This has been a song i can listen to on loop for more than a year

These Dreams May Feel Real, But These Nightmares Are Real

Please check out my music. My music is very good and I promise that you won’t regret listening to it.

absolutely the most underrated artist in the world

My favorite songs. I listen to these everywhere I go. I'll often play videogames with these songs in the background.

Some sad shit <3

“After the Blur” is a soul-deep journey through emotional clarity, crafted by Kaelion with haunting precision and poetic restraint. Across 20 tracks, the album explores what remains after the chaos fades — the quiet truths, the unsent signals, the soft armor we wear to survive love.

Each song is a vignette: cinematic, intimate, and structured like a memory. From the ambient ache of “Poignant Flow” to the sensual defiance of “Spicy Hot Ballads,” Kaelion builds a sonic archive that feels lived-in and timeless. The production is minimalist but textured — ambient pads, lo-fi percussion, soft piano, and vocals that glide between confession and control.

Themes of emotional interference, quiet resilience, and late-night vulnerability run throughout. The album doesn’t chase resolution — it honors the blur, the bloom, and the breath that follows.

9. Forever Inspiration

produced by @notmorgn

i can't feel my fucking face
i think i dug too deep
butterfly put red on my sheets
i can feel your fucking face 
i think its been 2 weeks
butterfly put red on my sheets
the knife sinks into my skin
black paint nails in the wind
in the black the dark lullaby 
is what i'll sing the light flew away 
last night with my dreams

dark lullaby

why?

i hate me too

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

prod. @notmorgn 

beat tag: @gucccifer

while im sleeping spiders crawl into my chest
now that im coming up people act like they're impressed 
and honestly no i don't wanna collab
i been goin so hard got my foot right on the gas
paypal on me convert it into cash
gosha pants staying cozy in the lab
im feeling happy ain't it sad
cus when im sad my shit be way passed 
any expectation that i ever fucking had
fuck expectancy got blades up in the bag
fuck friends i be with my fucking gang
black benz imma get one in the end

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

face down jaw biting on the pavement 
stomp that shit down now u get a free face lift
dont fuck it up i been feeling amazing 
water on my wrist and in my stomach im hydrated

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but i don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

these dreams feel real

prod. @notmorgn

im anxious leave me alone
the evidence typos every word on my phone
and when i speak in trembles
my short nails they resemble 
the fucking speed of my heart rate
chest like a speaker 
double text me she said “o”
like an ether
chemistry what i feel when
i see her
chemicals reactions in my brain when
i feel her
repeating what i say
i do the same shit everyday 
wake up hate the fucking world
go to back to sleep love to decay

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

man on a mission
dismissing bitches
that ain’t submissive 
im cuttin my ties to
count up like a math test
that bitch look good in a black dress
sippin on liquor she on my bed like a mattress
i lie two faced like an actress
digi faces in my bank no cash yeah
im not a rapper im stacking cash like a rapper tho
i leave a bitch dead like they layin in the catacombs

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

i can never stop now 
hit the mall and ball out
cashin out on designer boxers just to fit my fuckin balls now
them bitches see the clout and so they call now 
i never pick up always pull out hol up pause now
i never play i hate the spring im in dismay
im never coming back but when im back please gimme face
but go slow shawty this is not a race
unless we talkin bout tay k then beat the case

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

im gonna fade away

prod @notmorgn

i don’t do no drugs
cus they always kill
everything i fucking love
i don’t go to clubs
i am not the plug 
but my phone is blowin up

fuck emotions
i don’t wanna own them
i don’t wanna see another
day of commotion
focused but hopeless
oh shit im broken
i can be fixed but the
potion to potent

fillin up my lungs
like the pump into a gas tank
blowin out the poison to the air
for the last laugh
sometimes life sucks
and i know it
that’s why you gotta
keep going

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

i used to fuck with people
now i treat them like a phase
cus i told them i was down
then they laughed up in my face
had a frown
then u jumped up out the frame
one hand painting pictures
other hand counting days

i put in 100
they throwin back 50’s
like i was never with it
but your girl was tryna kiss me
sneak diss me?
bitch i been clearin history
since i was fucking 12 watchin
titties on the big screen

i stay up late 
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring
i stay up late 
then i skip the morning
they having lunch?
well, i’m fucking snoring

i keep on going 
i cannot stop
cus im growing

i keep on going 
i cannot stop 
cus im growing

download

keep on going

prod. @notmorgn
featuring @guardinmusic

(guccihighwaters)
she said I look upset but girl 
there’s passion in this frown
cus i think i am obsessed with the all the 
love when your around
why they want smoke with me
not a stoner
when she’s not here im a loner
she too bad you can’t clone her
i live for her im a donor

i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

(guardin)
i'll stop breathing 
lie awake in the night fight the feeling 
fuck love i'm a mess for a reason 
six feet in the dirt for the season
i don't like this
life without the hue of your iris
erase your face embedded in my eyelids
patience paints the face of the silent 

sorry i'm not coming down 
elevated all around 
my conscience thinks i'm falling out
of grip i ripped the bong & now i'm

(guardin and guccihighwaters)
stoned beyond belief i know 
i fucked it up it goes to show 
that i get high when i feel low
please pick me up & take me home

(guccihighwaters)
i’d rather be ghost this season
disconnected i don’t like the feeling
thoughts ricochet with the walls and the ceiling
my chest so tight i can’t even feel my breathing

rather be a ghost (feat. guardin)

My real life.

prod by taylor king 💘

LYRICS:
you my best friend 
and my enemy
i pop one then i pop five 
you my remedy
and i don't know what 
what comes over me
i get fucked up 
my soul ebony

only dream off a bean ya
tryna be up in the scene ya 
(aye) clips limousine ya
why she callin me a feen ya ya
sad faces 
i aint got no heart
cold cases 
i ain't never gettin caught
ya she too basic 
i could never love a thot yuh
too shameless
i aint never give a fuck no

the pillies is silly
but i cannot quit it
woke up in the pital
my demons is winnin
why i'm always sinnin
downin this liquor
drownding myself in this venom 
ya ya ya

(the sample i used is from skins :)

My Best Friend

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

room to breathe

i know its all my fault
i know its all my fault

I can hardly sleep with all this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in my mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

swear this shit gotta stop
but i like pain a lot
and you like that im fucked
you just wont admit it
i've been biting my tongue
goosebumps up on my arm
i'll just talk to this cup
and forget the issue

I can hardly sleep with this paranoia
Right now I’m not worth it
Let me prove it to ya
Stay around for long enough
I’ll sadly show ya
There’s a traitor in the mirror
And I don’t fucking know him

My brain places demons
In the darkest corners
I’ve been hearing echos
In this burning forest
The fire and the embers
Say they’re coming for us
I’m not ready for the dirt
But I’m still sinking lower

I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault
I hate myself for hurting people
That I love the most
I hate myself for always acting
Like it’s not my fault

PPL THT I LUV THE MOST

prod. sapphire2001

lyrics:

i can feel in the air tonight
smoke seeping from my lungs tonight
i dont wanna disappoint you
i dont wanna disappoint you

yeah you are so toxic like a poison i just threw up in the bathroom
medicate myself until i feel like i dont have you
stab me in the hall, leave my body by the stairway
bag me up and throw me somewhere nobody will find me
you cut me off so the cuts are on me now
i was by myself, now im choking claustrophobic
medically diagnosed depression from my therapist
you say im faking, check the fucking trash bin

disappoint myself and everyone else thats around me
you wish you were richer oh my god now thats astounding
i wish i could be a different person than myself yeah
ive been making plays might book a show at the foundry

chemically engineered they say that im so toxic
everyone around hates when i sing cause im obnoxious
i dont wanna die but i dont wanna fucking be me
ima shoot myself the day i see my face on tv
ima get a bag like my name was louis v
ive been making music vids im on a shooting spree
i dont wanna live and i dont wanna make you cry now
all the voices in my head are telling me to die now

u cut me off so the cuts r on me now..

rip me open w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE

New album 'DEATH BY DESIRE' out now on Epitaph Records https://guccihighwaters.ffm.to/deathbydesire

these dreams feel real

guccihighwaters

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