know my state when the sun down
you’re my drug pack a bowl
and never come down
feel warm like there’s smoke in my lungs
feel warm cus this fire always burns
my feelings are a burden
but i’d be a ghost if i ever thought to curb them
and when you’re gone i cannot breathe without you
when i'm alone i just think about you
but im back
like i never left
gucci was dead
now gucci in the flesh
it’s a rebirth 
post death keeper
and when i hold her
i just wanna keep her
record the vocals
compression and the reverb
pour it up
and i’m sippin on a 2 litre
i met the reaper 
he’s more like a teacher
i met an angel
i know by her features
yeah i know by her features 
'hol up wait
when did you become so toxic
it must be that new kid
feed into nonsense 
still listening oh that’s cute tho
holy shit you must be stuck in a loop hole
everytime you press play i get a new note
every month i get payed with them blue notes
fucking up checks and shit my mom thought i had 2 phones
im blowin' up never planned it like just like its pluto
why they ask me
gucci, like don’t you hate your life
u cant make up your mind 
you do this all the time
oh i dont know 
i think im bipolar
one day wanna slit my throat 
same night she comin over
cracks in my heart 
u know my state when the sun down
you’re my drug pack a bowl
and never come down
feel warm like there’s smoke in my lungs
feel warm cus this fire always burns

i am burning

prod. @notmorgn

im anxious leave me alone
the evidence typos every word on my phone
and when i speak in trembles
my short nails they resemble 
the fucking speed of my heart rate
chest like a speaker 
double text me she said “o”
like an ether
chemistry what i feel when
i see her
chemicals reactions in my brain when
i feel her
repeating what i say
i do the same shit everyday 
wake up hate the fucking world
go to back to sleep love to decay

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

man on a mission
dismissing bitches
that ain’t submissive 
im cuttin my ties to
count up like a math test
that bitch look good in a black dress
sippin on liquor she on my bed like a mattress
i lie two faced like an actress
digi faces in my bank no cash yeah
im not a rapper im stacking cash like a rapper tho
i leave a bitch dead like they layin in the catacombs

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

i can never stop now 
hit the mall and ball out
cashin out on designer boxers just to fit my fuckin balls now
them bitches see the clout and so they call now 
i never pick up always pull out hol up pause now
i never play i hate the spring im in dismay
im never coming back but when im back please gimme face
but go slow shawty this is not a race
unless we talkin bout tay k then beat the case

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

im gonna fade away

prod. @notmorgn

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

weight up on my shoulders
i feel like atlas
greek yogurt 
with the fruit 
damn gotta snap this
she smokin packs bitch
ziplock full of cat piss
put on the ski mask
slump you just for actin
why u 2 faced
trippin like a shoelace
i sleep on it 
woke up and its a new day
european stacks
stuffed in my gucci suitcase 
i wanna drop out and its like only a tuesday

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

drop this shit on a friday
wake up with the sunrise
october 13th
its fucking cold outside
but i dont mind
i really dont mind
cus the cold reminds 
me why i stay inside
you punch the clock
i punch the MIDI make it bop
not makin much
but its better than a job
eating like a pig
but i stay way from them cops
used to starve up in that attic
like an addict with some rock
really i hate my voice how do you listen to this
swear if u pissed inside a bucket it’d sound crisper than this
whatever my stats rising
hit me like perfect timing
make the beat real quick
notes app and get to typing

why you mad at me i swear i try my best
like all i wanted was us to be together forever 
like i guess ill see u around this 
fucking ghost town
we all ghosts now
i’m a ghost now 

mom why you mad at me 
i swear try my best
i know that she saw the
broken blood vessels on my neck

i swear i try my best

prod. @notmorgn

new day new song new problem
new clothes it’s cold in autumn
leaves fall right to the bottom
i miss u but i won’t call you
bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye
i don’t care
the pain make me
i’m post death
till my heart stop aching
ill fucking scream till my voice box breaking
it’s fuck life till the reaper take me

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours
do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

i put in the work
no 9 to 5 
she get outta work 
im kind of hype
your girl was in my dm’s 
for the pipe
but im not a plumbing
so it dont feel right
this feels nice in my car
night ride
if the function sus 
then fuck i gotta slide
cus when i have anxiety
i wanna die
but when im by your side
it feels kind of nice
everything coming clear grey goose with the ice
i like that shit cold have me feeling kind of right
and for my heart you have that shit tied
when we kiss i get warm inside

bags on my eyes
they think that im high
you said you loved me
but then you said bye

do u wanna be mine
like i wanna be yours

do u wanna be mine

prod. @notmorgn

[stranger things scene]

just hold on a little longer okay?
he’s gone
the bad man’s gone
we’ll be home soon
and
my mom she’ll get you your own bed
you can eat as many eggo’s as you want
and we can go to the snowball
promise?
promise

[lyrics]

not a problem kid 
just own a lot of problems 
pull up to the skatepark
we all broken hearted
i was punchin walls in the spring
i was spending summer just thinking

about myself and 
how i might fall
punch thru blood 
drippin from the white wall
and i can’t see u
if im too faded
so then i copped a bottle 
and got really fucking wasted

g u c c i
i’m sleep deprived 
fox in the night
moonlight up in the sky
and im still sick of this
blocked you ‘cus you trippin bitch
cuttin all the lines
like a fuckin bad fisherman

i had to cut out all the bad
stackin up the racks like my name is mr krabs
why out here thinkin it’s a pagent
i dont fuck with that bitch
disappear like magic

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

promises don’t really mean shit to me
in the end everything is history 
in the end everything is clear to me
i inflict and feel pain way too frequently

and when u turned into a ghost
it made me want to sleep forever 
cus i see you in my dreams
compared to life i like them better

im way outta of my head
chills down my spine kiss on my neck
i can see the sunset
i think im coming up next

way out of my head

on a side note, rest in peace lil peep he was a huge inspiration and his music really helped me get through hard shit last year. I'm glad to have met him, we talked about music it was a day i won't forget.

sample credits: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6rDh75VHMs

prod. @notmorgn

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

constant conflict 
with my own reflection
i ain’t got no sense
of direction 
when it comes to this
i just succumb to it
please enlighten me
all i hear is thundering
in a couple months
i hope to see some changes
maybe with this check 
i can get you that bracelet
it never happens my 
bank account is dead again
do you mind if we just kick it 
in my bed again
workin to hard 
to feel empty
im almost 20 but 
i feel like i’ve had plenty
wake up in a faze 
i feel like ecco2K
wake up everyday but
 i fight through the pain

im afraid you really can’t save me
but i still wanna lay with you until my visions fading
i have feelings no im not faded
i would wait a lifetime if you had the patience 
oh you cannot save me
im too deep in this
oh you cannot praise me
i’ve got demons in me

you cannot save me
im too deep in this
i have feelings
know i’d wait a lifetime

you can't really save me

prod @notmorgn

i don’t do no drugs
cus they always kill
everything i fucking love
i don’t go to clubs
i am not the plug 
but my phone is blowin up

fuck emotions
i don’t wanna own them
i don’t wanna see another
day of commotion
focused but hopeless
oh shit im broken
i can be fixed but the
potion to potent

fillin up my lungs
like the pump into a gas tank
blowin out the poison to the air
for the last laugh
sometimes life sucks
and i know it
that’s why you gotta
keep going

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

i used to fuck with people
now i treat them like a phase
cus i told them i was down
then they laughed up in my face
had a frown
then u jumped up out the frame
one hand painting pictures
other hand counting days

i put in 100
they throwin back 50’s
like i was never with it
but your girl was tryna kiss me
sneak diss me?
bitch i been clearin history
since i was fucking 12 watchin
titties on the big screen

i stay up late 
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring
i stay up late 
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring

i keep on going 
i cannot stop
cus im growing

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

Some sad shit <3

Just some sad boi